Long A/N at bottom. But thanks for all of the wonderful reviews! (Sorry for not replying to them lately.)

I have decided to use more quotes in my writing so here we go!

CHAPTER 14

"And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you." –Colin Raye

BPOV

I woke up from a cold breeze in the room, and an ice cold hand on my cheek. I shivered a little at the contact, lately I hadn't been around anything too cold, my body was not yet used to it. I moved my head away from the cold hand only to find a soft pillow beneath me. I snuggled into the warm sheets, which I was under after I figured out that I was in fact lying in a bed.

I tried to go back to sleep, but I heard Alice's voice instead, "Bella, Bella, you have to wake up."

I opened my eyes quickly as I realized what had happened. Edward was in a car accident. And I had no idea what happened, I just fainted, how lame. Quickly I rolled over so that I was facing Alice, and sitting up in what seemed to be my bed, "Alice, what happened? Is Edward alright? Did he have to get changed back?"

Alice gave me a curious look, "Changed back into what?"

"Um, a vampire Alice, what else would I be talking about?" Were we talking about two different things? Two different people? Was this a dream? I reached down to pinch my leg, ouch. No, I wasn't dreaming. So what exactly was she talking about?

She let out a nervous laugh, well it was more of a giggle, "Oh Bella, you're so silly. You must have been having a dream." She used her right hand to tussle my hair in a playful manner, "I hope that you didn't hit your head too hard!"

A dream? What was she talking about? What was a dream? The past year of my life? How could that be possible? I looked up at her, her eyes were amber, so how could this all be a dream? It was too detailed to be a dream. But it was also too perfect.

I heard a small chuckle in the corner of the room, but it seemed more like a nervous chuckle to me. I saw the figure in the corner, it was Charlie. He walked towards my bed, "Are you okay Bella? You seemed to hit your head really hard…do you need me to take you to the hospital? Alice came over right after you fell, she said that you would be fine. But vampires?"

I looked back at Alice in relief, "Yeah, sorry dad. It was just a dream. Kind of funny actually, Edward was a vampire, and then he turned into a human. It was bizarre. Let's just forget about it."

I saw Charlie nod his head, "Okay, well. If you're sure that you're okay…"

I nodded my head a little faster than I probably should have, but I just wanted to talk to Alice alone, I knew that we wouldn't be able to talk in full honesty if he was in the room, "Um, dad? Do you mind if I talked to Alice alone for a little bit?"

He nodded his head, "Yeah, I have to get to work anyways, if you need anything, you know where to reach me."

I nodded my head, "Yeah, thanks dad."

He left a few seconds later, waving as he walked out the door, down the stairs, and into his car. I turned back to Alice, "He's okay right?" I couldn't lose him, no, not now, not ever.

She nodded her head, "Yeah he's fine. He got out really lucky though. Deer accidents are really dangerous. I really wish that I saw it coming, once Edward gets out of the state of mind he's in, he's going to be devastated over the damages to his car. Sure he only got a few scratches, but his car is dead."

My eyes widened, Edward loved that car. He took great pride in it. But what was she talking about the state that he was in? Alice said that he only had a few scratches, but what did that mean?

"Alice…what state is Edward in exactly? Is he okay?"

She sighed, "Physically, Edward is fine. Daisy helped him with his wounds and all. But mentally…well, I've been trying to explain to him that everything was just a misunderstanding, but he won't listen to me. And Daisy is looking after him, but I can't really see anything clearly, he keeps changing his mind."

"What happened?"

She took a seat next to me on the bed, "He came by last night."

My eyebrows furrowed in confusion, "Really? I didn't hear him…why didn't he wake me up?"

She sighed, "Bella, I didn't plan on telling you this, not yet anyways. I didn't want to complicate things any further. So, my apologies for this in advance. But Victoria is kind of back, don't worry, we're figuring it out. But Edward over-reacted…as usual. And he immediately started packing his bags, planning on running away somewhere sunny with you. We convinced him otherwise, finally. But then he went for a drive, and ended up at your house. On his way back he hit a deer and well….you know what happened after that."

I stopped her, "Wait, why did he go back? How long did he stay here?"

She looked down, "He saw you with the picture in your hands."

I looked down and blushed, that's not something I was too proud of. I shut my eyes quickly to block out the tears as I remembered the thoughts going through my head last night.

I got into some more comfortable clothes for sleeping. Quickly, I went over to my computer to see if I got any more e-mails from mom. She heard that Edward was back and was happy about it. She said that she couldn't wait until she could properly meet him. And she was happy for me, she was happy that I'm happy.

I closed my computer and got ready to turn off the lights when I looked over to my side table. I saw the picture that Charlie took of us the day before Edward left. I closed my eyes as I remembered him leaving, him saying goodbye. Him leaving me in the middle of the woods.

And then I remembered two weeks after how I was home alone. And I drove myself crazy looking for this specific picture of him. I just wanted to see his face. I just wanted to…not forget. Because I was forgetting. And it was horrible. Every night I was scared to sleep because of fear that I would wake up and forget it all. Like a dream…they say that you only remember the dreams when you wake up in the middle of them. But my dream had ended, and usually when you woke up at the end of dreams, you forget them.

And all I could do was stay awake at night, and pray that Edward would come back for me. Take me out of my own bell jar. I would lie awake with the window open, which was of course a health hazard, but I didn't care. I searched for that picture until my hands were bleeding from looking around my room. And still nothing.

But they were under my floorboard the entire time? Of course, the one place that I was unable to look. And when he came back, human, I just couldn't believe it. He lied, and I was upset about that. But he had given up so much for me. And of course I was still in love with him. I would always be in love with him.

I clutched the photo close to my chest, I missed him holding me while I fell asleep. I missed my lullaby. And I always had a fear, though I know it was silly, of him leaving me again. But still…I couldn't help it.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I looked back up to Alice. She smiled kindly and wiped the tear away from my cheek, "What's wrong Bella?"

I looked down, "I'm just remembering my thoughts from last night."

"Edward thinks that you don't like the human version of him. He thinks that you only like the vampire Edward. And he's thinking of changing back."

My eyes shot up to her, "What? Why would he think something like that? That's a complete lie! What could possibly make him think that?"

"Well he saw you clutching that photo, and he went straight to conclusions. I've been trying to explain everything to him. But he's not listening. He's beating himself up over nothing, and I think that you really need to go talk to him about it."

I looked down, had I really hurt Edward that badly? I didn't mean anything by the picture, it's just that I don't have any pictures of him as a human. And I love Edward, human or vampire. It doesn't matter to me. It's never mattered and it never will.

I got cleaned up before heading to see Edward. Alice told me that Miss Daisy (the girl who changed him apparently) had taken Edward to his own house. The rest of the family was coming back today, and while they had just hunted, Jasper didn't want to be in any odd position. And he wanted to be alone. At least that's what Alice told me.

The drive to his house was literally five minutes away. I could walk there in 20 minutes, no problem. The drive was silent, but I was nervous, maybe he didn't want to talk to me? Maybe he just needed to sort things up with himself. Maybe it was something that I couldn't help him with.

I know, it was short, and fillerish. My apologies. I wrote it really quickly, and quite poorly. I just really wanted to get something out to you guys, it's been a week! Yikes! Sorry for the taking forever to update, and not responding to reviews, I've just been really busy.

I'M STARTING A NEW STORY ON FICTIONPRESS!!! And I love you guys, and I would love you even more if you checked it out (I haven't posted it yet, but soon). It's a love story (my favorite). Basically this guy works at the apple store, at the genius bar (a place where they fix the apple computers). And this girl goes there to get her laptop fixed. I've already started it, and would love you all to read it when I do post it!

I can't wait until I start writing the next chapter, I love going into Edward's soul. I've always been jealous of Robert Pattinson for being able to play him :(. Sigh, I always look at the world as an actress. His part would be so emotional, but so challenging and fun to play at the same time. But of course, I'm not male, and I look nothing like the ideal Edward, so I wouldn't even be able to play that part, sigh.

I'm sorry for the kind of boring chapter, and the kind of pointless A/N. If you read the A/N, thanks! If not, I hope you liked the chapter! And I would love reviews, THEY KEEP ME GOING!