I fell into a trance - a state of shock really – and could not hear anything around me and could only feel when Kili cradled my body into his and made our landing off of the eagle and onto ground once again. I was weak, though I was getting pretty much used to the feeling now, and could not even feel the pain of my body trying to heal, though I could feel my skin starting to feel as though it was leather. I could feel the cool of the ground below me and felt my body start to shake and tremble further into Kili's warm and soft body. I could not open my eyes nor could I hear his voice, but I could feel his hands trembling as he tried to shake me away and could feel splashes of what I could only think to be tears hitting my cheek. I knew that this would not kill me because I knew that soon enough Kili would try and feed me his blood, but I also knew the state that I was in – how weak that I felt and how dangerous that could be for any human around a vampire, - I would drain the life out of Kili before anyone else even had the chance to pull me off of him. So I did the only thing that I could think of doing, I held in my breath, refused to open my mouth to anything, and kept my body as still as possible.

Air was something that a vampire did not need, so the scent of fresh blood did not send me into a frenzy, nor did the dripping of it onto my lips. I was already so numb to the pain that although I knew that they had placed silver onto my body to make me retract my fangs, I did not do so, I would rather have died than to have killed Kili – or worse, turn him into one of my kind-. No matter what the dwarfs tried, I kept fighting back as they thought of new ways of trying to get blood into my system. I admired the fact that they were all trying to save my life, but if I would have taken the blood, I would have also taken one of theirs as well. But then something happened, I must have taken in a breath or the blood finally hit my tongue because one moment I felt so completely comatose and the next I hand my arms wrapped around the dwarfs arm and fangs as deeply into the wrist as I could get them.

The sweetness of the blood, the warmth of it, it was the most amazing feeling to wash over my body as I let myself completely sink into the whole feeling. Though I tried to keep myself from getting to carried away, it happened anyway, the side of me that I tried not to let anyone else see finally came out. One moment I was laying on my with someones wrist in my mouth, the neck I had him on his back and was drinking from his neck. I placed my hand over his mouth so that I would not hear him screaming out my name anymore and pinned down to the ground - one hand forcing both arms above his head and both my legs pinning his to the ground – and could also feel the others trying to pull me off of him, them calling for their leader to help. But then something happened, the humanity, the last bit that I had left of it, came back out of me and I pulled myself away and ran to the other side of the group.

" You see now! Do you not? This, this is why we vampires had been hiding for so long, this is why we cannot be Kili! I will kill you one day, if not during this journey then another time, I can fell your heart racing so do not tell me that this did not scare you. I am a monster, an evil creature hunted by all who are good. I am a trained killer and no matter how hard I try, I will end up hurting you!" I screamed as Kili looked stunned to me, I could hear that his heart was only fluttering a bit lighter than normal. " I. . . I will let you down." I whispered as I looked around and than ran as fast as I could through the woods.

I didn't know where I was going, who I would find, or where it would lead me to. But I knew that if I ran fast enough, I would beat the footsteps that were following behind, that soon enough the screams of my name would become only a distant cry into the world. Heartbreak was something that I had vowed a long time ago that I would never feel again, why I refused to think that this would have worked out, something that I did not want to have to go through ever again. I should have just gotten that stupid dark clock removed – or better yet, just ripped it off the moment that I had the chance to. I could feel the tears streaming down my face as I could hear Kili still running, that boy would never stop following me until he would finally collapse and his brother would have to come and bring him back to the group. Oh Kili, when will you learn, when will you see what Fili, Thorin, hell, most of the group sees in me.

" What the group sees in you? Why do you have to shame it like that?" A cool voice asked that made me stop on a dime. " You are still pretty banged up, would you like me to heal it for you?"

" Go now, Tathar, while my patients is still there." I said through my teeth as I glared to him through my hair and cloak.

" You know Rollywaters, I am really only trying to help. I think that this would make a pretty good place for a kingdom, that is, if you do not want to take over Goblin Town together and start one there." He said through a smile as I shook my head.

" You just killed every last goblin in there, didn't you?" I smiled and rolled my eyes as he nodded to me.

" I sent a few scurrying, though I doubt that they have any place to do from there, I hope that they do tell great stories about how I pillaged through their lands and me and the gang took our time killing them. Though I do have to say, they blood does taste like something foul." He shook his head in disgust.

" Like dead mans blood after it has been rotting for a week." I smiled to him as he pulled me in closer, checking my wounds.

" Something like that, though you look like you have been feasting off of only dead mans blood, now Rollywaters, we both know that it not a good thing for a vampire in your condition to be doing. I mean really, a girl with a heart full of love really needs to be making sure that her figure is still there before worrying about her weight." Tathar smiled as he looked me up and down. " Though if you asked me I would say that I always had a soft spot for a girl like you with a little more skin coming out."

" Shut up you pig." I smiled as he moved in and wiped the tears from my eyes.
" You always liked it when I talked dirty to you. Now that I remember, it was a pretty good way to make you call off a group meeting, allow the other to go off and do what they please, while I did what I pleased." He whispered as he moved in closer and moved the hair out of my eyes. " Golly Rolly, you look like hell."

" Thanks for telling me, I am planning on taking a little vacation there next month and wanting to make sure that I dressed to the part." I sniffled as he placed his hand up and onto my clock.

" You know just as well as I do that we are connected for eternity, the blood that cannot be undone no matter who hard you try. You are mine and I am eternally yours. I do not care what my clock tells me or what your clock tells you. You are my woman, life and death you always have, I want you more than I want anything. Rolly, I will never die, never have a power struggle going on within the family, we can go off right now and start a new life with the clan, just the way that you want it. I never knew till you ran off how much I truly cared for you. How- how much I would kill just because someone hurt you, how much I would lay down my life for you if you asked." He whispered.

" Am I detecting a bit of romance in your voice, Tathar?" I smiled as he blushed a bit. " I am."

" I love you with my whole heart and more, please come with me Rolly. I know that I have done a lot in the past to fuck things up, but I swear that I can make it up to you, give me a chance." I sighed as he stuck his wrist out for me, knowing. " Drink on it." He smiled as allowed his fangs to show.

" No." I whispered as he looked a bit shocked.

" Rolly. . ."

" No Tathar! I do not want anymore of your tainted blood, I do not wished to run off with you anywhere. I know where my heart lies and I know where I feel like I should belong, but I do not trust myself with them nor do I trust myself around you. I am a monster -"

" Because that is what you were reborn to be, Rolly! What does it take to make you see that we are cold blooded killers, that when we are hungry we can go out and kill off an entire village without a second thought because that is what we were made to do! It is in our nature to kill just as it is in that dwarfs nature to hunt and fight. We kill a few that we do not mean to from time to time, we bring life into a cold and dark world when we please, but we are monsters through and through, and there is nothing that you or anyone else can do about it! Rolly, drink, you are still so weak." Tathar finally came down to a whisper with the last few words. " Allow yourself to become the monster that you desire to be. You know that I can and will take it because I care and because I will simply bite you back. Knock me to the ground, bite me till I an screaming, and then maybe later I can take you till you are screaming." He winked as I rolled my eyes and dug right into his veins, getting a soft moan out of him. " Thatta girl."

It was something that we always used to do, fight and bite was what we called it, where we would slam one another so hard up against whatever we could find and it would make the whole world shake it would seem it sounded like the world tired to fight against us too. We used to be able to go on for hours just wrestling one another to the ground and when we thought that the other was pinned to the ground, well something would happen, and the whole chase would start up again. That started soon after Tathar was turned, I would take him deep into the woods where I knew no one would bug us and we would practice fighting, killing, and attacking on one another and anything else we could find. It was some of the best times that I had ever had when I was with him, some of the worst too. Some nights I would come home with half of my body broken up and Tathar refusing to heal me up again. Other nights the same would happen for him though.

" My, my, Rolly, how your appetite has grown. You see, when you do not kill for a long enough time, killing becomes a part of you that you need to get out, like an itch that you just cannot scratch." Tathar smiled, blood dripping down his face as he pulled me off the ground by my cloak and threw me into a tree as hard as he could.

" Well maybe it has, maybe I should just take that killing lust out of you." I smiled through my fangs as I lunged from the tree and right back into Tathar's arms and thrown on the ground.

" Miscalculated?" Tathar laughed as I looked to him on stock.

" From what I can remember that used to happen a lot when we were actually dating." He growled as I laughed until he sunk his teeth into my neck.

" Do you think this is how it feels to mortals when we do this to them?" I asked through deep breaths.

" No, from what I can tell its a hell of a lot more erotic, mostly because some think that death is extremely sexy. We only the other hand, we can feel the full depth of it, the love, the rage, the the bittersweet taste of our blood meeting another, the giving of life from one to another, it is something that no mere mortal any understand fully even if they somehow they that they can." Tathar stated with blood dripping from his mouth, my blood.

" So you think that this is it then, that this is the final gift that one can give to another? Because I know of one more gift that one can give." I smiled as Tathar looked to me.

" Oh? Is that true? And what would that gift happen to be?" He smiled as I flipped him back onto his back and bit in as hard as I could until I could hear him moan out in pain.

" You can give one another the final gift, the gift of mortality, because even the immortals have to die eventually." I smiled as he pulled me by the hair back until I could see his sick smile as well.

" Even the Elders?"

" Even the Elders."

" Until we are left as the rulers?"

" Until we are left as the rulers." I moaned out as he pulled my neck back and bit into it as has a he could. " I cannot believe that you remember all of that."

" Our vows to one another? How could I forget?" Tathar asked.

" Because you have forgotten my birthday for how long?"

" Rolly you are a sick little girl, you know that. I only forgot your birthday once and that was because I got your birthday mixed up with the day that you were turned." Tathar smiled as I rolled my eyes.

" Do not think that this means that I am going anywhere with you?" I finally asked as he pulled me up by the neck and slammed me against a tree.

" You are still weak right now, so yeah, I do think that you will go anywhere with me." I hissed as I tired to pull away but could not.

" Rolly?!" A voice called out from a broken tree limb.

" Oh shit." I whispered as Tathar looked towards him and smiled, leaving me at the tree and taking the dwarf by the neck.

" Well looky what we have here Miss Rolly. I think that we have a little snack for the road." Tathar smiled as he looked to Kili.

" No. Put him down right now, Tathar. Do not make me do it!" I begged him.

" Rolly run now! I can handle myself!" Kili cried out although he was feet of of the ground now.

" You would not dream to do it to me. You have never done it before in your life!" Tathar snorted at me as I looked to him with my heart slowly rebreaking.

" Rolly! Go!" Kili cried out as I looked from Tathar to Kili.

" See, I told you that you would not!" Tathar smiled as he let his fangs come back out and moved them towards Kili's throat.

" Tathar, as your maker I command you to put Kili down and leave me and him alone until I call for you once again!" I yelled as Tathar looked to me, his eyes full of shock and rage, but placed Kili back on the ground and moved started to run from the area.

" Kili!" I screamed as I ran for the dwarf and noted that he was only coughing. " Are you alright, what were you thinking following all this way and trying to fight of Tathar like that? Do you have a death wish or something?" I asked as he started to smile and tried to laugh, but it only came out in coughs.

" People will do. . . crazy things. . . for love I guess." I rolled my eyes and let out my wrist that had already been fed off of.

" Have some, you are hurting and I also took too much blood before hand – I really am sorry for that Kili-" Kili placed his lips onto mine with a smile on his face.
" I do not want to hear you say that you are sorry for it. I know why you did it and I was a fool to think otherwise, and I am fine right now." He smiled as he jumped to his feet and placed out his hand for me.

" You are right, you are a fool." I smiled as I took it and he wrapped his arm around my waist.

" So, maker huh?" Kili questioned.

" It's a long story." I shook my head.

" What is V?" Kili asked.

" Longer story." I groaned.

" We have a pretty long walk back to the camp and I think you need to start telling me." Kili laughed as I sighed. It was going to be an even longer walk now.