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A smile formed on your lips as the two of you embrace. This was actually kind if nice, it was just like in the fanfictions you sometimes wrote for your utter most favorite ships! Boy meets girl, they fall in love, and everybody ends up rainbows and unicorns! And you finally had that! You wonder why you never had a boyfriend before, but before you can think on it more that smile slowly drained away along with all the color in your face. You know exactly why.
"Hey Nepeta you ok? You look a little pale..." Karkat asks looking at you after breaking hus tight hold on you. But you continue to just stare at the ground. You are so stupid why didn't you see this earlier!? Ever since you kissed him you haven't been thinking straight! UGH!
"I'm fine I umm just have to go do something..." You begin to back up slowly, trying to do that fake smile you do to cover up your emotions. But it doesn't appear to be working by the way Karkat is staring at you. Swallowing you take a couple more steps back before full on running. You run down the street and down the block, your feet slap against the pavement as you fly down the street.
You feel terrible! Karkat was probably confused and upset from that but you were only trying to spare him from heartache later on. That's all you were doing, but of course he didn't know that. He probably thought you did this for kicks. Lured a guy in ad than run away making him look stupid.
You feel your body tense up as memories flodded into your head. You had a boyfriend before, but thanks to amazing therapy sesions and years of tears you had finally managed to forget about all of that. The road to recovery was long and hard but you did it. Even if you still had some scars and nightmares, and even if you found some pictures of when you two were happy. Your head began to feel tight, like somebody was slamming a sledgehammer to it.
His name was Ryan and he was the greatest thing that had ever happen to you, or at least that was what you had thought at the time. He was sweet and compassionate, and he never wanted to hurt you. You two were made for each other! He loved your quirkiness, and you loved his enthusiasam. He seemed so sweet and innocent, that was until you caught him cheating on you. He pleaded for forgivness, promising that he'd never do it again. You took him back ,but things weren't the same, you argued a lot, and didn't trust each other. He'd scream and you'd scream back, but in the public eyes you two were the perfect couple. You'd have those fake smiles painted on you faces, sealed with hate. He'd hold your hand only to slap it away when you were alone. You had to pretend to be happy so nobody would see that you guys were weak. You were a Leijon, and Leijons never admit defeat; ever!
You hated feeling obligated to be with him! The fights got worse, the threats became bigger, and you couldn't believe you guys were still together. You never cried or even showed emotions, you took the insults, letting them roll off you like water. That wasn't the case when he began hitting you. It started with hits on the arms and evolved until you had bruises all over you. You could fight if you wanted to, you could kill him, but you just couldn't. You just couldn't hurt the guy you used to love. You couldn't belive he'd changed, you didn't want to. But that one night did it for you, something snapped.
The two of you had your normal argument leaving you with a bloody nose and him with blood covered knuckles. You had turned away to leave right before he said "you're mother would be ashamed of you! I'm glad she died before she could see what she created ended up being a coward." Your eyes began to twitch, hands clenched in a tight fist, you turned to him and slapped him hard, leaving a red hand mark on his cheek. Rage filled you as you begin to punch and scream at him violently. He fought hard against you, slamming you roughly against the wall, but you didn't take it. You grabbed the closes thing and slammed it over his head. He fell dragging you down to the ground with him, your head hitting the ground with a loud SMACK. Pain and confusion filled your body, you crawled to your phone dialing somebody, anybody who'd come to help you. Hands shaking you grasped your phone feeling small droplets form in your eyes, you remember Equis picking up the phone, and you curling up in the corner trying not to fall asleep before Equis came.
And when he did you cried and cried on his shoulder as he called the police. After lots of feeling jams, physical therapy, and drawing you healed. All except that huge scar in your hair. You hated that scar, it proved to you that you were weak. Equis became protective over you, not so much as letting a boy look at you without threatning them. He required to meet every boy you liked to make sure he was suitable for you. Though he never found on he liked.
That's why you had to run from Karkat. You didn't want to hurt him, didn't want to feel hurt again. You didn't yet another guy to face Equis again.
So you kept running until you were home, by yourself, with nobody to hurt you. No more memories. A knock on your door jolted you back to reality. Standing on your tip toes you see a mess of black hair and red cheeks and your etes widen. Karkat followed you?
"Hey what's up?" You say smiling, you try to look like you didn't just relive the scariest moment in your life that only happened a year ago. "Nepeta cut the crap what the hell is wrong with you?" you sigh and usher him in. This was an interesing day now wasn't it.
OK I HAVE NOW COMPLETED MY 14th CHAPTER! HELL YEAH! I want to thank my friend Ryan for helping me write this :P and all the amazing peole who gave me advice and much needed guidance for this chapter! This chapter took a lot of time to make and I really hope y'all like it! I might udate really late tonight or early tomorrow morning, like 3am early! Don't judge me, I get bored so I write early in the morning! Hehe well bye!