AN: I know it's been a long time since I updated, and I am really really really sorry. I didn't have the time nor the energy to translate. You guys deserve an explanation, and I've been thinking about if I should just tell you or leave it at "personal issues", but you do deserve an explanation so, by personal issues I mean that my PTSD has been draining me and my anxiety attacks are back. So that's my excuse, and I'm really sorry.
Anyways enjoy. Also, thanks to ButtonUpKitten, for letting me borrow her story to share it with you guys :)
I look at Kate right away and see that her cheeks are red. I curse in a low voice and I notice how Jim frowns, because I assume he knows that the room that is near my office is the one of Kate.
-Tell us the truth Rick, you were in your studio watching a movie right -. Says Tom pointing at me with his mouth full of bacon.
Everyone laughs and I with my nervousness also laugh.
-You caught me. - I say breathing relieved.
-Well, the next time you either wear headphones or lower the volume because others have to sleep and stuff. - Tony laughs.
The atmosphere relaxes and they begin to talk about other things and their plans for the day. Almost everyone agrees to go to the beach because the day before we were all morning and part of the afternoon in the pool.
I nod when asked if I agree and commented that the food and drinks can be brought there as the beach is very close.
I look back to see Kate and I see her somewhat withdrawn, but she seems more calm.
Then I noticed that Johanna asks her something and I see them chatting quietly, so I just finish relaxing and enjoy breakfast with the most beautiful view. And no, I'm not talking about the beach nor the green meadow around my house, I mean Kate.
I hear her laughing aloud at something and the sound of her laugh takes my breath away . It is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. And then I realize that living without that laugh would never be the same for me.
I notice that she stands quietly and I also apologize to follow her. While walking down one of the aisles I took her arm and we entered one of the rooms downstairs, this particular one is the room where the pool table is, which I still haven't practically used.
Kate is shocked and when she realized that it's me she sighs relieved.
-That was not necessary. - She said and I approach my body against hers against the door.
-I told you not shout -. I say placing a hand next to her head.
- What?.
-Last night -. She puts a face.
-Sure, because I was the only one screaming last night.
-I don't don't scream -. She looks at me indignantly.
-Sure you scream, yell, yesterday.
The two of us talk in whispers.
-I don't scream.
-If you don't then neither do I .
-Yesterday you did yell, a lot.
-It's your fault -. She then tells me and we both smiled.
-It is -. I say bringing my mouth to hers.
But before our lips touch we hear voices.
-We cannot keep doing this.
- Screaming?, I agree.
-No, this, seeing each other when it's crowded. A moment ago I almost choked on juice .
-I cannot be without you for two seconds Kate -. She smiles and bites her lip. - Do not do that.
- What?.
-That, that thing you do when you bite your lip ...
She laughs again and bites her lip.
I looked at her amused and approached my mouth biting her lower lip.
-Stop -. She tells me laughing.
-You are provoking me.
-Not true.
-You're always provoking me.
She looks at me with her mouth open.
- Me?, who got me into this half dark room as I walked calmly through here?.
-I just wanted to talk ...
- Yes? -. She says smiling and looking at my lips.
-Yes, and then you start biting your lip and looking at me that way and ...
- What?.
-And I have no choice but to kiss you -. I say finally gathering my lips to hers in a voracious kiss.
First caressing her lips with my tongue and then I look for Kate's tongue, massaging it languidly, leaving her breathless for a few seconds.
I separate with a little trouble and stroked her cheek.
- Will you come to the beach?.
- Will you come?.
-I am the host honey -. She smiles and leaves a kiss on my chin.
-See you then, mr host -. She whispers before going outside leaving me there smiling.
Morning on the beach is quite entertaining. We even played a game of volleyball. I have to say that Kate had impressed me because she's really good. And I have to say I see her there, with shorts and a bikini top, sweating and hitting at a ball, well, that was pretty exciting.
Occasionally I had to remind myself that we were surrounded by people, including her parents. That makes me wonder whether we are ready to tell them all. I'm sure I love Kate, and I know she feels the same, but telling them everything will unleash a storm.
I feel that something hits my head and hear shouts and laughter.
- Hey! -. says Kate, I'm on her _ team -. Wake up! -. She says also laughing like everyone after the ball hit me -. They scored and it was your fault.
I pick up the ball and threw it across the net
-You know it's not my fault -. I say when I step beside her.
- What? -. She asks, focused on other players.
-Those shorts ... I cannot concentrate -. I notice that she chuckles and then runs forward when they throw the ball over the net.
Her body completely falls on the sand as she launches preventing the ball from hitting the ground. I react by raising the ball close to the net to finish it by hitting it with a jump.
- Take that! -. I hear her scream victoriously and raising her hand bumping mine.
I laugh, and I feel as if were ten years younger. And that's exactly what Kate makes me feel. She makes me feel alive, makes me happy, makes me feel excited.
She simply makes me feel.
After playing some more, some went to rest, to enjoy drinks and food already? just enjoy the beach. I stay a while chatting with the guys, and I notice Kate walking quietly along the shore, so I decide to join her when I see that Johanna and Jim are busy in one of the groups.
- Are you bored already? -. I ask joining her walk.
-No -. She says while looking at the horizon -. Quite the contrary. I think this weekend has been one of the best of my life.
She says and looks at me, but her sunglasses don't let me see her beautiful eyes.
-You surprised me a lot. With the volleyball thing, I mean.
-Oh Castle, I told you that ...
-Yes, there are many things I don't know about you. - I say laughing -. And that's what fascinates me the most about you.
She smiles and stops halfway still looking at the sea.
I sit in the sand and she does the same.
- You know what I love about you?
- That I am damn handsome?.
-Besides that -. She says laughing -. That you are my first and only love -. She says and my heart races in my chest -. I always was in love with you. Foolishly, but I was. There never was someone who made me feel this.
-You never told me who was your first.
- The one that I ... -. I nod. - Why do you want to know?.
-Because you are telling me that you didn't like him.
- Did you like to first girl you slept with?.
-Well, no ...
-He was seventeen and all my friends had done it. I just wanted to experience it.
- And did you like the experience?.
-It was okay, I guess -. She says and see her biting her lip. That gesture is starting to drive me crazy -. But he wasn't really much more experienced than me. - She says and chuckles.
I smile.
-Tell me that at least he treated you well.
-He did.
-And tell me you didn't like it as much as with me.
She laughs.
-That is obvious.
I also looked at the sea.
-My first time was a disaster. - I say amused -. I didn't even know where I had to put it ...
I hear cracking up again and I smile widely.
- How old were you?.
-Fifteen.
-No wonder.
-But it's different with you Kate -. I say wishing I could take her in my arms, but we are not so far from the others so I control it.
- Are we still going to tell my parents? -. She asks then.
I nod.
-I think it's the best.
-I'm still not sure.
-Everything will be okay -. I tell brushing her fingers with mine discreetly.
She looks at me and I smile at her reassuringly.
After spending most of the day on the beach, most returned home to shower, eat or just relax. I, after that intense volleyball game, I feel that what I need is a hot shower. I had told Kate that we would talk with her parents after dinner.
I dress in fresh and casual clothes and make a few phone calls to my agent to find out how they book sales are going. Then I leave the room to know what are my guests doing. And when I step outside Kate's door I notice that that door is half open, so I lean a little to see if that alone.
She has clean clothes on the bed and is brushing her hair that was in a in a messy bun.
-Maybe you should close the door -. I say and she turns exalted.
-Stop doing that -. She says with a grin.
I smile and enter, closing the door behind me.
- Doing what?.
- Surprising me like that, I don't like it.
-But you love it when I surprise you.
She ignores me and I see her taking a clean towel.
I sit on the bed and just look at her doing her thing.
-I've been told that the book is selling very well.
- Oh yeah.
-Aha.
-Well I don't know, but I thought that me, being your girlfriend and all I'd get a copy or something ... and look.. I have nothing.
-It's true that you're a fan of my books. - I say with a smile.
-I'm not a fan, fan ...
-Drop the act, your friend told me -. She looks at me with narrowed eyes and then smiles.-Tomorrow you will have a signed copy.
-You should go, my mother can come at any time.
I sigh standing up.
-I love it when you reject me and you play hard you know.
-I don't play hard, now go.
I steal a kiss and she laughs.
I walk to the door and go still smiling.
-Rick -. I hear her calling me and I turn, she opens the door completely throwing my underwear that I'd left the night before in the face.
-I think you left this last night -. She says smiling.
And I approach to steal another kiss.
When I finally turn to leave, I notice we have a viewer.
It's Jim.
I try to open my mouth to say something but Jim's fist is already on my cheek provoking an intense pain and making me lose my balance.
- Dad, no!. - I hear Kate, but Jim is on me saying things like "bastard" and "son of a bitch."
His body pushes me until we're both in the room and I wobble dazed. I see Jim trying to ram against me again but I turn away still a little dizzy.
-Jim, let me explain -. I start.
- Explain to me?! Explain that you're taking advantage of my daughter?.
- No one is taking advantage of me -. Says Kate immediately.
- And what about this son of a bitch -. He throws another punch at me and I ducked dodging -. I really thought we were friends, I opened the doors of my house to you. Did he force you to do something Katie?.
- Of course not -. Answers an exalted Kate.
-Jim it simply happened ...
- Simpl ... Simply happened?, how do you even have the balls to say it "simply" happened, I should kill you ...
-No -. Kate stands in front of me -. Daddy, we were going to tell you, after dinner, we would tell you and mom ...
He looks at her with a very red face as I stroke my sore cheek.
- How long? How long was this going on under my nose?.
- What's going on here. We could hear screams from the hallway -. Johanna enters the room with a frown.
-That this motherfucker I thought was my friend, is taking advantage of Katie.
Johanna looks at us and his expression softens.
-Mom, Rick is not taking advantage of me, we simply have... Fallen in love ...
- In love?! -. Jim laughs bitterly. - But if this guy doesn't know what that is. Do you think he has fallen in love with you magically?, Kate, Castle just uses women for one thing, that's what he does. And holy god you probably already ... - His face turns even redder and he lunges at me, next thing I feel is his fist in my stomach making my body shake.
Kate and Johanna get in the way forcing him not to continue beating me. I am much bigger than him, but I don't want to hurt him.
-Jim, I'm in love with your daughter -. I say bravely.
- Shut up! -. He screams at me trying to hit me again but Kate stands in front of me again -. Now I understand when you said certainly ... god, when you said that Kate was certainly using you you knew from first hand you big son of a bitch!.
-Dad ...
- What did he say? Did he said to you want, it's what he says to all, Katie, don't you see ?. I notice as he clenches his jaw. Trying again to lash out against me but Kate gets in his way -. You put your hands on the most important thing for me, this, I will not forgive you in my life.
-Jim, you're being a little hard ... - I hear tell Johanna.
- A little harsh? You knew this?.
-Well, no, I didn't know for sure.
-Then you suspected it -. She doesn't respond -. And you didn't tell me?!.
- What did you want me to say?, "oh by the way, I think Kate's boyfriend, the one that I talked to you about is Castle"?. Also, they were not hurting anyone, it's just a summer love.
- Are you listening to yourself, Johanna?. Here the only one hurt will be Kate when this bastard leaves her after promising all that stuff he has already certainly done. Or worse, when he leaves her pregnant -. At that time he looks at us with suspicion -. Tell me you did not dare touch my daughter while we were in the same house ... - He starts saying -. Tell me those screams we spoke about today ...
-Jim, just let me talk, just let me explain -. I say trying to make him listen, but he ignores me.
- Tell me!. - He says with a shout.
-Jim, please. - When he realizes that we won't deny he lashes back against me taking me by the shirt, saying all kinds of things while he shakes me with his hands.
- Dad, stop!.
I let Jim vent and listen as Johanna asks again and again for him to stop.
Finally he does and pushes me against the wall.
- You know what?, this is over. Right now, we're leaving -. says breathlessly.
-No, Jim, wait ... - I take his arm and he hits me again with a strong punch on my cheek making me go back.
- Enough! -. Johanna says loudly, something weird for her to do.
-I'm not going, Dad. I will not move from here -. says Kate in a challenging way.
-Oh yes, Miss you're coming because you are not staying with this perverted man .
-Jim, I love her, I love Kate, this is not what you think ...
-Save your words, Rick. I remember that I know by heart your stories and your conquests. What I never thought is that you'd do it with my my daughter!. I just hope this doesn't happen to you someday with Alexis, because how it hurts to see your best friend betray you this way.
-Jim ... - He throws me one last look and walks toward the door.
-Pack your things Katherine -. He says looking at Kate in a hard way -. And if you don't want to come, I'll put you myself in the car by force if necessary -. He says and finally leaves the room, slamming the door.
-Mom ... - Kate looks at her mother with tears in her eyes.
-You better do what your father says, darling, give him time to calm down a bit -. Answers Johanna.
Kate turns and caresses my battered cheek.
- Are you okay? -. She asks really worried and anxious.
I nod taking his face in my hands. Trying with all my strength to erase the anguish she is feeling, not wanting things to happen as well.
-I'm fine -. I tell her. -Your mother is right. We better talk to him again when he is more calm.
She hugs me and I squeeze her body against mine. Her tiny body is molded as always to my torso and I feel a pain in the chest at the thought that we must part.
-You promised that everything would be fine -. She tells me with her face in my neck, and I can feel her tears soaking my skin. That makes me squeeze her even more against me.
-And it will -. I kiss her hair and then kiss her on the lips briefly but with all the love I feel for her now.
-I don't want to go -. She whispers at me with fear.
-We'll manage.
Kate kisses me one last time after picking up her things and leaves the room.
-You've always known huh? -. I ask to Johanna before she leaves too.
-From the beginning -. She tells me with a kind gesture. - But I didn't think things were that serious -. Puts a face -. And I didn't think Jim ...
-It was my fault.
She doesn't say anything and just leaves.
I sit on the bed putting my face in my hands, trying to think that everything will go well, that I would accomplish that Jim regained his confidence in me, that he would let me be with Kate, but I knew it wasn't going to be that easy.
AN2: I start school again this week, so updates won't be as usual as I was before, sorry again!