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Setting: G.O.W.Y#1 (Chapter 4a)
It's another morning and today, just like some mornings we sometimes have, we're having an early start. But I can't help but be worried about how onee-chan's being more unusually lazy and drowsy than she normally is today. Is it because of last night? I was really surprised to see her come home in a bad mood. I've never seen her that mad especially about not getting to eat any snacks during club yesterday. She said it's because Tsumugi-san chose to hang out with Nodoka-san instead of them. That being said, Tsumugi-san seems to be acting strange since yesterday and I've been planning to ask her directly once I see her. What is she really doing? More importantly did onee-chan really get jealous? She said she's not but I have no other explanation as to why she's so angry last night. But she seems to be feeling better now.
Also…I haven't been able to do it today either…It's been days now since I got in the mood. This is the first time I've gone through this long. Which is very horrible of me because I shouldn't be thinking about these things – onee-chan's matter is more important right now. However, I can't stop thinking about how I almost lost control of myself when I was alone with Azusa-chan and how Tachibana-sensei was able to tell what I'm trying to hide yesterday. I was so nervous but thankfully, I was able to stop myself and she didn't tell Azusa-chan. I don't know what would happen if she found out the truth about me and I'm too scared to know. I'll just worry about it when that happens.
"Uuuiiiii…," onee-chan said lethargically.
"What is it onee-chan?"
"It's so hoooooot…"
"Well it is summer already."
"Please do something…change the weather Ui…"
"I can't do that onee-chan."
"WAH!" onee-chan got startled with something cold that suddenly touched her cheek.
It was Nodoka-san holding up a cold bottle of juice, "Here. You look like you really need it."
"Thank you Nodoka-chan!" onee-chan excitedly said and grabbed the bottle.
It seems she's forgotten about what happened last night, I thought.
"Well I see that helped bring back your energy," Nodoka-sa said with a gentle smile on her face.
Having this walk to school, just the three of us, really brings back memories – how nostalgic. This scenario really makes me smile, it feels peaceful – I love this kind of moments. And I'm almost certain that Nodoka-san feels the same way. I wonder if onee-chan also feels this way. As I begin to see the school's gate, I can't help but wish that we could have this kind of walk a little longer. "Nodoka-chan, Yui-chan, Ui-chan! Good morning!" And I immediately knew my wish of mine was instantly denied when someone called out to us and saw it was Tsumugi-san. I quickly checked if onee-chan is in a bad mood again and let out a sigh of relief that everything's still good. Thank goodness, it seems she doesn't remember, now if only Tsumugi-san would just not mention anything about yest –
"By the way, thanks for yesterday Nodoka-chan. I had fun," Tsumugi-san said before clinging on the president and most likely made everything from good to bad.
Why does she have to say that?!
"Tch." And as expected, onee-chan is mad again.
Now Nodoka-san's about to say something to onee-chan but she completely ignored her and, "Azu-nyan!" quickly ran towards Azusa-chan with a big grin on her face and hugged her like always.
Somehow, that put me in a bad mood now too. Why Azusa-chan of all people? And why does she always let her do that to her anyway? I'm really trying my best not to get mad about it because first of all, onee-chan was just mad at Nodoka-san and second of all, onee-chan doesn't know about our relationship so I shouldn't complain. I suddenly remembered that what just happened could also have a bad effect on Nodoka-san, so I quickly turned my attention to her and I was right. She's crying. Though it's not a good I sight it made me happy because I know it has a good meaning behind it. I put a hand on her shoulder and offered her my handkerchief. "Looks to me you're not confused anymore and you already have the answer," I said to her. She took my handkerchief and wiped her tears while saying, "Thank you Ui, I…I'll head on first. I have some business with Sawako-sensei," then gave it back to me before quickly making her way to the school.
"Good thing you didn't run with Nodoka-san, Tsumugi-san," I said shifting my attention to the one who I've been meaning to talk to since yesterday and the only one who stayed behind. "So could you explain your actions towards Nodoka-san?"
"Whatever do you mean Ui-chan?"
"Are you seriously going to play du – "
"Did you know that Nodoka-chan's leaving? "
"What do you mean? Where to?...,"
"Abroad, she and her family are leaving this Saturday. That's 3 days from now."
"Eh?...," was the only thing I could manage to say.
She's leaving?! Abroad?! And just like the others, I run to the school and head straight to the faculty. I didn't want to believe it but I couldn't think of any reason why Tsumugi-san would lie about that. I want answers…since when did they decide to leave? If it's true why didn't Nodoka-san tell us about it?!
Everything's running so fast in my mind – I'm internally in panic. I waited anxiously outside the staff office as I do my best to arrange all of my questions in my head. Five minutes felt an hour, I don't know how many times I paced back and forth – when is she going to come out? And just then, as if on cue, she did come out of the faculty. After excusing herself I immediately approached her.
"Nodoka-san…!"
"Ui…? What's wrong? Why do you look so worried?"
"I-Is it true that you're leaving for abroad 3 days from now?!"
"Hm? Yeah…how did you know that?"
Huh? Something's not right, I noticed. "Why are you so relaxed about it?"
"Huh? I don't believe I understand what you mean Ui."
"You guys are leaving right?"
"Right. To Chicago…"
"3 days from now…"
"Yeah…for the whole summer…"
"S-Summer?"
"Yes. We'll go to Chicago 3 days from now to spend the whole summer vacation there."
I suddenly felt like my brain stopped working. "…eh?"
"What is it Ui?" Nodoka-san asked looking confused herself.
"Then…i-it's just for this summer?"
"Yes. Why? Did you think we'd really move there?"
"Well…I…I thought…"
"Like what Nodoka-chan said, it's just for the summer Ui-chan," someone suddenly said.
I looked and saw it's, Tsumugi-san.
"Mugi…did you say we're moving to Chicago?"
"Oh no Nodoka-chan. I just said that you guys are leaving this weekend," Tsumugi-san answered and turned to me, "…I was about to say 'just for this summer' but you didn't let me finish Ui-chan and just ran off."
"I-I'm sorry…!" I immediately said feeling very embarrassed.
"There's nothing for you to worry about Ui, if that ever happens you and Yui will be the first ones to know," Nodoka-san said.
"I'm really sorry…," I said again still feeling very embarrassed.
"It's fine anyone would've easily misunderstood that, I'm just glad it got cleared up. I did plan to let you guys know a day before we leave so I could ask what you guys want for souvenirs but since you know now why don't you think of what you want me to bring back for you guys, okay?"
"O-Okay…thanks Nodoka-san…"
"I'll just drop these by the student council, see you guys later," Nodoka-san said referring to the documents she had and walked away. But after a few steps she stopped and turned around. "Ui…," she called to me while gesturing to come to her.
"What is it Nodoka-san?" I asked as a walked to her.
She leaned in and whispered, "Are you and Azusa-chan going out?"
"EH?! How did – er no! We're not – "
"I overheard you two talking the other day in the bathroom…"
The time Azusa-chan brought me lunch, I remembered.
"I'm sorry…I didn't mean to listen…"
"Uh…no…it's okay…" Nodoka-san knows! I can't believe she gets to know about us first before onee-chan. "…umm…Nodoka-san could you – "
"Don't worry I won't tell anybody."
"Thank you Nodoka-san…"
She then smiled at me and patted me on the head before saying, "I'm really happy for you Ui," then finally made her way.
Which leaves me alone with Tsumugi-san once again.
"Oh my!" Tsumugi-san suddenly said behind me.
"Wha – ?! Did you listen to our conversation?!"
She just chuckled and smiled.
Somehow I'm already really panicking inside. This isn't supposed to happen! "Please don't tell anybody about me and Azusa-chan especially onee-chan. I want to be to the one to tell her about our relationship."
"Rela – *Gasp!* you and Azusa-chan are going out?"
"Huh?! I thought – you – " I'm so confused now.
"I what?...I didn't really say anything about what you guys talked about."
"But – !" She has a point, it's my fault. However, when I look at her just smiling at me, I somehow get the feeling that Tsumugi-san is enjoying herself. Did she trick me or something? My head suddenly felt heavy so I leaned on the wall while putting a hand on my forehead. Ughhh…my head.
"Ui-chan are you okay? I didn't know that me realizing your relationship would stress you out so much. Don't worry 'cause I'm not really planning to tell anybody about it," Tsumugi-san said.
"Really?"
"Yup. I promise," she continued to smiled at me.
She seems sincere.
"But you have to promise something too…"
"W-What is it?"
"For now, don't tell Yui-chan about Nodoka-chan's vacation, okay?"
"Why not?"
"You'll see by the end of this week," she just said with a smile. "Everything's fine, don't worry," then she walked away.
I don't really know anything about Tsumugi-san other than she's the light music club's keyboardist, onee-chan's friend and rich. And today I got the chance to learn something about her again and that is: she's hard to understand sometimes. What she said to me really confused me and I wanted her to tell me more, but she won't do that no matter how much I ask. I guess I'll just have to wait and see like she said. By the end of the week, huh? I'm sure she probably won't do anything to hurt onee-chan in any way, right?
And so, I left – unsatisfied. As I walk to my classroom, ideas of what could Tsumugi-san be thinking pop up in my head. This will probably be on my mind all day, I said to myself, or so I thought. As I near our room, I saw onee-chan still clinging on to Azusa-chan.
"Let me go senpai and go to your own classroom!" Azusa-chan protested.
"Eh? Don't be so mean Azu-nyan…"
"I said let go!"
She keeps saying that but she's not making any effort to really make her let go. I noticed and I can definitely feel it; that this feeling of jealousy inside of me is already starting to grow even more. Nothing like before our relationship started. My heart's pounding like crazy and my hand trembling from clenching my bag too much. I want to run there and pull Azusa-chan away from onee-chan then just tell her to deal with her issues with Nodoka-san first. I've decided, I said. And as I'm about to make my first step I'm pretty sure something inside me shouted 'Stop!' – I did. That's right…onee-chan doesn't know anything. As much as I want to tell her everything on my mind, I need to keep this to myself for now. It's not the right time. Now, I don't know what to do. I want to put some distance between them but I don't know if I'm able to do it calmly and naturally as to not make onee-chan notice anything.
Tears are already welling up in my eyes because of this dilemma. It hurts. I feel stupid for being this way when it's our decision to keep our relationship for now. I know I'm jealous and I know how onee-chan is with Azusa-chan, I'm prepared for that much. Then why does it still hurts so much? As I watch my sister clinging on with my girlfriend I suddenly realized the reason why. It's because they're so close to each other…physically. Aside from that one kiss Azusa-chan gave me on the cheek all we do is hug too – just like them right now. There's not much difference with what we get from Azusa-chan. It's not fair. I want to feel special because I am her girlfriend. Is it too selfish of me to want more? But what exactly do I want from her? It's stupid to even ask that question for in the deepest part of me, where I hide things no one should ever know, lies the answer I already know. It's something I want and my assurance but can't have.
Thinking about it somehow made me crave for it. Just when I forgot about it. Seeing Azusa-chan being very physically close to someone else feeds my feeling of hunger for our own intimacy more. This is bad, I –
"Want me to pull them apart?" someone said beside me and startled me.
"Jun-chan…"
She smiled at me and asked again, "Well?"
By any chance…did Jun-chan realize…? "Ah…no…it's not what you think Jun-chan," I said forcing a smile.
"Really? 'Cause it's written all over you face, you know?"
"Eh?" Is it really that obvious?
"I know you really want to run over there and explode at your sister right now but trying desperately to stop and calm yourself because Yui-senpai doesn't really know anything yet."
I shouldn't be surprised because Jun-chan knows our circumstances and is a good friend. I feel touc –
"…So I, Suzuki Jun, the best friend you ever had in your entire life, will volunteer myself to do task of separating them right now."
I stared at her for a while after she said that. Somehow she ruined the mood but…, "Pfft!" I couldn't help but laugh.
"Hey! What's so funny? That's not a very nice thing to do after a friend offers a helping hand."
"I'm sorry Jun-chan…it's just that you ruined the mood…," I said after wiping a tear.
"What mood? Jeez…," she responded then smiled at me, "That look is way better on you. Well off I go now," before running towards Azusa-chan and jumped on her causing all of them fall. After a few laughs from Jun-chan and some more shouting from Azusa-chan, she managed to casually get Azusa-chan away from onee-chan and into the classroom.
Thank you Jun-chan.
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