"Carlos... have you seen James?" Kendall asked. "He hasn't been in here all day..." He mumbled and looked sad. The latino sighed a bit and tried to calm the blond a bit by hushing at him.
"James is sleeping, Kendall." He said. "He hasn't been feeling very well lately. Which isn't very strange, he has barely left your side since you got worse." He said and frowned. "He's just resting up a bit, he's sick too, remember?"
"I-I know." Kendall said. "I was just... worried about him..." He sighed and closed his eyes. "Tell him to take it easy, will you?" He asked and smiled a bit.
Carlos nodded and gently patted the blond's head. "I'll tell him." He promised before leaving the blond to rest and went to attend other patients.
James laid in his bed staring up at the ceiling. He was dead tired and now he really couldn't get out of bed, not even if he wanted to. He could barely turn his head when Carlos came into the room to check on him. The nurse seemed worried about him and looked him over a bit.
"Kendall is worried about you." Carlos mumbled as he checked the IV that James nod had connected to his arm. "He's wondering why you haven't come to visit him..."
"Don't tell him anything..." James pleaded. "Tell him that I'm doing fine. That I'm just tired." He begged and looked up at the nurse. "Please don't tell him..." He said. Carlos sighed a bit but nodded. "He can't know that I'm sick."
"He'll find out one way or another..." Carlos mumbled and shook his head.
James attempted to shake his head but failed. "Yes... but not today. Please, Carlos... don't tell him." The nurse sighed once more before agreeing not to tell Kendall about James' current condition. He left the brunet after he had given him some medicine and James laid back to rest.
The latino made his way straight to Dr. Mitchell's office and went inside. Logan was sitting by his computer and typing away while looking deeply concentrated on a medical journal he had open on his desk. "Doctor..." Carlos said softly.
Logan looked up and smiled at the nurse and finished the sentence he was writing before turning his attention to Carlos. "Yes, Carlos? Is there anything I can help you with?" He asked. The latino sighed hopelessly and shook his head.
"I'm... here to talk about James." He said. "He's getting worse. He's losing weight, he's tired and he can't even get out of bed anymore." he explained. "He-... He hasn't even gone to see Kendall today." Carlos continued and looked down at the floor. "It's like his medications isn't even doing anything anymore..."
"Oh..." Logan said and frowned. "There must be something we can do for him..." He mumbled. "Let's go and have a look." He said and got up.
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"J-James!" Kendall called and smiled as he was slowly walking towards the brunet's room. "J-Jamie!" He called weakly and stumbled a bit but braced himself against the door frame. "Ja-" Kendall stopped himself mid sentence. "J-James?.." He whispered.
"Hi... Kendall..." James murmured from the bed. Kendall frowned seeing the brunet. He hadn't seen James in almost a week and their only way of communicating with each other was through the nurses. This was the first time Kendall had had the energy to actually go and see his beloved.
James was lying pretty still in his bed. Pale and a lot thinner than Kendall remembered him. He didn't look healthy at all and now Kendall understood why he wasn't visiting him anymore. "J-Jamie..." Kendall got out and staggered over to the bed.
"W-What's... up?" James asked, trying to sound somewhat energetic and cheerful. Trying to make Kendall believe that he was better than he looked, which was all lies. Kendall stared at him.
"James... what's wrong?" he asked. James gulped a bit and sighed.
"Nothing... I'm just... tired." He said and Kendall flopped down on the chair by the bed. "Don't you... worry about me." James said and smiled softly. Kendall blinked a few times and considered the thought of pushing James to explain or to tell him the good news.
Kendall smiled sadly and grabbed a hold of James' hand, squeezing it. "G-Guess what, Jamie?" He asked. "G-Guess what?" He repeated and looked excited. The brunet seemed to think for a while before shaking his head, meaning that he couldn't guess. "They've found a donor." Kendall said happily. "I'm gonna get a new heart."
James lit up and felt a small amount of energy return to his sick body. "R-Really?" He asked. "That's wonderful!" he said and smiled. "I'm so happy for you!" He said and brought Kendall's hand to his lips and kissed it. "I-I told you... that you were going to be fine." he said and the blond smiled at him.
"I know... I never doubted you." He said. "A-And when I get healthy again... I'll visit you in here everyday... and then we're gonna get you healthy too." he said and smiled tiredly. "And once we get out of here... you can come and live with me."
"I-I'd like that." James said and closed his eyes. "I'd really like that."
"It's going to be... so cool. We'll always be together." Kendall said. "And I promise to cook you breakfast everyday and I'll... take you to see that band you like." James smiled – still with his eyes closed – squeezing Kendall's hand.
"Tell me more." he said. "Tell me... about all the things we're gonna do... when we get out of here." He begged and leaned back a bit, making himself comfortable. Kendall nodded excitedly, yet tiredly and laboriously climbed up into the bed next to James. The brunet smiled a bit and leaned his head against the blond's shoulder and sighed happily.
"We'll do things everyday." Kendall mumbled and intertwined their fingers. "The first day we're going to the movies... and eat dinner at a really fancy place." He said and James imagined himself and Kendall sitting in the darkness of a theater watching a movie. "A-And of course... we'd watch a scary movie... and I'll be so scared that you have to hold me all night." Kendall giggled.
"T-That... sounds... good." James mumbled.
Kendall nodded. "You'll hold me tight all night and protect me and I'll be so happy." He chuckled and sighed a bit, placing a kiss on James' head. "And... we'd live happily ever after, of course..." He added and leaned his head against James'.
Kendall sat like that for a minute and when he didn't receive an answer from the brunet he carefully looked down at James only to find that he had fallen asleep. The blond smiled sadly at his lover and kissed his head again and hugged him.
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"You seem happy." A nurse pointed out as she checked on Kendall. The blond smiled tiredly at her and nodded.
"I am happy." Kendall replied. "They found a donor for me." He said. "And a few days ago, James said that he'd live with me... once we get out of here." The nurse smiled at the blond and let out an 'aw'. "I love him so much..." Kendall sighed happily.
"That's wonderful." The nurse said. "It sounds like you're going to have it all set once you've gotten out of here." Kendall nodded and just then Logan appeared in the door. "Doctor." The nurse greeted with a smile before leaving the room to let the doctor and the patient talk.
"Hello, Kendall." Logan said and smiled. "How are you feeling today?"
"Good." Kendall replied.
"Yeah? Well, that's very good." The doctor said and sat down by the bed, on the chair. "I'm simply here to talk a little about the surgery." He explained and the blond nodded. "You see, we found a suitable donor and you're going to get a new heart."
"Who's the donor?" Kendall asked and tilted his head a little.
"The donor is anonymous." Logan said. Kendall sighed a bit and shrugged. "Now, the procedure is to take place in three days and you may not eat anything the day before or the day of the procedure." Logan explained. "Now, it's always a risk but nothing you should worry about." Logan assured.
"W-Will it be painful?" Kendall asked worriedly. Logan frowned a bit and sighed. Kendall pouted, knowing what the answer was.
"I'm not going to lie to you." Logan said and shook his head. "It is not a comfortable procedure." He said. "A heart transplant is what it is." Kendall nodded slowly.
"I guess..." He mumbled. "Will Carlos be there?" He asked. Logan nodded. "I'd... um... like him to be there." Kendall mumbled and blushed a bit. "He's been pretty nice and all... and James isn't allowed in there so... Carlos is the second best." He said and squirmed around a bit.
Logan smiled and patted Kendall on the shoulder. "I'll make sure that Carlos will be present." He promised. It made Kendall feel better knowing that there was going to be someone there for him. He would have liked it better if it was James but James was neither allowed in there nor in the condition to be up a the moment.
Kendall was scared. He had never been through surgery before and he was worried that something would go wrong. He wished that he James could be there but he knew he couldn't. Kendall sighed a bit and decided to rest up a bit before visiting James one more time before going to bed.
Hi guys! Another update!
Honestly, I scared the hell out of myself writing this. But it turned out pretty well I think. I just want to say that this story will be 17 chapters. So yeah, we have a few more chapters to go through, hm?
I really hope you liked the chapter and if you did please leave a review it means so much :)
Love, Hannah