Chapter Twelve

my sake

"You know what they say about hope. It breeds eternal misery."

― Spencer Hastings

"If this is the same guy, then he's a serial rapist, and there can be more victims." Erin says to me, and she paces back and forth.

She was oddly calm. Why isn't she as broken as I am? She was raped a year ago, shouldn't she still be as scared? Maybe all along I've just been overeacting.

"So what do you expect us to do?" I ask. "I'm not telling anyone else."

"We have to tell an adult. All this time I thought I was alone, and that no one would believe me. " Erin says sadly. "But you were raped too, they'll believe us, and they'll get him."

"No! Once he finds out that I said something, he's going to hurt me even worse!" I yelled, wiping at my face.

"Cat listen to me -"

"No Erin listen to me! This never happened! If you tell anyone, even Robbie, I swear I'll deny it." I say slowly to her face. " You'll look crazy, and I'll just be the same mean bitch I am now."

She was speechless.

"And holy shit, my name is fucking Rina!"

And with that I left, slamming the bathroom door.

::

"Cat! Stop, CAT!" I hear Jade yell to me. "What the fuck is wrong with you? You heard me calling you."

"I have a class to get to, I don't have time for this."

"Are you fucking serious? I know you have free." She snaps. "Sikowitz is pissed. "

"I don't care. Why won't you get it through your head that I don't fucking care? I don't care about school, I don't care about you, I don't care about me." I scream, gaining everyone's attention.

"Do you care about Tyler?" Jade says, her voice cracking. "Did you ever care about him Cat? Because he would be so fucking ashamed of you right now!"

Those words hurt because they were true. Who am I? Who is Cat? Who is Rina? Is this really who I am now?

"You know just because you don't need me doesn't mean I don't need Cat." Jade says as her eye liner runs down her cheeks.

"I just want my best friend back, but she's gone now. I get it. There's no more Cat, and I'm not settling for anything else. So tell whatever is left of her in you that I said goodbye." And she walks away.

I've never seen Jade cry like that before. I don't think I've ever truly seen Jade cry ever.

And it was because of me.

::

"Cat is that you?" my moms asks, as I walk through the door.

"Yes." I say simply. I was still mad at her for yelling at me at the hospital.

"Can you come in here please?"

I walked to living room, to find my mom sitting down with Sikowitz, Lane, and Helen.

Oh My God. I couldn't feel my body. What was happening? Why were they here?

"Cat it's been brought to my attention that you've been acting out in my school." Helen says to me. "Students have told me that they've seen blood on your arms."

"So! What the fuck mom!?" I yell, glaring at mom.

"Caterina you don't speak to your mother that way." Lane says to me.

"You shut the fuck up, you're a guidance counselor, but we do not need your fucking guidance!" I shoot back.

"Cat stop it! STOP! PLEASE JUST STOP!" My mom yells. "I can't take it anymore! Your grades are terrible, you're cutting yourself, you're not eating!"

Way to blow up my stop. She was going to get it now.

"There are centers that can help her Ms. Valentine, if you're willing to look into it." Sikowitz says, handing her a paper.

"Mental homes?" she asks, scanning the papers.

"WHAT!?" I add.

"It's a program called HFTT, which stands for Homes For Troubled Teens." Lane explains. "It's rehab, school, medical assistance, anything you can think of. They will help her."

"THIS CAN'T BE SERIOUS!" I scream.

"But it is Cat, very serious." I hear someone say from behind me, scaring me.

It's my dad.

"You need help. Because of what you do, you're brother is dead, is that not enough for you to want help?" He asks me, sitting down next to my mother.

Erin's words ring through my ears. "You have to want to stop."

"But what about my friends!?"

"What friends?" Cat says to me. "You mean my friends? You pushed them all away. Remember?"

"There's a center in Venice called "Kimberly:HFTT. They're still open now. We urge you to get your daughter enrolled immediately for her sake." Helen says with pleading eyes.

"We will. Right now." my dad says.

"Yes Cat lets go, we're packing your bags." My moms says, as she motions me to the steps.

What was happening? Oh My God. This can't be happening.

"You happy now Rina? You've just ruined my life." Cat says to me.

"Cat I hope you receive the help you need." Sikowitz says to me.

I stare at him long and hard. "Go to Hell."

::
Three suitcases.

I packed all of my clothing. Cat's was still in the closet in boxes.

I tried to smuggle a razor, but my mom caught me. On my dresser there was a photo album that Cat had made. On the cover there was a picture of her, Jade and Robbie. They all looked so happy.

"That's because we were happy." I hear someone say. I turn around to see Cat sitting on my bed, in a pink dress, and white flats. Her hair was red, and long. She looked beautiful. "We were at Jades house, and Beck took the picture. They were my best friends."

She looked down sadly. "They're not anymore, and it's your fault. Why won't you let me go? Why won't you let me go apologize to them and be myself again? Huh Rina?"

I didn't know what to say.

"Nothing to say Rina? Nothing smart wants to come out your mouth for the first time?" She said, pissed off. "You're disgusting. You will never be me. I hate that you're how people see me now."

"My mom's about to check your suitcase again." Cat said.

"There better not be another razor in here." My mom said as she walked into my room, straight to my suitcases.

Does she really not see Cat right there on the bed?

"Have fun at Kimberly." She smirked, and then she was gone.

Time to go guys. The people at Kimberly are preparing a room." My dad shouts to us.

This was really happening. I was going to a fucking mental home.

A/N- Oh how I missed writing this story. I am so sorry for the wait. It's been weeks. Someone passes away in my family, and I couldn't write. I was too devastated. Then my computer broke, so that extended the wait. I'm really sorry. I love all of you! And thankyou if you were patient, and you didn't give up on this story.

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