"You Call It Madness But I Call It Love"

Hi CJers!

Your support on this fic just keeps surprising me every chapter! Keep it up!

Jensy - Hmm could I have possibly been hinting at some hot and steamy CJ-ness? Possibly...

XTR - Well at least the fact that CJ's love been that of tortured forbidden romance won't be a surprise to anyone lol! Will their love be enough though?

Pony - Aww thanks for saying the last chapter was well written! Such a compliment! Sorry but you're gonna be in suspense for a lil while longer...

Ally - It's impossible to keep these two apart so one of them had to make the first move!

JCLuv - Haha so just because this is a CJ fic they have to end up together no matter what? You never know - I could be setting these two up to never find happiness with each other... Whether they end up together or not I have no doubt you'll enjoy the journey between them! Hating Brax is good!

B2T - A hidden past...you could be onto something there...

Kiimylove - Haha yes their totally making out again! I hope you enjoy what happens after their kiss!

JSCO - Aww are you sure you wouldn't prefer to be tortured for a little while longer about Joey's secret lol?

Oniz - Haha yes they should've just stayed on the Blaxland forever so nothing could come between them! Living up to my expectations? You bet I am!

Skippy - Glad you enjoyed Joey's softer side when the pair were together at the end! You're so right that it'd be hard not to comfort her! Keep being curious about the back story!

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This chapter is dedicated to the lovely Oniz who never stops been such a fantastic reviewer no matter what life will throw at you! Strength is inspiration!

And for everyone else - this chapter's a bit longer than normal for you to enjoy even more!

Chapter Fourteen

Charlie's POV

I couldn't believe what was happening...one minute I was up in my bedroom crying my heart out over the fact any relationship with Joey was clearly over before it had barely began and then here I was holding her in my arms as we kissed softly.

It feels so right like it's meant to be.

The way our arms are wrapped around each other, our bodies are melded together and our lips continue to meet in soft and perfect kisses.

I've never felt this way before and all we're doing is standing here kissing each other so romantically.

I want to ask Joey why she's here, why she's embracing me so tenderly after the way she had yelled at me to get away from her...but my lips are a little preoccupied against Joey's.

We break apart for the sake of oxygen and press our forehead's together. God how did I ever believe for a second that I could fight my feelings for her?

This is all so new and I know everything in my life is going to change if people find out who I've fallen for...and I'm okay with it...

I blush as I realize we're still standing here together at the back door. Though I'm not prepared for Leah or Ruby to come home early and catch us together the prospect of letting Joey leave, only risking her coming to her senses over whatever it is that left her not wanting anything to do with me, I whisper to her that we should go somewhere more private.

Somewhere more private meaning my bedroom...believe me I didn't realize the insinuation of that at all and only invited Joey so if anyone came home they wouldn't find me in a romantic embrace with another woman...how could I possibly explain that to my daughter or housemate?

Joey hesitates...I know that she realizes I only asked her to come upstairs with me so we could talk...she hesitates in coming with me because I could tell that she isn't sure if she's ready to talk so I kiss her softly and remind her that she had turned up at my doorstep for a reason...

Joey takes my hand in her own and I lead her upstairs to my bedroom. We don't say a word on the way there and I have to do everything to resist wrapping my arms around her for fear of having to let her go.

But the moment we enter my room and I close the door behind me I breathe deeply as Joey and I fall into another embrace. Our lips meet almost immediately as we hold onto each other and I allow Joey to slip her tongue against my own. The feel of such a small touch makes my legs quiver. I've always prided myself on being so strong and tough but here I am ready to fall weak at the knees at the feel of Joey's kiss.

I break off the kiss and stare deep into her eyes. At first I think the look in her eyes is a sense of grieving emotion but that doesn't make any sense to me. I watch as Joey blinks her eyes and then all I can see is how scared she is at what is happening between us.

Joey isn't the only one scared of falling so deeply in love that the world would come to an end if anything came between that love...then I realize that I had already fallen that deeply...

I finally ask her what it was that had set her off this afternoon after we had finally begun finding our way to having a future together. I hold onto Joey tightly as she refuses to answer and instead buries her face against my neck. I don't know what to make of it.

But before I can push further to find out what had caused Joey's turn-around this afternoon and more so what has brought her here to be in my arms, my eyes flutter closed as I feel Joey's lips kissing my neck tenderly.

Losing all concentration at Joey's kisses it isn't long until our lips meet once more and we continue our assault on each other's lips. My legs are shaking all over again and as if knowing what I'm feeling, Joey gently pushes me backwards until we both collapse on my bed.

Lying on my back and looking up at the amazing woman above me leaves me feeling breathless. I blush heavily at our position and Joey whispers her apology for taking things too fast between us. I smile softly at her as I realize that all I want is to be with her...in any sense of that meaning.

I lean up and kiss her gently, enjoying the shy smile that crosses her lips when we break apart. I hold my hands at her hips and squeeze them firmly before whispering to her that I'm comfortable making out with her. The feeling of her lips against mine is the most amazing feeling in the world – how can I not be comfortable with that?

I know I should be freaking out at this point...or maybe from the first moment I realized my true feelings for Joey...but the feeling of holding her in my arms and the love I feel for her overrides any amount of freaking out that I should be doing.

I'm not sure how long we've laid here in each other's arms but it suddenly occurs to me that we've shifted ourselves further up the bed so Joey's head is resting against the pillow and this time I'm lying over her as our lips continue to assault one another's gently. We hold hands between us and entangle our fingers playfully.

I want to ask her again about what was going on with her and what had happened between her and Brax until she gives me an answer but I'm so scared of her pulling away from me. Lying against her and enjoying the sensation of her lips against mine makes the entire world disappear and I'm not ready for that to end.

I soon find myself moving my lips across Joey's jaw and down her neck. Joey leans up into the kisses giving me full permission to explore my desires. And as every moment passes I realize that my desires are growing steadily...

I'm not sure if I'm willing to admit it to myself let alone Joey but I'm more attracted to this woman than I ever thought possible...maybe even more attracted to her than anyone I've ever been with.

As I trail small kisses down her neck I wonder if I want to stop this...was it only this morning that I was fighting any feelings for Joey? And now with each of these kisses I share with Joey I can feel myself unable to fight anything that could happen between us tonight...

I know deep down that Joey's hurting and she's feeling guilty for whatever happened between us earlier today when she yelled at me but still I know how she really feels about me and she's giving into these feelings as much as I am...and I hope that nothing can come between us before we have a chance at giving into these feelings entirely...

I break my lips away from Joey's neck and lift myself gently so I'm leaning over her. I smile down at her as I try to work out just what I want to happen between us. Joey disentangles our hands and reaches up to stroke my cheek and we stare deep into each other's eyes.

Blushing at the thoughts of taking things further with Joey, my eyes glance away from Joey's eyes afraid that she knows what I'm thinking. Then my eyes catch the outlines of Joey's tattoos.

Did I mention that Joey's wearing her undeniably hot red bikini top underneath a very loose fitting white top?

My mind wanders to the fact that the bikini is showing straight through the white shirt and so too are her tattoos. I don't know what it is about these tattoos that make me so incredibly intrigued by them. I mean I've never even liked the look of tattoos on people.

Not to ruin the moment with Joey and bring him up but Angelo once insisted that he was going to get a tattoo one day that reminded him of me...until I told him what a turn off that would be...not like he ever would've gone ahead and gotten the tattoo...would've loved to have been there to hear the girly shrieking if he had've...hmm and I used to wonder why we didn't make it as a couple?

Where was I? Oh right...Joey's tattoos...there's got to be something about these tattoos...like they're undeniably hypnotic...because these ones...I like...a lot!

I know I've seen them...well most of them...properly since just about every time I see her she's in her bikinis but right now I'm biting my lip at the thought of getting a closer look at them...

And before I can say anything Joey reaches out, takes my free hand and slips it down towards the edge of her shirt. I look into her eyes thinking that she's simply taking the lead and pushing me to make the next move so we can take things further but all I see in her eyes is this amazing look of compassion mixed with a slight fear that I'd reject her. I could sense the panic that at any point I'd look at her and realize that I'm not as attracted to her as I appear to be.

But I am so irrefutably attracted to her...so much so it kinda scares me...

My fingers fumble as I grasp the edge of her shirt. I blush at the thought that I'm gonna do something wrong or embarrass myself because of my inexperience. I blush deeper as Joey leans up and brushes her lips against mine. Before I can do anything, Joey pushes herself upwards and I move with her, soon finding that I'm close to straddling her.

I lick my lips as Joey reaches down and slips her own shirt off her body. Throwing the shirt to the floor she unintentionally whips her hair around until it settles perfectly against her shoulders. I marvel at her perfect body which I had seen many times but never from this vantage point. My eyes fall to her bikini clad breasts but I dart my eyes away as my embarrassment over the undeniable fact that I'm incredibly attracted to Joey.

My eyes fall to the tattoos that cover Joey's body and I swallow deeply as I admire them with great attention so I can get to know every inch of her body...

On Joey's left upper arm is a symbolic tattoo of a pentagram. Her right side and shoulder is covered with most of her tattoos. Like Heath's tattoos there are several interconnecting sharp swirls across her shoulder down to her chest. On her right upper arm below where the swirl cuts off there is a zodiac symbol. I'm not too familiar with many of them but I assume it's the Taurus symbol...I recall Joey saying once she's a Taurus...how is it that I remember everything she says?

Directly down her right side and across her upper torso are a dozen or so small Chinese symbols. To be honest I don't really know what any of them mean but I can understand how important they must mean to Joey since they're inked across her body permanently. A part of me wonders if Joey might let me know one day what they all mean to her...

God I want to know every little thing about her...I could spend a lifetime learning everything there is to know about Joey...

Instinctively I reach my hand out and my fingers graze against Joey's shoulder. Her skin feels like it's on fire and I feel this intense rush go through me at this simple touch. I know Joey feels it too as her eyes follow my fingers and even though there's not much light in my room, I still see her blushing deeply.

Without thinking about it my fingers begin gliding across her skin as they unconsciously follow the swirling tattoos that cover Joey's entire right shoulder down to her upper chest. I don't know how long I spent trailing my fingers across those tattoos. It felt like it was several hours but it was probably only five minutes or so.

This feeling inside me...I can't describe it...just like every time something deeper happens between us...God all I'm doing is grazing my fingertips across her skin following the pattern of her tattoos...and I can't get enough of her...I honestly don't think I can get enough of this woman who I'm madly in love with...

Wanting to explore more of her...body...tattoos...okay definitely her body...I feel my fingers gliding lower down her body until they're hovering gently against the last of her tattoos on her upper body...but I'm not even sure what the tattoo is. The outline of it is just visible as her board shorts cover most of the tattoo. I can tell you that it's writing of some kind...an important message...deep and meaningful words to her?

I'm so curious to see the tattoo and learn more about why she would have these words permanently marking her body...then I finally realize where my fingers are touching on Joey's body...the edge of her board shorts...

I feel a sudden instinct to slip my fingers past the elastic that's holding the shorts against her body and exploring her body even more...

But instead I pull my hand away from her body...the thoughts of taking my feelings for her further are clouded by a huge sense of terror that I'd never be enough for her...I take a chance and glance up at her...Joey's eyes have so much emotion written in them...the pain of rejection...this opposite sense of my own terror...that she'd never be enough for me...and despite all that...there's so much love, encouragement and lust in her eyes...

I can't ignore the lust in her eyes...nobody has ever looked at me like that and we're still sitting here with most of our clothes on...I want her to indulge in her feelings for me...and I know deep down despite how scared I am about taking things further with Joey...I can't ignore the feelings in my body that's telling me how badly I want her...

Trying to allay Joey's concerns that I'm afraid of what's happening between us, I lean forwards and press our lips together with enough force to push our bodies back down on my bed.

Our lips are pressed so passionately together and as we break apart Joey stares up at me so full of emotion. I feel our bodies pressed together and I know I can't bear the thought of letting her go. Still unsure of what had really happened this afternoon with Brax and what had caused Joey to go off at me, I just want her forget whatever it is before she realizes being with me could be some kind of mistake.

How can our love be some kind of mistake?

Stroking my hand against her cheek I know exactly what I want and I can't hide my desires any longer.

I whisper quietly to her, "Stay the night with me...I want to be with you."

Then I wait in hope that Joey won't turn down my advances...

Are these two getting hotter together by the minute? How much more chemistry can these two possibly have together?

Could you just imagine those tattoos as Charlie was describing them? How could Charlie not be captivated by them?

So who wants Joey to take Charlie up on her advances to spend the night together?

Next time - It's Joey's POV this time - Will the bad girl give into her desires and spend the night in Charlie's arms or will she reveal the reason why they can't be together ending their romance?