Nikkistew2 you were the first to review so shout out to you!

Lizzym81I wanted Christian to get some advice about relationships and mental health.

Sweetsub75 hate that bitch troll too! love the name by the way

Eschoenh his family issues are address in the chapter so thanks for the review

Malugargula she needed to get hurt. I needed her to get a good punch in the face in my stories.

Please review! Because I do take your suggestions and write them in! Or got a funny situation or line that would sound good? I will take them into consideration

Christian

I eventually drift off to my room at this God forsaken facility and lay on my bed. I have bypassed the bland meal they serve us here for Ana's more delicious biscuits. I have tasted nothing better than this. Here I am in a mental health rehab jail or whatever you want to call me being unable to leave. I pull out my phone and begin texting her.

hey Christian here... I am guessing you know that from the fact that I am the only one who has your number. So how was the rest of your day? - C

Well my day was uneventful after seeing you. I just got home and cooked. I made quite a few meals and snacks to take you tomorrow. I hope you have a sweet tooth because I made you some really great deserts. - A

That sounds great. They have some really bland food here. I never was into deserts but I will try them for you. I really appreciate what you did for me today. - C

What did I do that was so great today? - A

You came to see me when even my family hasn't come. I told you I was stalking you and you took it surprisingly well. WHICH I AM HOPELESSLY THANKFUL FOR! - C

HAHA that is what you do for someone you care about. I don't mind seeing you if you are in there. If it makes you uncomfortable...I could stay home tomorrow. - A

NO! It's not like that at all. I love seeing you here. I am pretty much alone here. I did however let another person here, Jason Taylor, or just Taylor. I let him use my phone to call his girlfriend - C

That is good to hear. I didn't like going to school and not seeing you. - A

I don't like knowing you are upset...but I do understand the feeling of not seeing you - C

Was it too soon to make fun of my stalking? hmm

Haha yeah I think you would know the feeling faaaaar better than I would :) - A

She is joking about it! YAAAAS

Yeah. So I really didn't want to tell you this via text but I remembered something that I didn't tell you earlier. I promise I was not trying to hide it from you or anything I am only asking you keep your mind equally as open as it was earlier and that what I did was only to help you and me sort of - C

I am very interested at what you are going to say now - A

Okay here it goes. Okay when you told me about Ethan giving you a hard time at school I was mad that he was treating you like you were just a play thing. So I kind of beat him up in gym and told him in no uncertain terms was he ever to speak to you or look at you in any ways that isn't appropriate. And when we were doing that partner project in art and I saw some guys try to get you to be their partner and I scared them off. Then later on I scared the guys of the school to stay away from you. It got physical at one point but eventually they saw what I was meaning. I didn't want another guy to talk to you if I am being honest. I was also fueled by the way they looked at you. - C

I wait her her response. I am not sure how she will take this information. She could easily blow me off and say nothing. Leaving me in this hell hole by myself.

Ten minutes.

Okay I have thought it through. I admit the violence should bother me more but it doesn't. It is hard to find sympathy for men who wanted to treat me as a conquest instead of like a normal person. To be honest it is kind of a turn on that you did that. (Don't test the limits though ;) ) I will trust your judgement on this. - A

Did she just?...I am truly happy

Well I only wanted to make sure they left you alone. You are my only friend thing that I have ever had and I want you to be happy and be happy here because if you are unhappy you could leave - C

I really appreciate what you have done. And what do you mean by 'friend thing'? - A

It seems I have to reveal my truly lame past.

Well I have never had a friend of any kind. I don't get along with any people. And when I met you, you were a light in my darkness. You talked to me! Like actually talked to me. I was a normal person to you. You treated me well and offered me food. I have never called anyone a friend before. So Saturday before I went to your house and my mother asked where I was going and I said my friend's house she was suspicious. She said that was the reason that she looked through my room. She thought I would never have friends and long ago gave up her hope that I would ever have any. I have never had any kind of human connection before you. - C

Two minutes later

Am I only your friend? - A

What do you mean? - C

What am I to you? - A

You are my friend first and foremost because I have never had that before but I want more. I have always wanted more. I just hope that you would want more too. - C

What is more to you? - A

Girlfriend? - C

I honestly hold by breath before I click send

I wouldn't be opposed to it - A

REALLY!? - C

Yeah I wouldn't mind being your girlfriend - A

Do you think I would be a good boyfriend? - C

So far from what you have said, you may have done some selfish stuff in name of my safety but I do think there was some genuine concern for my reputation and comfort at the school. And what else would a girlfriend want but for her boyfriend to revere her (to the extreme it seems) but also protect her - A

That is one way to put my worship of you. And I promise I will do everything I possibly can to be there for you. - C

Well it seems you have always been there so you will know when I need you hahaha I make myself laugh - A

Look at you making fun of my stalking skills. I knew you were special. - C

Yeah there is probably something wrong with me for being okay with it...but I am not going to look too deep into it. - A

I am thankful that you aren't going to analyze it too much. – C

Well anyways enough about my crazy mind. How do you feel about your family not coming to see you? – A

Well what can I say? I mean I woke up one morning and my mother is standing there with my therapist and telling me I have problems and I openly admit that I have problems but she didn't even try. She was open about me not having friends and knows I am not a personable person. All that being said I expect this from her and my father always lets her make the serious decisions soooo….that leaves me in here alone. As for my brother and sister, I am not sure I would want them to see me in here. Mia is a bit shallow but I know she loves me. She probably either doesn't want to interrupt my progress or my mother doesn't want her to come and see me. My brother is special I wouldn't hope that he would want to see me but…it is what it is. - C

Wow that is a bit much. – A

My family is nothing if not complicated – C

Alright… I actually have to get to bed. I am tired and it's almost two in the morning. – A

I finally just now look at the clock and see it is pretty late.

Okay sweet dreams – C

I lie in bed and think. She may have embraced me as I am and I know I should at least try at this therapy thing or else they will keep me in here away from her. I can't stand to be away from her. It is like an itch under my skin when I am away from her. There is this impulse to have her near that for some reason I cannot shake. Maybe when I have my session with Flinn tomorrow I will be able to talk with him about this and his betrayal.

I mean he knew we were working on my behavior. He told me this may be bad behavior and should seek my own time with her. I took his advice and I did work on getting my own time with her.

Then my mother I tried to gloss over it but it was insulting. She just committed me with no talking whatsoever. She went through my stuff and didn't even try to look guilty. I am working on me. She knows that. Every therapist and doctor she wants me to go to I am there and I don't argue. I see John once a week or sometimes twice a week when she feels there is something extra wrong with me that week. I mean I didn't ask for my childhood to go the way it did.

I mean I was left in a room with my dead crack whore mother for multiple days. I ate frozen peas so stay alive during those horrible days. My crack whore mother let her pimp beat me and left me with more scars than I can count. He used me as an ash tray while my mother did nothing to stop it. I was a burden. I am always a burden. The cigarette burns we not the only scars on my. The belt scars across my back were there in all their glory. I am a gruesome body to behold with no clothes on.

All that being said…I wonder why my mother did not understand my issues. Why don't I like when people touch me? Oh gee mother I guess because the person who was supposed to care for me only hurt me. Then I move into this loving family home and expect everything before that to just disappear. I had to listen to the pimp telling me I am a worthless drain on their money and that I was never going to be anything. That my crack whore of a mother should have just sold me for the rock that they wanted from their local drug dealer and I am supposed to sit at a lovely decorated table filled with food and smiles and know how I am supposed to react. Wow mother I was just being an asshole all of these years?! I mean the stupidity personified by her is astounding.

I went from an abusive household to hers and I will be forever grateful for it but I cannot see how she wants me to be just like my siblings. My siblings were adopted as babies. They have no memories of what happened before they were adopted. I think this is why I need the control that I need. I was not in control as a child. I was a….victim. I have never thought of myself in those terms before. I will have to talk to John about that tomorrow.

I wonder were this obsession and stalking came from. We will talk about that too tomorrow. I just have a lot to say to everyone I guess.

Eventually my mind hurts from all this thinking and I close my eyes and picture Ana right next to me.

Okay review!

HOW DO YOU THINK HIS SESSION SHOULD GO?

Plus to the Guest review that questioned his logic…well stalking and delusional thinking is a common symptom of mental instability. As for his "path of self-destruction" well you are looking a lot like an Elena follower (jk). I am trying to write a story of progression and I need to show Christian's progress. As for Ana's enabling…well they are both teenagers. Their minds are different. As for the romanticization of his tendencies and Christian needing help I am only early on in the story so we haven't gotten to that part yet.