`Knock Knock`

"Yeah?" Yohji asked sleepy and stood up, before he opened the door he put on his trousers.

"Morning" Yohji Omi said cheerful "can I come in?"

"Sure" Yohji said confused and rubbed his eyes.

"Ken tries to deal with Chika so we have time to talk" he said in a serious tone and sat on the armchair.

Aya only blinked at Omi he needed time to focus on him "What happened?" Aya asked and tried to stand up "wait I will help you" Yohji said and saw worry in Omis eyes "don't worry Omi he got painkillers two hours ago so his world is a bit messed up"

"Then I'm relieved" he sighed and watched them "I found something about her"

"Good" Yohji said and sat next to Aya therewith his redhead can lean against him "and what did you find out?"

"You won't like it" Omi said serious "I think she's something like a stalker"

"Stalker?" Aya said shocked he had expected a lot of things but that … not really; Yohji put an arm around Aya to calm him down.

"She follows me?" Yohji said perplex "what makes you think that?"

"She's obsessed with you … she lived near your house when you were kids, after you moved away she followed you … believe it or not but her parents died through carbon monoxide poisoning … since that day she lived with her aunt at the same town as you"

"Maybe it was an accident?" Yohji said, he couldn't believe that she followed him for years.

"She's our poison queen I don't think it was an accident …. And when you moved again she moved too, she lived at the same town as you when Asuka died some people saw her at the cemetery." Yohji was shocked he didn't know what to say, he still couldn't believe it.

"After you joined Weiss she searched for you and became an assassin too" Omi continued.

Yohji stood up; Aya almost fell to the side because his only support jumped up in rage.

"She was near when Asuka died?!" he hissed "she laughed at her death?! …I'm sure she mentally danced on her grave"

"Yohji please calm down" Aya said in a soft tone "you makes me nervous" he added in a whisper "Calm down … she's still laughing about Asukas death … and you say I should calm down … damned she was the love of my life" he said and stormed out of the room, Aya sat on the bed with wide eyes and a terribly shocked and hurt expression.

"Aya he didn't mean it that way" Omi said to console him but he knew he couldn't help him so he decided to leave him alone for a while … and to stop Yohji before he could do something stupid again.

Aya lay down on the bed, he wasn't able to hold his tears back and he covered his face with his hands

~ I know that she was the love of your life but did you have to remind me?

Would you be sad when I die? Would you feel the same?

I knew everything was a lie, the only reason you stay by my side is that you're afraid of being alone.

I fight the whole time for my live because you said you can't live without me … and what did I get …. I'm still Asukas replacement

I don't want to; I don't want to be a substitute anymore! ~

Yohji went to the roof to think but Omi followed him to clarify his position

"Yohji!" he roared "do you sometimes use your brain before you say something"

"I don't want to talk, let me alone" Yohji ordered but it made Omi angrier "do you know what you've done?" he yelled "do you know what you've done to him?"

"Calm down" Yohji answered and looked down on the street "he knows that I meant it not like that"

"Are you sure?" Omi yelled "do you really think he will understand? I think he won't" he added in a low and angry tone, but loud enough for Yohji to hear it before he went back into the house.

"Did I really hurt him again?" Yohji whispered to him self "maybe I should say that I'm sorry … Omi was right" after he calmed down and cleared his head; he went back to his room.

"Aya" Yohji said and went slowly to the bed "Aya I want to talk to you"

Aya opened his eyes and looked at Yohji as if nothing had happened "yeah?"

"I want to say that I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that" Yohji said in an embarrassed tone.

"I know" Aya said and gave Yohji a soft smile "It's ok"

Yohji was relieved, for a while he wasn't sure if Aya really understood him.

"Try to sleep!" Yohji said and whipped a strand out of Ayas face "you need to rest"

Aya nodded and snuggled into the blanket he was still tired from the painkillers and he was tired of his life.

"I will go into the kitchen when you need something call me" Yohji said before he left the room, Aya act as if he would sleep.

After Yohji left Aya stared at the ceiling, he remembered his family, his smiling sister and the time he had with Weiss and especially with Yohji.

"Hey Yohji" Chika said cheerful "you're all right? You look tired"

"I'm fine" he answered and made a cup of coffee "and you?"

"Better" she said "I think I got over you"

"Good … you don't have a chance you know" he said while he watched her expression

"I know" she said and had a strange look in her eyes; Yohji didn't know what it was but it made him worry.

"I have to go to a meeting … see you later" she said and smiled at him, she was definitely trying to seduce him but he ignored it.

Omi entered the kitchen and glared at Yohji "Hey Omi … I said sorry to him" Yohji said and sat down on a chair.

"Good … and is he angry?" Omi asked and took a chair far away from Yohji

"He said he knew I didn't mean it like that" Yohji answered and sipped on his coffee

"And do you believe him?" Omi asked suspicious

"Why not?" Yohji asked confused, he didn't know a reason for Aya to lie.

"You know him, he keeps still about his thoughts and feelings; Ken and I noticed that he opened up but we don't think anymore that the reason is your relationship" Omi said serious and glared at him.

"And what should the reason be?" Yohji asked, he knew Aya was labile but it was better.

"We think he wants to left a good impression just in case he should die … it started the day Chika kissed you the first time … have you notice it?" Omi asked and stood up "take good care of him if you let him fall … Ken and I will kick your ass" he impended and went back into the shop.

"He won't …." Yohji whispered but now he wasn't sure anymore "or did he lie?"

"Aya wake up Omi prepared food for you" Yohji said and shook Aya gently "come on …."

Aya opened his eyes and looked at Yohji for a while before he gave him a soft smile "smells good"

"I help you to sit up" Yohji said and pulled Aya into an upright position, Aya stiffened a bit as Yohji touched him. His wounds hurt badly but what hurts the most was his soul, he couldn't stand Yohjis gentle touch.

"Thank you" Aya said and took the dish from the tray, Aya loved Omis cookery.

"Aya you're ok?" Yohji asked and handled him with care; there was something in Ayas eyes he didn't like.

"I'm fine" he said and looked at Yohji with a false smile "and you?"

"I'm fine … I'm fine" Yohji answered and eyed him "Omi thinks that you're lying"

"What?" Aya looked shocked, he thought he hid it well "why should he think something like that ..." he added.

"He says that you're acting and that I'm too stupid to see it" Yohji said and gave Aya a little grin.

"He's mistaken" Aya answered and looked into his dish to escape Yohjis gaze.

"really?" Yohji asked and now he could see what Omi tried to tell him, Aya built up a new protective wall.

~ How could I overlook it? Was I to busy with myself or didn't I want to see it….

Everything he did, everything he said was all an act.

You're fine …. Lie, you know what I meant … Lie, you overreacted …. Lie!

You only said the truth as you broke up with me, right? You really opened up to live a last time before you die aren't you? ~

"Don't stare at me" Aya said and blushed a bit "I will take over my shift at the shop today"

"What? No" Yohji said surprised as Aya pulled him out of his thoughts "you will stay in bed"

"Omi and Ken are working hard on the shop … I won't let them take over more of my shifts" he said and looked serious.

"No … we can close the shop earlier but I won't let you work" Yohji ordered.

"I'm bored and I hate it to sit around AND I'm the leader it is my choice if I work today or not" Aya said cold, he was sure that he opened his mouth too wide.

"So you are angry" Yohji detected and sat down next to the redhead "Aya tell me what you're thinking … I can't read your mind … I can't help you when you won't tell me a thing"

"I don't want your help … I only need your love … that's all" he said and looked deep into Yohjis eyes, he searched for a sign of love or affection but everything he saw was frustration.

"I love you how often have I to tell you that I love you" Yohji said annoyed "I really do … why can't you understand"

"You're lonely and that's the reason you're going out with me, you mistook friendship for love" Aya said and stood up.

Yohji didn't know what to say, he was overcharged with Ayas reproach, before he found his speech again Aya was gone.

Yohji ran after him "Aya wait ... We have to talk" he yelled and grabbed Ayas arm "stop"

"Let go of me" Aya said cold and struggled, his breathe rattled again.

"Aya let us talk in peace it's better for your health" Yohji said and pulled Aya back into the house but Yohji walked to fast Aya couldn't keep up with him.

"You're to fast" he gasped "I can't…" Yohji turned around and saw how the colour drained out of Ayas cheeks "I'm sorry" he whispered and stopped, they stood in the middle of the hallway. Yohjis room were only a few steps away but Aya looked like he will pass out … and It's liable to happen soon.

"Aya only a few steps" Yohji said in a soft tone but he knew the answer already, he pulled Aya into his arms and sat down with him on the floor. Aya sat between Yohjis long legs, his shoulder was pressed against Yohjis warm chest, Yohji hugged him tight and held his head against Yohjis shoulder.

"Better?" Yohji asked worried but Aya didn't respond "Aya?"

Aya could hear Yohjis strong heartbeat and he felt Yohjis warmth on his cheek, he loved the feeling but It made him so terrible sad.

"I'm not her" Aya answered after a few minutes, Yohji was relieved and sad at the same time, he was happy that Aya was still with him but Ayas sentence broke his heart.

"I know that" he said and caresses Ayas cheek "you're my Aya"

"I'm only a substitute" Aya said and grabbed Yohjis shirt, he wanted to touch him.

"You're not a substitute" Yohji whispered serious and squeezed Ayas little hand which grabbed his shirt.

"She's still the love of your live, and what am I?" Aya asked and closed his eyes.

"You're my world" Yohji said, he didn't know what he should say to make Aya believe him.

"The love of a live is more worth then the world" Aya said and tried to escape Yohjis hug, now Yohji started to be angry "Why won't you understand" he yelled "you're the one I love the most"

Aya could breathe normally again "Yeah … because she's dead" and escaped, he ran into his own room and hoped that Chika wasn't at home.

"Aya" Yohji yelled "damned" he cursed and went into the shop he needed to work … to think about it.

They didn't notice that Chika watched the whole scenario; it was a stroke of luck for her.

She waited until Yohji was gone before she entered her room "Hey Aya" she said in a happy tone.

Aya whipped a tear away and hoped that Chika didn't see it "Hey I only want one of my books" he lied.

"Don't worry it's your room" she said and smiled before she took her perfume from the table.

"Ok I found it so I will go" Aya said and looked at her, Chika moved closer to him and whispered "I knew you're the one he loves but it looks like you destroyed it"

"I'm only a substitute" Aya answered and tried to get out of the room but Chika bar his way

"He's mine you know … When you're dead he will be mine alone" she gave him an evil grin "I will kill you"

"Then do it" Aya said in a cold tone "you will be a substitute for Asuka like me"

""No I will win his heart and soul ... I won't be a substitute ...HE'S MINE" she yelled furious.