I just wanted to say, thank you. I mean, it really means a lot at all the votes and support I have gotten for this story. It may not seem that way, but I honestly didn't expect this story to turn out than anything other than a crack story. Any cheesiness, or stupid immature fun was all part of my sense of humor at the time and I guess you could say you took a nice little vacay inside my wacked out 14-year-old mind. Two years ago when I came up with this idea, I was having a great year. I made it my goal to put a smile on reader's faces somehow even if it took me days to write something good. It's still my goal. Then 2013 came, and my personal life went into total hell. I lost my best friend (whom Bella is based off of), family problems everywhere, drama, bullies, shit with teachers, love even…everything you could possibly imagine went wrong. And I'm not telling you this to get anywhere near a pity party, believe me, I don't want it. I guess I just lost my love for an anime that I stumbled across one day on YouTube, crying after a bad day, while looking at puppy videos (how the hell a brutal anime was in that same category is beyond my comprehension) and love for writing about it. Things won't nearly be as stupid, or corny, or silly as they once were. But I'm trying—for you guys. It's just always been my goal to get a smile out of people, or at least an inward one, because you never know what people go through and it's so comforting to think that me of all people have actually impacted their life somehow. Even if it was for a short time, (even though I know this isn't nearly the best fanfic or most popular out there by far!) I was able to do something to make them happy a bit.
As for the character of Bella, she's going to stay as is. As a sort of memory. I just simply lost my trust with my best friend, and she has blamed me for ruining her life because I couldn't take all the lies (believe me, she was never one to lie I had no idea what happened). I beat myself up for it, blaming myself for being so naïve, I apologized, her family hates me, talks spite about me, says they saved every text message I ever sent and then accuse me of being obsessed, got in our face if I was having a bad day and called her crying, asked my friend Ashley if I talk bad about her every day, just ridiculous accusations…yet in all reality… It was both of our faults. Hell, I even had nightmares for months about her. About seeing her in the hall, taking my only other friend down with her. I'm already a damned wallflower, I didn't need it. But I try not to be bitter. And I'm definitely not what she thinks I am. High school is already ridiculously cruel as it is. I don't need someone who used to be there for me, when others weren't, to keep beating me down for telling them the truth. High school is stupid and temporary, I know that. So whatever negative opinions she has of me, are wrong. I don't talk about her behind her back, I'm not obsessed, and I mind my own business. I rarely think about her now. But because I'm going to take the high road, Bella will stay in this story as Camile's best friend ever. I'm better than that. And I'm going to move on with my life, hold my head up and say, hey I still have writing and I still have the future.
~But, that's enough about my personal drama. I just thought I'd let you know that it affected the one thing I knew I could always return to—my writing.~
So on July 18, this one is for you guys. I apologize in advance if it isn't the best. I really am trying to get back in the swing of things. Seven more chapters left, as previously planned. :) Thank you so much again, really. I just didn't expect it.
Til next week~~~