It really has been a long time, hasn't it?
I guess that is a good thing. Since it means I didn't need them to be here...
Until now.
Have you ever sat upright in bed at night? Everyone is asleep, but you aren't, and when you realize this, suddenly you feel utterly lost and alone. Suddenly those small daily problems seem insoluble. Suddenly everyone is against you. Suddenly your mind goes wild.
It's always good have someone to hold you then.
Midnight Talk
You sit in the darkness
It is way past eleven
You're feeling so helpless
Pushed right out of heaven
You clutch at your pillow
And try to hold back
Not to drown in your sorrow
Hold on to what you lack
You feel guilty to call them
After hours and days
But you still hold on for them
To come and to raise
Then he's there and you grip
Grip his arms and his hands
If he leaves, you will trip
You will loose your defense
He waits while you ponder
You relax in his glow
And if he does wonder
Then he doesn't show
You think of your family
And you think of his
And how yours might never see
And how he is missed
You tear at his skin
And guilt tears at your guts
But is it a sin
To be completely nuts?
He won't ask you what's wrong
Truth be told you don't know
But the silence is strong
Has been days in a row
Sometimes nothing's unbearable
And the world is a pain
Sometimes void is a wearable
And sunshine is rain
You reach out for the phone
And you call your best friend
But she is not at home
You don't know where she went
You call out for your mum
Who's in bed, fast asleep
And you will her to come
When she doesn't, you weep
In your mind you call out
To the one who is there
Who won't comment your pout
But who's solid as air
Still he whispers to you
It is time to sleep tight
This day was not your cue
But tomorrow just might
So sleep tight, little miss
Do not fear, do not wake
Don't waste life here like this
Don't yet pull up your stake
Little miss, listen up
You are loved, don't you see
You have friends, little cub
And a great family...
And you shout, just be silent!
Because what does he know?
When the moon hides its crescent
And shadows sweep low?
And you hate your behaviour
And you hate how he's right
But you're glad he's your saviour
Yet another black night
And you sit in the darkness
And midnight passed by
And you feel weak and helpless
But you promised to try