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Chapter Fourteen – And I Thought it Was Bad Already...

Kayla

Keleigh was taking me to the doctor's for my appointment. Jai didn't know, and neither did Miles – thank goodness. I was having a blood test done to see if the tests were right and I was pregnant. Gemma had still been around, talking to Jai what seemed like every time I turned around. It was beginning to severely piss me off. I had quickly written off everything Jai had said to me in the pool that day about her and us.

"Kayla?" I heard the nurse call my name. Keleigh sat and waited for me in the lobby and I went into the back with the nurse. They drew a vial of blood to run the test, and then told me they'd call me with the results. I was hoping that call would be sooner rather than later so I could know. I walked out and told Keleigh we could go.

"So what'd they say?" she asked when we got into the car.

"Nothing yet," I replied. "They just took a vial of blood and told me they'd call me with the results." the rest of the drive was quiet. I still hadn't told Jai. Hell, I still didn't know what to do with the information if the blood test came back positive. When we got back to the cottage and got inside, I saw Miles sitting on the couch. He looked cross, and that was when I realized that he was holding the tests in his hand. I was in shock.

"Keleigh, what in the hell is going on?" he asked her. She looked at me, and I looked at her in return before we both looked at Miles. "Kayla? Keleigh? Someone tell me what in the fuck is going on and why I found these tests in the bathroom!" I took matters into my own hands.

"Okay, okay chill Miles. Is Jai here?" I asked.

"No, he's at the movie set."

"Did you tell him?"

"No, Kayla, I didn't. Now can someone please tell me what the fuck is going on?"

"I think I'm-" I was about to tell him when my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and saw it was the doctor's office. I motioned to Keleigh to handle the discussion and I walked into the other room. When I came back, I heard Keleigh telling Miles I might be pregnant.

"There's no 'might' about it," I looked at both of them. "the blood test came back positive." they both stared at me in shock.

"Does Jai know?" Miles asked me. I shook my head and fell to the floor with my face in my hands. I was fucking pregnant. Jai had gotten me pregnant. How could this happen? I faintly heard Keleigh telling Miles that he couldn't tell Jai what was going on and that I had to be the one to tell him when I was ready, and that if he told him before I could that she was going to hurt him. It all felt so surreal though, so impossible. We'd only been together almost a year, and yet this was happening. What the hell am I going to do?

A few days passed and Gemma had become more of a frequent appearance on set, so I stopped going. I was stressing out big time. I couldn't figure out how to tell Jai, and I couldn't figure out if he was going back to her or staying with me. I was very worried, plus still trying to figure out what I was going to do about being pregnant. Keleigh hung out with me a lot to keep me from being alone, and Miles always joined us when he got home from being on set. Jai had begun to keep his distance, so I was often without him. Miles, Keleigh and I were in the kitchen goofing around and cooking to try to get my mind off of the stress.

"There's no way he'd go back to her." Miles tried to reassure me. "I saw how much of a mess he was when she broke up with him. He was sullen all the time on the Divergent set because of her. I don't think he'd easily forget that."

"Maybe, maybe not." I replied. After a few minutes, a song came on the radio that I liked so I turned it up, and Keleigh and I started dancing around the room while Miles kept an eye on the food cooking on the stove. All of a sudden I'm doubled over in pain. I must have been yelling or something, but it felt like everything had gone silent to my ears. I saw Miles look at the floor in shock and felt Keleigh's arms around me trying to see if I was okay. I felt tears stream down my face, and I knew something was wrong. Miles grabbed a towel and carried me to the car. He put me in the back seat and ran to the driver's seat as Keleigh got into the other side next to me. The towel was underneath me. The next few minutes were like a blur. I was screaming and crying in pain, and when we got to the hospital they helped me into the ER and then everything went black. When I came to, I was in a bed with an IV hooked up to me... there was no more pain.

"What happened?" I asked.

"The doctor should be back shortly." Miles told me. Keleigh was standing beside me, consoling me when the doctor came in.

"Good to see you awake Kayla." the doctor smiled at me sympathetically. What the hell is going on?

"What happened?" I repeated.

"The pain you felt was the baby." the doctor said to me with a sad look. I didn't understand, and I think she could tell by the look on my face. "You miscarried, Kayla. I'm so very sorry."

"Why was there so much blood on the floor?" I heard Keleigh ask.

"She was at the very beginning of the pregnancy, so it just looked as though she had a bigger period, hence the amount of blood on the floor. She wasn't far enough for us to have to do anything to intervene, so she'll bleed for up to two weeks and then go see her doctor to make sure that everything is out of her body." she should have said the word. The baby. They're wanting to make sure that everything from the baby was out of my system. That was all I could think about as I listened to the voices around me. I was bleeding the rest of the baby out naturally. They wouldn't have to perform surgery or anything else. I'd simply bleed the rest of the baby out. I put my head in my hands when the doctor left and started crying. Both Miles and Keleigh put their arms around me as I cried. The discharge nurse gave me paperwork to sign, explained to me that I'd need to pick up some overnight heavy pads for the bleeding and to come in if I was still bleeding past two weeks, otherwise they'd want me to make an appointment with my doctor to be seen. After leaving the hospital, Miles drove us home, telling me that once we got there me and Keleigh would go inside and he'd go pick up the pads the nurse had mentioned. When we were about to pull into the driveway, I noticed another vehicle in the driveway. It was Jai's.

"Not a word to him, from either of you." I told them before Keleigh and I got out of the car. I made them both swear not to say a word to him about it and Keleigh and I went inside. I told Keleigh I was fine to go upstairs, and went. When I got to the bedroom I laid down and tried hard not to cry. When I thought I was going to break, I heard his voice.

"Hey, where you guys been?" he asked.

"I had some pain, so we went to the doctor. I'm fine though." I lied. He gave me a scrutinizing look and allowed a small grin to show on his face.

"You don't look fine." he noted. I rolled my eyes and turned to my other side so I didn't have to look at him. "What's wrong babe?" he put his hand on my hip. I huffed.

"Leave me alone, Jai. Please." I moved his hand off me before bringing it back under my pillow where it was before.

"Kayla, talk to me." he whined.

"What do you want, Jai?" I snapped as I sat up to glare at him. For so long he was distant, and now all of a sudden he cared. It pissed me off that he could only be here for me when it was convenient for him. It was bullshit.

"I wanted to see how my girlfriend was since she's been avoiding the movie set like the plague." he retorted.

"Well maybe if your ex girlfriend wasn't there all the damn time, I'd probably be around more."

"I told you that you didn't have to worry about Gemma though. We had this discussion in the pool when she first showed up." he snapped at me.

"Yeah, and then the next time I was on set, you told her that you'd talk to her later and left both her and I standing by one another without another word to either of us. Especially me." I was sick and tired of this discussion already, but I wanted to lay down and be left alone.

"And I told her that she needed to leave because I was with you and nothing was going to change that." he was clearly getting mad, and right now I just wanted to be left alone. "Unlike someone who has just been distant as hell lately." that was it. Game on.

"Seriously Jai? You're giving me shit for being distant when you've hardly even fucking acknowledged my existence lately. What the fuck is up with that?" I asked, visibly annoyed.

"You didn't seem to care, you never said anything before." I was about ready to yell at him. Just because I hadn't spoken up didn't mean I didn't care.

"And how the fuck would you know whether I cared or not?" I asked. Without waiting for him to answer, I kept going. "You know, for future reference, just because I don't fucking speak up doesn't mean I don't care. It could, however, mean that I have a lot of shit I'm dealing with of my own and I'm trying to stay strong through all of it!" I yelled at him.

"Well how the hell would I know? You never talked to me about any of it. I bet even if I asked now, you still wouldn't tell me!" he yelled back.

"You're damn right I wouldn't, but not because I didn't give a shit!"

"Then why the fuck won't you tell me? If you care as much as you say you do, why won't you tell me?" I huffed.

"Because!" I didn't want to tell him it was out of fear. He snorted at me.

"Really? That's the best you've got? Because? Please tell me you're fucking joking." he let out a laugh.

"Maybe I just don't want to tell you why!" I answered.

"Maybe it's because you don't give a shit!" he yelled back at me.

"I DO TOO GIVE A SHIT!" I yelled so loud someone probably could have heard it up the road. "Maybe it's you who doesn't give a shit, Jai!"

"Maybe you're right!" I took a sharp breath when I heard his words. I felt like I'd been punched in the gut.

"That was fucking shitty." I told him. Talk about a low blow.

"Maybe it was the truth though." he said simply.

"You're fucking kidding me right?" I half-laughed.

"Maybe." he said simply. "Maybe not."

"You know what, fuck you. I'm done with this shit. I'm going back to LA and I'm done fucking dealing with you." I spit, venom in my words as they came out of my mouth. I got up and started packing my stuff. I stopped, throwing my bag down to stare at him.

"Do you wanna know why I had to go to the hospital, Jai? Do you?" I asked, not even waiting for him to answer. "I was pregnant and trying to figure out how to tell you. I was talking to Miles and Keleigh about it when I started bleeding all over the fucking kitchen floor!" I saw him gasp and stare at me in shock as I spoke. Any sliver if anger he had was gone. "I miscarried our child, Jai. I had a fucking miscarriage while you were out doing your shit and looking out for number one." I pointed to him. By this time, I had tears streaming down my face. I was so angry I couldn't think straight. "That is what I was doing at the hospital today, you fucking asshole." I picked my bag back up and threw it at the wall before I stormed out of the room and down the stairs. I went into the backyard and stuck my feet in the pool, feeling the warm pool water on my bare feet. I leaned, resting my elbows just above my knees and bringing my hands to my face and bawling my eyes out. I hoped at this point no one else would come near me because I didn't want to be bothered. I was fucking over all of it. I was tired of being here, tired of being ignored, tired of being stressed, tired of dealing with everything. I was ready to go back to LA, alone. No Jai, no Miles, no Keleigh, no baby, no anyone or anything. I had never felt so broken in my entire life. I had reached the bottom of the barrel and I had nothing left. I felt the pain in my chest, every other emotion I could have felt was numb. The rest of my body was numb. Just the pain, that was all I could feel. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jumped worse than I'd ever jumped before.

"I'm sorry, Kayla. Baby I'm so sorry." I heard Jai's voice break as he embraced me in a tight hug. He was crying. "I've been such an ass lately and I'm so sorry. I feel terrible for treating you this way and neglecting you. I should have been paying attention and been here so you could talk to me about this when you first found out." by this time I was crying right along with him, my arms around him and his around me.

"I love you Jai. I do. I don't want to leave you. I was just so mad and so hurt I said a lot of stuff simply because I knew it'd hurt you." I confessed, tears streaming down my face.

"We both fucked up, myself more so, but still. I'm so sorry baby." he held me close and we continued to cry together again.

"I love you." I sniffled.

"I love you too, baby." he stroked my cheek before kissing me passionately on the lips. After he pulled away, he pulled me to his chest and stroked my head as I cried again. I'm not sure how long we sat like this, but it felt like a long time. They say sometimes the best form of therapy is to cry, and in this situation I couldn't have possibly disagreed with it because being in his arms and crying really was the best form of therapy for me. I had hope things would get better. I had faith, and it was all because of him. He was the light at the end of my tunnel.