Never Look Back

Chapter Fourteen

I pulled Daryl with me going down the steps quickly to the small party with everyone. Carol and Merle were drinking and so was Rick and Shane who were acting all friendly with each other but it was probably so Rick would pass out and then he could have his fun with Lori again even though she's pregnant with possibly another man's child.

Glenn and Maggie were drinking slightly and Beth was helping Hershal to his seat and I saw her walk over to Rick and give him a hug. He wrapped one arm around her and I saw Maggie looking their way. Beth let go of him and rubbed his shoulder before coming back over to the little area we had made as our living room. I sat down on the ground and pulled Daryl with me.

We had situated ourselves so that I was sitting down Indian style on the ground and Daryl was laid out with his upper back against my legs and his head resting on my stomach. His feet were stretched out in front of him and the crossbow was next to us.

Maggie had her head in Glenn's lap while he played with her hair and Carol seemed to be getting slightly cozy with merle. Their shoulders touching now.

"How did ya'll manage to meet anyway?" I asked.

"Well isn't that a story" Merle laughed and he told me about how he had to go get Daryl from the site where they were working. They had driven home and gotten all their shit and started towards the forest where they knew the land and could hunt. Daryl had seen their camp and told Merle about it apparently and they planned to rob them and head out towards the middle of the country where it was more rural.

"Wow" I remarked. I didn't think that they could ever have robbed the group and head out on their own. I think hearing that confirmation made Shane uncomfortable because his knuckles were white on the bottle he was holding.

"Thank god I got here on time or ya'll would've been in a pickle if yeh tried that. Some jack ass tried to do that while I was crossing into Georgia and his ass ended up in a river" I laughed and I felt Daryl's chuckles. He had a bottle of southern comfort in his hands and took a swig from it occasionally.

"Oh I'd be afraid of her. She goes nuts on walkers" Glenn laughed and I nodded.

"Maggie and I are an unbeatable team of walker destroyers. I think we could take on you Dixon boys and give you a run for yer money" I noted and Merle snorted.

"Ain't nothing that can kill a Dixon" Daryl huffed and Merle lifted his glass as if to say I agree with you.

"Now she didn't say anything about killing one of you. I think she'd be quite upset but we could probably give you a run for your money" Maggie said putting her fist up and I did the same. We were apocalyptic soul mates for sure.

"Ight girlies. After we sleep this off maybe we'll see. Now how's about we talk about the china man getting a girlfriend. How'd you manage that?" Merle asked teasing Glenn.

"He's Korean" Daryl muttered.

"I actually pursued him. Poor thing was shaking in his boots" Maggie laughed and nuzzled Glenn while he laughed awkwardly. He was drinking slightly but probably not enough to get drunk. Hershal was laughing away at his expense and had his own bottle of beer. Beth looked so content you couldn't even tell something bad had happened to her.

Lori was nowhere to be seen which worried me though.

I stole the bottle of southern comfort from Daryl and took a swig. It burned in my throat but I needed just a little something and I doubt there would be any wine around here anywhere. The conversation was light and airy for once which was nice. We were actually enjoying ourselves.

"Oh Sweetie will you please teach me how to do that hip movement" Carol was asking me and of course I agreed. I had told her before I would teach her how to belly dance. I moved from Daryl and he sat up on his elbows instead of being supported by me.

I grabbed Carol from her seat and brought her over to the side but we were quickly pushed in the center of everyone except for T-Dog and Shane who were off to the side talking.

I rolled up my hoodie slightly so she could see my hips better and she did the same. I went on the tips of my toes practically and lifted one hip then lifted my arms up and she repeated everything I did. I was slightly tipsy after drinking the southern comfort. I lifted my other hip up and dropped the other down and she repeated.

"Now we're going to contract our lower stomach and push out the upper and then do it in reverse for a tummy roll "I slapped my stomach slightly for emphasis and did a basic roll and started to do the hip movements with it. She was a little wobbly with it but was getting the hang of it.

"Oh Chelle! How did you do that thing" she was pointing to her rear end and I nearly doubled over laughing. I slowly started to contract all of my stomach and stick my ass out slightly and started moving faster with my hips rocking slightly which gave it the affect I was moving my ass quickly. If I had beads it would have sounded like I was just jiggling my ass.

"Once you master the roll you can do that. Also just moving around a lot helps. I started to roll my hips and step one way the other and twirled around before doing I again. Lifting my arms up gracefully and setting them back down.

"Oh you'll have to teach me when I'm a little less snookered" She laughed and brought her arm around me.

I couldn't help but cover my mouth to giggle. She went back over to merle to show him and he seemed to really like what I had taught her. He grabbed her hand and she pulled him up. It was funny seeing such a gruff looking man to be dancing with a fragile woman. He was laughing slightly though.

I walked back over to Daryl and ignored everyone else. He patted his lap and sat up. I put one leg on either side of him and slowly sunk down and sat on his lap and wrapped my legs around his waist. My hands found their way to his shoulders.

"Your brother sure is something else" I told him and he laughed and brought his hands down to my hips.

"Well can't blame 'im if yer dancin like tat" He said and I smirked and did a small hip roll against him and he growled and stopped my moving when he held my hips down. I pouted playfully and he just rolled his eyes.

"Stop it" He hissed and I just groaned and got off his lap and sat down next to him. I lie on the ground and put my head back with my hands under my head. I was just being silly. Maybe he wasn't a drunk who was horny or was touchy feely. Maybe he was a mean drunk. I didn't know anything about him when he was so for all I know I could be poking the bear.

"Chelle" He said and lay down next to me and rolled near me.

"What?" I tried to act like I wasn't mad but I knew he probably already knew that. Hell Merle and Carol had already snuck away somewhere probably getting something and here I couldn't even tease him a bit but he did before to me back at the camp.

"I don't…like that public shit…makes meh uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable to see it te, okay?" He said and he sounded irritated. I turned towards him and nodded with a fake smile on my face. Was he embarrassed of me?

Instead of staying there though he grabbed my hand and hoisted me up with him and pulled me over towards the hallway, his crossbow slung on his other shoulder away from me. The group was enjoying themselves too much for them to notice him and I slip away.

We were back in the medical room and he pushed his crossbow onto one of the tables. I stood at the entrance and looked around before he pulled me in and shut the door quietly. He grabbed my waist and put me on the table next to his crossbow.

"I don't understand Rheims. Why?"

"Why what?" I asked.

"Why you wanna hook up with someone like me? I don't get it yer like the artist type right? All liberal and shit and yeh should probably be with someone more like yeh. I can't be that artsy guy. Imma outdoor, crossbow wielding, redneck that dun do relationships." He finished.

I felt bad for laughing at him but he just didn't get it and it was okay that he didn't understand. He looked pissed off by the fact I was up here laughing but I grabbed onto his shirt before he could go anywhere.

"Daryl, if you hadn't noticed, the world has gone to shit. I was never looking for an artsy boy. I was looking for a man and never found one until now. I don't do relationships either. In fact I was pretty much married to my school work" I said and kept my hands latched onto his shirt. I didn't want him leaving me.

"I can't do that though the whole marriage thing. No marriage, no kids, no white picket fence. Yer momma would probably want that but I can't." He explained.

"Never wanted that. My dad kind of ruined the whole wanting marriage and kid's thing for me and I hate the color white. I'd rather be in a prison with some guy im extremely attracted too and have a good time with." I smiled and pulled him closer to me and he just stared at me for a moment. When he stared it was never in a bad way but he analyzed everything including me.

"I'm serious" I said and his head hung slightly before he brought it back up and cupped my face bringing it close to his. I pushed myself forward to meet his lips. I needed something a bit more than the kissing as much as I enjoyed it.

His hands worked their way into my hair and he pressed my up against him holding my lips against his. I smiled against his lips and locked my legs around his waist. I wasn't letting him go this time as easily. His lips were against mine moving roughly and his tongue had snuck its way past my lips and against my tongue. My arms moved over his shoulders. I felt his hands move under my top against my back igniting my skin; he left the feeling of being on fire while he moved from my lower back to my upper one.

His breath was cold against my skin when his lips trailed down from my lips to my neck and to the spot he had chosen to be his mark. I felt him start to suck on my skin and I moaned and rolled my hips against his. His hands gripped my thighs and he grunted against my neck.

His bucked up against me and I could feel his erection against my core. I hissed slightly when his sucking got harder and I knew he was leaving me a hickey. I ran my hands over his hard chest and moved under his shirt. He leaned back slightly to help me pull it off of him.

I hadn't ever seen a man like him but jus he boys. He had hair on his chest and his abs weren't as define as some of the guys that I had seen before but he wasn't flimsy. They were defined and he was hard for the most part. I ran my hands over his chest and traced the tattoo he had over his heart. It must have been his mother's name or something but I didn't question it. I looked up and his eyes were slightly hooded. He moved my hair from my neck and admired his handy work on my neck.

I leaned forward hesitantly and kissed some of the scars that were on his chest and then the tattoo over his heart. Lightly I grazed his nipple with my tongue and he smirked and bucked up against me and started to rub rhythmically against my pants. His jeans were tight on him, and his bulge was visible and I was able to feel a lot.

I gasped when he pressed harder against me and it hit a spot that made me want to purr. I held on tighter and rolled my hips in rhythm with him and he pushed me down to lay against the table. I lay against the table while his hands worked my shirt over my head but kept it so that it was still on my arms keeping them above my head so he didn't have to hold my arms.

"Dar-"he covered my mouth with his and his hands moved up my sides and finally I felt his hands kneading my breasts. I felt his thumbs run over my hardened nipples. I moaned against his lips, every time he rubbed my nipples with his thumb was like an electric current straight to my clit.

I arched up and tried to move my arms but they were bound under my sweater. I groaned and he moved down to my breasts taking one of my hardened nipples in his mouth, his tongue twirling around it. His teeth scraped against my areola. I hissed when his hips made contact with mine.

"Daryl" I moaned when the door was thrown open and Shane came in, his eyes wide and wild like he had seen a ghost.

"Walkers have gotten in and Loris in labor!" he yelled. Daryl growled and his head snapped up and grabbed his crossbow before slamming the door shut on Shane.

"Tell the bitch to birth er own kid" He yelled and waited at the door for me to pull my shirt back on. I was so damn worked up from all this teasing and now I wasn't even getting the payout. I moved over to Daryl and he pulled his arm around me and we went outside. Walkers were getting in from somewhere and it wasn't the front of the prison.

"Everyone! Get to higher ground and block the stairs" Rick ordered pointing towards everyone to move separate ways. The guys were sent to go find the leak where all of the walkers were coming while Maggie and I were in charge of finding a safe place for her to give birth. I quickly kissed him before he was shoved off with the rest of them and I grabbed my gun and Maggie grabbed Lori.

We pulled her through a few hallways while Carol and Beth were taking Carl somewhere safe.

We end up running into them and they join our small group. I took down a few walkers and wipe the blood from my face. I shot Maggie a look; Lori's contractions are coming closer and closer. Finally I kick down a door and make them all shuffle in and shut it pressing my body against it.

"Carol you need to help her!" I urged and Carol looked panicked.

"I've never done a C-section and that's what Hershal said she needed. I haven't done one on a living person" She said and I looked at Maggie and tossed her my knife.

"Do it then. Hershel's your dad you must have picked up something from him." I told her and Lori was screaming and yelling as the contractions hit closer. She wasn't ever going to be able to do it vaginally. She wouldn't make it either.

I held the door shut when I felt walkers moving against it.

"Now!" I yelled and Maggie started to drag the blade across her lower abdomen while Beth held Carl close to her. Lori let out a blood curdling scream and held still while Maggie cut her open and started to get the baby out of her.

"Oh give her to me" Carol said and moved forward to grab the baby. I opened the door and slipped through it to get rid of some of the walkers. I kicked one in the stomach and shot the other one in the head before moving back inside.

Lori was lying on the ground with Carl over her crying. The baby wasn't attached to its umbilical cord anymore and was being swaddled in Maggie's hoodie. Lori was crying and dying all at the same time, there was no way for us to stitch up her stomach. She laughed slightly and I kept the door shut. Carl wept and Carol was sobbing while trying to rock the baby in her arms to the best of her ability.

"Mom…"

"Oh baby boy. Take care of her…and your father. You need to protect them" Lori said softly and caressed Carl's cheek. She looked like she was on deaths door.

"Chelle" she said and Maggie took my spot while I walked over towards her.

"I'm sorry…I was jealous. You're good for this group….will you please make sure he's okay" she had tears streaming down her face by the time I knelt next to her. I nodded and took her hand in mine. I stroked her hand with my thumb.

"I will always be here for him. I promise you that. He'll be saved and love and so will your baby girl" I told her and stroked her hair. She nodded and quickly blinked and looked over at me again.

"Tell Rick I love him…always have and I always will…I didn't mean…it happened and then I just couldn't stop. Shane he…" she trailed off and choked slightly. Her eyes stopped searching the room and she stared blankly up at the ceiling. Carol was sobbing at this point and Carl had gone quiet. Soon the light went out of her eyes and she was expressionless. I paid my respect and prayed for her. My hand ghosted over her eyes and shut them.

"Carl we…maybe you should wait by Maggie…" I told him. We would have to shoot her in the head; we didn't know how much time we had with her body being dead. I sighed and stood up and pulled out my gun and waited for him to move but instead he took the gun from my hand.

"She was my mom…" he trailed off. I nodded and pulled him against me while he aimed the gun at his head. I wrapped my fingers around his to make sure it was aimed right. I waited for him to pull the trigger. It would take a while but maybe it would give him his peace to let him know he sent his mom to heaven.

"Remember what I told you. The next storm…well listen for them and laugh with them" I was tearing up now and held him tight against me. No one should ever have to bury a parent this young. Lori wasn't always the best woman but she wasn't a mother and didn't deserve to die. She made some bad decisions. I didn't now Ricks and Hers relationship so I had no right to judge her, none of us did but we did and she judged right back.

"Carl…I can-"I was cut off by the kick back of the gun. The shot rang through the enclosed space and it caused a collective silence. I bowed my head and pulled Carl against me as he cried against my stomach. I rubbed his back.

"We need to get her to Rick…she needs her daddy and big brother" Maggie said sniffling. I nodded and Carl walked with me. I held my gun out for Maggie who took it and went in the front. I took the back with Carl while Carol walked in between us with the baby along with Beth. I made sure to lock the door and mark it as where Lori was.

We couldn't find them for about ten minutes before we walked out into the courtyard to see the men upset and talking with one another. I wiped my tears but it only made me sob harder. How could we tell rick he lost his wife?

Maggie was the first out of the cage and ran to Glenn while Beth went to her father and held onto him tightly. She was sobbing. I Held Carl to me while we walked out. Shane and Rick looked over at us expecting to see her come out but she wasn't there.

I lead Carl over to Rick and quickly pulled him into a hug.

"I'm so sorry…we have your daughter" I was barely able to get a word out. Carol came over and showed Rick his daughter but he seemed confused.

"Lori…where. Where is Lori?" He asked.

"She…couldn't make it…" I trailed off and started to sob. Everyone was quiet. I let go of Carl and let him walk to his dad but instead he stayed with me.

"Dad…" He trailed off. Rick grabbed his son and pulled him to him. His eyes were starting to get red and he began to cry.

"No…no...NO" he was angry now and walked over to a corpse and kicked it. I stepped away and walked over to Daryl who took me in his arms and let me sob against his chest. We couldn't lose anyone else. I held onto him tight and I heard Rick crying out. I couldn't imagine what he felt or what Carl felt. They would need to have a long talk after all this about what happened.

I turned slightly to see Rick on the ground crying. Shane stood their emotionless and had a blank stare at the ground. Carol was keeping the baby quiet while Merle was just staring at them. He probably wasn't someone who dealt with emotions like Daryl.

I sniffled and wiped my eyes again and just held onto him. I definitely couldn't lose him, I would be devastated. The baby started crying and I just reminded me of Lori. I needed to always keep her kids safe no matter what. I would risk my lives for both of them, I made a promise and I would never let anything happen to them no matter what.

"Shh…Chelle. It'll be okay" Daryl mumbled against my hair. His cheek was pressed against the top of my head. I nodded and closed my eyes. It had to be okay, we needed to do a run now we weren't prepared to feed a baby or do anything else. We could feed it what we had right now since we had a little milk that we kept in the snow.

"Carol we need to get her inside…she needs to be warm" I said. My voice sounded raspy from what I heard and Merle quickly escorted Carol inside. I noticed Beth walk over to rick while Hershel went inside of the cage. She walked over to Carl first and kissed his head before making her way over to Rick. She whispered something to him that got him to get up. She walked him towards the entrance and Maggie and Glenn followed.

I looked up at Daryl and nodded. He kept his arms around me as we walked towards the inside. Rick wouldn't be the same after this. We needed to go on a run for more baby formula. We only had the little bit that we had picked up from one of the houses that had kids. I needed the kids to be fine and I needed Daryl to tell me he would always be here for me.

/ Lori has died. I felt so bad writing it like that and I wanted it to be more heartfelt but she hadn't been the nicest of people at the end but at the very end. She was just a mother wanting what was best for her babies.

Chelle will protect them I can guarantee that.

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