Long chapter for you today, girls. I will really appreciate the reviews more than before [you'll understand at the end of the chapter, there's a little note for you]

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Luckyly, that morning, when I woke up, Ann was still sleeping. I turned my head -so fast that I got a bit dizzy- to watched the clock: 7.56 am. I had to be in the studio at 10 am... It was too early to go, even if I walked, but I couldn't stay in bed, I couldn't stay at home either. I was nervous, impatient. I felt rather sick, but maybe it was just guilt that was starting to kick in. Anna looked so beautiful, so peaceful, more than usual, and I couldn't help wondering if it was because of what we'd done last night... Everything had happened so fast, I let my impulses and desires had completely governed my mind and my body. It was like The Killer's song, you know? 'It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this? It was only a kiss'. When did the kiss become so passionate that it made desire ran down our lips to our whole bodies? I couldn't remember, maybe it all was there from the beginning, maybe it'd always been there, hidden, maybe that was the warm feeling I'd felt.

I stood up slowly, trying not to wake her up. I could have sworn she was smiling as she slept, naked under the sheets of my bed. I had no idea what she'd said or do, and I didn't want to find out either because I didn't know what I would do. I wasn't angry at her or had any bad feeling against her. It was me I was angry with. How could I have been so weak? I'd cheated! Oh, God, it sounded even worst when I thought about the word! Alissa, my so dearly loved fiancee [a/n: I was tired of using Frankie, so let's move on to another character], had been my partner for so long, she'd always been so good to me, she was an angel. I'd never felt the need to be with anybody else, she made me happy, truly happy, never caused me any trouble. So why did I do this? Was it true what I was feeling? Could I really be in love with my cousin?

I took my head in my hand 'My cousin!' I thought, in shock. It was as if before, last night I mean, I'd completely forgotten she was my cousin, I'd forgotten about everything 'I made love to my cousin!' And the worst thing was that I didn't regret it, I'd liked it, I would never be able to say I hadn't enjoyed it, she was amazing and the intimacy between us had made everything more passionate, stronger, deeper. There was love there.

After putting my clothes on -I didn't even have a shower, I was in a hurry, afraid that Anna would wake up-, I wrote a note for her and left it over the sofa. For the first time in my life, or at least as long as I remembered, I lied to her as I wrote the note: 'Ann: I had to go to some interviews today and I'll be away the whole day, I'm sorry but they didn't let me take you. Call for pizza or whatever you want, I left some money over the table. I'll be back for dinner, Dougie'. Lying felt horrible, so I felt before I could regret it and destroy the lies in the little note. I hopes she wouldn't realize I was lying.

Have you ever been in a situation like this before? Didn't you feel that, as people stared at you, they somehow knew what you've done? I felt like that. Everytime someone looked at me in the street, I was sure they knew I'd cheated on my girlfriend, as if they could see it in my arms.

I waited for more than an our outside the studio, begging that Anna wouldn't happen to appear out of the blue. I was as nervous and worried as the criminal who's waiting for his sentence. I, again, felt sick. Time seem longer than usual. I thought my brain was going to explode in any moment as flashes of last night ran through my head uncontrollably, nice memories, if I had to admit it... But then I remembered Alissa, my sweet girlfriend, and those memories turned into painful guilt.

Tom's car finally parked just meters away from the studio, Danny's sleepy face against the window and Harry calmly looking out the window. His car had broke down and Tom had offered him to give him a ride to the studio every day, and Danny was just too lazy to drive his own car so early in the morning. Tom raced an eyebrow as they walked toward me, I quickly tried to compose myself and look normal.

"You arrived early" he said, suspiciously. Obviously this wasn't usual, I should have known better, I should have waited somewhere else "Is everything alright?"

"Everything's perfect" I said, smiling, maybe too much "What a gorgeous day, isn't it?"

"Dude, are you drunk?" Danny said, giggling "It's nearly raining... Again"

"Are you sure you are alright?" Tom insisted. Dammit, Tom, why did he always have to be so perceptive?

"I am fine" I mumbled. We walked towards the elevator and Harry suddenly looked at me.

"Where's Anna?" he asked, and I knew my face fell, I tried to compose it quickly "I thought you were bringing her everyday"

"Yeah, where's she?" Danny asked, suddenly interesting. Now I knew why I was jealous.

I gave him a killing look. "Home, sleeping"

"You're leaving her alone the whole day?" Tom asked as we walked out the elevator.

"Yes" I simply said, not trusting my voice.

"Dougie, are you completely sure everything's fine?" Tom asked.

"I said I was fine, dammit!" I shouted uncontrollably. Ok, that probably wasn't the best way to pretend I was fine, don't you think? I sat on the nearest chair and sighed. I knew then that I was losing the control of the expression in my face.

"Oh, God, I know that face!" Danny said, suddenly pointing me, eyes wide opened. I looked at him in horror "You slept with someone else?"

"What the hell, Danny? How could you know that!?" I said. My three friends opened their eyes so much that I thought they were going to pop out "I mean, NO, of course not!"

"Hey, you're talking with an expert in cheating" he said proudly "I know that face, dude. For the first time in my life, you can't fool me"

"What the hell, Dougie?" Harry said "You cheated in Alissa? I mean, Alissa!? You're getting married soon! What are you going to do? Why did you do that? Are you going to tell her? Who did you kiss? Or was it more than just kisses?"

"Shut up, Harry" I said, annoyed, my heart beating fast "I don't know!"

"Dougie..." Tom said, more calmly, probably the most serene of the three of us "What did you do exactly?"

I bit my lip and ran my fingers through my hair nervously "Sex"

Danny seemed someone proud; when it came to sex, he would always like it, Harry was horrified, he adored Alissa, and Tom kept looking calm, which was starting to make me even more nervous. How could he be so calm while my hands were shacking?

"Who did you sleep with?" he asked.

"I can't tell you" I said inmediately.

"Oh, come on! You can't keep something like that to yourself!" Danny said, frustrated "Besides, if you don't want to tell us, it's probably because it's someone we know"

Why, OH WHY, did he have to be clever today!? What had I possibly made to deserve this?

"Just split it out, Dougie, you'll feel better" Harry said.

"I can't, I seriously can't" I said.

"We're your friends, you can trust us" Tom said.

I hesitated, then said it before I regretted it "Abrianna"

"WHAT!?" the three of them said, Tom's calmness faded so quickly.

"You had sex with your cousin?" he said horrified.

"I know, I know, I know!" I said as I closed my eyes and put my hands over my face.

"Well, it's no that bad" Danny said "It wasn't too long ago when relatives used to get married, right?"

They all looked at each oher and I opened just one eye. Then all their eyes laid on me.

"What should I do?" I said quietly.

"You tell your cousin to get the hell out of your house, calm your fiancee and ask her for mercy" Tom said without hesitation.

"What?" Danny said, looking at him with his eyebrow raised "That's the crappiest advice ever, Tom" he moved his head from side to side in disapproval, then looked back at me "Here's what you are going to do; nothing at all"

"Explain" I said.

"You don't tell anybody else, specially not your fiancee, and you go back to living your normal life. Just tell your cousin it was a one time thing and let it go."

"I like that" I said and Tom rolled his eyes.

"He's probably right, Tom" Harry mumbled.

"There's just one tiny, little problem" I said. They all looked at me again "I think I'm in love with her"

WARNING: I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm going on holidays to the beach [I'm being force to go, actually, because I don't want to!] and I'm not coming back until January 18th. But, relax, I'll try to update as soon as I can while I'm there, I swear.