Okay, now this might be a little short but it's mostly just talking about what Yumi's going through after the kiss. In the next chapter...well I won't say yet. It'll be a suprise. Some of you were guessing what will happen next and most of the guesses were good but whether your close or not I won't say. You'll just have to finish reading the story to know what happen. But anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter and please review. I'll have the next chapter up soon, I hope. Well on with the story.
Chapter Thirteen
As she drove home she kept asking herself, Why did I kiss him back? Why? She wondered if it was possible that after five years she still felt something for him when she knew she shouldn't any longer? She loved Odd now, she didn't love him any more. Was it possible that maybe she stayed with Odd because he gave her the love and attention she always wanted from Ulrich. Whatever it was, it was starting to confuse her now and make her question, did she love Odd the way she thought she did, or was it just the love she felt for Ulrich which she was giving to him, because in some ways she thought them both the same.
Yumi's head was now starting to hurt from going back and forth through the same questions over and over in her mind and never getting the answers that she needed. It was all just so confusing for her now. Everthing was just so mixed up now, her feelings for both of them and who she truly loved. She parked her car next to the sidewalk of the park and sat there, not really thinking of any thing, just trying to clear up her head and find out what to do next. It's strange how something like a simple kiss could change so much in so little time.
She really didn't know what to do or know what she felt at the moment. Should she tell Odd about the kiss or just keep it to herself?
"No," she whispered "I can't tell him. And he can't find out about this... at least not untill I figure this out." Yumi sighed and looked out her window to the park. At the kids chasing each other around the playground, the happy couples walking hand in hand together, both silent and just so glad to be there together. Memories came to her of the times she spent here with Odd and the times they still came here together to just talk. But also the memories of the times she was here with Ulrich came to her too. Memories of years ago when she thought he loved her, all that before the day she saw him kissing Sissi and she felt her heart break into unfixable pieces.
Yumi finally pushed the memories and her problems far back into her head. She had to go on like every thing was normal, just like before. She'd find a way to fix every thing later.
The apartment was empty when she got home, there were a couple of messeges on the anwering machine but she didn't bother to check them, she just went into the room and lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. After a few minutes, her eyes began to close and she fell asleep, her problem no longer bothering her as she slipped into the land of dreams where nothing ever happened and everthing was just the same as before. Again, it's funny how such a small, simple thing like a kiss could change so much and cause so many problems to arise.
And unfortunantly for her, this wasn't her only one. More were still on their way and she'd find that you can't run from your problems forever. Sooner or later, you'd have to face, not matter what the outcome may be.