Title: Just Can't Live a Lie

Category: Romance/drama

Chapter: 14

Name of Chapter: Any Second

By: Der4Mer4ever

MerDer story

Derek came back to his office. He had been down talking to Bailey. As he took a seat with Meredith again, she could see it on his face. "Mer, Burke did everything he could but the aorta was…there was nothing he could have done it was too much... Meredith your mother died 15.38."

Meredith stood up. "She's, she's…" The tears came again, and she could barley stand up. Derek stood up and took her arms.

"Mer, you need to breath," He said as he held her with his strong hands. Meredith started sobbing and collapsed in Derek's hands. She didn't know if it was loosing her mother that made her sad, or if it was all the memories and that her mother died without really knowing her. She didn't know she had become a doctor, she didn't know she had a boyfriend who now had become her fiancée.

She didn't know how she was; all she remembered was her like a five year old girl. She remembered Richard and she even remembered her scrub nurse Liz Fallon, but she didn't remember her daughter.

She didn't remember her, and that made Meredith sad. As more tears streamed down her cheek she thought about Derek. She had Derek, she would always have him.

"Derek?" She whispered. "Yes?" He replied still holding her. "I love you," she whispered, and she pushed back so she could see his eyes. "I love you to Meredith," he said as he strokes her cheek.

"You have no idea how much," he said smiling. She leaned to him and gave him a kiss. "Mer, you want to see her?" Derek said looking serious. She shook her head.

"No, I don't need to. She's dead, gone." Derek nodded. "She will always be in my heart, and I love her and I know she loved me too, but she never shoved me. She never told me, but I know she did. She's resting now, and I'm okay. I think she has it better now than she has had it in years."

Meredith gave him a smile back. "She's finally out of my life, but she's still in my heart." Derek gave her a hog. "I know, I know," he said.

Derek and Meredith left the hospital some hours later.

"No funeral?" Derek said looking at her. "No, she didn't want that," Meredith said shocking her head. "So, the trailer?" he said smiling. "Yes, the trailer," she said smiling back. As they drove home, Meredith leaned back in the seat.

She was thinking about the day. She was really tired and closed her eyes. The sound of the engine was relaxing and soon after she drifted to sleep.

Derek didn't want to wake her up, so he carried her inside the trailer and lay her down in the bed.

Derek sat down at the coach. Being chief was hard. After Richard went to Europe he was the only one who was responsible for the surgical floor. Being chief was like Richard had said; you have to choose between job and private life, family when you're chief. Doing

both are impossible, he had said. Derek shook his head, stood up and walked over to the bad were Meredith lay sleeping peaceful. He undressed, and lay down next to her. She was so beautiful.

Even when she was sleeping he could feel his heart pumped faster. He knew she would always come before work. He will always prefer her over his job, always. He leaned down and gave her a quick kiss on her forehead.

"I love you," he said and putted his arms around her and drifted to sleep him selves.

When Derek woke up next morning he couldn't see Meredith anywhere. Then he heard the shower was on. He stood up, and made some coffee. When Meredith got out of the shower Derek walked over to her. "Good morning sweetie," he said kissing here.

"You're up?" She said a little surprised. "I made coffee, you want some?" He said walking over to the coffee machine. "Yes, thanks," she said starting to get dressed.

"So, how are you today, I mean do you need a day off?" Meredith smiled to him. "No, I'm fine."

Derek nodded giving her a cup. "You know, if you want to talk about it I'm here." Meredith leaned to him, and gave him a long kiss. "I know Dr Shepherd, and I'm fine." Derek had to laugh.

"Will you ever stop calling me Dr Shepherd?" Meredith laughed too. "Maybe, maybe not."

When they came to the hospital Meredith suddenly froze. Derek stopped the car, but Meredith just sat there staring at the hospital. Derek new she had some memories from the day before, and took her hand in his.

"It's okay Mer, I'm here with you," he whispered still holding her hand. Meredith nodded and looked at him. "I'm okay, it's just…nothing I'm okay." She opened the door and stepped out. It was cold, but it didn't rain.

She's gone, she's gone she's not there anymore, voices said in her head. She closed her eyes for a second. Derek walked over to her and took her hand. "You're ready?" He said looking worried. Meredith smiled to him. "I'm ready."

As she came into her looker room she found Cristina and Izzie talking. "The legend is gone, Ellis Grey. You know it is a shame…"

Izzie interrupted Cristina. "Poor Meredith, she's finally happy and then sudden her mother dies." They become both silent when they saw Meredith. "Hey, Mer, uhm…how are you?" Izzie said looking a little guilty. Meredith smiled.

"I'm fine, really." Cristina nodded, and Bailey came into the locker.

"Okay, Yang, Karev get an EEG on patient at room 2407. Grey, O'Malley you're getting an EKG, and an ERCP at patient room 1462. Okay move people, were having a rush day." They stormed out of the room, and Bailey made her way to the chief's office.

"Um, Mr. Greg you have what we call an angina pectoris, and we to take you to an EKG now."

Mr. Greg looked incomprehensible at Meredith and George. "What does that mean?" "That means that the pain you have had in breastbone is causing heart spasm, and that means you may have anemia. It can also be calcinations in the crane artery because of anemia, but we can't know for sure before we have an EKG."

Mr. Greg looked confused. "Okay, so that you are saying is?" "That we are saying is that you may have a heart disease, and need surgery." Mr. Greg nodded. "Okay, so when would you know for sure what it is?" "We will know about two hours after the EKG." "When are you taking me to this EKG?" Mr. Greg asked looking at Meredith.

"As soon as possible. First we have to page or cardio specialist, Dr Burke." Meredith and George leaved the room and went to find Burke.

"So how are you doing, I mean about your mother and…" George said looking at her. "I'm fine George, let's just find Burke." George nodded.

Derek sat at his office. The day was over, and he had been in a seven hours surgery. He was waiting for Meredith. They had planned to meet at his office, but she hadn't showed up yet.

"Chief?" Cristina came into his office. "Yang, what can I do for you?" Derek said looking at her.

"Uhm, I'm not here to…it's, well I'm here to tell you something…and it's…" Derek interrupted her.

"Get to the point please." Cristina nodded. "Yes of course. It's Meredith." Derek stood up. "Is she okay? Has something happened?" Derek walked over to her. "Um, she's. Derek I think you want to see it your selves." Derek lifted his eye brows.

"Okay? So where is she?" Cristina hesitated before telling him. "She's, she's…" Suddenly someone knocked at the door.

"Shepherd?" It was Alex coming in. "Derek and Cristina turned to see him. "It's Meredith." Derek started to get angry.

"Can somebody tell me were the hell she is?" Alex looked at Cristina. "Follow me," Alex said starting walking. Derek ran after.

Was something wrong with her? Was she hurt? Derek's head was a big mess.

"Tell me what's wrong with her," he begged Alex. Alex just looked at him and shook his head. "You see your selves," he said keep walking.

Derek didn't know were she was or is there was something wrong with her, but he did know that it wasn't something good. "Were here any second," Cristina said as they walked out of the elevator.

Any second, Derek replied in his head. Any second!

Sorry for not updating before!

So I decided to let her die. I think it was the best for them both!

Next chapter I will have up soon: )

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