A/N : I know it's been like forever, but I kinda got stuck for a while. Thanks for sticking with this story for as long as you have. I'm going to do my best to get this story as well as my others done asap. Thanks again.

Disclaimer: I still don't own anyone or thing in SGA

Chapter Fourteen

" It has come to our attention that you and Lt. Col. John Sheppard have been having inappropriate relations which have resulted in a pregnancy." This was how the conversation with Col. Caldwell started off. Kendra felt like she was going to cry and be sick all at once. Damn pregnancy. She thought to herself as she tried to sit there and listen to what Col. Caldwell and Elizabeth was going to say.

"Well, I wouldn't say it's inappropriate. We are in love with each other." John defended their relationship as he noticed Kendra turning pale." Are you okay?"

"No, excuse me I have to go." she stood up to leave, but Col. Caldwell's voice stopped her

"You can't just leave." he stated

"If I don't sir I will throw up on you." she spat out as she rushed out the door.

"It's the baby she or he doesn't like authority figures either." John stated hiding an amused smile

"This is no laughing matter Col. Sheppard she's a doctor here and you are head of military command it is frowned upon." Col. Caldwell stated firmly as Kendra came back in.

"Sorry," she apologized as she sat down next to John.

"As I was explaining to Col. Sheppard the SGC is not happy with your relationship." Col. Caldwell said

"It wasn't like we were hiding it." she said to him then narrowed her eyes." He was with Teyla for a while no one said anything about that and what about the two of them sharing a kiss nothing was said about that."

"This isn't about that." Elizabeth started, but Kendra interrupted

"Oh, I get it my long lost daddy decided that he couldn't let his grandchild grow up without him in their life, but noy could he let his daughter." She was angry. Party hormones and partly because she knew this to be true.

"No, it's about the fact that the SGC is afraid that I might not be able to make good choices now heaven forbid something happen to my wife or baby." John stated angrily

Kendra looked at him and raised her brows he just shrugged. This disturbed her. She wasn't ready to get married. I'm not even ready to be a mom. She felt this surge of panic start to rise up in her chest.

"We are more then capable of taking care of our responsibilities as well as our child." she stated alittle more rougher than she wanted to.

"Your situation makes it a matter of protecting you as well as you unborn child." Col. Caldwell said to her" The SGC is requesting your immediate return to earth on our next trip back which is in a week."

"Then I'm going with her." John said softly

"You can't." Elizabeth said

"The hell I can she is carrying my child I'll be damned if I'm letting her go through this alone." He firmly stated

It was at this moment that Kendra had a moment of clarity. He would be willing to do anything for her and their baby, but was it really her that he was fighting so hard for or the fact that she carried his child? She'd never know.

"You are a Lt. Col. In the US air force you have a duty..." Col. Caldwell said, but John interrupted him

"I have a duty to her as well." he stated as Kendra got up and left.

"Look, John I'm working on getting her to stay, but you have to know someone close to her has a lot of pull with the president." Elizabeth stated

"What are you talking about?" John questioned

"She's saying that we may not have a choice in the matter, but believe me the last thing I want is to have a pregnant woman on my ship." Col. Caldwell said

"She can't go through the gate." John said to them

"We are aware of the risks." Elizabeth said

"Yet you're still willing to send her through." John said bitterly as he left to go find Kendra.

He found Kendra sitting in the gateroom on the steps. He walked over to her and sat down next to her. She looked up at him and he could see she'd been crying. He put his arm around her as she laid her head on his shoulder.

"This is how it's always going to be now." she sniffed" You're a solider and I'm a doctor who's now going to be a mom." Fresh tears fell onto his shoulder now" God, john I don't even know how to be a mom. I once killed a gold fish because I forgot to feed it what if I forget to feed this baby?"

"If she's anything like you she want let you forget to feed her." he joked" you're going to be a great mom."

" You think so?" she questioned as he brought her face up so that their eyes met each others.

"I know so." he said to her" I see how you are with these guys around here and the fact that Ronon actually talks to you is a major plus."

"He only talks to me because is with my best friend." she said to him

"Even so he wouldn't worry about you if he didn't care about you." he said to her as he kissed her

"I love you John Sheppard." she returned his kiss.