Iron and Wine - Naked as we came

She says "wake up, it's no use pretending"
I'll keep stealing, breathing her.
Birds are leaving over autumn's ending
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes 'round the yard

She says "If I leave before you, darling
Don't you waste me in the ground"
I lay smiling like our sleeping children
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes 'round the yard

I had now been living at the Cullen's place for almost a week and sat comfortable in the Cullen's expensive, overlord couch a rainy Tuesday afternoon.

Overlord couch?

The couch that rules all the other couches, I guess?

It's that awesome?

This whole house is that awesome, it's a huge difference from the place we lived in. But our home was way more inviting, it felt so much more comfortable comparing to this stiff place. It sure was beautiful but I'd have to worry about spilling or knocking over some vase worth hundreds and hundreds of dollars, at all times.

Mhm, you should. You sure as hell can't afford to replace even their doormat.

I know, don't rub it in.

Bella had been taken upstairs since the baby had cracked another of her rib and she was loosing a lot of weight, fast. Her state was really getting critical and I don't even think that she, herself, even have much hope left now. They were doing so much research, day and night, desperately trying to find a way to make her situation a bit more stable but nothing seemed to work. I heard three sharp knocks on the door and shot up from my spot and ran to the door. Well, stumbled as fast as I could without knocking anything over in the process and then I opened up the front door and was met by the most beautiful pair of eyes, imaginable. It was my Jacob, he had come to visit me and to check up on Bella. She screamed from upstairs before we even got a chance to say anything to each other and we both cringed.

"Is it bad?" His voice mirroring his worry.

"He has cracked another one of her ribs," I said with a heavy heart.

Jacob came inside and closed the door behind him and then he grabbed me, possesively, in his arms and buried his face in my loose hair that flowed down my shoulders.

"You still smell good even though you have a hint of the leeches on you," he teased me and I punched his shoulder, lightly, not for his sake but for my own.

"Missed me?" He asked while nuzzling me. I smiled softly and closed my eyes feeling safe in his arms. The tension left my body almost instantly. I knew the Cullens would never hurt me, but I could tell they were getting hungry and it made me feel very safe to have Jacob near me.

"Of course I did. Are you staying longer this time?"

"At least for a while. Can't hang around here more than necessary," he explained to me.

"Wrong." I heard a high pitched voice coming from down the stairs, it was Alice who quickly walked up to Jacob. She was just hovering around him which I could tell was making him a bit uncomfortable.

"You may stay as long as you like, Jacob," she continued and gave him and me a small smile.

I smiled back at Alice a little bit but moved closer to Jacob. There was another scream from upstairs and all of us cringed again. Jacob went from cringing to frowning. He didn't like any of this at all. He clearly wants the baby out of her now.

He'd probably rip it out himself if not blondie and copper would be around her all the time like hawks.

He would never do that. I know he wouldn't even if he doesn't want this. I noticed how his mood got worse and I was just about to say something to ease the mood but Alice beat me to it.

"Are you hungry?" She asked him, I was worried about that too but it wasn't my place to offer him anything from this house. Though gladly Alice was such a wonderful hostess while Esme was away and served her guests. They all had such perfect manners.

"Starving actually," Jacob said and I could hear his stomach making hollow growls as he rubbed it.

I went with Jake back to the living room, taking my old spot on the couch but not wrapping up in the lavender cunky knit blanket I had been using earlier because now I had my own personal radiator next to me. He placed my naked feet in his lap making my frozen toes all hot and toasty with his big, soft hands.

We sat in the living room all afternoon until he had to head back out to the others and after that day he came over less and less.

He hadn't shown up all day a cloudy afternoon as I kept my crossed legs thrown over the armrest of the awesome Cullen couch. I was laying on my back, taking up half of the couch while I pulled out strands of hair then twisted them around my fingers and pulled them through, repeatedly. One of my feet also twitched pulsively up and down, up and down. I was stressed out, to say the least. I tried to just breath calmly through my nose to minimise the airflow and easier control it. The lower lip I had in a tight grip with my pearly whites as I stared blankly into one of the walls with empty eyes.

Craziness, oh craziness. It only reveals itself more and more by the second and it don't seem to have any plans on slowing down. I wondered long and hard about the fact that I was in a house of vampires without even feeling uncomfortable then I remembered about what Bella had told me. The younger blonde, tall guy was able to controll emotions somehow. I noticed that he was glancing towards me, his topaz eyes locked with my emerald and I instantly looked down to the floor. Bella was sitting at the other end of the couch, leaned against the corner as Edward was hovering behind her with a desperate look on his face. He looked as is he was lost in deep, horrid thoughts but so alert around Bella at the same time. It was a remarkable tention in the room. I suppose that the Jasper guy had a handfull at the moment as I glanced towards him again but now his eyes were turned towards his wife who sat in the corner of the room with her fingers pressed against her temples, rubbing them in circles as she pressed her eyes shut. She looked so small as she sat curled up into a little ball.

This is too much suffering in one room for my taste. Even that Jasper dude can't contain the agonize I feel by just being here.

Could be because you're not real.

Get the fuck out, Anna.

I really had to get out for air so I got up on my feet and just then I heard Edwards voice suddenly speak up from behind me.

"I would divert the idea of going outside at this time. It's not safe out there."

He had been in my head.

Now I am really fucking uncomfortable. Anna I have given you so many helpful tips in the past just do me this favour and Leave. This. Room.

Pfft, helpful?

"I am sorry but it wasn't intentional." Edwards voice was lowered and his words sounded sincere.

Oh come on! If it wasn't intentional then why do you keep eves dropping on mine and Anna's private conversation?

"Oh my god, I promise I am not crazy or anything," I pressed out a nervous laugh as I rubbed the back of my neck, the awkwardness was at a level of one billion and another thosands on top of that.

Why the hell would you do that? Do you want me to look insane?

Keep up our conversation, that'll help your case.

Nutcase.

That was the drop that had made my black top spill over with sweat. I made a 180 turn on my heels and then I steered my steps up towards the room I stayed in since I did not want to start a continuing argument by not taking his advice and trying to get my butt outside anyways. This was awkward enough as it was. The others had been observing me and Edward as we had our partially vocal conversation and partially mind conversation which obviously got them curious of what was going on. I could hear Rosalie asking about it before I had even gotten halfway up the stairs. She wasn't the kind of girl who would lower her voice for me.

My cheeks were burning and my breath was uncontainable at the moment. As I came into the room they had arranged I quickly got into the room and shut the door neatly behind me.

Alone at last.

You owe me!

The room I stayed in was breathtaking. It was a fairly small room which was to my liking.

The walls were concrete and there were big, beautiful green plants in different metal and clay pots scattered in the entire room. There was a huge bed there too that had a contemporary canopy bredframe in a rustic oak wood and tied together neatly to each corner was long white drapes. They had made the bed with patternless white and sky blue linen. There were also a big window that gave me an overlook of the Cullens backside and the forest.

I laid down on the bed, not minding about closing the drapes and rolled okver on my stomach.

When I opened up my eyes again it was dark outside. How long had I been sleeping?

"Jake," I said his name out loud as the thought of him came rushing to my mind.

"No, it's Alice," came a little voice from behind my door. She must have knocked and woken me up.

"Come in," I said as I sat up it the bed and tried to untangle my loose hair with my fingertips. She slowly opened up the door and peeked in before she came inside and closed the door behind her.

"Did I wake you?" She asked and carefully tripped closer to me.

"Yeah, but it's fine. I've slept for way too long anyways." I glanced outside towards the dark woods again. She flicked on the lamps in one swift motion before she came to sit beside me and a comfortable, dimmed light spread in the room.

She sat with her knees up to her little chin and looked over at me with her big, topaz eyes. She didn't really say anything, she just sat there and looked at me as if in awe almost. She looked so much more relaxed than she had done when we had all been sitting downstairs.

"Do you like it here?" Her voice was soft and she was almost whispering.

I nodded, for some reason I wasn't feeling weirded out by her being there at all. Having someone who could see the future around while worrying about Jake might come in handy.

"Do you know how he's doing? If he's going to be alright?" I asked her, not as quietly as she just had spoken. She bit her lower lip as she shook her head with a sigh.

"No, my gift is immune to the wolves I'm afraid. But Esme spoke with him earlier and handed them some food so he seems ok," she placed a light hand on my shoulder.

"You can't see them at all?"

"No, I'm not really sure why that is but it is probably a built in defence for them somehow. I can't see their moves before they make them in a fight so it would be harder for me to k-," she stopped herself as she notices the terrified look in my eyes.

"Can you kill a wolf?"

She just gave me a natural nod and I bit my lower lip. It didn't totally surprise me since she was a vampire after all but I had a hard time picturing her against one of those huge steroid dudes alone and even more so; one of the giant wolves I saw on the meadow.

I wondered why she came up here?

To get away from the freak show downstairs, probably?

She did seem way more relaxed now that it was just us.

You're like the Cullens own personal chill pill.

Seems so.

"How's Bella?" A change of subject so that Jake wouldn't be devoured in all of my thoughts.

"Better, as Jake stopped by he came with the idea of-. Ok, brace yourself," she grabbed my arm and she suddenly got in an even better mood and even seemed gossipy, "the idea of Bella drinking blood for the baby since it's half vampire and it worked!" She clapped her hands together and it showed how impressed and fascinated she was by it all even though she didn't completely support it. Her whole face glowed as she flashed me the biggest of smiles that could fit on her little face and it brought me to a smile as well.

"That is some very odd but great news." I crinkled my nose slightly at the thought of drinking blood myself but was relieved that things were looking up for Bella.

I was a bit taken by the fact that Jake had been here and not speaking with me when Alice suddenly picked up a pice of paper stuck in a huge, leafy green monstera next to the bed we sat in. It was a small white note with some scribbles on it and she handed it over to me and I instantly noticed that it was a note from Jake. I had seen these little notes before, back home. He had a habit of leaving these for me as he went out with the pack in the middle of the night and my heart pounded just as it used to do when I found these but things weren't the same now. Definitely not. I read his words slowly, trying to pace myself since I knew these would be the only words I got from him all day.

Anna,

I'm missing you so much! I'm good and you seem to be fine too as you're sleeping so peacefully right beside me as I write this. Well, Leah's nagging is totally getting on my nerves so I'd wanna leave you more than just a note right now, believe me, but I can't stay. I also can't wait until it's just you and me again baby.

Sincerely,

Your smokin' boyfriend

I couldn't help but to smile as I read it and then I read it one more time before I folded it together and stuck it down my jeans pocket. I didn't want to memorise the words so that I could read it one more time with amusement later tonight and still be surprised by his words. My heart skipped a beat and I noticed Alice glancing towards me with a tiny smirk.

"He went up here while you slept," she confirmed and gave me a soft smile and I felt my cheeks burn.

As I got downstairs I noticed that Bella was still up, sitting at the same spot in the couch. She locked eyes with me and smiled as she saw me then she turned towards Edward.

"I wanna go upstairs with Anna," she stated and both Rosalie and Edward came to her side and reached for each arm.

"Alone," she added but neither of the vampires made an implication to move away from her.

"We could leave," Alice stated and grabbed Jasper in one hand and walked over to pull Edward away from Bella with the other as she hooked his arm. Edward cupped Bellas cheek as she plumped back down into the couch.

"Sure you will be alright?" His vocie was drenched with worry and so were his eyes.

"I'm sure."

Edward kissed her forehead before Alice began pulling on him again and he followed them upstairs with heavy steps and right after tripped Rosalie with her sky high heels.

I sat down next to Bella on the couch and tucked my feet under my thighs and sweapt myself into the lavender blanket.

"Jacob came over today," Bella said and smiled towards me then continued, "he really likes you, Anna." I blushed immensely and nodded as I showed her the note. She read it over and giggled.

"He sure have a handful with Leah," she agreed and looked as if she was imagining herself in his shoes and cringed.

"What's up with her?" I asked since she had been rumoured to be such a bitch.

"Haven't Jake told you about her and Sam?"

My eyes widened as I shook my head, "now don't you leave out details, Bella."

"Ok, well before Sam imprinted on Emily he and Leah was going out. More than going out, they were a couple but then Leah's cousin Emily came to visit and Sam imprinted."

"Wait, hold on. Impr-what? Is that some tribe word for marriage or something?"

Bella looked at me a bit shocked, "haven't Jake told you about imprinting?"

"No? And now you have to."

"It is really not my place, Anna." She bit her lower lip as I gave her a firm look.

"You want me to head out and look up Jake now or right away?"

"Alright, alright. Don't twist my arm. Imprinting is a wolf thing, like when they find their true mate they imprint and then they apparently experience such strong feelings that they'd do or be anything to be with that person." She sighed as she had said it all and I just stared out blankly.

What? The? Fuck?!

"Ok, so if I got this right; Sam was in love with Leah like a normal person and along came Emily and Sam did this imprinting thing on her and became abnormally-super-in love with her by just meeting her and then left Leah?"

Bella just nodded slowly and I sat quietly, just staring before me.

Nah, just nah. Nuh-uh. Nope. Anna. No! Nooooo!

I'm freaking the fuck out, can you please just stop repeating the word No over and over.

No! Just.. No-ho-hoo!

That was it, I knew it was too good to be true. How could I keep being with Jacob now? When I knew there was a risk of him imprinting on some other girl and leaving me all together. What if she came along five years from now? Or tomorrow? Or.. Or..

Nooooooo!

I couldn't breathe and the big house suddenly got so small that it barely fit me.

I noticed Bella's arm suddenly around me, stroking my shoulder.

"It's you that Jake likes, no one else." Her words didn't calm me and I almost couldn't breathe.

"He does now," I countered and she shook her head.

"I have seen the way he looks at you and how he speaks of you." I knew she wanted to be nice but we both knew that if Sam could leave Leah why wouldn't Jake be able to leave me? But this wasn't her fault, I was sincerely glad that she had told me about this. The one I was mad at now was Jake. I was mad and sad and scared all at the same time but this wasn't the time to become emotional or put myself first. Bella was in a way more picky situation and she needed me to be there for her not the other way around.

"Thank you for telling me all of this, really." I took her hand and my eyes met hers, she looked back at me and squeezed my hand with a nod and then reached for her cup and drank from the straw. I had noticed how her skin had gotten back a lot of colour and she was looking way healthier than she had been before. Then came a heartbreaking scream as the cup of blood fell to the floor and stained the white carpet beneath us and she almost crushed my hand.

"He's coming," she managed to get out before she fell into a pile of skin and bones. In a blink Edward and Rosalie were back in their positions next to her and Edward swept her up in his arms and in another flash they were upstairs.

I have had less time to write now during the Summer unfortunately but here is another update. It was slightly longer than usual and a bunch of stuff happens now, hope you liked it!