The following morning Rae and Finn woke with two nasty hangovers, deciding a fry up was best; Well more like a 'Rae fry-up' As Finn couldn't cook for shit - but he could make a lovely cup of tea when he wanted. He stuck the kettle under the tap, accidently overfilling it so that water overflowed from the top. He sighed, setting the kettle down as water dripped from his hands. He turned, flicking his fingers at Rae so beads of water settled over her baggy top. She scowled at him, wiping herself down as he laughed silently at the look on her face. He thought it was bloody adorable. Turning the kettle on, he left it to boil and jumped up onto the kitchen counter, sitting on the work surface. His legs dangling freely swung back and forth knocking against the cupboard doors, she swatted his leg, "Oi, pack it in", He then pulled a face at her but brought his legs to a still.

Rae poured oil into a pan, turning the heat up as she chucked the sausages in, "Oh! By the way, Al called t' say 'im and the lads are goin' down the the caf' for eleven if y' up for it", Finn frowned, "'Ow did he know I was 'ere?" She sighed, turning and resting against the kitchen units, "'Cause he rung before and asked if I'd seen y' and I told 'im y' were 'ere", He tensed slightly, angling his eyebrows in multiple positions as he asked, "Was he pissed off?" She folded her arms, shrugging, "He weren't 'appy about it but s'Al for y'", He then laughed a little as he looked down before he grew serious as she asked, "So, wha' y' gonna do about J?" He shrugged, looking around before she exhaled; careful with her words, "Finn, y'know y've gotta take 'im back", He snapped his head up and bit back, "I know, Rae. I know but it's just..." He looked down, picking at his nails as continued, "I can't take 'im back t' dad's", "So, where's he gonna go?" He scoffed, looking up, "Back t' me nan's, he's gonna 'ave t'".

A moment passed before she then offered, "Listen, I've gotta go see Kester but I'll be done about three. So, if y' go the caf' and then meet me, I'll come with y'", "Y' sure?" She nodded, "Positive", He gave her a soft smile before he asked, "'Ow's it goin' with Kester?" She rolled her eyes but didn't stop the smile from forming onto her lips, "Y'know, Kester, always teachin' me the ways t' life an' all tha' bullshit", She said, waving her hands in a mock mystical way in which he snorted a laugh before asking, "Y'know anythin' 'bout y' new therapist?" She shook her head, "Nope, but I meet 'im in two weeks", "Want me t' come with y'?" She shook her head, "No, ta. Al's takin' me", Finn slowly nodded, taking it in.

A moment passed, the only sounds to be the sizzle from the frying pan and the bubbling of the kettle. That is, until Finn asked, timid, "Rae, are... Are we alright?" He then looked at her, and she gave him that infamous Rae half smile before she nodded, "Yeh, we're alright", He gave her a small smile, in which she playfully scrunched her nose at him and he replicated the face before she turned to the frying pan and he jumped down, attending to the kettle; the two returning back to normal.

"Baby Spice doesn't shit, I am tellin' y'!" Finn heard Chop boom through the cafe, Finn placed a hand on Jamie's back and led him over to the table where Chop, Archie, Al and Johnny sat. Chop and Al sat one side, Johnny and Archie opposite - leaving two seats open. Finn gave a smirk and piped up as he smacked Chop on the back, "What y' bangin' on about now, y'!?" In which Chop beamed at Finn and earned smiles from the other lads - well aside from Al, who just looked up at Finn with a blank expression - "Alright, Finny boy", Chop then noticed Jamie and buzzed, "No way! Is this... No, this can't be lil' Jamie!" Chop then looked at Jamie and put out an hand, in which Jamie went to slap his hand down but Chop snatch his hand away and playfully jeered, "Ner ner, too slow!" Which earned a laugh from all the lads as Jamie dived at Chop before Chop hoisted Jamie onto his knee, despite the fact there was a perfectly good seat in between him and Al.

Finn moved round the table and took the free space in between Johnny and Archie, before Chop then asked, "Where'd y' get t' last night? Been ringin' y' all mornin'", Finn fidgeting slightly, glancing at Al - who smiled smugly but his eyes were like two dark slits - before responding with, "Stayed in Rae's mum's", Chop frowned, "Why? S'gone on?" Finn shook his head, not wanting to get into it, "Listen I'll tell y' later, but right now I want a big, fat cup of tea and t' chill y' out", Finn then called out to the lady behind the counter, "Trace, can I 'ave a cup o' tea please?" In which the woman nodded and Finn winked at her, "Cheers, babe! Y're a diamond", Before he turned back to the lads and they grew into a debate over whether Baby Spice shits or not.

Once Tracy brought over Finn's tea and the conversation grew too grewsome, Chop then piped up; clapping his hands together, "Right, lads, we need t' discuss the camping trip!" This camping trip being a yearly tradition that started six years ago. Chop then continued, "Me and Archie were discussing it last night and we've agreed on two weekends from now, we'll all meet up for eight on the Friday morning which means we'll get there for ten and leave for four on the Sunday night", Johnny, Finn and Al took it in, nodding before Johnny then asked, "Who's driving and tha'?" Chop then piped up, "I am and since Finn's been doin' it for two years we kinda figured he'd be the second driver, if tha's alright with y', Finn?" Finn nodded, "Tha's sound with me", Chop then continued, "And I asked Al earlier if he was alright bein' the third driver, we've sorted that Archers and Johnny'll drive together, me and Iz, Chlo and Al and Rae and Finn", Off Finn's look, Archie butted in, "We just didn't wanna put y' and Chloe together as well... Y'know", In which Finn shrugged, "Fair do's".

As time grew on, the more banter and just general boy chat was tossed between the lads; but Finn couldn't shift the uncomfortable feeling he felt as Al stared at him every so often. As time grew on, Finn couldn't help but glance at the clock; only to come up disappointed as it had only just gone one. To pass a bit of time, Finn then asked Chop, "Chopper, where's Iz?" Through a mouthful of hash brown and red sauce, Chop mumbled, "Dunno, 'ome I'm guessin'", Finn cocked an eyebrow, "Didn't she stay at your's?" Chop shook his head, swallowing his food before he continued, "Nah, she's got the doctor's", Finn shifted slightly, now he was interested, "She alright?" Chop took a swig of his coffee before huffing and glancing nervously between Al and Johnny as Archie had excused himself to go the toilet a mere five minutes ago, "Tell y' later".

Finn then frowned, growing wrapped up in thoughts of worry, aside from Rae; Izzy was the only girl Finn ever bothered with as he adored her and saw her as his little sister, his very hippy and flower-power little sister. Aside from a few drunken shags, the pair never really fancied each other, not even for a day. Finn thought he did when he was fourteen and they got into a water fight, but that was because he was horny and she had a pair of tits. Finn then made a mental note to go and see Izzy after he'd dropped Jamie off, that is...

If he dropped Jamie off.

Izzy took a deep breath as she stood outside the clinic, she looked up through her heart shaped tinted sunglasses; squinting as although the air was chilly, the sun was blazing. Izzy pushed open the door, walked through and regret along with guilt immediately set in. The inside was all formal, old water-stained magazines and the smell of anti-septic. The colours of the room were grey, white, black and royal blue. Izzy placed her sunglasses on top of her head, pushing her untamed curls off of her face as she walked up the reception desk. She earned a judgemental glance from the middle-aged and overweight receptionist who glanced up, asking in a dull tone, "Welcome to Women's Now clinic, where we're not only your doctors but your friends and here to lend a helping hand. How may I help you?" Her posh and morbid tone crashed nerves into Izzy more, Izzy then stuttered, "I-I 'ave an appointment", the woman then cocked an eyebrow, "Name?" "Isabelle Jones", The woman then typed slowly away at the computer before handing over a clipboard, form and pen before saying, "Fill this out please and don't miss any details out", Izzy then nodded before giving a nervous smile and making her way over to the waiting area then sat upon one of the royal blue, tweed seats.

The room was quiet and only had her and the woman behind the desk within the room, Izzy's knee bounced nervously; making the words on the form mix and look all jambled; that and Izzy's dyslexia made the words impossible to read. She took a deep breath and glanced at the clock that hung slightly tilted upon the wall; Izzy couldn't stop the smile that spread out onto her lips as she thought about how mad Rae would go at the clock being crooked. Izzy's smile dropped as she caught glance of the receptionist who gave Izzy a weird look before Izzy then dropped her gaze onto the clip board; but couldn't help but suck in a breath and nervously exhale as the sound of the clock grew louder.

Tick... Tick... Tick...

And Izzy's ears twitched as she picked up the sounds of the receptionist's ballpoint pen tapping against a notepad.

Tap... Tap... Tap...

Izzy's knee bounced more with nerves as the sounds grew louder, the more she grew intune with them.

Tap... Tick... Tap... Tick...

Was she doing the right thing?

Tap... Tick... TAP... TICK...

Maybe she could keep it... Put it up for adoption. It didn't always have to be this way, her chest was growing tighter and tighter; she could feel her emotions welling to boiling point.

TAP... TICK... TAP... TI-

"Isabelle Jones?" Called out a nurse, but was greeted by the sound of the entrance doors slamming shut.

Izzy ran, ran until her feet ached, her skull felt as if it was caving in on her brain and to the point of where she thought her ribs were going to crush her heart. She came to a halt outside of the psychiatric hospital, where a very confused looking Rae was walking down the steps of the entrance, "Wha' y' doin' 'ere? Thought we weren't meeting till half four?" Izzy exhaled, shaking her head; years of school cross country running came in handy sometimes as she wasn't as worn out as she thought she was, "I couldn't do it, Rae. I couldn't I..." Rae's eyes widened as she paused before walking down the last step, "Whaddya mean?" Izzy, breath now caught, sighed, "I couldn't... I couldn't go through with it, alright? I just... I was there and I was filling out this form and there was a clock and these magazines and I-" "Izzy!" Rae snapped, pulling Izzy out of her rant, "Right, take a deep breath, yeh?" Izzy nodded as Rae placed a hand on either of Izzy's shoulders before the pair took a deep breath in for five and then exhaled for five.

"Right, now slowly tell me wha' 'appened?" Rae spoke before dropping her hands to her sides, "I couldn't do it, Rae. I couldn't go through with it", Izzy then huffed, in which Rae frowned before then widening her eyes, "Y' wha'?! Well, then wha' y' gonna do? Cause y' obviously can't keep it", Izzy looked down at the floor before looking around and fidgeting, "I'm gonna 'ave t', Rae", Izzy then looked up, speaking more confidently as if confirming the words with herself, "I'm gonna keep it, I'm gonna keep the baby", Which caused Rae's mouth to drop into an 'O' In a silent shock.

Sometimes Finn was better handling situations like this than Rae, with Finn you didn't get dramatics or shouting; you just got a huff of anger and then a storming off.

"Hi, mum", Finn breathed as he took place on the grass, sitting before his mother's headstone. He noted the fresh flowers that laid in the little flower pot, he pointed slightly; as if pointing them out to her, "See nan's been, was with her before as I dropped Jamie off and thought I'd come see y' on me way 'ome", He gave an awkward laugh before picking at some grass and looking around as he was unable to find anything to speak about, and he weren't one for conversation at the best of times.

As he picked at some grass and looked down, he then nervously stuttered, "I-I told Rae tha' I liked 'er, mum. Last night, y' remember Rae, don't y'?" He paused before sighing, "Course y' do, could never keep us apart when we were kids. But yeh, told 'er I fancied 'er. I stayed over and yeh, but I know I shouldn't of cause of Al but..." He took a moment, thinking about his following sentence and how to place it carefully, "Does it make me a bad person, mum? I just... I just dunno wha' t' do", He shamefully admitted with an exhale of defeat before whimpering, "I really miss y', y'know, mum. It's just, it's proper 'ard. Dad isn't copin', I mean I'm alright but some days-" He stopped himself, his eyes flickering as he could feel the tears brimming his eyes as he looked to his left and exhaled shakily. He swallowed his tears before he asked, his words wavering as the sadness poured out through his sentence, "Just gimme a sign, mum. Gimme a sign of wha' t' do, cause I 'aven't got a fuckin' clue an I-" "Finn?" Spoke a voice, cutting him off.

Finn glanced up to see Chloe, he cleared his voice before asking, "Chloe? Wha' y' doin' 'ere?" "Just came down to see me granddad and nana on me way home", She said, pointing her index finger over her shoulder before sighing and picking at her nails; growing insecure and awkward as a tension fell between the two. "'Ow 'ave y'-" "Wha 'ave y'-" The pair both spoke before stopping and then telling the other to go first before Chloe gave in and asked, "I was just gonna ask, 'ow've y' been?" He shrugged, scratching the back of his ear as he looked around, "Been alright, y'know. You?" She nodded, looking down and around, "Yeh, same".

Another silence fell between the two and they both felt it, it may not have even been a week but they felt it; the sadness as it kicked away at their chest. Finn could feel that familiar pang of guilt as Rae entered his mind, last night's occurings burnt into his brain; he was such a dick. He drank Chloe in and could only feel pure love for her, it wasn't Rae he loved; but it was Chloe. He really fucking loved her and if he wasn't such a stubborn dick then he'd give in, say he was sorry and take her back to his place where he'd fuck her brains out and then cuddle her; apologise so much he'd think his tongue would fall out.

As if Chloe had read his mind, she threw her hands up and shook her head, "Look, Finn, this is really fuckin' stupid. Why don't we go back t' your's and 'ave a talk?" He then looked at his mother's headstone, smiling as if this was her sign for him. He then looked at Chloe and nodded, before rising to his feet and wiping away excess grass from his jeans before he and Chloe began to walk; in which Finn mouthed "Thank you" Over his and Chloe's shoulder to his mum's gravestone.

"Seriously, 'ow the fuck does Finn trust y' but not me with a key?" Rae huffed as her and Izzy flopped themselves onto Finn's couch, the flat empty bar them two as Finn had yet to come home. Izzy then frowned, "Wha' y' tryin' t' say?" "Well, I'm not the one who's up the duff", In which Izzy gasped and playfully whacked Rae with a couch pillow in which the two shared a giggle as Izzy then shouted, "Cheeky bitch", Their laughter quietened as Izzy flicked through the channels on the TV and Rae looked around before asking, "Wonder where Finn is", In which her questioned was answered as the front door opened and closed before the sound of feet and giggles... Rae's smile faltered as she recognised the giggle.

And she was correct, as Chloe and Finn stumbled in, his arms around her waist and his lips attacking her neck, Chloe's giggles came to an abrupt halt and Finn's grin dropped as soon as the pair noticed the two figures upon the couch, "Oh, iya", Chloe spoke, adjusting herself as Finn pulled away. Rae swallowed the sudden pain in her chest as Finn's infamous frown appeared upon his face, he then cocked an eyebrow, "Wha' y' two doin' 'ere?" Izzy went to speak when Rae butted in, "Nowt, just came t' keep Iz company till y' came back and now tha' y' 'ave, I'm off", She then rose to her feet before mumbling, "Gotta 'elp my mum out", She then quickly scarpered in which Chloe frowned and called out, "Rae?" Finn then piped up, "I'll go see 'er", Before Chloe could protest, Finn then quickly ran out after Rae. Chloe then sulked, folding her arms and pushing her tonuge against her bottom lip.

"Rae! For fuck's sake, Rae, will y' just wait a minute!" Finn huffed as he ran outside, Rae was already halfway across the road before she paused and turned to Finn; who was now on the curb, chest rising and falling as he caught his breath - he really needed to cut back on the rollies. "Wha' Finn?" Her tone was full of tiredness and defeat, a tone Finn had never heard Rae use before. He then exhaled before scuffing his feet, unable to find the right words, "Look I'm... I'm sorry for, for leadin' y' on and tha'. Last night, it shouldn't 'ave 'appened and I know it was wrong, and I was a dick for doin' it an-" "So, wha' all tha' 'I fancy ya' Talk were just "Leading me on as well"?" He then shook his head, "No, tha' was the truth. I do fancy y', Rae, always 'ave done but I don't love y', well not in the way I love Chloe", Rae shook her head, pushing her tonuge against her bottom lip, "Y'know wha' I can't be arsed with this anymore", She spat. He frowned, taken aback, "S'tha' supposed t' mean?" And it just came out, like spew;

"It means I am so fuckin' sick t' death of y' usin' me all the fuckin' time, Finn. I can't do it, anymore. I am just sick of lookin' after y', always there for y' when y' and Chloe fight, pickin' up the pieces and then always gettin' fuckin' dropped when y' get back together. Well, I'm done with it, Finn", She huffed, in which he then glowered before seething, "Y' think y've got it so fuckin' hard, don't y?" "An' wha' tha's supposed t' mean?" She spat, folding her arms. He then shook his head, mumbling, "Nowt, don't matter", In which she pressed, "No, go on, y've said it now", He sighed before the anger took over and all he could see is red;

"It's just, y' make out as if y' wipe me arse every five fuckin' minutes when y' forget it were me tha' found y' tha' night, me tha' came t' see y' every fuckin' day when you were down the hospital, me tha' warned y' about Archie tha' time, me tha' y' go t' every time y' and Al 'ave an argument, me tha' twatted that knob'ed by the shops for callin' y' all sorts and me tha' takes all the shit from y'. Y'know wha' I'm also sick of? Everyone thinkin' I'm so fuckin' thick and I 'ave it easy, when the fact is me mum's dead, me dad left to practically fuckin' fend for myself, leavin' me with next t' nothing, I can't see me little brother anymore and I found my best friend pouring with blood one night as she tried to kill 'erself. So, don't ever fuckin' sit there and tell me tha' y've got it 'ard, Rae, when y' 'ave no idea. All y' moan about is y' weight and 'ow everyone fuckin' judges y', well y'know wha'? If y' don't like it then do summat about it!" Her breath caught in the back of her throat and tears sprang to her eyes at his last words, his face fell before he then stuttered, "R-Rae, I didn't mean it like tha I-" She cut him off with a head shake, "No, y' did and it's ok but y'know wha', Finn? Maybe I was wrong, maybe y' and Chloe are perfect for each other after all", And with that, she turned and scurried off.

"Rae!" He called once more before growling with anger and then tilting his head back, closing his eyes before a clap of thunder was heard. He reopened his eyes and shouted to above, "Wha'?! Wha' d'ya want me t' do!? Y' gave me a sign and I went with it, I made up with Chloe. Wha' else d'ya want me t' do!?" Another clap of thunder was heard before a massive down pour of rain soaked Finn, he then sighed and roared, "Yeh, ta for tha', mum! Real fuckin' 'elp!" He shook his head before turning and jogging back down the garden path, he then took his key out and made his way back inside the block of flats, unable to stop the feeling of self hate wriggling it's way into his stomach.