Wrote this chapter about 2 years ago right before my birthday and when the Superbowl came to town… crazy right? I was still watching So Random and I was gearing up for spring break at Disney World.
Man I've been nostalgic today, first Allstar Weekend and now this.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Not SWAC. Not Demi's music. Not Allstar Weekend or the Jonas Brothers. Not any of the acts besides the 2 horrible losers. Not Beyonce. How sad am I?
ENJOY!
Sonny POV
At last. The competition ends tomorrow night. We finished competing around the world and are on the plane back to LA for the closing ceremony.
Basically, I've been winning with Chad, the Jobros, ADUB, One Direction and Justin Bieber close behind me this whole time. For closing ceremony, everyone has to perform another song for a last chance at major points, it'll be broadcast live around the world and it will have voting by text message (they totally stole this right off of Camp Rock 2), so I'm REALLY counting on my fans this time! But I'm just mostly excited to be back home where all of my friends are and where my mom will be flying in.
I smiled as we walked off the plane into the airport, "Home," I sighed happily grabbing a few bags, Chad picking up the rest.
"It makes me happy you finally call this place home," Chad smiled. We were mobbed on our way to the car, but I was so happy to be home that I didn't care.
"Lived here long enough," I shrugged. I looked around at everything I had forgotten on the drive home, just thoroughly enjoying being back home where I could freely do whatever I wanted without anybody calling me stupid or fat (well ok they will, but I just try to stay offline).
We got home and did the same thing we did last time; laid down, napped, unpacked, and walked over to Tawni and Nico's for dinner with them and other friends for Nico's birthday.
"Sonny! You're back again!" Tawn enveloped me in a hug when she saw me, "There's so much shopping we have to do!"
"Again?"
"Fashion changes, girl! AND I want to get my hair touched up too. When is closing tomorrow?" Tawni asked.
"Starts at 7, I'm last so I'd say I don't go on until 9," I checked the email the head of WSC had sent us.
"Awesome! That'll give us enough time to get you ready…I've envisioned this really gorgeous look for you!" Tawni clapped excited.
I greeted all of my friends who were also at the party before dinner was served. There were blankets set up outside for a 'picnic' dinner, "Chad you can get as many grapes as you want, I'm not feeding them to you," I laughed at him as we were getting food.
"Oh, but you will," Chad argued back.
"You loser," I smiled sitting down on a blanket. The rest of the Randoms sat with us and we all caught up. After noticing there still wasn't a ring on Mel's finger, I decided to pull Grady aside, "Grady, can I talk to you for a minute?"
"Yeah, sure," He stood up and we walked off to the side.
"So why haven't you done it yet?" I asked him.
"Done what?"
"You know very well what I'm talking about, Grady!" I laughed, "If you like it then you should put a ring on it," oh man I just went there. (AN: They always play that song before One Direction comes on stage so more nostalgia for me yay)
"I don't know…I'm still afraid…" Grady went on another rant about how afraid he was of refusal.
"Listen, why don't you talk to Chad later? You have to do it sometime," I encouraged him.
"Ok, ok," He agreed and we joined the group again.
"So you talked to Grady last night?" I asked Chad the next morning as I was preparing for the ceremony in the music room.
"Did the best I could," He shrugged.
"I wouldn't be surprised if you failed…" I teased him and giggled.
"Really Sonny, really?" I honestly love when we act like we're teenagers again…
"Yes Chad, really!" I smiled.
"…Anyways…what are you singing tonight?" He asked avoiding another stupid argument.
I thought about it for a second, "I'm feeling La La Land. New white dress. Sparkly heels."
"Girls," Chad spat out sarcastically.
"Fine. What are you singing?" I smiled.
"No clue…guess I'll just wing it."
"Guys," I mocked Chad.
Tawni and I spent the remainder of the morning and afternoon shopping around town, jamming to Little Mix, and getting our hair done. Tawn went a little blonder (hard to believe right?) and I got my hair trimmed and straightened for tonight. It was really shiny and bouncy.
"So I'll be backstage tonight," Tawni told me on our ride back home.
"Really? Thanks!" I smiled, "My mom's coming too! I'm so excited for all of my favorite people to be here for moral support!"
"Any time, girly! So what's this I hear from your really annoying husband about new music?"
I finished a few more songs this morning: Fix A Heart and Give Your Heart A Break, "Yup. You can hear them all next time you come over! Promise!" We pinky promised as we pulled up into my driveway, "See you later!"
Later that night, we were preparing to go onstage and perform. I was, as promised, wearing my white dress and my new favorite sparkly heels since my other ones…yeah I'd rather not talk about that… anyways… We were in the back of the hallway warming up our voices and playing guitar and just goofing around like usual.
"We should make shirts that say Team USA!" Cam suggested and we laughed.
"Let's do it! They should have our faces on dollar bills!" Kevin said.
"YES!" Zach was getting excited while jump roping, his pre-concert ritual.
I looked up from my guitar and saw a flurry of animal fur walking towards us. Yay. Estelle and her stupid entourage. What is this, high school?
"Well, well, well…" She said walking up to us.
"Seriously? You need a new line…" Zach stopped jump roping.
"Not talking to you," She snapped, "I just wanted to come over and wish Sonny good luck," We all just kind of looked at each other not knowing what to do or say, "Good luck at not breaking the stage because of your weight!"
"WOW! A fat joke AND a stage collapse joke all in one sentence! Your mom must be so proud!" Chad sarcastically said putting his arm around me.
"Well at least my mom showed up."
"…My mom's here too…" I raised a brow.
"Well at least my dad's here," She got in my face. I just leant my head onto Chad's shoulder before I got all worked up. Seriously? Every time I heal, this girl shows up and makes it all worse again, She turned on her heel and walked away. But as soon as we thought she was gone, she turned right back around remembering something, "Oh right! I almost forgot, I got a hold of your new song, and let's just say that I'll be singing it tonight, k?"
Normally, I would have lost it. I would have gone berserk. But I kept a calm, but saddened face. This girl goes to undreamed of levels to hurt me, but this time she won't see me cry. Not yet, anyways.
"I…I can't do this anymore," I said quietly and ran back to the now deserted dressing/hair/makeup room and sank down the wall onto the floor. After a minute of sitting and staring at the wall, Chad came in and sat down next to me, not saying a word, "What did I ever do wrong?"
"You let her get to you," He stood me up and we looked into a mirror, "What do you see?"
I stared long and hard at myself, "I see an insecure failure."
"I see the starstruck girl in a fat suit and a huge wig…and a brunette in a mermaid dress at her secret prom…a Check-It-Out girl…a very confident and bubbly girl overall who just wanted to help kids read. More importantly though, I see the most beautiful and headstrong girl who isn't afraid to challenge whatever goes against her beliefs."
I love him.
"You know I still hate it when you're right," I smiled.
"No, you definitely love it when I'm right," He said happily and I laughed leaning my head onto his shoulder again, "Remember, it'll all be over tonight, then we can go home and nap for the rest of eternity."
"Loser."
"Name caller."
"You know what? Fine," I started.
"Fine."
"Good."
"Good."
"So we're good?"
"As long as you give it your all tonight and leave the entire world speechless," Chad finished and I agreed.
When we got back out, Estelle was waltzing up on stage like she owned the place. She sat at her piano and played a series of random notes (she clearly doesn't know how to play) before starting to sing, "Skies are flying, I am coughing…catching…something…in my arms," She tried to keep going on Skyscraper, but she couldn't come up with any more of it. Little liar. Embarrassed and angry, Estelle stormed off stage. There will most likely be no votes for her.
I was really excited when Little Mix played A Different Beat and I could squeeze Chad's hand while singing "I take a look in the mirror and I like what I see, so baby I keep marching to a different beat."
Hours later, it was time for Team USA to rock the stage after One Direction did an amazing performance of What Makes You Beautiful. Allstar Weekend played All The Way, Chad did a mash up of a few of his songs, the Jonas Brothers sang SOS. And as the final contestant, I got ready to walk out on stage. My band and piano were already out there getting ready to play La La Land. I was having a mental breakdown, because to not everyone's shock Estelle and Andreas came back and mocked me about my weight a little more after Chad went on so I had no protection since the Jobros were gone and Allstar Weekend was done.
I took breaths and just replayed all the happy moments in my life and the nice things said to me in my head before bouncing on stage to the opening notes of the song.
I am confident
But I still have my moments
Baby, that's just me
I'm not a supermodel
I still eat McDonald's
Baby, that's just me!
"Well some may…say I need to be- to be," I started stumbling on the lyrics when I was receiving bad flashbacks. My eyes started darting all over the crowd looking for familiar faces, "I'm sorry, can we stop?" the crowd gasped a little, "I can't…I just…" I looked to my right offstage and saw my mom, Chad, Tawni, and Nico all standing there watching, "I feel like singing this song to you guys is a lie… I'm not confident. I'm probably the most self conscious person you'll ever meet. You can say one slightly mean comment and destroy my year…
"I've gone through a lot of hardship in my life, a lot has been kept a secret and under wraps because I'm too afraid of what others would think. This was the result of going through so much pain, both emotional and physical. But over the past few years getting away from the pain by placing myself with people that truly love me just the way I am and I've been working on really feeling beautiful," My voice was squeaking a little and tears were brought to my eyes, "I just want all of you out there to know that you are beautiful no matter what anyone tells you. No matter who you are, what you look like, or where you come from, you're beautiful." I let one tear escape my eye before nodding to my band and sitting down at my piano.
(For this, look up Skyscraper Chicago 12/3/12. I was thereJ She made such a beautiful speech! I was sobbing the whole time!)
Skies are crying
I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence
As it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I've made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
The music began picking up a little and the song became much more personal to my shaky voice.
As the smoke clears
I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you
Feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I've made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
I stood up from the piano, tears rolling down my face now. My voice was breaking, but there was no stopping me. I felt a strong end to the song coming on, so I got ready to hold out a long note or reach a high one.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I've made of paper, oh woah
I wiped a tear in the split second, choosing a note to attempt to reach.
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
There I was supposed to sing another 'like a skyscraper', but my crying got the best of me for a few seconds. I composed myself before finishing.
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
The band finished playing, but I went for one more soft:
Like a skyscraper
Without any music in the background which sent chills down my body.
CHAPTER 14! What do you guys think? Lemme know por favor! I love the caveman eppy of Phineas and Ferb where they only talk in 'cave talk' the whole time! CANTOK MAKA FOOMFA!
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^^ written 2 years ago and that's still my favorite episode
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-LINZ