Early upload today because I will most likely be out all night.

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I was kicked from my nice little dream about Trafalgar, back into the cold and horrible reality by my alarm. I didn't want to go to school today. But if there was only a slight chance that Law would be there I had to go. I had to explain… Or at least try to.

Though I couldn't really explain to myself what had gotten into me the day before. How could I possibly be so stupid as to kiss him? In the open, at a rather busy bus stop? H.O.W? There was no possible way I could explain him what had happened there.

I didn't want him to leave me yesterday. I didn't want this afternoon to end because during those few hours in the coffee shop I could act like there really was more between us than would meet the eye. Not that I would give in to the false hope and actually believe this. But one could dream right?

The alarm went off for the second time. Snooze… I had thought I turned it off completely. Apparently not. Making sure that this was really the last time the annoying beeping would sound for today, I got up. I needed to go to school, just to see him.

He means a fucking lot to me… Much more than I'd like to admit. I couldn't change it though, he is special. While rubbing my hair dry after taking a shower I sighed. I didn't get along so well with anyone in a long time. And as the idiot I am, I scare the kid away. Leaning my head against the cold wall I closed my eyes.

How could I ever look the guy in the eyes again? He was not gay, he made that clear that other night in 'The Moby Dick'. I was bad enough to fall for a straight guy once. But getting a crush on the next guy that actually could become a friend is just stupid… I can't even tell when it started. It was just there… Out of fucking nothing I couldn't be without Law anymore.

A few minutes later I grabbed my coat and left the apartment. I needed to see Trafalgar – for more than one reason. Not having him around me was a strange feeling. I had grown used to his presence and the stupid grin that hardly ever left his lips.

I took the bus today. Due to my musing about a certain dark haired male I was a little late for the first lesson and wouldn't make it in time if I walked. The bus was stuffed with people of all sorts: Students, Businessmen, old Ladies and even one punk… No Trafalgar Law, of course. He never had to take the same bus as I did. To tell the truth, he lived at the other end of the city.

One station before the school I got out of the bus and walked the remaining distance. I needed fresh air to get a clear mind. Correction, to try and get a clearer mind. Half-heartedly I hoped that Law would be leaning against a pillar and smoke a cigarette that I could steal. For a second I dared to hope that the kiss had only been a bad dream and that he couldn't guess that I had certain feelings for him.

Then I passed the gates. He wasn't there. "Maybe he's already in…" I murmured, somehow already knowing that he wasn't. He was ditching the first lesson. Entering the classroom and waiting for the bell to proved my theory right... Trafalgar Law didn't show up. And the longer I sat in the classroom(s) the surer I was he wouldn't show up at all today.

After a long and exhausting day of which I couldn't remember a thing afterwards, I was finally allowed to leave. I headed for the river side, buying a packet of cigarettes on the way. Yes, I had given up smoking, but today was just bad. And as I had picked up the odd habit of stealing Law's cigarettes, my addiction to nicotine had come back, getting worse again every day. Having the stressful situation with the raven haired man wasn't helping it.

I sat on the cold ground again, shivering after only half a minutes and smoked. If I was lucky I could call in sick for the rest of the week. Deep down I knew it would never work. Running around shirtless all year made you insensible for the normal flue. I hardly ever got ill, but if something hit me, it would not be a simple cold.

Usually I end up in hospital with some ugly disease or a broken bone (or two…). I mused that if I sat here long enough I could actually get a really bad pneumonia and go for the hospital. I couldn't try and talk to Law when I was in hospital though…

Sighing I got up and light another cigarette. I had to get home. Homework was waiting for me and part of it was still unsolved Chemistry exercises. I needed Law – desperately and for more than one reason. But cutting it down to the roots, I just plainly missed the man. He had made everything look so easy and not having him around on a day where he should be there… I didn't really know what to do. My thoughts were spinning and I really needed someone to lean onto now. But I didn't have one.

When Law was around I never needed such a person. He was the one I could lean onto, though not physically. He was cheering me up when I couldn't be bothered with anything and he had managed to give me a reason to go to school for the first lesson every day. Though that reason didn't necessarily have anything to do with my education…

I don't feel like making them suffer. But having everything solved now would not only ruin the advent calendar but also the (pretty lame) story.

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