Disclaimer: I don't own anything affiliated with One Tree Hill, or No One by Alicia Keys
Sorry for the wait guys I went on vacation but the next few chapters should all be out soon and their shouldn't be a long wait.
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Something So Real
Nathan lay draped crookedly under the covers of his bed half asleep, as Haley laid straight with her head on his back. Haley was flipping through the name book.
"Hmmm...Allison...Britton...nah..Bella...Camille...Cassidy...Caroline...Caroline, Caroline...Carolina."
"She would get made fun of since we live in North Carolina."
Haley jumped slightly.
"I didn't know you were awake."
"I have been awake since you woke up and laid on me, I just didn't feel like getting up yet."
He closed his eyes once more as she flipped more pages.
"Eliot...Emma...Harper...Hayden, Isabella... Jenny, Katherine, Kaylee," Nathan chuckled and smiled at her antics, she was so diligently flipping the pages ready out any name.
"Kendall...Lacey...Laney...Lucy. I like Lucy."
"That's nice" He whispered. "Now why don't you come under the covers with me and we can look at that together."
"I would love to cuddle with you my shirtless husband." Nathan chuckled as Haley sat up, he rolled over, and then she cuddled into him.
"Alright lets see" Nathan said flipping the pages.
"Macy...Madeline" Nathan went to flip the page.
"Wait, what about Madison" Haley said stopping him, and pointing to the name.
"Madison...I like it. Nathan, Haley, and Madison Scott"
"We could call her Maddie"
"Madison Scott."
"Madison...Brooke Scott."
Nathan looked at her with a smile. "So is this definite. If we have a little girl her name will be Madison Brooke Scott."
"I love it Nathan."
"It's perfect."
"You're perfect...and our baby is going to be perfect." Nathan gave her a kiss before sliding down the bed and kissing her stomach.
"I think we should find out the sex of the baby...I mean we picked out the names."
"Sure"
"Sure, that's all you got?"
"I mean it will help us prepare better and I would have been fine either way, you were the one that wanted to wait...it doesn't matter to me whether we have a boy or a girl but I think it would be nice to find out now."
"So when I get my ultrasound next week we will find out, its official."
"What have you done Luke?" Haley whispered to herself walking into his house. She saw beer bottles and food lying all over the place. Things were broken from what she guessed, he threw a lot of things at the wall in anger. Most of them were frames. She wandered into his bedroom to see him laying diagonally across the bed, with one arm hanging off and his blankets were partially on him, letting Haley see he was just in his boxers.
"Luke wake up."
"No."
"Come on Luke it's one in the afternoon."
"I have no reason to wake up."
"Put your hand over your heart, you feel it beating? Yeah you're alive. Do you know how many people wish that they could say that? You woke up this morning, you are healthy and maybe things didn't go the way you wanted but you're one of the lucky ones, now go get a shower."
"You're just happy it didn't happen"
"I am happy that my little brother has a broken heart...no Lucas, it doesn't work like that. I'm not that mean. I just didn't think Lindsay was the one, now go get a shower you stink and I am going to get sick."
Haley walked out of the room and started cleaning, she threw the bottles in the recycling bin, cleaned up all the trash, separated the photos from the glass and then swept up the rest of it. Then she started cooking breakfast in the kitchen.
"Why are you even bothering? Its not like you liked Lindsay."
"I never said I didn't like her but she wasn't the right person for you, she was rude to all of your friends, she never gave us a chance, and she barely even spoke to us. Do you really want to spend forever with someone who couldn't even get along with your sister?"
"I wanted to spend forever with Lindsay."
"No you didn't I could see it in your eyes, you're my brother I know you. You weren't over Peyton you still love her I know it. Why won't you admit it, why don't you just admit it?"
"Because she hurt me too bad, you don't understand how bad she hurt me."
"Don't be afraid of getting hurt again, Luke because I have seen how you two are around each other and it would be worth it to take the risk."
"I moved on, I want to be with Lindsay and if you are going to keep talking about Peyton than you should leave."
"I'm sorry Lucas but the Comet was a love letter to Peyton and you need to accept that, and the fact that Lindsay doesn't want to be with you." Haley then walked out of his apartment.
Nathan parked the car in the garage, and quickly got out to run over to the other side just in time to help Haley out of the car. "Nathan, I'm pregnant not elderly."
"I know, I just want you to be careful."
"Thank you."
They started walking towards the office.
"I was thinking, what if after the appointment we grab some food at Karen's and have a picnic at the cemetery?"
"That sounds perfect." Nathan held open the door as Haley walked in sat down to wait.
Haley was tapping her hand on her knee when Nathan reached out and grabbed it. "Sorry...I'm just so excited."
"Me too baby" Nathan smiled down at her then looked around "You are really small compared to some of these women."
"Nate some of these women are like almost nine months along."
"That one's about to pop"
"Nathan!" Haley hit his arm with her free hand. "Next thing you know that's going to be me."
"I don't think you're going to be that big, she's got to be pregnant with multiples...quadruplets even."
"Nathan Scott stop it right now or I will beat you!"
"Jeez you sound like a mom."
Haley looked down at her stomach, put her hand on it, then back at him with a smile "I am a mom."
"I can't wait to see the baby again" Haley whispered as she sat in her chair.
"Me either."
"Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Scott, how are we doing today?"
"Good"
"How have you been feeling since your last visit?"
"A lot better, although I have been getting tired more easily."
"That's typical, you will be losing energy as you get further along. Now did you decided whether or not you want to find out the sex this visit?"
"We do actually"
"Good, let's get you set up then." Haley laid back and the doctor squeezed some gel on her stomach. "Let's see that baby."
She pulled out the probe and ran it along Haley's stomach. "So here is the baby's head..."
"Wow"
"That's our baby..." Haley whispered.
"Yeah"
"Two arms...two legs...and right here we can see that you are going to have a little girl."
"Really?"
"Yeah, it's very clear."
"A daughter" Haley whispered.
"Just like you." Nathan leaned in and rest his forehead on hers and kissed her.
"Madison...Maddie."
Nathan smiled down at her stomach. "She is beautiful."
"Hi Momma, Daddy" Haley said sitting down in the grass.
"Hey Mr. and Mrs. James"
"So we went to a doctor's appointment today...looks like you two are going to have a granddaughter."
"Madison Brooke Scott"
"Do you still want to name her Madison?"
"Of course. I think its perfect."
"And Brooke has always been there for us, so I think this little girl is going to have the perfect name."
"I hope she looks just like you, I want her to have your big brown eyes"
"And your beautiful smile" Haley said brushing her hand across his cheek
"Your short pants genes"
"Ha ha, do we really want our daughter to be a giant like her father anyway?"
"I am hardly a giant Haley"
"I wouldn't be so sure about that." Haley smirked before reaching into the food bag and pulling out a container. She opened it and tilted her head back. "Thank you Aunt Karen, she is a gift from heaven." Haley pulled out a fork and stuck some of the mac and cheese with hot dogs in her mouth. "This is so good." Haley moaned.
"I can tell"
"Did you know, when I was like four or five, right before I went to kindergarten I was on this kick where I ate this everyday for lunch. My mom would always have to make two separate lunches because Lucas refused to eat it that much but she did it for me. She was the best mom every, I hope I can be just like her."
"I'm sure you will" Nathan then paused in thought. "How have you been feeling lately? Does it still hurt to think about them?"
"Not really, I know they're up there looking down on me, and their in my heart."
"I'm glad baby."
"I owe it all to you Nate...after they died, I was always looking back...At what I had lost, at how my life was supposed to be. But somewhere along the way, you changed all that. And now when I walk in the door and I see you, it's like the weight of my day just falls away. You taught me to look forward again...To days and nights with you. And I love you so much for that." Nathan leaned in and kissed her. "When I was a little girl, my dad used to read the paper every Sunday, and my mom would read a book nearby. And I would sit at the top of our stairs and just watch them...just watch them be still together...and when I think of being in love, that's what I picture...days like that...And nights like this."
"I'm sorry I don't like to read the paper."
"It wasn't that...I get the feeling I used to get then when I watch you play basketball at the rivercourt or in the driveway and I write music, or when you will put the basketball game on mute to listen to me sing."
"I can't help it...I love to hear you sing."
"And watching you play...shirtless, is good inspiration."
"So what has been your problem?" Olivia, the therapist, asked tapping her pen on her notepad.
"Julian hasn't been home, he was always away working and I felt his PA was constantly flirting with him, causing him to cheat I put too much faith in the press but I just don't know what happened anymore. So I sent divorce papers and custody papers and ever since we will fight, then get along, then fight again its just a constant battle but we both decided we want to work on us."
"I want to be with her again and for her to know I didn't cheat but its harder than it sounds."
"Now before we start, do either of you have a problem sharing everything with the other, is there anything you want to keep to yourself."
"Absolutely not"
"I have nothing to hide"
"Okay that's good, and do you both want to make this work and are willing to put in a lot of work?"
"The happiest times I remember were when we were together...I want that again, I want to feel like that again...I want my heart to stop hurting."
"I want us to be together again, I never wanted to be apart. Brooke and Juliet are the two things I love the most and I would do anything to protect them, but I feel like lately I have done more harm than help."
"Good now, tell me a little about ourselves first, how did you meet?"
"We met young, dated through high school and then I got pregnant in my junior year, we have a five year old, Juliet, and she is our world. We got married about a year and a half after she was born."
"Now what about you Brooke, describe yourself"
"Well I'm a mom, and a wife, and I love fashion. Clothes and all that is my passion, I have always loved it and I always will. But overall Julian and Juliet come first. Juliet, there's so much energy in this little girl, I love her so much and she is just...perfect."
"What about you Julian?"
"Well I mean besides being home with Brooke and Juliet I love making movies, producing, directing, whatever I can do I love it. Its just the feeling it creates in me when we get a good shot or the actor nailed it. I love Juliet and Brooke so much, they are my girls. I look at Juliet and she looks so much like Brooke that I fall more and more in love with her every day, as I do with Brooke.'
"She has your eyes thought, I was so happy about that because I love your eyes and when I look into her eyes I see you."
"See, I can tell you two still love each other, just by the way you speak of each other and to each other. You both are giving an effort. So where do you think it all started going downhill?"
"Julian got his first movie about a year ago, it was a short one but he started working more than ever before and it was a huge shock to the schedule in our house. I didn't go to college, Julian went but I stayed home and watched Juliet while starting up C ove B. He would only be out of the house a few hours a day but that all changed. And then I met Alex and she started flirting with him all the time, even in front of me. It made me very self conscience because I didn't look as good as I did before I got pregnant and I wasn't as beautiful as her. Plus he never got the chance to date other people, neither of us did. Then he was spending more time on set due to the movie. After that one was over he had to take one three hours away so he would spend time there and drive back on the weekends. As he took more and more short films the press watched him more and more and started publishing that he was cheating on me and I started to believe it no matter how hard I tried and trusted him I couldn't not believe it. Then we started fighting and he took moves farther away for longer periods of time"
"I felt like she stopped trusting me and because of that I lost faith in us, what kind of relationship can you have without trust...so I gave up a little bit and surrendered to society, but I now that I should have kept fighting and maybe I could have prevented it."
"I see, its underlying trust issues...where do you think they came from?"
"I think...I think I am worried I will end up like my parents, they first loved each other then got pregnant young and started fighting all the time. They ended up hating and resenting each other then divorcing. I don't want that, I never did but I was always afraid and I think it fueled the flame that I had failed..I was just like them."
"What are your parents like now?"
"After my mom got back from rehab she was a lot better she didn't mind Julian staying with us and was so helpful with the baby, we are pretty close now but my dad is still the same."
"Brooke a lot of people said history repeats itself but it doesn't have to if you don't want it to. Now take me back to a happier time, I want each of you to tell me about the time when you feel in love with the other."
"We were eating at Karen's and I had something on my face she leaned over and wiped it with a napkin, kissed the spot then kissed my lips, gently and quickly but it was so symbolic. Then she went on asking me about my parents knowing things weren't great but she put aside what was bothering her to deal with my problems, she put her feelings aside to help me, I had know that she had just been in a fight with her parents but she put me first."
"They didn't matter to me...nothing mattered more than you. I had been through so much with my parents and at that point I didn't want to talk about it, I didn't want to ruin our day talking about them, but I just wanted to help you because your parents only had just started fighting at that point."
"Are your parents divorced Julian?"
"Yeah, they started fighting a lot when I was in high school, they got divorced when I was a sophomore my mom became an alcoholic and my dad moved away. They actually just fought over custody so they could get money from the other not because either wanted me."
"Both of our mothers had a problem, his was with drinking, my moms was prescription pills but they both went to rehab and are stable now."
"Derek is getting out of prison"
"What?" Nathan said stepping out of the kitchen and placed the dish towel on the table. Haley sat their reading the letter that came in the mail.
"He is getting released soon because of good behavior."
Nathan moved around to sit next to her. "Are you afraid?"
"I know it's gonna be okay he can't hurt me now."
"No he can't I'm here now and I am not going to let anything happen you you, I will always protect you." He looked at the paper "See this says he can't be near you."
"I know"
"If you ever get scared or anything, I want you to talk to me."
"Okay"
"We are going to be just fine. I promise."