"I think we should go now." James said, slowly backing out of the room.

"I couldn't agree more." Remus agreed and Lily, Peter, James and Remus left Mary and Sirius alone to make out and continued their game in another room.

"So Remus, Truth or Dare?" Lily asked looking Remus in the eye.

"Well i've always had a weakness when it comes to dares, so I'm going to have to pick truth." Remus replied.

"Truth it is. Anwer this, what is your deepest, darkest secret?"

"Should we tell her?" James asked looking at Remus.

Remus hesitated, a sceptical look on his face. "She deserves to know." Peter said

"Know what?" Lily asked looking between James, Remus and Peter.

"Well..." Started Remus, "I'm sorry, I, I... I don't think I can tell you." Lily looked at him angrily.

"You can't expect me to just let it go? Why won't you tell me? Why the hell did you bring it up if your not going to tell me? Why are you being so insufferable?"

"I just can't, I'm sorry, I'm not ready to tell you," Remus said looking at Lily, "Are you going to hurt me with ice now?"

"I don't care. Do what you like, it doesn't concern me, apparantly," Lily said angrily, getting up and storming out of the room.

"Why the hell didn't you tell her?" James asked bewildered.

"I can't. Lily's really nice and fun and everything but what would happen if she was angry at me and used it against me. I'd have to leave Hogwarts." Remus replied.

"That's how lowly you think of Lily? She would never do something like that. I can't belive you would think that!" James said also storming out of the room.

"Well, that went well." Peter said jokingly.

"Leave me alone." Remus said leaving the room.

"Great, everyone hates each other. This is going to be a fun week." Peter said sarcastically, standing up and leaving the room.

--

Mary and Sirius broke apart after kissing passionatly non stop for 5 minutes. "Where is everyone?" Mary asked, standing up.

"I don't know. I think they left."

"You don't say."

James chose that moment to storm in.

"What is wrong with everyone?" James cried, throwing his hands up in frustration.

"I don't know, why do you want to know?" Sirius asked looking confused. James looked at hm annoyedly.

"Moony is being so self centered!" James finished.

"You know, I'll leave you two to have some guy to guy time, bye!" Mary jumped up and ran out of the room leaving an awkward silence.

"Prongs, what happened?"

"Well we were continuing truth or dare and Lily asked Remus what his deepest darkest secret was and Remus was about to tell her and then he chickened out and after Lily stormed out he said it was because he thinks Lily might use his secret against him if she had a fight with him." James finished looking angry.

'Wait a second, this is Lily we're talking about, the one that has nothing but is amazingly loyal..."

"Exactly!" he confirmed, looking triumphant. "I finally score a date with Lily, and Remus might have ruined everything!"

"James, talking to me isn't going to fix anything, you have to solve this problem by talking heart to heart with Remus."

"When the hell did you get so deep and meaningfull?"

"Well being in a serious and passionate realationship does this to some people."

"Padfoot, it hasn't even been an hour."

"Yeah well my soul has been stretched to it's artistic limits."

"Right.. I'm going to talk to Remus." James said leaving the room.

--

Lily re-read the letter that she had hidden in the bottom of her trunk.

Lily,

Mum and Dad are dead. They died in a car crash on Monday. I recieved and sold the house and most of the furniture except for yours which I burned. We each get 2.5 million dollars yours is in a bank account in the family bank. I am marrying Vernon Dursley in 3 weeks. I do not want you to be there nor do i want to speak to you ever again.

Petunia.

Did Petunia even care? She sounded so heartless and cold. What had happened to the close relationship that her and Tuney had? She wanted her back. She wanted her parents back. And Tuney, she was as good as dead, wasn't she?

Lily couldn't hold it back anymore, her body shaking violently and tears running down her face as she cried silently. She had lost everything, she didn't have a family and her supposed friends had been keeping her in the dark about something that was obviously highly important. She couldn't keep doing this, pretending everything was okay when she was struggling to act normally. She walked into her bathroom and splashed her face with water, looking at her reflection, staring back at her was a perfectly normal, attractive looking 17 year old teenager. It couldn't have been further from the truth, James' parent's were nice enough but they weren't her family, never would be. She looked at he reflection again and a tear slid down her cheek, Lily sat down on the cold tiled floor and put her head in her hands.

--

Mary was standing outside Lily's door knocking, knocking again, she silently turned the handle and stepped into the room and shut the door behind her. There was no one in the room but she could hear noises coming from the bathroom.

"Lily? Are you okay?" Mary said cautiously whilst knocking on the door. No Answer. "Lily I know you're in there."

"I'm fine! Just leave me alone!" she said, straining to keep the truth from her voice. But Mary had known her for too long to not know that this was the voice she put on when she wanted to cover up the fact that she was upset.

"Lily, I'm coming in," Mary said opening the door and stepping into the bathroom, she took one look at Lily sitting on the floor "Oh, Lily," she sighed, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing!" she insisted, tears streaming down her face.

Mary looked sceptically at Lily, "You know you can tell me anything Lily. I won't tell anyone."

"A don't have anyone like you guys do," she hesitated, not sure if she should continue. "I have no parents, no sister. I'm all alone. What's going to happenwhen I leave school?" she asked desperately.

"Oh Lily! You're our family now! You're welcome to stay at any of our houses, I know James would be happy to have you anytime."

"Oh really. What kindof family relationship would that be? Everyone keeps secrets from me!"

"What? What do you mean?" she asked curiously, momentarily forgetting to be as comforting aspossible.

"Remus has been keeping things from me, from both of us."

"What the hell are you talking about?" Mary asked.

"Remus refused to tell me his deepest, darkest secret, because he obviously thinks we're not good enough friends," Lily exaggerated.

"Oh really, well I'm going to give him a piece of my mind! I'm going to go stick his wand up his-"

"MARY! As much as I hate him at the moment that is really rude, besides it obviously important if he doesn't want to tell us."

"Lily, you're such a push over! Get a grip! Besides it's probably not bad or scary or anything, his secret's probably just embarrassing!"

"Yeah, sure." Lily said standing up an walking back into her bedroom.

"Lily, you've got to talk to Remus," Mary said, following her.

"OK, fine," Lily said standing up and walking out of the room.

--

"What, the, hell."

"Erm, excuse me?"

"Why the hell didn't you tell her?"

"Well, I couldn't, you know?"

"Why not?"

"You've only been together for a little while, what if it all fell apart?"

"And the real reason is?"

"That is the reason!"

"Moony, why won't you tell me the real reason?"

"Fine, what if, what if Lily's afraid of me? What if she's disgusted by me? What if she never talked to me again because she thought I was a freak?"

"Mate, I'm pretty sure she won't think that way about you."

"How can you be sure? How can you be absolutly positive that she won't think I'm a freak?" Remus asked.

"Why would I think that?" Lily asked, standing in the doorway and looking very uncomfortable.

"Tell her Remus."

"..."

"MOONY, TELL HER!"

"NO!"

"TELL ME WHAT!? No, I'm sorry Remus, you don't have to tell me. Whatevr it is it's obviously really embarrassing.

James glared at Remus.

"No James, it's all right, really. I mean, even I have a secret."

James looked at her curiosly, but Remus merely smiled, "I really am sorry Lily. One day you'll know"