L.

Casanova forever and Never

Chapter 14 Culpability in the Heart

I glared daggers at all the sorry bastards that walked in front of me. I knew what I had to do; Kagome had to get rid of the baby today but I couldn't get his words out of my head.

So I wasn't lying to myself, I did love Kagome. But what does keeping the kid have to do with that?

Since when do I have to keep a kid to prove my love for someone?

I growled under my breath and walked out of the hospital. I checked my watch and glanced up at the sun gloating above me. Kagome should be going in now. I opened my car and revved the engine, earning pissed off glares from random people I really don't give a flying shit about.

I had to get out of there.

I had to get out of the stupid hospital.

I know its fucking wrong to leave my girlfriend in the hospital when she's getting an abortion but I couldn't deal with it. With Sesshomaru, Kagome, the abortion.

He got in my head and goddamnit I was fighting with myself to do the right thing.

I gunned down the road, screeching to a halt at the closed gate.

"Sir!" The guard yelled at me as he rushed out of the little booth to stand in front of my car. What kind of idiot is this guy? Who the hell does that shit? He leaned forward and tapped my hood. "Slow down and be careful!" He tapped the hood again. "This is a hospital!"

"Get out of my way motherfucker!" I leaned out of my window and yelled. Okay so I admit it wasn't the smartest move I could make but hell I was stressed.

The guard glared at me and I flashed him my card before slowly inching my car forward to his body. It scared the living shit out of him.

I skidded off as soon as the bastard opened the gates for me to pass through and drove in a mad rage though the streets until I violently parked in a random parking lot. It scarred several pedestrians.

To be honest I had no idea where I was or what I did with my keys after that. I think I put it in my pants but I hoped to any fucking God that I at least locked the doors.

My car was fucking expensive.

I walked blindly though the streets, ignoring the haughty stares of strangers and the pissed off rants of woman I got as I walked past them, into them, through them. My mind was a chaotic mess filled with rage, passion and indecisiveness. If I allowed myself to go back to the hospital now; I'd sure as hell stop the abortion.

But that was the wrong choice.

I decided with a clear head earlier that this was the right thing to do.

I couldn't let Sesshomaru get to me.

I walked around aimlessly for a few hours. My legs just kept moving, going wherever the hell they wanted. I passed though alleyways and behind buildings. I walked down endless streets and passed numerous resident areas. I never tired of walking down the stupid streets; wondering around without purpose.

"Inuyasha?" I heard my name called. But I didn't stop. I couldn't.

"Inuyasha!" The voice got closer and then the monk appeared next to me. "Hey! What are you doing here? The hospital is on the other side of…" He trailed off and grabbed my shoulder, yanking me back. "Inuyasha?"

I stared blankly at his feet, never noticing his shoe size before now. "Inuyasha."

"I did the right thing. She needed the fucking abortion." I spoke. Though it sounded more like I was trying to convince myself of it. I began walking again. This time I was more aware of my surroundings and where I was headed. Though honestly, I was still walking aimlessly.

Miroku remained silent as he kept pace with me as I began walking again. Damnit my legs won't stop moving.

"Sango went home for a few hours." The monk began. "She said she needed to make some calls…"

I ignored the bastard next to me. What in hell would make him think I want to hear about that bitch now?

"Hey, let's get some coffee." He yanked me into a nearby coffee shop. Honestly I didn't even realize where I was until the strong aroma of coffee being brewed hit my scents. "My treat."

And that's why I kept this asshole around. Even though I'm fucking rich, it was nice once in awhile to have someone treat you for a change. "What do you want? Inuyasha?"

"Coffee. Any type of coffee." I answered and stretched. I have to admit, it felt good to have someone with me. I probably should have called the stupid police and have them lock up Sango and have the monk come with me to the hospital.

Probably would have saved me from feeling like shit.

Defiantly would have stopped me from this gnawing pain in my gut.

"Inuyasha…" Miroku began, swirling the spoon in his tea. "What is it…what is it exactly that you like about Kagome?"

I frowned at him and drummed my fingers against the side of my coffee mug. "What the hell do you mean monk?"

"I mean; you actually care about her and there must be a reason for it. What is it? What makes her different from all the rest?" He pushed.

I held my breath for a second before chewing on my inner cheek. Why the hell did I love Kagome? What was it about her? Why am I going this far with her? What was is it about her that makes me actually want to stay by her side; why is it that I don't want her at my side?

"I…I want to be by her side…because she makes me a better person."

Miroku sipped his tea and shook his head. "Can't be original can you? If that's the way its going to be then leave her alone Inuyasha. She's a good girl that doesn't need you in her life."

"I want to be at her side I don't want her at mine. I want to see what she can do with her life; I don't want to be a hindrance to her. She is an amazing woman and having the baby would hold her back. We're too young. I don't want her to have any regrets. She deserves that much since she chose me."

"The reason I like her? The reason I love her? She's the first woman to actually care for me and forgive me."

L.

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