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Forbidden Love
Chapter 14
Ashlynne looked nervously around the room of the Blooming Rose. She had received a note from Isabela early that day demanding that she meet her in this room tonight to discuss something important. A quick knock sounded on the door and Ashlynne went to open it.
"Finally, there you are!" Fully expecting to see Isabela standing before her, she was surprised that she found instead a simply dressed hooded man standing before her. She saw a pair of familiar blue eyes widen as the man moved into the room past her. Feeling her heart do a little flip in her chest, Ashlynne quickly closed the door and turned to face the man.
Cullen had pulled down his hood and was smiling at her.
"Surprised?" He questioned, holding out his arms for her. She quickly went into his arms, hoping that she hadn't nodded off waiting for Isabela and was dreaming.
"Very. I thought I was waiting for Isabela."
"Varric sent you the note. I received a very short message from him this morning saying where and when. I must say that I was surprised because you hadn't set anything up for a while." Cullen explained, pulling her close to him.
"I didn't set this up, nor did I speak to Varric about anything. I bet it was my mother. She must have talked to Varric." Cullen pulled her away from him enough to look down at her. He wore a concerned expression.
"Your mother knows about us too now?"
"Yes, she figured it out the night of her dinner party. I tried to play it cool, but then..." Ashlynne stopped talking and leaned her forehead aganist Cullen's chest.
"But what, darling?" Cullen gently lifted her chin so her eyes would meet his. He was surprised to find tears at the corners of her eyes. "Oh, Ash, what is it?" Ashlynne shook her head, feeling foolish that her emotions were getting the better of her again.
"I was feeling sad after seeing you that night and I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I ended up telling her the whole story. I am sorry, Cullen. I didn't mean for her to find out."
"Darling, why were you feeling sad?"
"Because we hadn't talked or seen each other in so long and I have been thinking more lately on how much we could have a normal life with children. I know what I said a few months ago about not wanting to have children, but now, I don't know if we will ever get our chance. I know that if we have any children right now, it would not be fair to you in the least because you wouldn't be there in their lives like you would want to be, but I just..." Cullen put a finger to her lips to silence her.
"I understand your feelings completely, Ash. I want nothing more than to have a family with you." Ashlynne looked up at him in surprise.
"But?" Ashlynne prompted when he didn't continue.
"No buts, I just don't know how we are going to accomplish this shared dream of ours." Cullen sighed. "You are now becoming more well known throughout the city and I still hold a very high position within the Templar Order. I mean, if you think about it, I could not only be stripped of my rank for being married to you, I could be put to death because I have turned my back on the Templars by letting myself be tamed by a mage. Adding children to the mix would be a very dangerous thing to do."
"I know all of this and as much as I want a normal life with you, I also know that it can never become a reality. I think that is what make me sad more than anything. I mean, I want children, very badly, but I don't any child we wold have to suffer the consequences of our lives just because they exist." Ashlynne sighed and went to sit on the edge of the bed. Cullen watched her as she sighed again and then smiled at him. "I didn't come here expecting to see you tonight, but now that we are here together, I do not want to spend our whole night talking. We not be able to have children right now or ever, but that doesn't mean we can't practice." She patted the bed beside in invitation and Cullen didn't waste another second in joining her.
I know that this is short, but I am thinking about where I want to go next. I need your help, readers, your opinion if you please. I know in other Dragon Age fanfiction on this site have a mage Hawke pregnant and I am thinking about doing in this one, but what I want your opinion on is how early do you think she would know because she is a mage. Please leave your comments and opinions in the review section or just message me. Thanks!