Chapter fourteen

Edwards POV

I carried Bella's bag toward the elevator, as my father wheeled her in the wheelchair. She pushed the top button and grinned, just like a little kid. It was amusing. We reached the roof and we headed toward the helicopter, which was getting ready to take off. Just waiting for the patient now. My Bella.

Carlisle put a blanket around her when she shivered in Forks cold weather. But just as we went to get her onto the bed they had set up, She asked to wait. Then stood. I ran to her side, afraid she'd fall. I looked at my father for permission as she pointed toward the edge of the roof. He nodded and went to speak to the officer.

I helped her over there, almost carrying her, and there she looked out at Forks, from here, you could basically see the whole town. She seemed to be remembering a lot of things, small tears dripped from her eyes and down her cheeks. I kissed one, salty. "Don't be sad, you'll come back." I said, assuring her, and me, that she would be back.

She turned into me and buried her face into my chest, I picked her up and carried her back to the chair. When I went to move away, her hands tightened around my neck. "I love you" She whispered, those three words had so much emotion I let my own tear fall, except she didn't see it.

"I love you" I replied, kissing her cheek and then her forehead "Goodbye Bella"

I pulled her hands apart and put them in her lap, then I stepped back. I stepped back from my girlfriend, my best friend, my saviour, my support, my rock. So many names for this wonderful person. But for the major part, she was my Bella, my love.

She had been loaded into the helicopter, Carlisle climbing in beside her. The engine began and then it began to rise. I saw her mouth a few words as she stared at me, tears now flowing endlessly from her eyes.
I wiped my own tear away and then blew her a kiss. But she was already gone.

The mechanics and technicians cleared away stuff as I stood there, staring at the helicopter, flying out of sight.

"Sir? Are you staying out here, if so, we'll leave the door open" One of the guys said to me.

My heart rate excelled. But then, I remembered the promise I made to Bella, try and get over your fear of people and trust. I tried to think of what Bella would do, if she were here. She'd answer for me. 'We'll stay out here for a while' She'd say.

I took a deep breath. But the words were stuck in my throat, I couldn't do it, not yet anyway. I just smiled and shook my head.
He nodded and then left, leaving the door open, so I could make up my own mind.

I must have stayed there for too long, because my phone began ringing. I didn't answer, I didn't want to speak to anyone. I sat, leaning against the wall, my head in my hands, crying.

I was pathetic. I couldn't talk to anyone. My girlfriend just flew to Phoenix to try and have a kidney transplant and I couldn't even go and try and protect her, because I would be too scared!

I looked up and saw the sun setting. This would be the last day I ever cried over my own problems. Over the fact that I can't talk to anyone! That I can't trust anyone. It is today, that I will change everything. I will, very soon, be normal, be able to talk and trust random people in the street.

I smiled as the sun made the sky turn a brilliant orange. I remember, one other time I had been up here, it was with Bella, and it was because I wanted to see my father, but didn't want to go alone, so she came with me.

Flash back

"Thank you for coming in Edward, Bella, are you okay to give him a lift home?" Carlisle asked.

She smiled and nodded "Of course"

Then we left. While in the elevator, Bella pushed the top button. "What are we doing?" I asked.

"I want to show you something. You know how I went here the other week or something, well, I went up here and saw the most beautiful-est thing in the world. And I want to share that with you." She explained.

I laughed and pulled her against me, kissing her while I pressed her back against the elevator's doors.

It dinged and I didn't stop. "Edward, where here!" She said, against my lips. I laughed and pulled her out.
We were on the roof.

She then started pulling me and we stood against the wall, looking out across the town, and then the forest. And behind that was a sunset. It was beautiful. Words could not describe it.

"Beautiful" I heard Bella mumble.

"I'd say you'd win" I said in her ear.

"what?"
"If there was a competition, which was prettier, you'd win. Cause your breath-taking"
She laughed and swatted me away, but then turned her gaze back to the sun set.

End of Flash back

"Edward?!" Someone said loudly. I turned and saw my mother, kneeling next to me, panic written over her face. "Are you okay?" She asked.

I nodded, and then stood, helping her stand as well. Then she hugged me "I was so worried, we called you like, 20 times and you wouldn't answer"

Now I felt guilty. "Sorry, I just needed to be alone for a moment"
She nodded "I understand. Are you going to come home now?"
"Yeah, I guess"
I followed her out of the hospital and to my car. She said that she'd see me at home, as I climbed into my car and she got into hers.

I drove, slowly, toward home. But I stopped at Bella's place first. I didn't mean to come here, it just happened.

I got out and rang the door bell before I had time to actually think. Charlie answered it, looking more un organised and together as usual. "Oh, hey Edward."

"Uh, I think I left a jacket in Bella's room, do you mind if I grab it?" I lied.

He shrugged "Yeah, I gotta go to the station, just dead lock the door and head out when your done" He said, and then left.

Anyone else, anywhere else, and that would not have happened. Leave the boyfriend alone in your daughters empty house.

But where here, and it was Charlie.

I made my way upstairs, to Bella's room. There, I sat on her bed, it had been stripped of sheets, which were now folded at the end of her bed. The photo's that used to sit on her bedside table were gone, and her bookshelf was almost bare. But when I found what I was looking for, I smiled.

A photo album, of her time here in Forks. She had told me she'd leave it here for me. And now I knew it was true.
I grabbed that and then a flower from a small vase of roses on her desk and then left, locking and closing the door behind me. I then drove back to my place.

5 Days later

"Someone answer the phone!" I heard Esme call from her bathroom.
I waited, Emmett would answer it. But nope, it continued to ring.

I sighed and raised myself off the couch and paused and the shrilling phone. I had to do this, its just a voice, I'll be fine.

I picked it up and placed it to my ear.

Say hello! Say hello! I could imagine Bella encouraging me on.

I took a deep breath. "Hello?" I said slowly.

Someone on the other end paused. "Edward?" they asked "It's Carlisle"
I let out a slow breathe of air. "Yes, it's Edward"
"You answered the phone" He stated.

"Yes" I said, smiling "Yes I did"
"We'll, congratulations!" He said, happily. "This is a great step! Oh, wait until I get home, we can talk about this, maybe next you can go out and talk to people... people you don't know!"

"Did you need something?" I asked, laughing silently.

"Is Esme around?"

"Yep" I laughed and started upstairs. I knocked on her door.

"Esme, its Carlisle"
She opened the door, the bathrobe around her. "Oh, Edward... did you answer the phone?"
I nodded and handed it to her "it's Carlisle"
I left for the couch again, laying down and then swinging around so I watched the TV upside down. Why I was doing this, I do not know! I continued watching 'Family Guy' one of the stupidest shows the world, trying to drown out the name that continued to pop into my head Bella.

It was there, that I realised properly what I had done. I had taken one step closer to achieving my goal, my promise to Bella.

2 Days later

It had been exactly one week since Bella left me, and although I had been going to school... I was distracted most of the time. I was there right now, Biology class, the one class I was with Bella, the one class that I now hated.

"Edward?" Can you tell me the answer? The teacher asked. He was a substitute, didn't know about me not talking and no one was here to tell him so.

Everyone was watching me, not going to speak up because they wanted me to suffer, because they were mean idiots with not feelings.

I took a deep breathe and imagined that Bella was right next to me, holding my hand, telling me if I did this then nothing bad would happen, that something good will come out of it. That I'd be known less as a freak and be one step closer at seeing her again.

I took another deep breathe. "Metaphase" I said clearly.

Everyone gasped.

"You spoke?!" Mike Newton acknowledged.

I nodded and then turned back to the board, where the teacher was looking at us strangely before he begun to continue the lesson.

Class finished and I made my way to lunch (A/N I know the periods and time of classes are messed up, but oh well :P)

I got my lunch quickly and sat down at our table. Alice and Rosalie sat down near me. "So, I emailed her and she said she's alright. But I think she's hiding things"

"Who are you talking about?" I asked Alice as I opened my Coke.

They looked awkward and then Alice smiled "My friend from Italy, she had a cold, and she's so selfless she talked it down so I wouldn't worry"
I frowned. "We'll your lying. How is Bella?"
Alice laughed nervously.

"Come on Alice, please. She tells you more than she tells me."
"She is still on the waiting list, I heard Carlisle talking the other day if she doesn't get a kidney soon, she could..."
I nodded. Bella needs a Kidney. Without a kidney, Bella dies. Simple logic. But where on earth will she find a kidney, that will actually fit her blood type.

Wait. She needs a kidney!! I have two...But am I her type?

I jumped up and ran out of the cafeteria, Alice calling me back. I sprinted to my car and then drove, almost sped, to the hospital.
Once I was there, I then ran to Carlisle's office. When I got there, I was out of breath. I knocked on the door and then opened it, not waiting for an answer, I caught Carlisle in the middle of telling some important person something. Oh Shit!

"I'm sorry" I said quickly, without realising I just spoke to other people, and I closed the door again.

I waited for half an hour before the door opened again and Carlisle said goodbye to his guests. He turned to me, half amused and half angry.
I slipped in and then sat down at his desk. "I'm really sorry I did that, I wasn't thinking"
"Thats alright Edward, just make sure you wait for an answer next time" He told me. He went to open his mouth to say something else, but I cut him off

"I know, I talked. But please don't make a big deal about it, I'm trying okay, I am just really trying" I said, not wanting to go backwards by having everyone pay extra attention to me.

"Okay, So, what did you want, why aren't you at school?"
"Well, I had a though, and I know its a long shot, but I want to take the chance"
Carlisle urged me forward with his hands.
"Bella needs a kidney, yes?"
He nodded, worried now, he knew where I was going.

"Well, what if I'm a match?"
He seemed sad "Edward, the percentage of you being a match for Bella, and then her body actually accepting it, would be extremely low. And then, it would be risky for you to have the operation and then you'd be hindered for your life, having only one kidney. Edward, you really need to properly think about this. Talk to Esme and Me at the same time... this is not a spontaneous decision you make... this is life changing, for you and Bella"

I thought about it for one moment. Living with one less kidney, being more careful and having Bella with me, or alive, or living fully but no Bella. I would take Bella any time.

"I've thought about it." I announced "Can you please call Esme. I want to help Bella, I want give her a chance. If I'm not the right match, then we can forget about it"

Carlisle nodded and picked up his phone. "Hey honey, can you get over here, Edward wants to ask you something"
He paused "I don't think it's something to be asked over the phone Esme. Okay. Love you too"
"She'll be down in a few minutes" He told me before looking over some work on his desk.

Esme came in soon after and sat, worriedly, next to me. "Okay, whats wrong?" She said, looking at me, as if she was trying to see if I was sick.

"I'm fine" I reasured her. "It's more about Bella than me"
Her face drained of blood "Is she okay?"
Carlisle sighed "She's fine, its about Edward, but to do with Bella"
"Honey, your too young to get married" She said, seriously.

I laughed and Carlisle shook his head "No Esme, Edward wants to see if he is a match for Bella's kidney"
"Oh" She said, "Edward, are you sure this is what you want to do?"
I smiled "How about I make a deal. We see if I'm a match, and then if I'm not, we don't have to worry or discuss it, but if I am, I sit down, be very reasonable and talk about it then"
Carlisle nodded, looking proud and Esme smiled. "Alright then" Carlisle said, standing up "Lets go"
I froze "Wait, where doing it now?"
"Well, no time like the present." He laughed and pulled me into an examination room.

I was tested and then sent home, driving with Esme. She had a friend drop her off at the hospital, so I drove her back with me.

She smiled and grabbed my hand "I'm proud of you honey"
I frowned and stole a glance at her expression she seemed sincerely proud."Why?"
"Your just taking all this so well and mature. And you've started to talk I hear!"
"No, Esme, please. I don't want extra attention" I said, repeating what I had told Carlisle.

She laughed and then launched into her story of the day.

We arrived home and Alice immediately bombarded me with questions. But I knew she was just extremely worried.

After I escaped them all I went up to my room and watched the sky pour down rain threw my window. I sat infront of it and then closed my eyes.

I've never done this before. I've never had a strong enough reason to, but now I do. Please, Please if it is somehow, my turn to have some good luck, not that Bella herself wasn't good luck. But please, let me be a match to Bella. I need her in my life. Please don't give her and then take her.


Please let me give her something so she can live

Let me have her forever.

Amen.

Lol, this is weird. Why have i spent my whole New years eve day on Fanfic? Well, because I'm hung over and cant be bothered to do anything else! Thanks for reading. I hope my two chapters, in one day, has made your day and the awesome start to the new year.

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