Notes: I am SO sorry it's taken me ages to update. Honestly I'd have to say it's because I've actually been getting a pretty good Zeki fix from the manga, and the story is kind of going... well, at least more in the direction I'd like. Of course, chapter 88 has me going WTF, but I'll not say anything more about that in case any of you haven't read it :p I'm having trouble figuring out which direction I want to take this story in - whether I want to adapt Kaname's actions to what he's doing in the manga currently and just write interactions the way I would like them to happen, or just go in my own direction entirely. Seeing as this started in chapter 60, and the manga is almost 30 chapters past that... I'm just really unsure of what to do XD
Anyway, this chapter is fairly short, so I apologize - I just didn't have much to write from Kaname's point of view since really my interest lies in the feelings of Zero and Yuuki.
Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight or any of the characters in it, these all belong to the wonderful Matsuri Hino.
'Zero.. Zero.. Zero!'
An overwhelming rush of thoughts of the hunter and every emotion Yuuki had felt during her encounter with him flooded Kaname's mind. He could feel the longing, passion, ecstasy that she had felt, nearly causing him to retch. Almost as quickly as he had bitten her, he pulled himself away, making no attempt to clean up the small mess of blood on his face. He sat on the edge of the bed, trying to gather himself. The pain in his chest was staggering.
'I'm losing her...' he thought, unable to look in her direction, his right hand clutching the left breast of his shirt. From the corner of his vision, he saw that she hadn't moved - she remained on her back, eyes wide, fingers buried in the blanket at her sides. The pureblood found himself unable to think clearly, his mind fuzzy from having been forced to see and feel the evening's events from his sister's point of view.
There was a rage deep within, the part of him that was still harassed by Rido, telling him to just lock her up like the little bird his uncle had spoken of to him earlier that day and to mercilessly tear her other lover to pieces. Every muscle and sinew in his body screamed at him to go, find the hunter and crush rip his heart from his chest. An image of Yuuki hunched over on the ground in tears passed through his mind, causing his heart to ache even more. 'I would only succeed in driving her further from me..'
Both remained silent for a length of time he did not know. Eventually he mustered up the will to look at her, and saw that she had dozed off, remnants of tears left on her cheeks. Her flesh was still bare, and he let his eyes roam over her form for only a moment, before he stood and pulled one of the blankets over her, his melancholy gaze stopping to observe her face.
'What deceptive beings we appear as,'' he brooded silently, 'you would never know by looking at this porcelain face the power that this small girl holds.. not only her pureblood strength, but her hold over myself, the "King of Vampires"...'
There was no helping the feeling of defeat that now washed over him; Yuuki would continue to have his undying affection, and Kiryu, 'the bastard that defiled my butterfly..' would once again be allowed to live. He had taken what was meant to be his, that precious moment that he was waiting for the perfect time to engage her in, as well as her innocence. It was really as if she couldn't even look at him as someone she could share that intimacy with - she squirmed whenever he caught a glimpse of her in her undergarments, not to mention when she wasn't wearing anything. He didn't doubt that she loved him, he knew she did, the only thing he questioned was the manner of that love - perhaps he was just family to her, someone she'd had childish admiration for, and Zero was the one she desired to be her lover.
He made his way out of her room, pausing once to glance back at her as she slept, and sighed painfully as he closed the door behind him. This would be another one of those times where he refused to let anyone see him, locked away in his room to face the demons that surfaced whenever something like this happened. He also had a lot of thinking to do regarding whether he would go on pretending this had never happened, or what his course of action would be to deal with it.
Seiren was of course behind him immediately upon his exit of Yuuki's room, and he informed her to make sure he was undisturbed by anyone, including his sister, until given further notice. She nodded and bowed, making her leave as he entered his room. He found his way to his bed, and without bothering to undress, laid down, not looking forward to the days ahead and decisions he had to make.
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