Terra Nova- Day 12
Mark is going to be here in less than an hour and I feel like I'm far from being ready even though I've been getting ready since I got up this morning. I mean I've showered and I've done my hair but I literally cannot decide what to wear. Every time I think I've found the perfect outfit I try it on and it just doesn't seem right so I take it off. I've changed my clothes about 6 times already. I've showed my father the first three outfits but he didn't seem to care at all about what I was wearing as long as it wasn't to revealing and well since nothing in my wardrobe is really revealing he has nothing to worry about. I'm pretty sure he's thoroughly amused by my freaking out though. I swear every time I walk back to my room to try on another outfit I can hear him laughing but that's probably all in my head right?
I wish my mom was here, it would be so much easier if she was but of course she had to chose now of all time to go out to one of the outposts to do some project. She would at least calm me down and tell me it's going to be okay, not sit there and pretend like they care when they're secretly laughing at me spazzing out about my first date ever. I'm just glad Josh isn't here though; he'd probably just make my nerves 10 times worse than they already are and I don't need that. Bad news though is that Zoe is sick so I was half watching her when my dad was out but now he's watching her since he got home and since I have to get ready.
I keep staring at the closet hoping something is just going to pop out at me, but it isn't. I wish it was easier to decide, I mean it's just at my home but I don't want to look like I just rolled out of bed. I guess I'm going for a dressy-casual look, but right now all I'm getting is either too dressy or too casual and it's driving me crazy. All I really know is that I need to get my act together because Mark is going to be here really soon and I really don't think it'll be very presentable to be naked on the date. I'm just glad I made the food ahead of time so that all I really have to do is heat it up... I need to get ready; I'll let you know how the date goes...
Come on there has to be something I can wear. I take one more look at the closet and finally something pops out at me. This grayish dress with an orange t-shirt under it, it's definitely dressy-casual. I quickly change into the outfit and throw on some sock and long brown boots and look at myself in the mirror fussing a little bit trying to make the outfit look okay and fixing my hair before I hear a knock at the door and my arms just drop to my sides… he's here.
I'm so nervous I feel like I'm going to throw up and now all I can think is I hope I don't throw up on him the moment I see him. I slowly make my way out of my room as I hear my dad calling sarcastically for me to go answer the door for my gentleman caller. As I reach the door my hands are shaking and I'm starting to think that I may not be able to open the door at all. I'm scared hoping I made the right choice in outfit hoping I didn't under-dress or over-dress up, but as I open the door I see that I'm not overdressed at all.
I look at Mark taking him all in. From the neck up he looks the same as he usually does, but looking down it's like he's a different person. He's changed his normal army uniform for a casual light blue t-shirt that hugs his muscular body perfectly and some khaki pants with a pair of boots. I can see him looking at me as well and I'm just hoping that he thinks I look okay.
"H-hey" I stutter out nervously
"Hey" He replies "you look nice" he says with a small smile on his face and almost sounding as nervous as I am.
"Thanks, so do you..." I say nervously, feeling scared to say the wrong thing
"Thanks" He says now not really looking at me but everywhere but my face and it makes me realize that he's still outside
"W-why don't you come in?" I say to him moving out of the doorway allowing him to come in, which he does looking awkward and unsure of what he's supposed to be doing once he's inside. "I hope you're hungry, I made dinner..." I said and I felt already ridiculous. Of course he's hungry; he did come over here for dinner.
"Yeah of course, um what did you make?"
"I- Um I made some chicken... Why don't you go sit down and I'll bring it out" I told him and instead of responding he just sat down at the table and I quickly went to the kitchen grabbing the chicken I'd made and realized I hadn't asked him if he wanted anything to drink so I popped my head out of the kitchen to ask him "Um, do you want anything to drink?"
"Yeah um water is fine…" He replied and I nodded my head going back to the kitchen filling up two glasses of water and brought them out to the table and headed back to the kitchen and coming back out with two plates of chicken and placed one of the plates in front of him.
"I hope you like it…" I said to him as I sat down at the table, my stomach in knots nervously hoping he likes the food I'd made. I watched him out of the corner of my eye as we ate and he seemed to be enjoying but he wasn't saying anything so I couldn't be sure. I mean it tasted fine to me but what might taste good to me might not taste good to him and that scared me.
He finished eating and sat there looking awkward and as I finished myself I kept racking my brain trying to think of something witty or interesting to say but nothing was coming to me. All I could think was I hope that one of us can break this awkward silence because it was becoming like torture. We'd never had trouble talking to each other before, or at least I didn't so why was it that as soon as we go on a date neither of us know what to say.
"So… you made dinner?" He asked me sounding really nervous.
"Y-yeah I did, did you like it?"
"Yeah I did, definitely better than the usual food some of the guys make for dinner" He replied to me and I felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders knowing that he at least enjoyed the food I'd made him.
"Well I'm glad you liked it..." I replied and the silence came back over us. I decided maybe we should just skip the small talk and maybe go straight to dessert if he wanted to "So um I made key lime pie for dessert if you want some…"
"yeah that sounds good" He replied and I took the two plates from the table and as I walked back to the kitchen I saw my dad out of the corner of my eye, obviously watching us on our date and I just shook my head and went into the kitchen grabbing two slices of pie and brought them back out setting them on the table. He quickly ate the pie and once I finished mine a little bit after he finished his I tried to avoid another awkward silence and ask him if he wanted another slice of pie…
"So um, more key lime pie? I mean not there's actually any key lime in it because limes won't evolve until millions of years from now but…"
"No... I'm fine." He replied "So um… Do you enjoy cooking?" He asked me
"Yeah I mean to me it's kind of like chemistry, except when you're done cooking you get a treat at the end…" I stopped seeing him get a scared look on his face and I knew that could only mean one thing and I turned around with my suspicions confirmed seeing my father making his way into view.
"I- I should probably get going…" He said and I felt a little sad, he was leaving already and he'd only been here maybe an hour. I couldn't make him stay though, I mean if he doesn't want to be here I can't make him.
"Right, yeah I'll walk you out" I replied quickly getting up from the table and nearly walking into it to walk Mark out.
"Well thank you for welcoming me into your home" He said and I wasn't sure if he was saying that to me or my dad. "Um bye Mr. Shannon" He said and quickly went out the door not really even acknowledging a goodbye to me at all.
I then turned towards my father knowing he probably wanted to say something sarcastic about the date but I wasn't in the mood to hear it. This really had to be one of the worst dates ever, and now I'm not even sure if well ever had another one after this awkward disaster. I just looked at my dad knowing I had to say it, even though the disappointment on my face should make it obvious enough.
"Okay so just tell me the truth. Was that not the worst first date in the history of the universe?" I asked him closed my eyes just waiting for the 'yes' answer I knew was coming…
"Not even close" He replied and I opened my eyes in shock, but a realization came over me.
"You're just saying that to make me feel better"
"No, I'm saying it because I lived it. It was my first date with your mom. She was so astronomically out of my league, a fact that her friends brought up constantly and by the time I picked her up I tagged myself out so much I was a total wreck but when it was all over guess what?..." I just shook my head hoping he really didn't expect me to guess and he obviously didn't as he just continued not waiting for me to respond "I asked her out again cause I knew that no matter how much of a fool I made out of myself in the end it'd be worth it" I couldn't help but smile by the time he had finished talking.
"And you're not just telling me this to make me feel better?" I asked him
"No, I'm not. Here's my advice and listen carefully. SO your first date was horrible, so what. If really cares about you the way that I think he does, he'll be back for another date so stop worrying alright?" He told me and I just nodded my head and went over to him to hug him "Not that I'm complaining, but what's the hug for?"
"For making me feel better and not just telling me the stuff I thought you were going to say, like how awkward and crappy the date actually looked."
"I can if you really want me too, but I get the slightest feeling that you wouldn't want me too"
"You'd be guessing right dad" I told him and he nodded and kissed the top of my head
Terra Nova- Day 12 cont...
Omg, can someone just kill me now. I swear I went on one of the most awkward first dates that anyone can go on. It was like we just forgot how to talk to each other and like we both had all this pressure on us to not say anything stupid and that we worried so much about what to say that we didn't really relax and have the amazing date that I wish we could have had. All I can hope now is that he likes me enough to want to come over again. But from what my dad said, apparently I have nothing to worry about, and I'm going to try not to worry but let's be honest. Until I hear from Mark again, I'll be worrying non-stop…
So i'm getting like no reviews anymore for this story :/
I'm pretty sure i'm gonna be putting this story on hiatus for well the foreseeable future unless i see more interest in the story..
Which in the case that i do put this story on hiatus i'm gonna try to start a new Terra Nova story..what yet i dont know but any ideas would be awesome..
Thanks for Reading
-Heather