Hey all! Thanks for all of the reviews! Smeyer Owns all characters associated with the twilight saga.I am terribly sorry for the delay but my husband was deployed with very little notice so I have been really busy! Now onto the next chapter! :) Hope you all enjoy it!

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I threw some money down on the table and quickly got her out of there before she started really yellin'. She needs to let it all out but she needs to direct it at the people she's upset with. I ran us back to the castle and barely straightened up before she was off tearin' through the castle lookin' for...my guess is Rose and Emmett. She stood outside of their door for a good minute just takin' deep breaths and starin' at it. Suddenly the door flew open and Emmett and Rose were standin' there, they didn't even get a word out before she was pokin' Emmett in the chest and yellin'.

Bella Pov

I felt all the anger and I've been holding back just come rushing to the surface. I couldn't control myself once the gate opened; there was no way it was going to close until I got all of this out. I was standing in front of Emmett and Rosalie in their doorway. I started poking him in the chest, not enough to hurt myself but enough to get my point across.

"You! HOW COULD YOU! HOW COULD YOU ABANDON ME AFTER PROMISING TO NEVER LEAVE ME? AFTER CALLING ME YOUR LITTLE SISTER? IF I WERE YOU, I WOULD HAVE FOUGHT HARDER AND CAME BACK. ACTUALLY, I WOULD HAVE NEVER LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE! YOU SAID I WAS YOUR FAMILY BUT FAMILY DOESN'T ABANDON YOU! FAMILY IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU!" I was crying and shaking as I was yelling. I collapsed on the floor and Emmett sat next to me. When he tried touching my hand I recoiled.

"No! Don't touch me! Where were you when my dad was tortured and killed in front of me? Where were you when I couldn't sleep because of the nightmares? Where were you when my own mother stopped giving a shit about me! I needed, NEEDED, my family! The only thing that helped me was that stupid know it all fucker, Peter." Emmett looked like I punched him in the gut and Rosalie looked like she wanted to cry. "You've explained, vaguely, why you didn't come back or try to contact me and I understand to some extent, but I don't think you realize what I felt that entire time you were gone! The abandonment, hopelessness, worthlessness...the list goes on and on! Do you know how many times I contemplated killing myself? I had no one! No friends, no family...I was utterly ALONE! The only reason I didn't was because I know that my dad would have been so disappointed if I had completely given up. You just...UGH!" My arms wrapped themselves around my middle and my tears started coming out faster. I couldn't get control of myself. I don't even know what started all of this...My emotions just wouldn't stop flowing out of me. I was absolutely drained and I could feel myself slipping into darkness.

Emmett POV

I just sat there. I knew she was hurt and mad...no livid was a better word, but I never realized just how much pain I had caused her. I felt like I was dying. I don't deserve to be in her life. She's too good of a person and I don't deserve to call myself her big brother. I failed miserably. She fell asleep while she was crying and Jasper laid her on the bed in our room then returned to sit with us on the floor.

"She's right you know. I didn't try hard enough..." I said. My head in my hands and shaking with dry sobs.

"No, you did Em...you wanted to come straight back for her just like I did. We were manipulated into not going though. I don't know what you were told but Alice told me that I would slaughter hundreds if I were to leave. It took me far too long to figure out that it wasn't true. We all thought that she would have a better life without us. She's too good to get brought into this world, that's what everyone was always thinkin' but we all gravitated towards her regardless. We couldn't keep away because she gave us all a part of ourselves back." Jasper said trying to make me feel better.

"NO! If I had REALLY wanted to get back to her I would have. I even had the opportunity to a couple times but I thought that she would be ok and that seeing me would just make her mad so I stayed where I was. I was a coward. I didn't want to see the hurt and betrayal in her eyes. I deserve everything she said to me; hell I deserve a whole lot more. I went to call her number constantly and even went as far as writing letters to her but I never sent them. I didn't want to hear or read that she never wanted to see me again and that she hated me, but if I would have known what was happening in her life... NOONE could have stopped me from going back to her. I would have died trying to get to her. When we finally left the Cullen's and Peter told me we were going to Forks because Bella needed us, all I could think was that no matter how long it took I was going to show her that I was worthy of being her brother. But now I see, no matter how many years or even centuries go by...I will never be worthy of being her brother. I have failed so badly."

"I don't hate you. Am I mad at you? Yes. Will it take some time for me to trust you again? Yes. But I could never hate you Emmett. I know that none of this is fair…to either of us, but it happened and all we can do is try to move on from it. I won't apologize for it either because I really think you needed to hear it and I feel much better after getting all of that out." Bella said from behind me. I didn't even hear her wake up or walk over to us.

"I-I know Bella. I'm so sorry though…for everything. Like I told you back in Forks, I will show you that I'm not going anywhere again and I will earn your trust back. No matter how long it takes." She nodded her head once and made her way to Jaspers lap. He immediately wrapped his arms around her and nuzzled her neck. "Sorry dude. I know all these crazy emotions can't be fun for you." I told him. He sighed and shook his head.

"Actually, even though I can feel them they aren't affectin' me in the slightest. My only concern is my Mates emotional state right now." Huh.

"We are gonna go back to our room." He said standing and then stopped and turned to Rose. "Rose just ask her already." I looked to my fuck hot Mate to see her wringing her hands.

"Uh…Bella? Is it ok if maybe when you're feeling up to it we could go shopping or something? I'd like to have a talk with you…" She sounded so unlike the confident woman I'm used to. I wrapped my arms around her to try and comfort her.

"Sure. That sounds fine, I'll come to you when I'm feeling up to it." Bella said getting up and heading towards the door.

"Come on monkey man, let me make you feel better." Rose said and straddled my hips.

Bella POV

"You alright darlin'?"

"I will be. I needed to say all of those things but I can't help but feel bad. I know it's not his fault that you guys left but I always thought that if our positions were reversed that I would have done everything in my power to go back to someone I thought of as family." I sighed. "I don't want to feel like this towards him…I just want to have my big bear of a brother back and not feel so abandoned by him. You got off easy, we mated and now I know you can't ever leave me…well you could…" He quickly cut me off and turned toward me.

"With or without us being Mated, I wouldn't ever leave you again. I told you before that I'm a very selfish creature and I was selfish enough before we Mated to come for you because I liked havin' you around… I'll be it, it was a little later than I would have liked but that's not the point. I'm not goin' anywhere. If you ever left or were taken from me, I would find you even if I had to fight my way through hell to get you back." He hugged me to him and sent me his love and worry.

"I know. I wouldn't let you go so easily either…human or not I would fuck someone up if they ever tried to take you away from me." I told him and he smiled slightly and sighed.

"Em knows he screwed up and he will forever regret not takin' action sooner because he was scared. I understand how both of you are feelin'." He smirked at his little joke and the continued. "I know that we hurt you so deeply and the events that took place after we left were so horrible that you turned into the bitchy strong woman that I love but, you have to understand what he's feelin' too. Did you know that he had a little sister when he was human? Big brown eyes, long brown hair…She followed him when he went to hunt one day, he saw her gettin' attacked by a bear and stepped in but it was too late…then Rose found him. She was so overwhelmed by the need to save him that she didn't realize that there was more blood than just Emmett's. When we left it was like losin' his little sister all over again. I'm not sayin' you're a replacement or anything so don't even think that. He truly looks at you like you're his sister. He was in a constant state of depression while we were away. Em was so torn about what to do, he wanted to check on you and hug you and apologize but also didn't want to betray Carlisle and Esme, who have given him everything. You say you would have tried harder than he did but think about his situation. Would you have betrayed Charlie in that way?" Damn it!

"I understand better now. Thank you, you always put me in my place when it's necessary. Charlie would have liked you, you know." I told him and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I know." He replied and leaned down to kiss me.

When his lips met mine it felt like my entire body ignited. What started out as a slow sensual kiss was quickly turning into one of heated passion. My back hit the nearest wall as Jaspers tongue battled with my own. I moaned into the kiss and felt him smirk against my lips. His hands moved from there place on my hips up to tease my breasts through the fabric of my shirt and bra. All rational thought completely left me as his fingers grazed my nipples. I forgot that we were in the hall way of the castle, forgot that anyone could stumble upon us. When Jasper felt that I needed to breath he trailed kisses down my neck, sucking and licking the skin, sometimes placing a light bite here and there. My hips had a mind of their own and started seeking friction against his. I moaned again when I felt his hardness against my stomach and heard his rumbling growl.

"What in the world is going on here?" Jasper growled and spun around to face the vampire who interrupted. I sighed. Looks like Bella isn't going to be getting any sort of release while we are here. A voice in my head said. I growled at the voice and glared at the vampire over Jaspers shoulder.

"Well I was about to show my Mate pleasure but it's really none of your business, Carlisle." Jasper drawled and smirked at him. And queue pantie wetting .Seriously you should just forego wearing any because they just get ruined. I shook my head.

Carlisle ignored Jasper and looked at me. "This is no way for a lady, much less a Cullen to act, Bella." He reprimanded. Oh hell no! Who the fuck does he think he is?

"You all made it perfectly clear that I wasn't a Cullen when your son left me in the woods to freeze to death and you left without even a 'fuck you'. You have no right to tell me how to act. We've already been over this, Papa C leave me and my Mate the fuck alone!" I hissed at him. His eyes grew wide and then narrowed at me. He went to take a step towards us but Jasper growled at him and he stopped.

"Don't be silly Isabella! Now come with me, I'm sure Esme will be happy to set you straight." He said and held his hand out for me to take. I gave a not so lady like snort and flipped him off. He shook his head sadly at me. "See what hanging around them has done to you?" He asked.

"Don't think for a minute that this is their fault Papa C. This is all the result of your prude son's actions and me realizing who I really am. This," I said gesturing to myself. "Is the real me and I am not changing for anyone ever again so good luck trying." Jasper sent me his pride and I smiled at him.

"It would be in your best interest to leave now, Carlisle. If you don't then you will see your 'Daughter' in a very compromisin' position as I intend to finish what you interrupted." My sexy cowboy said and pushed me up against the wall again, not even bothering to see if Carlisle was going to leave. His lips resumed kissing my neck and my hands threaded themselves into his hair.

My panties were soaking wet now and we needed to move this someplace else but I just couldn't make myself pull away from him. His lips found mine again and his hands lifted me up and I automatically wrapped my legs around his hips seeking any kind of friction. A purring was coming from deep in his chest and I moaned at the sound. I needed more and he knew it. I felt an overwhelming amount of lust crash into me and writhed against his hardness earning a wonderful mix between a purr and moan from him.

"Darlin', we need to get back to our room…NOW!" He growled and pushed himself against me harder.

"Fuck…please!" I whimpered.

Before the word "please" was even fully out of my mouth I felt my back being pressed against the bed in our room. At least I hope this is our room. I thought before Jaspers lips found mine again. Our tongues tangled together and his hands were slowly pushing my shirt above my ribs to tease the flesh there. The sounds coming out of mouth didn't sound entirely human but I didn't have it in me to care. I vaguely heard a loud rip but didn't realize it was my shirt until I felt his mouth on my nipple. I arched up against him further and I felt more than heard him growl. The vibrations from his growl made me moan and I started grinding up his hardness.

"Jas…please…need…more!" I panted out and all of a sudden was naked underneath him. He started making his was down my body paying special attention to the spots he found the previous time we had been in this position. He pulled back from me and smirked and suddenly I was drowning in lust and euphoria. I threw my head back onto the bed and my eyes closed tightly.

"FUCK!" I moaned and heard Jaspers husky chuckle.

"Look at me darlin',"He said and started playing with my nipples again. "I love the way you look at me when you're like this. You are absolutely breathtaking."

"Jas… so close, please…" I panted. He hit me with a stronger wave and I fell apart but the look on his face alone would have made me cum. "GOD! JASPER!" I moaned.

He pulled his influence back from me slowly, letting me enjoy my orgasmic high. The only thing that was running through my head was 'holy fucking crap! Who knew he could do that!'. I somehow found the strength and maneuvered my way out from under him and was kneeling near the edge of the bed. It took my mind a second to realize that he had moved and was sitting against the head board but decided that was the perfect place for him to be. I smirked at him and started crawling towards him; he just raised an eyebrow at me and cocked his head to the side in question but my eyes were glued to the bulge in his jeans.

"It's your turn now, Cowboy." I said when I reached him and started unbuttoning his shirt.

Hope you all liked it…If it seems a little…off I apologize but I really struggled through this chapt because of everything that has been going on. So if it sucked I'm sorry and will do better in the next chapt! Leave some love if our feel like it! Again I am so sorry for the delay on this!