Haha this is one of my facourite chapters.

Yes I know it changes every chapter but this one is diffrent! Trust me - read on and you'll see! All Tania's POV again (I might start doing this now).

Tania

It had been a long time since I had cried myself to sleep at night. It was much different, but in some ways it was still the same, this time. Last time – it had been practically every night for a year I would do it. That had been just the one, stand alone time. I was not going to cry the next night, I knew.

However it was still the same because I was crying for the same reasons. Now that my friends had left me, I was starting to feel more alone. Even more so than before. The loneliness. The unbelievably unbearable loneliness that hunted me. It would never go away until the person who I had been waiting for, for a long time, would come and end it.

But who would be that person? Funny, how I had thought of that and Jasper had suddenly appeared in my mind. But I wasn't going to do that to him. I wasn't going to shove my worries and craziness and depression of my life in his face. He deserved someone so much better than me.

I stopped suddenly, while I was lying in my bed in the morning. Was I actually wondering what it would be like if I was with him? Or if I should even try? What would I even do? After the day before when he had driven me home I had made it pretty clear I didn't want to have anything to do with him. It wouldn't be right if I suddenly turned around and asked if he wanted to hang out with me sometime. He probably already thought I was insane.

"Tania?" my mother opened my door and stepped into my room. "Time to get up." She knew I had an alarm clock in my room, but still she always did it every morning.

I rubbed my eye groggily. "I don't feel too good today. Can I stay home?"

The truth was, when I got depressed I ate. The night before I had came home and cried for so long, eating and eating until I couldn't eat anymore. I felt so sick, I didn't trust myself to get up.

My mother seemed to be in one of those moods where she would let me do whatever, so she smiled. "Sure. Do you want a drink?"

I smiled back, glad I wouldn't have to go to school (and see Jasper).

"Where were you yesterday?" asked Amber sadly as we walked to drama the next day in the afternoon. It was Friday.

"I didn't feel well. Sorry I wasn't here to rehearse with you." I replied. I tried to stop making myself feel so bad – it was the truth. That I had caused.

"That's ok." She said. "But Jason is really annoyed."

I sighed. "Great." I said sarcastically. "Maybe when he feels sick I should blame him for not being here."

Amber was silent. I didn't mind. I didn't really feel like talking.

"Jasper was wondering where you were." She smirked. "He was asking us if we had your phone number and all that stuff."

I couldn't help but smile. Jasper was concerned about me?

"You like him, don't you?" she laughed. "Well, it's ok. I think he likes you too." She giggled.

I tried not to giggle. "Ok maybe a little."

"Want me to ask him out for you?" she offered.

"Um..." I was a bit taken aback by her offer. I had thought she liked him too. But anyway, what if he said no? I thought I would be better of not knowing what he would say at all. "I'll think about it."

Amber laughed.

When I walked into the drama hall I was stunned to see Jasper look over at me. He gave me a reassuring smile, but in his eyes he was worried.

"Hey." I smiled and sat down next to him. Amber giggled and quickly whispered something to Anna. I rolled my eyes at them as they giggled.

"Hey, where were you yesterday?" The worry was in his voice too.

"I didn't feel so good so I stayed home. Sorry I couldn't make it to rehearsal. I will try not to miss any more."

"You'd better not." Jason came over to me with a serious expression. "You really let all of us down yesterday. First you don't bother to learn your lines and then-,"

"Jason." Jasper cut him off. "She was sick. If you were, we would all understand. And maybe she has a little trouble learning her lines but it doesn't matter since we have four more months until we have to perform so I'm sure Tania will get it by then. There's no need to be angry."

Even though my heart was no longer solid around Jasper, it still melted.

Jason huffed and walked off back to where Craig was standing with some other guys.

"Thanks for standing up to me." I said when he was out of earshot.

Jasper smiled. "It's nothing. It wasn't your fault. He shouldn't be mad."

I smiled to myself for a long moment, unable to stop. I was still overwhelmed by the fact that Jasper had stood up for me!

"Sorry about the other day... I just get like that sometimes."

I wished I hadn't have said anything, but I needed to apologize. But his bright golden eyes turned sad for a moment, and then his face lit up slightly.

"I have something for you."

I watched him in awe. He had something... for me? What could it have been? What would he get me?

Jasper rummaged through his bag for a second before taking out... an iPod?

"You seemed upset that you didn't have yours anymore, so you can borrow mine till you get a new one."

"Oh my gosh!" I cried. "You really don't have to-,"

"It's ok, I was going to get a new one anyway." How could someone this nice possibly exist? I must have passed out on my way there and I was dreaming. Either that or I had died in my sleep and this was Heaven.

"Thanks so much!" I cried.

And then I did something incredibly unexpected. I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him.

I was just as surprised as he was. Jasper stiffened slightly, before hugging me back gently. He seemed so cold and hard, but it felt amazing to be in his arms. It felt so good... so... right.

When we pulled back, I felt a lot of people staring at us and I felt my cheeks burn. It was like my first day all over again. I glanced at Anna and Amber and they looked like they were trying not to laugh.

Thankfully, Mr. Gates walked in to take the register and give us the usual reminder of the deadline. We would sometimes do an exercise to get into character.

Anna came and sat next to me and I mouthed to her. "First hug with a guy, ever."

"Aww..." she mouthed back. I grinned, biting down on my lip to stop myself giggling.

However, it was all against me that day. He came over to our group after he told everyone to "skedaddle".

"So, have you tried that scene yet?" he asked Jasper and I.

I could feel my cheeks burn again and shook my head.

"You two can work on it today. The rest of you should try and get into character. I've noticed you've been lacking on that."

He started talking to the others, leaving Jasper and I on our own.

"Maybe we should go somewhere private?" I suggested.

Jasper started laughing. "You're making it sound really bad..."

"Well you wouldn't want to do it here would you?" I giggled.

He shook his head standing up. "I hope no one is listening to this conversation..."

We walked into the room next door that was off the drama hall. There was no one in there. It had a few chairs scattered around and some random papers in places. We stood in the middle where there was a space around the chairs. It was almost like a circle...

I glanced at the script. I didn't know all my lines for the scene, but we weren't really going to practise the whole scene. Somehow, Jasper knew his lines perfectly.

"Where are we going from?" I asked.

"How about from the top of the page?"

I could feel my pulse start to rise but I ignored it.

"Ok." I nodded.

Jasper took my hand, like it said in the stage direction, and I immediately felt my pulse increase even more. If a hug was hard, how were we going to manage this?

"Stacey." He looked down at me into my eyes. "Please, come with me."

My lower lip trembled. "Chris. You know I can't." I pulled back my hand. "Jasmine's my best friend..."

"But... I love you."

I stared into his eyes for a lot longer than a moment. My lips were parted slightly, as were his. And then somehow, I found myself closer to him. My mind wasn't telling my feet to go on tiptoe, and yet they were. Everything around the room was nothing now. I could only see his face, and his face alone. Our lips met.

"Tania? Tania?"

I was seeing black. Annoyed, I realised I must have fainted while kissing Jasper. Perfect.

I opened my eyes slowly. I was on the floor of the room. No one else was there so I couldn't have been out for long or he would have got someone.

"Are you ok?" asked Jasper, panicked.

"If I do that on stage, just go with it." I said, groggily, still in some kind of daze staring at the ceiling.

Jasper laughed. "I honestly had no idea I had this effect on people."

I smirked. "Sorry to sound immature and all, but you basically just admitted you've never kissed a girl."

He laughed again. "Or maybe you have never kissed a guy."

I pouted and sat up. "Ok, you got me. Now you have three secrets to keep."

"Three?" he asked.

"Yes. One – I'm not fifteen, two – I have kissed a guy before, and three – I did not just faint, ok?"

Jasper smiled. "Alright. But you have a secret too."

"Oh?" I raised my eyebrows.

"I haven't kissed someone before either."

I had to laugh. "Are you telling me, this was our first kiss? It wasn't even... I was hardly conscious for it!"

"And there shall be many more..." exclaimed Jasper, amused.

I rolled my eyes. "Yes, and hopefully for those ones I won't be lying on the floor passed out."

I couldn't help but feel happy there would be more. My heart was leaping for joy at the fact that I had had my first kiss with Jasper!

I thought up most of this on the spot while I was writting. Thing is - I got to the end of Tania staying at home and then I was like: oh whoops, now I don't know what to write!

So I thought I could stick in the scene of her and Jasper... well... Tell me what you think! I am bad at romance!

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