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Chapter 14
Ashley
Spencer and I were finally back on the road to where we were, though she chose to drive our relationship a mile an hour, and I was happy that she'd actually agreed to start over. I looked at her from where she was making a phone call to her brother, just checking in, and couldn't help but feel amazed as I always did. This girl was it. She was everything and more to me, like a human oxygen tank when I was suffocating in a world where nothing made sense anymore.
it was roughly three weeks since Spencer told me she wanted to keep the baby and I was confused and conflicted about how I would either hide it from Kyla or tell her. Seeing as how she was so appalled by what I did with Ethan she left to go back home and finish her schooling there but was coming back to visit. Ethan was out of the hospital and Spencer had made sure to keep a surveillance on him to make sure he wasn't coming anywhere near me. Apparently she'd made connections while she was off the radar, she wouldn't tell who exactly but she'd made a point of checking in with them daily. And when ever I'd ask who it was she just tell me 'Don't worry Ash' 'They're not gangsters or hit men' blah blah blah. I still didn't trust it.
I was still attending school regularly but I'd stop going as soon as I was beginning to show. Spencer and I had already decided that we'd skip town and find somewhere that we could go to have the baby with out the paparazzi and where I wasn't completely well known. Maybe Canada.
Spencer hung up the phone and walked over to me, wrapping me in a hug. I hadn't realized how upset I was until I felt her embrace and soft, comforting murmurs.
"Ash its ok babe. Soon enough we'll be finished with this whole mess and everything will be better. I promise" I wish I could believe her but her words only gave me comfort when she said them, not at night when I was all alone in the dark, thoughts and memories of that night swirling around my head like vultures. Not when all I could think about was who my baby was and who it will be. I don't know what I'd do if he or she was Ethan Bradshaw reincarnated. I don't know if I could live with hating my own child. I just can't see how a mother ever could.
She let go of me and sat down on the couch. I joined her and rested my head on her shoulder. Kyla was going to be home in a few minutes, with out a doubt Aiden would be picking her up and they'd do other things that made me nauseous just thinking about it. Puke.
There were excited barks echoing up the stairs that woke me up. I guess it'd been more than a few minutes since Aiden and Kyla met up...double puke. I heard her heels clacking on the floor but didn't bother to open me eyes. I could feel Spencer's soft body under my head and the heat of her skin against mine which was comforting obviously. It seemed that if Spencer was there when I slept I wouldn't have to relive that one night that sent my world crashing to the ground. The soft rise and fall of her chest was like I was little again and taking a nap with my dad.
"Gee, looks like two somebody's got back together." I heard her annoying voice jibe but I couldn't be bothered with that right now. Spencer didn't stir but, by the now irregular rise and fall of her chest, I knew she was awake; she just had the same need to ignore my sister that I did. "HEY!" she yelled right by my ear and I jumped which sent Spencer into attack mode. She was still jumpy, still worried that Ethan would try to hurt me again. She was also overly protective of the baby. And when I fell to the ground on my ass Spencer automatically leapt off the couch and "accidentally" knocked over Kyla who fell to the floor. Spencer helped me up and gently brushed off my clothes
"You ok?" she asked and I rolled my eyes and pulled my hair out of my face
"Yes, yes Spencer I'm fine. Nothing happened" I reassured her and was touched about how much she was worrying. This baby was one lucky kid to have a mother like Spencer. I subconsciously touched my stomach where the baby should be and I saw the look of complete adoration cross the blonde's delicate features.
"Ok" she breathed and lightly pecked my cheek.
"Oh hi Spence" Kyla muttered still on the ground. Spencer looked over at her as Aiden walked in and helped her up. "good to see you too." Spencer just turned back to me and gently kissed my forehead. God in that moment it was like it should be all the time. Spencer was amazing, and I know I've said that five million times but it was true. I loved her so much. More than I loved my own life or my sister's or my father's. Aiden looked at us and the same perverse smile crept across his face
"Are you two sleeping together?" I rolled my eyes at the blunt literalness of the question.
"Yes Aiden" I said and Spencer looked at me for a second, slight confusion crossing her face "We were sleeping together on the couch ha, ha very funny." Spencer clued in and smiled slightly before turning to Kyla
"Sorry Ky, I did mean to bowl you over like that" Kyla nodded
"It's ok Spence," she suddenly grabbed Spencer's Arm "O MY GOD! I haven't seen you in like so, so, so LONG! You've got to tell me EVERYTHING that happened and everything that you did!" Spencer glanced back at me as my little teeny-bopper of a sister dragged my girlfriend out of the room and towards the kitchen. I gave a small nod that meant it was ok and that I was fine. Spencer allowed for the girl to tow her away and I was left alone in the room with Aiden who sat on the couch, arms resting along the back
"So how's my favourite confused lesbian?"
"Ha, where do I begin..."
Spencer
Kyla sat me down at the breakfast bar
"Do you want a drink? Wine, champagne—" I cut her off quickly
"I don't drink" I muttered, mental wincing with the cold, sharp edge to my voice, and she looked at me with slight shock but nodded quickly and poured me a glass of water instead. I looked at my folded hands on the cold marble trying to calm down. I didn't mean to be so harsh, I didn't purposely snap at Kyla like that. I just...God I don't even know. I was so worried about Ash, I was so worried about Ethan and, most of all, I was so worried about the baby. I mean, I wanted the baby. I wanted to give someone else a life I wish I'd had. A family experience I wish was mine that every child should have. But what if I don't disserve to be happy? What if I've done something so bad in a past life that, in addition to everything I've done in this one, it's my turn to get the short end of the stick?
I wanted a functional family. I want my son or daughter to feel loved and accepted no matter what, even if their biological father is Satan himself. I want them to know that no matter what happens I'll be there for them.
"Spencer?" I looked up at Kyla who held the glass out to me. "You ok?"
"Uh, yeah. Yeah I'm fine. Just tired is all." I said and took a small swig of the water before setting it down and looking up to find a very curious looking Kyla. "Nothing much happened Ky, I just skipped from town to town...nothing too drastic." I knew my vagueness was only going to peak her interest even further but with everything happening...I needed to keep her in the dark. I needed to keep her out of this in order to protect Ashley. As much as I loved Kyla, the girl couldn't keep her mouth shut when pressed by the paparazzi.
"Bullshit" She muttered under her breath and sipped some wine. I glanced over at Ash in the living room with Aiden, just talking and seeming relaxed. The vibe coming from them was calming and I smiled slightly, this was awesome.
I slept over at Ash's place, on the couch in the TV room. Well not so much sleeping as staring at the ceiling, enjoying the calm. It was great. At least until I heard Ash scream.
I leapt off the couch and sprinted down the small hall and towards the bedroom, my heart pounding hard in my chest. I could hear Kyla's footsteps behind me as I burst in the room and found Ashley sitting up in bed, with her knees pulled to her chest and sobbing uncontrollably. I climbed in next to her and kneeled there
"Ash, Ashley I'm not going to hurt you ok?" she nodded slowly almost hesitaantly You're fine and he won't hurt you anymore" I wrapped my arm around her gently and she hid her face in my chest and hugged me closely. I was still for a moment and carefully lowered us to the bed, pulling her closer to me. I shushed her softly as she cried against my chest "Ashley you're ok. Hush baby you're fine" she gripped me closely and I gently lowered her back onto the bed.
"Make him go away Spence, please...make him go away" I gently stroked her head and kissed her forehead
"I will Ash, I promise you. No one will ever hurt you again" I looked up at the dark silhouette at the door. Kyla didn't say anything but the tension between us was obvious to what she wanted. She wanted to know what was happening. She wanted to know why her sister was so broken. And I was going to tell her. I wouldn't have a choice.
Sorry it took so long to update! I was recovering from finals...it was a long process but I've pulled through! Yay me!
NEXT TIME ON LIFE AFTER DEATH:
What'll happen when rumours spread of the possibility of yet two more secret Davies children? Tensions on the rise ends with the paparazzi and Spencer loses it, both her temper and her grip on her sanity, on one stubborn photographer.