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First of all: thanks for the reviews! They made me so happy!

In this Chapter I tried to focus a little more on Luffys and Laws relationship, as it will be a llittle akward for a little longer. But it will gradually start to get better... I hope. Tried some fluff here, but I seriously suck at that... ._.

Well, hope you like it anyways!

As always, thanks to my Beta Water-Fox-Raine!

Disclaimer: Still don't own One Piece

I didn't even have the power left to scream in pain, as I crashed into the wall with my back for the 7th time this hour. With a painful groan, I slid down on the hard cold concrete that was the only thing supporting my sluggish and totally weak body. All my energy had drained to a point where I just sat there, wheezing and trying to catch my breath…

Trying to ignore all the wounds…

The dust…

The dirt… and most of all…

The blood.

Black dots danced in front of my eyes as I stared at the floor, trying not to lose consciousness. But even this little bit of vision was taken from me as blood found its way into my eyes. I didn't even feel the burn because my other wounds hurt too much. For hours now I had just prayed silently that my entire body would go numb.

And this was just day 6 of my training. Believe me when I say, hell was paradise against this here. The only rest I got was when I passed out. No sleep, no rest, no food. I was beyond stressed.

"Is that all you've got for today? As long as you are still conscious, get your ass up, Trafalgar. You have no time for resting!" the Voice that addressed me seemed satisfied, despite the harsh words. But I wasn't sure whether he was satisfied on beating me up, or that I was slowly starting to get a grip on my powers.

I shut my eyes, squeezing out some blood, before I opened them again.

Still black dots; still the almost numb stinging sensation in them. I tried to catch my breath a bit more, before I lifted myself up, shoving back against the wall in the process, trying not to topple over again. My upper body was still hanging over, so I raised my head to stare at the ceiling of the training room and straightened my back to lean against the comforting, cold concrete wall.

I could suddenly feel a blazing heat approach me and without much thought, I jumped away. I found myself on the floor once again and rolled over until I was on hands and knees. Scorching heat emitted from my left arm and I quickly hit out the flames. I didn't need more burns then I already had. I wobbled in the process of putting out the blazes, almost toppling over again, but steadied myself again, using my long tail to weight out my awry position. But still, I ground my teeth, burning with anger inside because he made me use it on purpose.

Ace laughed. "I should pull on your tail, just to remind you what you are now, but I guess my little brother does that more than enough, so I'll let it slip," he grinned at me like a dork. He had been burning me all day, making me run, hit the wall, the floor or the ceiling many times in the process of making me learn how to dodge correctly. He was happy about it, because he got to show me how weak I am. How much weaker I am than Luffy, and of cause, he was totally fine with beating the crap out of me, because he didn't want to leave his cute little brother with me... totally ignoring the fact we were mates.

But the comment made my anger grow unbelievingly strong. And although I would ignore it normally, I found that anger had become a certain source of energy these past 6 days. When I would almost lose consciousness, anger made my grip on reality stronger, clinging to the here and now.

And thus, I growled loudly. I knew the anger was more of my demonic side than anything else,... but it kept me going. Kept me breaking my own limits, again and again. Kept me here, and kept my head free of everything unnecessary. There was only the buzzing in the back of my mind, always making me lunge forward when I was supposed to attack, and making me dodge when I was supposed to run away.

I glared at Ace, letting my rage take the best of me and just let my body and instinct take over. It was a hard process to learn to just let go, but I quickly learned that this was the only way to survive the hellish training I was put through. Ace bent his knees again, lifting his hands up to his waist and forming pistols with his fingers, before shooting fire bullets at me. Bullets that where way too fast for me to follow, even if I was at my peak of energy and concentration. So naturally, I couldn't see anything right now besides a flash of red, orange, and yellow. I leaped to the left side again, and without thinking rolled over. I was only halfway to my feet before I started to run…

On all fours.

Yes, I also learned I could easily do this animal-like thing, and though I hated this trait, it had saved my ass a few times today. Saved me from being burned to dust by that bastard, who was laughing. I hissed when I slipped because of bad coordinating this way of running, but I held my breath at once, because I noticed a flame bullet had just missed the tip of my tail; had I not slipped, I would have gotten burnt.

I let out the breath again, falling into a much quicker breathing, more like panting. I slowly felt my anger subside again and with this my strength to run, so I just let my exhausted body fall to the ground. It seemed so much more comforting than ever before in my life. I grunted when I felt my wings being crushed a bit, but ignored them nonetheless. I didn't even want them, they could just be crushed and disappear for all I care!

I stretched all fours out and closed my eyes, still catching my breath. This time, Ace didn't taunt me. He also didn't attack me and I was thankful for that.

"Ok, that's it." Ace said, sighing.

"It hurts just looking at you. I really find it pleasurable to beat you up, but that's it for the first week. 6 days of training, one day of rest. Make sure to get some energy from Luffy," he said, his flames extinguishing at his words. I didn't even answer, though I was grateful.

And how the hell was I supposed to go home like this?

"Ah, right. Your friends are here. I believe you know they were watching all the time, but they will take you home. And make sure you're back in two days' time," he explained, and for the first time I stored my pride away somewhere deep in me, and nodded. However, I was going home at least.

These 6 days had been worse than hell ever could be. First it had been Smoker, than it had been Sengoku, who apparently had fun in training newies and then it had been Ace. This had repeated one more time, because the problem wasn't that I had no idea of my powers. Quite the opposite; with the memories the horns had brought, I knew everything I was able to do. But I couldn't, as I still denied what I was and was too weak to call forth my powers. So the first things on my program, was making me accept my new self and letting my body take the lead. Secondly, build up much stamina, to at least call forth my most basic power, the 'room'. I at least managed that a few times already although it was much, MUCH smaller than the ones from the memories... and I couldn't maintain it for too long.

I heard Ace leave the room, and in exchange for his footsteps, I heard two new ones approaching in a quick pace, most likely Hawkins and Kidd; I didn't open my eyes, but soon they were there besides me, lifting me up into a sitting position. I was leaning against Kidd's legs, who knelt behind me and I didn't force him away as I normally would. When I finally opened my eyes again, sighing heavily, I found them looking at me in worry, but I just raised my eyebrows.

"Still alive and kicking," I just said, my voice hoarse, and Hawkins held out a bottle of water. Although my limbs felt like iron, I lifted my arm and reached out for it, quickly taking big sips, feeling the cold enter my throat felt great. After I emptied the whole bottle I lifted myself up a bit more and groaned in pain.

"They are crazy," Kidd finally uttered, making me chuckle in disbelief at his words.

"And you only noticed now?" I said, not managing more than a whisper, and cleaned my throat with a raspy cough.

"No, but I thought I wanted to at least say it loud once. How can they treat you like this? That's so... it's torture!" Kidd said. And he was right. It was torture, but I handled it better than they obviously thought. I pushed myself up and Kidd quickly lent me his strength, as he took my arm and put it around his neck. "It's a torture I can stand. I need to learn a lot in a small amount of time. If they don't keep pushing me beyond my limits, there will not be enough improvement," I said. I noticed Hawkins who picked up my black pullover I had taken off at the start of the training, and my hat, and we left the training room.

I don't remember much about the drive home, much less how I ended up in my bed.

But I remember Luffy, who entered my bed a bit after I had dozed off, because he woke me.

He woke me as he kissed me.

I still wasn't used to the energy gaining through... affection.

It was a demonic trait...

And I just wanted to forget what I had become, so I pushed him away the moment I was able to muster some strength back in my arms. "Luffy-ya, let it be please." I sighed, making him pout. "I'm tired and my body is a mess right now... " I started, but Luffy puffed his cheeks up more.

"That's not the reason you are saying no, Traffy," he said, and I stared at him in surprise. Did he notice? Normally he was the biggest idiot I know, but sometimes he was sharper than I wished. So, maybe he noticed it. That everything reminded me of my... state I was in.

"It is," I said, trying not to sound guilty and wanted to add something, but just gasped when Luffy caught my tail. I flinched back hard and pushed him off more fiercely now. "Stop! Don't touch that, Mugiwara-ya!"

"See!? There is the distance again! Every time you see my features you feel reminded of yourself! You have avoided me for 8 days straight now! I am not even allowed to kiss you now, when you're so much weaker and you need the energy!" Luffy stated, and I avoided his gaze.

"And whose fault do you think this is?" I murmured aggravated, staring at the blanket I was clutching between my fingers.

"Well it's not mine, you know?" Luffy said. "I did not weave together our fates, ok? I didn't ask for you," he said, brushed over my tail and I shuddered, instinctively trying to pull back, but Luffy kept staring at me. "I don't even have a clue why it has to be you," he continued, not stopping his playful touch on my newly formed feature, "I mean… you're a fucking sadistic bastard. You're cruel…and cold. You distance yourself from everyone who wants to befriend you, from everyone who cares about you. You always think the world is going to hurt you, so instead you hurt the others, to not be on the receiving end, but did you ever notice how you hurt yourself with that? You have nakama around you, but you push them away. Not to save them, but to save yourself. You're so selfish that I really wonder why the goddesses put me together with you, Law. But still..."

He used my name.

-He didn't ask for me.-

-I'm a sadistic bastard.-

-Cruel.-

-Cold.-

-Selfish.-

Something inside me began to hurt. And maybe, just maybe, I knew he was right. Because I knew all that. But I have never been a person that did well to sudden changes. And even worse to changes on myself.

I had trusted Doflamingo…and he used me.

I had trusted Cora-san…and he disappeared.

My family were strangers to me. The eyes they had looked at me with after our meeting for all those years had been full of disgust. Probably not directed at me, but at Doffy, but it just felt like being rejected.

I put up a silent and cold wall to protect myself. Kidd and Hawkins partly tore down that wall, only for me to notice what they had hidden all this time.

I had wanted to trust Luffy, but I needed time.

Time to get accustomed to the changes around me.

And then I had been the one who changed gravely.

And it didn't feel like Luffy was considerate with me about it, but instead like he rubbed my face right onto these problems with every time I saw his tail or tiny wings, with every kiss that gave me energy.

And now he practically told me that I was never wanted by him. I didn't know if I was feeling hurt, disappointed or angry. There was... desperation inside me. I had no idea how to handle all these feelings inside me. I was too tired to concentrate on the blank face I would normally show. The blankness that protected me from the gazes of others, protected me from being seen. I felt my eyes burn, and closed them shut, still not turning back my head to Luffy, my lips pressed into a thin line.

"If I irritate and disgust you so much, then just fuck off. I never asked for any of this," I whispered. A whisper was good enough to conceal all the feelings that raged war inside my chest. To conceal just how damn much my own words hurt.

I wasn't prepared for this. How did it turn out like this anyway? I mean... I entered the contract of my free will. I agreed on becoming a half-breed. I knew I would change. The changes had just been too much, and too soon, too quick.

Too quick.

And too quick were the next few seconds for me.

"I knew you were gonna say that," Luffy whispered also, and just when I wanted to finally look at him, he punched my face, throwing me out of the bed. I landed on the floor with a loud 'thud' and another painful groan - not that I hadn't been punched enough the last few days. I hissed at the pain on my cheek and put a hand on the skin that instantly burned up on the rough treatment. I suppressed a growl and lifted my eyes, searching for Luffy's eyes.

"What the hell was THAT for!?" I shouted.

"For you being the biggest jerk alive, you idiot!" Luffy shouted back and looked straight at me.

I lost my breath.

Tears had filled his eyes to the brim. His vision was probably blurred deeply, but he looked right at me. And I frowned.

Why was HE crying? I felt like crying my heart out, although I would never again cry.

And that's when it hit me, and I just stared at him in shock.

"You... why are you crying for me!? Didn't you just practically tell me you wanted to get away from me!?"

"When did I ever say I wanted that!?" he shouted at me and started to rub his eyes, wiping away the tears that still kept coming.

"Sure, you have some really bad traits, but I'm not better! And you still put up with that! I'm just... so fucking angry because you WANT to see the bad in people! I never was able to lie to anybody before, not even at enemies, but you practically waited for me to say those things! You, my MATE believed it! You out of all people!" he shook his head.

"I knew just how much this would hurt you, and you didn't even show me! Why don't you try to trust me? Law, I'm your destined, can't you even show me how you feel? You're a total mess inside, but you don't give me the slightest chance to fix you!" he continued to shout, but I just stared. The pain from my check long forgotten… my chest somewhat numb. "You were crying inside, and that hurts so much more than just saying what I did to you!"

I hurt him.

Fuck.

I thought his words were meant to hurt me, but instead he hurt himself a lot more in the process. And it was my fault.

I lowered my head and my gaze a bit, staring at the bed.

"Not showing... hurts more?" I asked and gulped after that. I had no idea where this talk was going to end, but I knew we needed to sort out things.

"Yeah... hurts... so much" he hiccupped and I grimaced.

I had no idea how to handle a crying Luffy.

"But... it's safer... I.." I what?

"I am afraid. Everyone so far has betrayed me or disappointed me in a way that made me wish I had just been left back at Doffy's without knowing the truth at all." I confessed. I noticed shock in his eyes and he shook his head again.

"No... no, don't wish for that! Doflamingo is bad, really, really bad! And he already hurt you enough!" he said.

"I didn't even know he was hurting me until people decided to change my life for me," the answer left my mouth without much thought. Until Cora-san came, everything had just been 'normal'. No hurt, no disappointment, no expectations. No sorrow...

I looked up at him and thought…No Luffy.

"I'm sorry."

"What..?"

"I'm sorry, Luffy. I'll... try... to make it better. I promise I'll try... but only... when there's just the two of us." I sighed. Then I remembered the other issue. My demonic body.

I stared at my tail that still lay numb on the floor, after I had been thrown out of bed. I couldn't get rid of it... so I could at least make the best of it. I directed it towards my mate, perfectly guiding it towards Luffy's. I noticed him flinch when they touched. But I didn't stop. I entangled our tails. Thankfully my tail was long enough for that. I still had enough length left for it to be comfortable. Luffy's head flung around at the new sensation, staring at the place we connected in a new way.

"You know, I should be the one apologizing, Traffy... I hit you, after all," he whispered, still staring at our tails.

I shrugged. "So what? It doesn't even hurt anymore. You brother hits much harder," I slightly smiled again, making him also smile in response.

"Can I come back to bed?" I asked, more a joke than anything else, but Luffy shook his head, before turning it back at me, and I slightly frowned.

"Why not?"

"Because Traffy is too weak," he said, and I grinned.

"And that's why I am not allowed back in bed?"

"You should rest."

I raised an eyebrow. "On the floor? Sounds pretty uncomfortable. I wonder if I'll get enough rest here."

Finally Luffy sighed. "Alright. I'll let you back up here," he started.

"Thanks for allowing me to enter my own bed," I murmured.

"But only," he continued and I halted "If we share energy, like the demons we are."

Oh.

I frowned. He was more or less forcing me to accept my new self. But I felt my tiredness kick in again, and I was too much out of it now to really argue further on this.

"Ok," I agreed, reluctantly, but I did.

"..Ok? Just like that?"

"Not really. Under one condition," I saw he was listening and gave him my usual smirk.

"You'll let me bite you beforehand," I said, seeing how he paled a bit. Yes, I wanted to inflict pain again. On purpose, because he was forcing things on me I also would rather never do.

"That... will be extra painful, right?" he gulped.

"That depends on how much I can really bring myself to do it. But I guess yes, it will." I nodded. For a moment we stayed like this, until I felt a small force pull on my tail, directing me back to bed. I heaved myself up and crawled back on the bed, looking at Luffy. His own tail had lightly pulled on my own and they were still entangled with each other.

"By the time you go away I will most likely be a masochist..." He whispered, making me slightly chuckle.

"Good for me. But you like it in a weird way, so don't complain," was what I had to answer to that, as I sat down in front of him, and instantly noticed a blush on his cheeks.

I smiled slightly, and felt a little sting at my lips and cheek. He hit me rather hard. Nothing compared to the last days, but enough to really hurt. Luffy must have noticed the little pain, as he reached his hand out and gently caressed my cheek. "It must still hurt like hell," he whispered, but I shook my head and leaned a bit into the touch.

"I deserved it," I said, looking straight into his eyes, that were still focused on my cheek, which was probably bright red by now. "Not really... Well, maybe a bit.." he sighed, and I leaned over to him, kissing the side of his neck. He shuddered and laid his arms around my back.

I was hesitating. I knew exactly what to do, but... my mind was still telling me how wrong this was, and that I shouldn't been doing this. While I told myself that it was ok. I said I would do this, myself, and I had no intention of turning back. I put my hands on Luffy's hips, licking his neck on the place I wanted to bury my fangs in. Fangs I felt growing larger by the second.

"Traffy, you don't have to force yourself so much..." I heard my mate say, but he tilted his head, giving me more space. Inviting me, and before he could say more that could make me question my decision further, I closed my eyes and just acted. Let my instincts take over, as I had learned the last few days.

It was so easy to pierce Luffy's skin, the only defense his body showed. He tensed and in my hazy mind, I felt he was going to push me away, so I bit down harder, until I heard a painful groan from him. He didn't stop me. I could hit myself. Why would he stop me anyways? I lessened the force and pulled out my fangs, licking away the blood before I covered the wound with my mouth and sucked.

I had expected the blood to taste like copper, but it didn't. Instead, it tasted somewhat sweet.

Addictive, although I didn't like sweets so much. But this was amazing, and it was hard to keep a halfway clear mind. With every sip the warm, sticky substance, sliding down my throat filled me up with energy. It felt good, no, better than good and I had to restrain myself not to melt into this new and amazing sensation.

"Ow! Don't suck so hard!" I heard Luffy's voice from somewhat far away, and clung to it to stay in the here and now, trying to heed his words. But it was hard, and I noticed him panting after a few moments. Moments what could have been hours, I didn't know. As I pulled away, his body leaned heavily against me, and I stared at his black hair, pulling myself together.

"This is... dangerous." I eventually said, and he chuckled.

"I know. Crazy, right?" I nodded at his words. The air was filled with the smell of copper and I refrained from breathing through my nose to avoid another temptation.

I felt better. My body still hurt like hell, but the tiredness was almost gone, and I had no problems with moving my body anymore.

"You good?" he asked, and I nodded. "Yeah... you?"

"Yeah. Hey, Traffy?"

"Hm?"

"You know, I um... I..." He started, but stopped, and buried his face more against my bare chest. It was a scorching sensation; he was bright red, and I smirked. "Maybe you are already a masochist, and don't even know it?" I asked.

"Oh shut up!" he hissed, but I chuckled. "Look at it this way: I have to change a hell of a lot, so it's just fair for me to fuck you up a little also, hm?"

"NO! That's totally not right! This is so... wrong! I shouldn't be getting a hard on from feeling pain!"

"But you do."

"Shut it!" he repeated, this time louder and I chuckled again, leaning forward, throwing us both over, that I completely buried him beneath me, and he yelped in surprise, scratching my back, but I didn't care, as long as he wasn't going to pull on my wings.

Placing my hands right and left next to his chest on the bed, I lifted my body a bit so I could finally look at him. "You're cute when you're embarrassed. I should do things like this more often," I tilted my head.

"Oh please no! This is enough already..." he whined a little.

"No. This is not nearly enough," I smirked, placed a hand on his chest and let it slowly slide down, putting light pressure on his abdomen, before sliding down to his crotch, making him hold his breath in anticipation. I smirked a little wider.

"Should I stop?" I whispered.

"Hell NO, don't you DARE!" he said loudly and angered. I chuckled and slid my hand under his trousers, right in his boxers, touching his almost erect member. The pain actually really did turn him on, and he gasped in surprise.

Suddenly the door to my room was opened and a worried Kidd stuck his head in. Both Luffy and I turned our heads to the door. Both of us weren't really bothered the least by him. This too, had to be a demonic trait, as I would have shouted at him a week ago.

"Uh..." he stuttered. "I just wanted to see if you were ok, guys..." he said, and his gaze fell on the place my hand had slipped into. A slight blush appeared on his cheeks and I smirked. As much as he hated it, he was a softy...

"Why would you ask that, Eustass-ya?" I said, slowly staring to move my hand, making Luffy gasp in surprise. "Oi, Traffy,what...?" he moaned lowly and closed his eyes. Kidd face took a deeper tone of red.

"I... Uh.. We heard your voices and then that someone fell... and then you shouted until..."

"Until?"

"...You both went totally quiet..." his stare still laid on Luffy's crotch.

"Laaaaw~ less talking, more touching! And don't use me to tease you roommate!" Luffy said, squirming a bit beneath me, then moaning again.

"Sorry sorry" I chuckled. "As you can see, it's fine now Eustass-ya. It was just a lover's quarrel. If you would be so kind as to leave us now..?"

Kidd pulled his gaze away and looked up to me, before quietly nodding and quickly leaving us.

Luffy laughed a little and I smirked. I would so damn tease him with that from now on.

"'Lover's quarrel'?" Luffy asked, and I stopped the movement of my hand, pulling off his trousers and boxers completely. "So we are lovers?" he asked.

When I looked at his eyes I found hope. Did he think something else? Or was it that he thought I would just comply to his every whim?

"We date, we kiss, we have sex. I don't care about all that mate-thing anymore. Here in our realm we call this 'being lovers' or 'being a couple'. So, yes, we are." I explained.

And yes, I really practically didn't care about the mate-thing and those goddesses. I was content as it was, and I didn't care what lead to this.

"Or are we not?" I tilted my head slightly, but he shook his head franticly. "Yes, yes we are!" He answered and showed me that bright, happy smile I knew was only reserved for me.

"Yes, we are lovers!" he repeated, and I smiled, leaning down to kissed him.

So, what do you think?

I tried my best. I really did... Although I'm not completely satisfied with it, I thing I'm getting better. And I finally have an Idea where this will be going :)

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