Hi everyone. I am really sorry for the delay. I got injured last week and ended up in the hospital and now I need surgery. So I have been trying to juggle school with everything. Hopefully I will be able to update shortly. We are getting closer to the end of this story. I think there will be one more chapter. Don't forget to leave a review!

As Jamie was making his way up to Eddie he heard his father yell please don't hurt my family. Out of sheer reflex he lunged for Eddie and got her to the ground just in time to see his father's bullet hit Louis. How, out of everyone in that room didn't have a clear shot but his father, he would never know. He looked up at his dad and nodded.

"Eddie, you ok?" Jamie asked hastily as he brushed her hair out of her face

"Yea, yea I think so" Eddie said touching her neck "But how, his hands, my neck, who?" Eddie asked slightly disoriented

"My dad got him. Reagan family tradition, it's how I knew to get you to the ground. He can't hurt you anymore" Jamie said hugging her

"I tried, I didn't have a clear shot. He was coming for me, but how?" Eddie said still rambling against Jamie's chest

"Shh, it's ok. You're safe" Jamie said knowing he would fill her in later

Frank's detail had cold cuffed him. Since it was now a crime scene they would all need to provide statements before they could leave.

"How?"

"He hid in a coffin and then stuck a needle in the officer's neck that was at the side door" Renzulli said waking over to them, suit all disheveled

"Is the officer ok?" Eddie asked worriedly

"Yea, it was a paralytic, apparently part of this guy's own stash for when he goes into a psychotic episode like to day" Tony said

"Let's get you up Eddie" Tony said holding out his hand for her

Eddie carefully took hid hand and stood on her shaky feet.

"Easy, easy" Tony said steadying her

Jamie was up and with an arm around Eddie in an instant.

"I got it Sarge" Jamie said

"What happens next?" Eddie asked

"The ME is coming to take the body. The Commissioner's detail is in charge of the investigation"

"He, he saved my life" Eddie said still in a state of shock

"PC is still a hell of a shot" Tony said

"Thank you Sargent" Frank said walking over

"Of course Sir"

"Sir, thank you" Eddie said fumbling with her words

"I'm just glad Jamie got to you in time" Frank said smiling at his son

"I talked to the funeral director and the luncheon people and they said we can continue the rest of this at the luncheon after the interviews are finished" Frank said "I told them to make it quick"

"Thank...Thank you" Eddie said

"Let me go speed them along" Frank said

"Sir" Eddie said and Frank stopped in his tracks.

"Yes Officer Janko"

"Thank you for everything" Eddie said nodding as she felt her eyes start to water

"You're family Eddie" Frank said, giving her a small smile

"Hey why don't we go sit" Jamie said gently

"I just, I can't believe it all played out this way"

"And I thought the Reagans were a circus" Jamie said giving her a small smile

Everyone finished giving their statements and then they were are able to go to the luncheon.

Jamie and Eddie were sitting with Kara and her husband at the table along with Renzulli and his wife and the rest of the Reagans.

"Is it time to go? I think I'm done with today?" Eddie asked

"Almost, people have been coming to say goodbye" Jamie said

"I still can't believe this many people showed up"

"Why sweetie?" Kara asked

"I mean someone wanted to kill me at his funeral because of my father's past history" Eddie said

"Yea well he shouldn't have shown up at a funeral with a bunch of cops" Jamie said "But thank God he did"

"Eddie your dad did a bad thing but he wasn't a bad person. People make mistakes. People also care about you" Kara said

"I guess" Eddie said

"You can't keep feeling guilty for what your dad did. It wasn't his fault. Family is all any of us have, once you make peace with what your dad did you will stop blaming yourself" Jamie said

"I hate to say it but Reagan's right. No one here judges you for what your dad did so you shouldn't judge yourself for it" Kara said

"It's no way to live" Jamie said

"I guess" Eddie said quietly "I just think I've had enough for today" Eddie said

"Only a few people left" Jamie said looking around

Once everyone left they gathered their things and walked to the door.

"Thanks Kara, for everything" Eddie said hugging her

"Of course" Kara said hugging her back tightly

Once Kara left with her husband Jamie helped Eddie into her coat and turned to look at her.

"It's all over now Janko" He said putting his hand on her shoulder

"I know. I know" Eddie said quietly

"You place or mine?" Jamie asked her

"I'm gonna go to mine. I just want to be alone tonight" Eddie said

"No one wants to be alone after a funeral Eddie"

"I do" Eddie answered quickly

"I already canceled all my big plans for tonight, hot date and everything" Everything Jamie said putting his arm around her as they walked to his car.

"You're a terrible liar Reagan" She said giving him a smile

"Come on I don't want to be alone tonight" Jamie said

"I just want to go lay in the middle of my bed and do nothing" Eddie said

"You do that even if I'm in the bed with you" Jamie quipped

"I'm not getting rid of you tonight am I?" Eddie asked

"Not a chance" Jamie said opening the car for her

"Anyone tell you that you're a pain in the ass, Reagan"

"All the time" He said getting in on his side

"Why won't you leave me alone?" Eddie asked as they started the drive back to her apartment

"Because you think that you want to be alone but you actually don't"

"I can't imagine you letting someone stalk you after your mom or Joe's funeral" Eddie said

"I'm not stalking you" Jamie said laughing "And no I wanted to be left alone but after my mom's, Joe wouldn't leave me alone and after Joe's Pop was basically my shadow. He knew that he needed to keep an eye on all of us since we were all sorta just floundering around. And he knew that he needed to especially watch me while I was home from school"

"God you guys even have funeral procedure nailed down to a tee" Eddie said rolling her eyes

"I would do anything to not know what to do" Jamie said sadly

"I know" Eddie said

"So you want to hole up in your bedroom that's fine but I'll be in the living room in case you need me" Jamie said

"I feel like the world all kept living and I'm just stuck" Eddie said

"That's how I usually felt but never knew how to say it. Like everyone around me was living their life and I was stuck in quick sand trying to breath" Jamie said

"That's... really accurate" Eddie said

"I wish I could take that away from you"

"I wouldn't have life your side either if we were friends when Joe was killed" Eddie said putting her hand on top of his

"Thanks" Jamie said squeezing her hand

"So are we gonna talk about what happened earlier?" Jamie asked pulling up to a red light

As soon as he mentioned talking about the funeral, Eddie went rigid and looked away.

"Ed" He said lightly rubbing her shoulder.

"No we're not. I can't, not right now" Eddie said

"Ok" Jamie said gently

They both were quiet the rest of the way. He figured he probably shouldn't have brought up the funeral and everything that happened but he knew she needed to talk about it.

They walked up to Eddie's apartment in silence and she went right into her room to change and Jamie stayed at the kitchen table, not wanting to get in her way.

He saw her come out of the bathroom in sweats but she never said anything to him. He heard her bedroom door close louder than usual and took it as her way of no talking. Jamie sighed and got up to get his own sweats to change.

Once he changed, he straightened up her living room and did the load of laundry that was sitting in her bathroom hamper. Her kitchen sink was a little leaky and he fixed that as well. He knew she wanted to be alone but he couldn't sit there and do nothing and he didn't want to disturb her with the TV. After a while he grabbed two bottles of water and two beers and made his way to her room.

He knocked lightly and when she didn't answer he tried the knob.

"Ed?" He said quietly as he walked in

"You awake?" He asked.

Just like she said she was laying on her stomach in the middle of the bed, head facing the wall with windows, never turning to look at him.

"I'm just checking on you" Jamie said putting everything on her nightstand and walking over to the other side of the bed so he could see her face.

Her eyes were open but she had tears streaming out of them. The sight before him was breaking his heart, he knew that if she had any energy left she'd be yelling at him for seeing her this way. He sat on the side of her bed and put his hand on her back.

Eddie knew eventually he'd get bored and come in and find her but she didn't want to talk, she just wanted to throw a pity party and block out the rest of the world.

"Hey, can I give you a hug?" Jamie asked gently as he tried to make eye contact with her

Eddie gave him the smallest of nods and sat up. Jamie stood up and pulled her up with him. He had one arm wrapped around her lower back and the other at her neck, his hand holding her head to his chest.

"Let it out ok?" Jamie said kissing the side of her head

Eddie held on to Jamie as her sobs overtook her body. She wanted to stop crying but the more she tried to stop, the harder she cried. Jamie just sat there, holding her and trying to console her. He eventually sat them back on the bed, never letting go of Eddie.

He kissed the side of her head and brushed some of her hair out of her face when her crying finally slowed. He knew there wasn't anything he could say that would make this better and he knew the superficial crap everyone says at a funeral would only piss her off. If she really didn't want him to see her like this she would've kicked him out of her room a while ago.

"I'm right here, I got you" He said quietly, the only thing he could think of to say was just to remind her that she wasn't alone.

She coughed and gagged for a second as her body willed her to stop crying and breath.

"You're ok, you're ok" He said quickly handing her the water "In your nose, out your mouth" He said calmly

She tried to breath but only coughed again.

"You gotta get some air" Jamie said untangling himself from her

He heard her let out a whimper as he got up to open the window.

"I'm not going anywhere" He said walking back from the window.

"Come here" He said pulling her to the floor in front of the window.

"Just breath the nice cool, fall air" He said, his hand never leaving her back

She was still taking shallow breaths and he knew she was panicking.

"Relax into me" He said pulling her shoulders back to open up her chest "You're ok"

Eddie did as he told her and she let Jamie pull her shoulders back, her hand in a death grip on his knee. She knew he was right behind her but the fact she couldn't see him, that his arms weren't around her made her feel lonely again.

Once he was done he pulled her back in for a hug and leaned against the wall.

"I love you Eddie, I do what ever you need me to" He said quietly into her ear.

She was half slumped against him, her crying had slowed and she finally felt like her lungs were working again. Jamie took the hair tie off her wrist and piled her hair up on her head to where she was sure she would need to cut the tie out of it.

"I'm sorry I tried pushing you to talk in the car and then I just came in here while you were upset" Jamie said

Eddie wiped her eyes with her sleeve and turned to face Jamie.

"I felt trapped in the car, I didn't want to talk and then I just panicked. I am glad you came in. I thought I wanted to be alone but then I was alone and sobbing and I have never been lonelier in my life" Eddie said putting her head in her hands.

"I am sorry about the car Eddie. I didn't want to make you feel worse" Jamie said kissing her head.

"Come on" He said getting off the floor

They moved back over to the bed and Eddie leaned against the headboard and Jamie leaned against her footboard.

"Can I ask you something?" Jamie asked her, breaking the silence

"I guess" Eddie said nervously

"You really didn't cry at the funeral, how'd you keep it all together?" Jamie asked putting his hand on her shin

"How could I be sad and upset that he's dead when he ruined so many people's lives? I didn't deserve to be able to be sad, so I told myself I had to keep it together"

"Eddie, come on you know that's not true" Jamie said now realizing how much guilt she still had

"You were at the same funeral as me right, someone wanted to kill me because of what he did" Eddie said, tearing up

"Eddie" Jamie said quietly as he thought back to the second where he thought she might have been dead

"You don't need to atone for your dad's mistakes. He paid his debt to society, he told me he wrote apologies to everyone he took money from. He really was sorry for what he had done to you and to them. You don't need anyone permission to be sad, you don't need to hide that from anyone. He was your dad Eddie, you're allowed to be sad" Jamie said moving up to where she was sitting

"You don't get it Jamie, I wouldn't expect you to. I'm a cop, how can a cop be upset over someone who broke the law. I might have forgiven him but it still doesn't make it right"

"No it doesn't. But you can be upset and angry because you were such a daddy's girl. He'll always be your dad, Eddie. He's still family. And anyone that tires to tell you differently will have to deal with me" Jamie said taking her hand

"I just wanted a second chance with him" Eddie said crying again

"I know, I know" Jamie said pulling her in for a hug again.

"Just don't let anyone tell you how you should be feeling. You didn't need to put on a brave face at the funeral for anyone but yourself. It doesn't matter what anybody else thinks. He's your dad, you feel how you want to" Jamie said hugging her tightly

"I miss him" Eddie said as she cried again into Jamie's shoulder

"I know you do" He said holding on tightly

After a while Eddie pulled back but as she did she caught a glimpse of Jamie's misty eyes.

"What?" She asked gently

"I hate seeing you this upset. And I keep thinking of those few seconds where I thought you were dead" He said blinking the rest of the water from his eyes

"I love you Eddie, I wish there was something I could do to take this away from you"

"I'm just happy you're here with me, and Jamie. I love you too" Eddie said

"I'm not going anywhere" Jamie said kissing her

"I don't know what I would have done if you had gotten hurt trying to protect me. I would never have forgiven myself"

"We're partners Eddie, or we are until we get reassigned. I promised to always have your back on the job, off the job doesn't change that"

"I tried to get him … but"

"But you were a total badass as you were speaking about your father at his funeral and still knew what to do. He would be really proud of you" Jamie said

"I know" Eddie said nodding

They sat quietly for a little before Eddie poked him in the shoulder.

"I'm awake" Jamie said opening his eyes

"How'd you know to hit the ground and take me with you?" Eddie asked

"Please don't hurt my family" Jamie said

"Yea I think I heard that at the funeral" Eddie said nodding

"No that's the signal. Pop taught it to my dad and he's drilled it into us since we were infants. Now the kids too. It means someone's got a shot and get your ass to the ground"

"Wow, ever use it before today?"

"Danny and Erin did at the holdup at the court house. It comes in handy"

"I mean your dad saved my life, so did you"

"Well it's his job" Jamie said

"I don't know what I would've done with you and your family and the 12th. You guys all really made sure I was doing ok. I really don't know what I would've done without you though" Eddie said kissing him

"You would've been ok, you're badass, Eddie. I'm just glad you let me help you even if I annoyed you too much" Jamie said kissing her back

"I just wish I could tell my dad he was right about us. After the first time you two met he told me that you were the only one he would feel comfortable being in his little girl's life. Obviously I rolled my eyes but I knew he was right"

"We do have a good thing don't we?" Jamie asked

"It's just a shame it took this to make us realize it" Eddie said sadly

"I know" Jamie said agreeing

"Just promise me you talk to me and let yourself be sad or angry or whatever it is. You're allowed to be all of those things" Jamie said

"I know" Eddie said quietly

"Come on, let's go see what leftovers are left in the kitchen, I'm hungry. You hungry yet?"

"Yea I think I'm hungry for the first time in weeks" Eddie said giving him a weak smile

"There's my Eddie" Jamie said taking her hand

He grabbed the beers and put them in the fridge and got cold ones out as they heated up some leftovers. While they were waiting Jamie handed Eddie hers.

"To Armin" Jamie said raising his bottle

"To my dad" Eddie said clinking her bottle with his