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I would thank you all individually but I'm sure you would prefer if I just stop yapping and carried on writing.

I'm also sorry if I've made you all hate Spencer in this story, that wasn't my intention and I promise to make her more likeable so you guys actually what her to get with Ashley.

Peace.

Hide My Heart- Misery Business

Spencer slammed the door to Ashley's room and stood in the hall way fighting the urge to go back in there and kiss her again. Kissing Ashley was so different to kissing Carmen, there was so much pure passion and need. Spencer regretted the decision straight away and was mad at her self for been such a selfish idiot. Yes she liked Ashley but she was with Carmen and that was that. She knew that leaving in the way she did was harsh but she panicked and in her own twisted way she blamed Ashley. Knowing deep down that Ashley wasn't to blame Spencer still felt some anger towards the girl on the other side of the door. Ashley knows that she is with Carmen and she didn't respect that but neither did Spencer. Spencer knew what she had to do so she headed back towards the party spotting Carmen talking to some people by the front door. Marching through the crowd Spencer approached Carmen taking her by the hand and pulling her outside.

"You ok Spencer?" Carmen asked rubbing Spencer's arm affectionately.

"Can we go now?" Spencer pleaded as she tried her best to hide her now emotional state.

"Not until you tell me what's up" Carmen replied noticing Spencer's demeanour.

"Nothing is up with me I just want to leave….please"

"Ok let's go" Carmen agreed holding Spencer's hand again and leading her to her car which was parked at the end of the drive way.

Ashley decided to stay in her room after Spencer left concerned that she would be faced with watching her with Carmen again. Ashley had experienced enough rejection for one night although she had had one slight victory. Ashley had kissed plenty of people she didn't feel anything for before and none of those kisses had felt like the one she had just shared with Spencer. That kiss was full of everything a good kiss should be full of including passion, affection, desperation, anger and pleasure.

Ashley knew that she had probably fucked up everything up in that moment of drunken bravery even with the reassurance that Spencer felt something. She knew now that Spencer wouldn't be talking to her and that everything would return to the way it was less than 48 hours ago which upset Ashley but she knew it was for the best….or at least she hoped it was. She did doubt her theory about Spencer liking her and probably would more and more as time went on.

Lying back on her bed Ashley heard her bedroom door open and saw her sister walking in. Kyla casually walked across the room and dropped down on Ashley's bed.

"Aiden and the guys are kicking everybody out" Kyla advised as she made herself comfy.

"Cool" Ashley replied not looking at Kyla.

"So you going to tell me what happened now or do I really need to spend a hour begging you?"

"I kissed her….she kind of kissed me too" Ashley answered simply hoping that would be enough information but from the expression on Kyla's face Ashley knew this wouldn't be the case.

"I thought we agreed you would back off" Kyla reminded her older sister.

"We did but then I saw them together and it set off something inside"

"That would be a mixture of hormones and alcohol Ash"

"I kind of challenged her to kiss me"

"How did that work out for you?"

"She kissed me and then told me she felt nothing" Ashley explained.

"I'm sorry Ash…I guess that's it" Kyla said as she played with Ashley's hair which was something she had done since they were kids.

"I guess so" Ashley replied with a smile creeping on to her face.

"Why are you smiling? Or do I not want to know?" Kyla pondered clearly knowing that Ashley was going to drop a bombshell.

"Ky the way she kissed me…..it was incredible and I know she felt it too"

"Ash I hate to sound mean but she has told you and it's time that you actually listened to her sweetie. I get that you like her but you need to let this go" Kyla begged really not wanting Ashley to get her hopes up. Kyla was sure that Spencer did like Ashley but she had a girlfriend which Ashley needed to respect.

"What if I let it go and I miss the chance to be with her?"

"What if you keeping pursuing her and you get rejected more and more? What if Carmen finds out and starts spreading rumours? What if Jim finds out and we lose everything? Just stop and think about it Ash please. I love you and want you to be happy but at the moment Spencer isn't going to help that so please just forget her"

Ashley thought about what Kyla was saying and if she was honest with herself she had considered all of those questions. She had thought of every possible outcome and most of them ended with Ashley not getting Spencer. Admitting defeat for now Ashley shook her head and wiped away a stray tear that had managed to force itself free.

"Ok….I'll forget Spencer Carlin" Ashley whispered as she wiped her eyes signalling for her sister to leave her alone now.

Sorry for the short chapter but I wanted to get the story moving and this bit needed to be dealt with. Review to get a special prize of a high five whoop x