Rin's POV

I felt him leave, and I felt cold, I felt lost more than ever. I needed him in my life. How could I tell him to leave. I was just so angry with him. Yet he said he was sorry, and he kissed my cheek so gently. It was as if he meant it, as if what he had said before was a lie. I could feel something when he touched me then. It was something strange, but I liked it, it was a good feeling. I felt safe, and whole. Now I feel like I will fall apart. Something about him just now was off. He wasn't the same Lord Sesshomaru that I had seen when I first met him, well it was, but then wasn't.

My hand found its way to my cheek, where his lips had been. I felt pain, love, grief, hope. But these feelings were not mine. They were his. I focused in on them, but couldn't read it clearly. Then it hit me. "Goodbye my mate." It left as soon as it had come. I saw him, he was talking to me. He was telling me goodbye. But he called me mate. I was his mate. Now everything makes since. My head hurt. Visions do that to you, you'd think that I would be used to them by now.

I turn and ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I had to get to him before he left. I take it back. I take it all back. Don't leave me, I thought. "Don't leave me." I pushed myself to run faster if that's even possible. I must reach him. He was walking along the outside of the village. That much I could tell, I could sense him. I stopped running when I saw him on a hill. He was looking up at the sky. The sun had gone, only a few minutes ago, this day sure went by fast. How long were we on that log, how long was I at the river? How long, how far had I ran?

He soon turned and looked at me. He turned to leave, but I shouted. "Don't leave." I was trying to catch my breath from running, and now walking up the hill at the same time. He turned his head to look at me, with a pained expression and it did not suite him. He looked fragile and that was not the Great Lord Sesshomaru I knew. But there was also hope in his eyes. I reached him and he faced me completely now. I stood there in front of him trying to regain my breath. He stood there silently, just watching me. Some would think it awkward, but it wasn't surprisingly. I finally regained my breathing, and looked up at him. He watched me closely and intently. "Don't leave." I was pleading with him now. Looking down at the know fascinating grass, I touched his chest where his heart is and closed my eyes, "Please." He placed his fingers underneath my chin, and lifted it, as he told me to open my eyes. I did as he said. He seemed to be looking for something, but what.

Breathing in deeply, closing my eyes, reopening them, and wetting my lips with my tongue. Looking him in the eyes, with him still holding my chin. " I know… and I need you in my life…. Sesshomaru. Please don't leave me. But I…I need to know, do you need, or even want me in yours?"

Thinking that he would just walk away and leave me like usual he did the opposite, something I never thought he would do.

He brought his lips down to mine, His were warm and soft, and gentle. He was gentle. Who knew that Sesshomaru could be gentle. I smile into the kiss as he let his hand find its way to the back of my neck, and his other hand that was at his side, find its way to my lower back, pulling my closer to him. Placing both of my hands on his chest and as he pulled me closer I let them go to his shoulders. Although the armor was a little in the way, I didn't care. I kissed him back, loving the way he held me, I felt more protected now, than I ever have. I felt happy, and complete, with him kissing me, with him holding me. But he was kissing me. He is showing emotion. I will hold onto this moment forever.

He soon pulled away and placed his forehead against mine. Now holding my face in his hands. "I will stay by you as long as you want me, and as long as you will stay by me."

"I will follow you."

"No, you will stand by my side." He pulled away and looked at me, then kissing my forehead. He released me, and soon became the Lord Sesshomaru we know and love.

"I should probably get back, before they wonder where I am."

Walking back in silence was a bit weird now. Instead of following me he walked beside me. It was different, things would be different now, that much I knew. I took a quick glance at Sesshomaru before we entered the village, and he took my hand, and stopped me. He kissed my lips quickly and then held my hand as we continued our way. Once we entered the village he released my hand. I walked into kaede's to see, Inuyasha, Kagome, Kit, Izayoi, Inu-no-Taishu, Kaede, sitting around the living area, speaking in hushed voices.

Looking up at us Kaede stood. "Where has ye been child?" She asked walking to me.

"I am fine, there is no need to worry Kaede," I said while hugging her. She is getting old, but this old lady could put up a fight, and she seems to care for me, she is kind of like a grandmother to me. I looked at everyone in the room, and went over to hug Kagome, and give Inuyasha a high five.

"Well I am tired so I think that I am going to retire for the night." I walked to my room and laid down. I pulled my blanket over me an rolled onto my side. A smile made its way to my lips. He kissed me, and I kissed him back. My eyes closed and I knew that tonight I fell asleep with a smile on my face.

Running as fast as I could, I still couldn't get away. So many mixed into one. I could hear their screams as someone grabbed me. It was my eldest brother. He took me and hid me, telling me that he would be back, but her never came. I knew he was dead. I saw the men, what they did to them. What they did to mother before they killed her. ~~~~~~~~~~then I was running again, from the wolves but I fell.~~~~~~~~~~~~

I felt someone touching my shoulder as I sat up, covered in sweat. I didn't realize I was screaming and crying until I heard a voice to tell to quiet down. It was Sesshomaru. He was looking at me with a worried expression and when I finally regained my surroundings and calmed down. He took his hand off of my shoulder and sat back. I was still a little shakin up and my breathing was uneven. I looked down at my hands that were clenched into fists. Then looking Sesshomaru in the eyes. "The nightmares are back."

Running my fingers through my hair I said "I thought they would have left me by now." When I looked at Lord Sesshomaru again, he must have seen fear, pain, worry, and pleading in my eyes because he came to me , and wrapped his arms around me, laying down, which allowed me to lay on his chest. He had takem the armor off and so I was completely comfortable.

"Sleep now." his coive was soft, like it was when I had my nightmares as a child. I have never told him what is in my nightmares, but he knows that they affect me more than normal nightmares should. But my nightmares are far from normal.

Clenching his kimono in my hand and looking at him, my forehead only to his chin. "I just want them to stop." I burried my head in his neck and shoulder as his arms tightened slightly. I felt a little safer with him holding me, and eventually I fell back asleep.