A/n: Yes, it has been a long time since I have wrote a chapter for this tale, and by now you have all left me and abandoned this story. I hope you all come back after you see that I have gotten back into the game. For those of you who reviewed to my last chapters, I thank you so much and if you are still waiting for me to update this, I apologize for taking so long and I thank you for being so patient with me. I am going to try very hard to keep on task so I can finish this story. I love you all who have stayed loyal. Thank you again, now on with the next chapter.
Chapter 14: Letters of a Convict
14th of May, 2001
Dear David,
I am not sure as to where you are right now. I don't know if you know this, but I was taken to a psyche ward in Sendai. They won't tell me where you are and they claim that they are trying to help me. I don't remember why I am here. I can see the small marks on my arms with no idea as to how I came about having them. There are faded cuts and slash marks all over my body which still remain a mystery to me. Strange images play over and over in my head and sounds fill my ears and echo repeatedly. I try to drown them out, but they just get worse and worse. It's so terrible. I can't sleep and I can't eat. I am going crazy David. I am so scared.
Cassidy
22nd of May, 2001
David,
Oh David... It's quite beautiful from what I can see from the window in my room. There are so many buildings, much like in Kobe, but it is so much greener. There is a park, I can just see from the recreation room window. There are children David, lots of little children, playing with each other. They run and yell as they push each other on the swings and toss sand in the air. It's sucha sight. It makes me long to see my little girl again. Have you heard from Chihiro? She hasn't been writing as of late. I am starting to get worried about her.
Where is our little girl David, what has she been doing? Who has been taking care of her? Has she been getting enough to eat, doing all of her homework? How about soccer, how is that going? Have you been keeping track of her games for me while I have been away?
Love,
Cassidy
30th of May, 2001
To the unmentioned,
It's terrible that I don't remember leaving... just those police men, and the...table...drugs. Oh my god David, what have I done? The gun... It's all coming back to me now. The gun in my head... the cries, the screams...How could I have done that? You...and my... my little... girl. My Chihiro. What have I done?
David, how could you have let this happen. This is your fault. I can't... I can't believe that you let this happen to our daughter. My poor little girl. Where is she? I demand that you tell me where she is! How is she? Wait, you wouldn't know either. You don't even know were you are I bet. I remember, you were sentenced to life... the DA told me. Then you fled...somehow... somehow you managed to escape. So very like you; running away from your problems. You're a coward. I wish I would never have married you. I wish you would have died in that hospital you bastard... I hope you...
Cassidy
30th of May, 2001
My darling husband,
Oh David honey, I miss you. Please, won't you come and get me from this terrible place. I hate it here. I miss Chihiro and you. Please honey, I'll be the best wife ever. I don't even know why I am here, but I do love you babe. I love you. Come and take me home.
Love,
Cassidy
15th of June, 2001
My dearest Chihiro,
Are you well? Mommy misses you. I hope you are not missing me too terribly. Have you and daddy been getting along? I know how you to like to argue sometimes. Mom just had to go away for awhile, but I'll be home soon enough. Are you still playing soccer? How is school going. Hon, I know that this is probably very hard for you to understand, but I had to leave in order to get some help. I know I wasn't the best mother in the world. I will try harder when I come home. Daddy is going to come and get me soon. We'll be a big, happy family when I get home.
Love, Mom
15th of June, 2001
Dearest daughter,
I am sorry that I don't remember anything about why I was brought here; taken away from you and your father. I see the marks on my arms and the brusies and faded cuts on my body and I don't know where they came from. I hear your voice in my head, calling out to me. You ask me why I did it, what you did wrong. Baby, I don't know why you ask me such questions. I could never hurt you, you that don't you. You are my only child. You're my baby. My little girl.
Love, Mom
23rd of June, 2001
Chihiro,
I can not express how sorry I am about what I have done. I can only recall bits and pieces, but your screams in my head tell me what I have done was not good. I don't know what came over me honey. I really don't. Whether it was the drugs or just everything else that built up and just exploded within me. Honey, I hope you can smeday forgive me for what I have done. I don't know where you are or even if you are alive, but I want you to know that I do love you. Baby, please forgive me. I do love you...
Love, Mom
28th of June, 2001
Chihiro,
How is school? Are you well? Are you still hanging with Suni? Is your father doing well? How is he doing at work? He won't respond to my letters. I have yet to hear from you as well. I hope nothing is wrong. Baby, I love you and your father and I miss you both. I'll be coming home soon. I love you very much. Tell you daddy that I say hi. See you soon baby.
Love, mommy
Cassidy placed the pen down on the bed softly. She closed the cover of her notebook carefully and looked up at the window. Her stringy, discolored hair fell passed her eyes and she stood slowly, her legs shaking. She braced herself on the bars across the window and drew her eyes upward. The trees blew softly in the wind. Cassidy placed her forehead on the window and sighed softly as she started to cry.
A/N: Ok guys. I know this may be confusing. So if you get a little lost just let me know and I will try to clarify it for you. I hope I still have some of your attention yet. If not, I guess I am writing this for the pleasure of wrtiting it. Please review. Thanks. love Ashley