Chapter 14: Regret

Kira broke the chain from the door with anger that infiltrated him. His mind was else where and he couldn't control his body. This was the first time that he felt this way and knew he couldn't control his body as long as he remembers what the scientist had done to him- he wanted to forget he didn't know how many people he had killed. He hated war but the way he had killed those men it seems to him that he was the true word for the existent of the word war. He started to walk through some strange ally way he didn't recognized.

Every time he saw that Blue Cosmos leaders face he just wanted to scream and kill him with all his might and power. His anger took control again as he started to beat the wall with his bear hand not feeling any of the bricks the impacted in his hand. He kept throwing blows with ridiculous power until he heard a crack. Kira thought he had broke his hand but still kept on punching. His anger subsided when he threw his last punch with took a good amount chunk of bricks collapsed away from the wall. He looked at his blooded hand which was healing faster than he expected.

"Am I even human?" Kira thought to himself. All he was doing right now was pure animal instincts he didn't even know he was capable of fighting that many people and making it look all so easy. The knowledge he actually knew blew his thoughts away as he gets flashes of the scientist that experimented with him. "Am I really a Natural" Kira wondered to himself as he screamed in terror as his mind washed away any other comfort. He tried to think about Lacus and as soon as he did his phone vibrated. He had noticed that it vibrated earlier back in the place that those men had had him but he didn't really have any choice but to compile with their unnecessary harsh tone.

Kira started to breathe hard as his body told him not to answer his phone. It was like Kira was an anti-matter and Lacus was the matter they would even their self out and Lacus would be winning by one percent(Authors note: Okay I've read an interesting article about matter and antimatter with that atom collusion thingy so yea don't have to much knowledge on that I just recalled on what I've read). Somehow Lacus always even Kira out plus making him to a better person so his instincts tells him to neglect her phone call but his other instinct the human side at least tells him to pick up and become normal again.

His brain struggled on this until the phone finally stopped vibrating. He looked at his phone and was amaze at what he'd seen thirty miss call and twenty-nine new messages wait make that thirty(Authors note: Clingy? LOL na that's how relationship usually is at least in my account…) new messages. Kira was still having conflict among his thoughts but decided to listen to her messages. To Kira's surprised his seed mode had slowly subsided returning his eyes back to purple. "She really is my kryptonite" Kira thought to himself.

Kira was still lost on where he was and became a little suspicious that somehow he was many miles away from his apartment.

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Three-Thousand Kilometers from Kira

Lacus stared at Kira's apartment door and like she expected he wasn't home. She was a little bit worried that something really bad was occurring earlier but somehow that feeling had drifted a couple of minutes after she made her thirty call. Somehow she figured he had gotten the messages and is know calm. Suddenly her phone started to ring the song she sang 'In a Silent Night' which she created a couple of days ago though it was meant for Athrun her heart was set on Kira though it does describe their relationship since she is waiting for Kira on his door step (Authors note: Just had to make it ironic since I remember the song LOL).

"Kira" Lacus asked answering her phone.

"Yes it's me Lacus. I'm sorry for missing your phone call I was just" there was a long pause.

"It's all right Kira. What time are you going to be home" Lacus asked.

"I don't know yet- I'm really really really lost." Kira said as he chuckled a little.

"Is that so, I'll wait for you in your apartment till you get back" Lacus said giggling to herself and just wanting to make sure Kira was all right.

"Lacus I don't want you to be waiting in my apartment you see I won't be home for a long time since something happened that's hard to explain."

"You just don't want to see me is that it" Lacus asked seeing if Kira would fall for her joke.

"It's not like that Lacus-" Kira tried to explain.

"You don't love me anymore your probably laying next to another women as we speak" Lacus said.

"Lacus that's not it I- let me explain I-" Kira said. (Author's note: Trust me if you're ever in a relationship this often happens- the guy trying to explain anyway )

Kira was now really lost as he started to sprint toward a bus that he recognized from the buses he took to get from the space stationary to the city that they Lacus was at. He approach and asked the driver where the bus was going to be dropping people off and to his surprise it was near his apartments but it'll take about five hours to get too his apartment. He looked at his clock checking that it was five o'clock all ready.

"Lacus I don't know how but I somehow ended up in another city please try to understand" Kira said.

"I was just kidding with you Kira I know you way better than that" Lacus said as she giggled.

"Why you I'm going to get you when I get home!" Kira exclaimed.

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Kira tiredly had gotten up and headed toward the door thanking the men for dropping him off at his apartment since the bus driver was headed that way anyway. Within minutes he looked surprised as he saw Lacus leaning her back against his apartment door sleeping soundly. Kira smiled to himself as he picked her up opening the door and carrying her towards the bed. Kira and Lacus might have been sleeping together just enjoying each other company but Kira was embarrass to say that he was sort of shy towards Lacus unconscious body laying down on his bed. Kira softly touched her cheek giving Lacus a kiss on the forehead as he continued staring intensely at Lacus. "This beautiful angel is my kryptonite." Kira said to himself.

Kira slowly snapped out of his trance and decided to go to the kitchen because he was a little hungry. Kira turning on the radio suddenly realized that the song playing was 'Kryptonite' by Mario. "Wow great" Kira mumbled to himself as he got some eggs out of the refrigerator and some cheese, bacon, and ham.

He started the frying fan up as he scrambled the egg. After the frying fan was done heating he put the bacon on it as he tore the cheese and scrambled it with the cooked ham and eggs. Once the bacon was cooked Kira poured the eggs to the frying fan and added some extra stuff like salt and garlic mix.

Suddenly he felt a small pair of hands wrap around his waist as he looked over his shoulders seeing Lacus with a wide smile. He smiled back but still couldn't shake the feeling of what happened last night. Before Kira could do anything Lacus got on her tiptoe and kissed Kira on the lips revealing what he had done and what had happened last night. For a minute she did that refusing to let go of Kira's head so that he can hide the pain he feels inside his thoughts.

When Lacus finally broke away from Kira's kiss she intently looked deeply at his eyes as she see's tears fall from Kira's eyes.

"I killed them Lacus- I numerically beat them. I bet you think I'm an animal" Kira said.

"No- Kira listen to me! It's not your fault they would have killed you. I don't get the whole situation you are in but I promise I'll be there every step of the way. I know you're a good person" while Lacus was saying this Kira stared at the ground. He was ashamed to look at Lacus directly on her eyes Lacus than lifted Kira's head so she was looking straight in to her blue eyes.

"They would have killed you" Lacus said.

"But I'd killed them Lacus. I made every single person suffer. It's inhumane. I don't deserve your pity I don't even know what I am anymore– I" Kira stated but couldn't continue as Lacus swiftly planted a kiss on Kira's mouth so Kira had no time to think.

"Kira, my mother told me a long time ago. The world belongs to you as much as you belong to the world. I know you pity of what you had done but they would have done the same thing to you I think. They would have used those technologies to kill more than you have done. As long as you are born, and exist in this world you live and someday will die like they are."

Kira slowly looked at Lacus. Tears still on his eyes, "Thank you Lacus."

Suddenly they smell the eggs becoming cooked and Lacus tummy grumbled. Kira chuckled to himself as he flipped the eggs.

"I'll take a quick shower okay?" Lacus said while Kira's mouth dropped open as she started to walk away taking her shirt off in the process and putting it on the kitchen table. Lacus started to undo her bra and Kira mouth feel like it hit the ground as he watch this his hand suddenly touch the steel of the prying pan and he gasp as he felt it. He quickly blew his hands as he heard a giggle coming from Lacus as she stepped into the restroom door.

Lacus smell and her naked back lingers on Kira's mind as he quickly slapped himself for thinking something so perverted. He got a plate and put it on the dish as he checked the rice he had cooked earlier. Looking at the refrigerator he examined it to see if there was anything that may catch his interest but instead gets out the bottle of apple juice since he did not really like the after taste off orange juice (Authors note: Hey it's my story and I like apple better :P)

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Lacus looked herself in the mirror. She couldn't help but think that she actually took off her shirt and bra and let Kira see her as she walked away. She knew she didn't show him anything too revealing but the concept that she knew Kira was staring at her as she walked away blew away her mind. "Gosh I must have a perverted mind" Lacus thought to herself. As she thinks about Athrun and the concept that they were going to get married.

She slowly blushed as she recalled how Kira didn't even hide the way he looked at her during her sudden outburst. From the corner of her eyes she saw him looking intently at her. She could not imagine living without Kira but it also hurts her that she couldn't be with him due to her commitment. She hurried as she turned on the shower taking the rest of her cloths of. She slowly felt if the water was comfortable to her skin once she knew she adjusted to the temperature she liked she slowly got in. Her body was tense as the water hit her since she was using someone else's shower but after using Kira's shampoo and axe body soap she relaxed as she let the warm water hit her body as she needed a shower after the long night wait for Kira. She knew that it wasn't his fault that he had been caught up but it seems like trouble was always looking for Kira even if he tried to avoid it. She remembered the time that Kira had saved her and all the moments she had spent with him and she loved every minute though Kira was a jerk in the beginning. Thinking about Kira made a certain pleasure on her lower body and she moaned as she soap her self feeling the luxurious soap that wash's Kira's body.

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Kira waited patiently as he set up the table. He had bee starving a little bit but didn't really mind the wait. Tomorrow will be Monday a start of a new week so he wanted to relax while he could after the fight. He looked at his fist seeing just a couple of scratch. He again thought to himself if he was human for about twenty minutes but was distracted when he heard the bathroom door open. To his surprise he saw Lacus using his bathrobe with a towel on her head. His mouth literally drooled but he shakes away the feeling as he stared at the ground. He blinked as he looked up into Lacus beautiful sapphire eyes. For a while they stared at each other just enjoying each others presence but that still didn't change the fact that Lacus was using Kira's bathrobe and it made him feel rather uncomfortable in the situation.

"Let's eat" Kira said as he smiled.

He got some eggs, rice and other products from the table and filled a cup of apple juice as well as he did Lacus's glass. When he took his first bite he heard a Lacus mumble something like "I wish I can cook like this." He grin a little as he realized what she said and began eating his food not really wanting to look up because he was afraid he'll get lost in Lacus's eyes. It was a two sided battle that constantly bang on Kira's head that he really couldn't take it though he maintained his self control his emotion deep inside him clash making him doubt any emotions he feels.

"This is delicious Kira, where'd you learn to cook like this." Lacus asked intently as she tasted the flavors that Kira added.

Kira chuckled a little. "It's just eggs Lacus I really can't describe it. I'm not as good cook as you think."

Lacus giggled a little. "I'm thinking of taking classes to improve my cooking skills you know since I hardly make anything for myself. I want to feel a little independent knowing well that I can cook for my future husband." At that comment both Kira and Lacus fell silent knowing that they were thinking about the same thing.

Kira's nerves were still at high tension and he didn't want to give Lacus any feeling due to the fact that Kira's body temperature was steadily increasing. He knew he was going to blow up any moment as he struggle to maintain power of his body. His animal instinct was revealing little by little as he feels he sees the seed once again.

"Kira- is you okay? Your eyes it's- red" Lacus states as she stood up to try to comfort Kira.

Kira pushed her down as he grabbed his head and feels the outburst of emotions rip through his veins. Unwilling to have anything happen to Kira he opened his window as he jumped three stories down landing on a speeding car as he enveloped and rolled away. He didn't feel it and it was as if he was invincible.

"Son are you okay" the driver asked as Kira sat up. Kira didn't reply as he casually walked away.

To be continued…Sorry about the Superman humor LOL. All right the actual Gundam things will take a while to intersect with the storyline due to outburst of what will happen or could or would however if you see my updating I'm just either updating a chapter with wrong punctuation and words. I will not add anything new to those chapter just edit it and I will attempt to make it make sense if you catch my drift because usually I just write and I hate re-reading what I write so sorry for making some sentences un-understandable and in that concept I want some future readers to understand the grammar so it will force me to re-read it:( sorry for those who have read it the first time and didn't understand some context. I'm struggling with the idea of adding the Flay and Kira incident which I will tell you which chapter I added it too. I will have a chapter up next week probably Friday or Saturday but right now I'll be correcting my grammatical errors. This chapter will also be updated since I have to make sure the dots work. And my comments will be edited for the any new readers. Thanks for your patience while I update those chapters but next chapter may be a little shorter than this unless I go berserk and start putting the ideas from my ideas word document into that chapter. After next chapter I post I'll be as lost as you are since I have to write it so be patience please thank you. Thanks to fans that given me the website on the official page I really appreciate it and it'll help me on later chapters.