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Chapter 14- The story

I've been thinking of everything

I used to want to be

I've been thinking of everything

Of me, of you and me

I darted up and placed my back against the headboard of the bed. Edward crossed his legs Indian style and waited patiently in front of me. My mouth dropped and thoughts raced through my mind. " Wh-What?" Was all I could manage to say. A small smirk lifted the top of his lips and he took my hands in his. I stared at him through wide eyes. Marriage? I was no where near ready to get married! I'd just gotten changed! Personally I wanted to learn how to slack my bloodlust first. Then maybe marriage could be brought into the relationship. But how could I tell him that?

" Bella, I want you to marry me." He repeated, moving off the bed and down on the floor. I watched in shock as he placed one knee on the floor and kept my hands wrapped in his. His eyes were warm and loving.

" Oh Edward." I whispered. I couldn't believe it. He was proposing to me! I took one of my hands out of his grasp and put it on the side of his face. My eyes gazed into his as I said, " No." The look on his face couldn't killed me. Such sorrow overtook his features that I quickly added, " Not right now at least." I got off the bed and sat myself in his lap. " Edward, I can't right now. Not while Bayleen is missing and I'm getting the hang of being a vampire. But I promise you, that we will get married. I just need some time love."

" Take all the time you need. I'll always be here. Always." He told me, kissing me deeply. I smiled and let out a tiny sigh.

" Thank you for understanding." I said quietly.

" Of course I understand Bella. I just feel kind of. . . " His voice trailed off and his eyes lowered to the floor.

" Hey, come back to me." I said and lifted his head up. His copper hair fell on my fingers, feeling like silk. " What's wrong?" I asked him softly. He shrugged his shoulders and rested his head on my shoulder.

" I just. . . I can't help but think you're going to leave me." He admitted sheepishly. I couldn't find anything to say, so I slapped his shoulder. He looked at me in surprise and arched an eyebrow.

" Excuse me!" I cried. " Where did you get that dumb idea!"

" I left you Bella. I mean, what if we can never get back what we had? What if, all this is a mistake? What if-" I rolled my eyes and put a finger on his lips. I couldn't hear anymore.

" Edward Cullen, I swear you are one of the most stubborn men I have ever met." I muttered. " I'm not going to leave you! I never would! I love you Edward, I never stopped. And you're right, things aren't the same. They're so much better." I told him seriously and then removed my finger to give him a kiss. He laughed and stood up, balancing me in his arms. Suddenly a flash overtook me and I felt a ripple of pain run through me. I groaned and closed my eyes.

" You need to feed." He stated simply. " Are you ready?" I nodded my head, my heart pumping at the thought of blood. I could practically feel it running down my throat. Edward must have known what I was thinking of because he tapped me. I opened my eyes and glanced at him. I could see how black my eyes were from the reflection of me in his. " Don't think about it. It'll make the desire stronger." He said to me.

" Okay." I replied quietly and rested my head against his chest. I growled again as another flash of blood desire ran through me. This was most definitely going to take some getting used to.

Edward stood beside me and I overlooked the forest he'd taken me to. I could hear everything. Every move by a small creature on the ground, the wind rustling through the weeping willow at the far right of the open meadow leading into more forest. I thought of the meadow at Forks and smiled, this was almost like that. Almost. " Now, you're going to want to go for a big enough animal that can sustain your blood lust." He told me. I nodded my head, taking it all in. " That's why mountain lion is a favorite of mine." He smiled, his eyes twinkling. I laughed and rested against him, waiting for him to dismiss me to feed. " And, don't be afraid of yourself. It's. . . Having to feed is scary and it can be scary to think about." Another burst of pain ran through me, almost knocking me to my knees. After letting me know a couple more facts, he set me free. I ran through the dark forest, my eyes searching as well as my ears. Finally I stopped and glanced at a buck feeding on some grass. I crouched down and started to walk towards him, my steps silent on the forest floor. He lifted his head once, but then went back to eating. He was beautiful. His brown fur looked sleek and touchable, and I could see the muscles tensing on his body. I closed my eyes and I focused on the blood running through his veins. I could hear it rushing through his body, I could smell it's sweet scent. I smiled and then leapt forward. My hands met with the buck's back and I pushed him to the ground. He struggled against me, which made it all the more fun. I moved my fingers along his fur and then lowered my mouth to it. I opened my mouth and let my teeth graze his skin. He stopped moving and just waited, as if he knew what was to come. I furrowed my eyebrow and looked up, into his eyes. I could see the fear. A deer was afraid of dying?

" Of course he is. He's just as alive as you used to be." I jumped at the sound of the female voice from behind me. My hands still held the deer to the ground, enabling me to turn around and glance at the woman. She smiled and held out two packets of blood. " From the hospital. Please let him go." I raised an eyebrow and then slowly nodded my head. I stood up and watched the buck get up and run. Slowly his scent drifted away. I took the blood from the woman. She had short black hair and she was pale. But I could smell the blood running through her body. She smiled and went to take something out of her boot leg. I tensed and was ready to flee when she held up the knife in surrender. She sliced the packet for me and waited while I gulped down the contents of the packet. The blood slid down my throat, coating it. I groaned and started to lick the inside, which earned me a laugh from the woman. She took the packet from me and opened the other. I quickly drank it down, then threw the packet to the floor.

" Who are you?" I asked her, not worried about her. She seemed. . . Different. I didn't think she was fully human. She smiled and held out her hand.

" Raven Halverson. And you are Isabella Swan aren't you?" I took her hand and shook it, my eyes opened wide. All of a sudden Edward came running out of the trees.

" Bella!" He yelled. I glanced at him just in time to see him rush towards me and then fall to the ground. Raven's hand was up and she was looking at him cautiously.

" Umm. . . He's with me." I told her. She gazed at me and then dropped her hand. Edward came running towards me and wrapped his hand around my waist.

" Who are you?" He demanded to know. She smiled again and pointed to the left of her.

" There's a cabin up there. Why don't we go sit down. I have more blood stored away if you need some." She responded politely. Edward was about to decline when I put a hand on his chest.

" I trust her." I told him. " Why not go? It seems like Raven here has something to tell us." Her eyes glittered as she looked at me with a grin.

" You can find out you know." She said. I was puzzled for a moment, and that's when I remembered about my gift. I called upon it and all of a sudden her memories filled my mind. I groaned and fell to my knees. I felt a small hand on my back and looked up. " I can help you with that." She stated shyly. " I didn't know you were new at this. Sorry about that."

" It's okay." I mumbled, regaining my composure. I noticed her dagger was back in her bootleg. " You smell like cinnamon." I told her simply. Her grin faltered and she let out a short sigh.

" Yeah, I've gotten that before." Edward glanced at me before we started the walk to the cabin. All I knew was I felt like I knew this girl. And I couldn't quite understand why.

This is the story of my life

These are the lies I have created

The cabin was nice. It was a deep wood, and the forest lined the side of it. If I were to sit on the back porch I would be looking right into a deep lake. It was heavily furnished inside. The colors varied from deep blues to greens to reds. All in all it was highly comfortable. I took a seat on a couch, a deer blanket thrown over the back of it, and waited for Raven to bring Edward and myself some blood. His hand was nearly crushing mine. It wasn't until Raven opened her mind to him that he settled down. I assumed she wasn't dangerous by that. I looked at the top of the stone fireplace and smiled at the pictures on top of it. I could tell she was the young child in them. And then there were pictures of her with a man. I scoffed and was about to stand up when she came back into the living room. I could tell immediately she knew that I knew her secret.

" You're Christopher's lover." I spat. " Why did you bring us here!" Edward was about to say something but she held up a hand and stopped him.

" Bella. . . I cannot tell you how sorry I am about your daughter. I swear to you, I was unaware of what he was going to do. The man I knew. . . He wasn't like this." A tear slid down her cheek. My frown softened and I put a hand on hers.

" I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that." She waved her free hand at me and wiped away the tear.

" You have every right. He betrayed me. He. . ." Her features hardened and she cleared her throat. " I want to help you find him." She told me seriously. I sighed and was about to tell her it wasn't safe when she laughed. " Believe me, I'll be safe enough." I raised an eyebrow and peered at her.

" What are you?" I asked before I knew what I was saying.

" Hmm. . . A witch. All the women in my family were. I'm the last one in the line, the rest of my family were killed. I recently learned that it was by Christopher's hand." She replied, her words cold. I knew she was trying to appear stone cold because it took the hurt away from the words. I smiled softly and then nodded my head.

" You can come. But I want to be the one to kill him." I looked at both her and Edward, making sure they understood my words. " He took my daughter." I added. " I have to." Raven sighed and picked up a picture of her and Christopher. She put a finger over it, and then let go. I gasped as I saw it hover in the air. She smiled and then tilted her head to the left. The picture crashed into the wall and smashed into pieces.

" What were you doing dating an immortal in the first place." Edward spoke up. His eyes were a deep topaz, but they weren't black. That was always a good thing.

" I thought he was different. I believed he was. I was wrong. So wrong." She whispered. " But, forgive me for saying this, it's none of your business Edward Cullen. I'm especially not going to tell his twin brother. And what you did to him is unforgivable." Edward scoffed and threw his hands up in the air. I put a hand on his leg in a vague attempt to calm him down.

" I don't even remember him!" He exclaimed. " Tell me, what did I do to him to make him hate me so?" She looked at him in confusion, her deep blue eyes studied him for what seemed to be ten minutes. Finally she spoke.

" You left him to die when you were both ten years old." Was what she said.

And I swear to god

I've found myself

In the end