-Nothing But A Dream-
I don't really know what happened between me and Sesshoumaru. It has been more than a month since I got here from the hospital and he hasn't been here.
I don't think I have a partner anymore. I guess it's my fault. I shouldn't have hid from him that day he picked me up. But when I saw him I felt like something had change.
I felt the so many emotions. I felt like nothing else matter. Like everything was going to be fine. He was here, sure he was late but he was here with me.
"Let's go Kagome!" I look up to see Inuyasha walking towards me. Ever since the hospital Inuyasha and I have been inseparable. Where ever I am, he is bound to be there.
I get up and walk with him. We have therapy again. Everyone is there with their partners but me. I sit alone. This whole month I have.
Everyone's talking when I get up but nobody seems to notice. Not even the therapist. I walk to the door and look back. I'm not important anymore. I don't matter.
Can't people tell that I'm going backwards? That I'm not improving at all since he left? That I barely talk? That I'm depressed again?
I don't know how long it will take for me to start cutting again, even if I don't want to I can sort of see it coming.
The fact that Sesshoumaru hasn't been here answers all of my questions. I'm all alone. It has been months since I last saw my mother, my family. I don't even remember their faces anymore.
With each day that passes. The outline In the mirror becomes clearer. With every day I can see his eyes more clearly. In a matter of days I'm sure that he's going to be back. But I'm not sure I want him back anymore.
I walk into the bathroom and sit against the wall. I don't even know what I did wrong. He was the one that left me. He was the one that was supposed to help me. He was the one that made fall in love with him.
I sit on the floor and close my eyes and listen to the silence. Nobody is here. Everyone is at the therapy room practically on the other side of the hospital. I listen to the water drip from the sink and showers.
"Good morning miss" I look up to see the janitor at the door looking down at me, with that strange look in his eyes. "What brings you here?" he said walking slowly into the bathroom.
A soon as he took the first step I was up and ready to leave. I didn't answer him. I had to get out of there, that man freaked me out.
"Hello, my dear." He said to me, giving me a smile. "Are you felling ok?" he said after he notice I wasn't talking to him.
"Yeah" I whispered walking towards the door with my hair hiding most of my face trying to block him from seeing me. But he stood in front of me blocking my exit.
"I don't know how to say this with out sounding like a 'mental Patient' but" He said as he walked closer to me, each step perfect and sinister. "You are pretty" he said as he stood less than a foot away from me.
His hand stretched out until he touched my cheek. As soon as I felt his long cold fingers on my skin I pushed him away. He turned around to face me with a wicked smile forming across his face.
His smile seemed so devious and creepy like his eyes. I never felt so terrified in my life. My heart pounded in my chest, my chest heaved up and down heavily, and my eyes were full of fear. Everything about this man scared me.
I started walking back to the door. I was practically running by now. When he got hold on my wrist. Making my bones crush together. I struggled one more time to free myself from his fingers...but his hold on my wrist tightened until I heard something snap making me scream in pain. But as soon as my screamed escaped my lips his cold hand blocked it. With out knowing what to do I bit down on his hand.
The man growled and back handed me, I hit floor hard, my head hitting the ground then reverberating and hitting it again. My site dimmed and when it came back, after a second or two, I saw the man in front of me, He walked closer to me.
My breathing got louder and my chest heaved up and down with every step he took. My chest all of a sudden became tight and heavy. For some reason I had a hard time breathing. I couldn't breathe at all. That's when I panicked even more which caused me to have more trouble with my breathing.
"Relax dear, you're hyperventilating, just relax" He touched my shoulder "Breathe and calm down." sitting down on the ground beside me.
"See there's no reason to be rude" he said as he began stroking my hair. ""Your hair…it's so long and shiny. How do you get it like that?" he asked lifting a strand up to his nose and sniffing it. "And your eyes! You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen"
He let my hair fall and moved on to my face. I felt so light headed; I didn't even bother to slap his hand away. My eyes felt heavy.
He started rubbing my cheek. "Your skin is so flawless and soft" he said as he moves his fingers to my lips. "I wonder" he said moving his face closer to mine. He leaned down and kissed me on the lips, holding onto my face with one strong hand.
"Just as I though!" he said rubbing my cheek again "delicious and soft" I try to push my self up again but he wouldn't let me. He slammed my head against the tile floor.
"Why?" I asked as my eyes filed with tears. My head was killing me.
"Because I love you, that's why!" he was so happy it frighten me. He kissed my lips again this time with more force and demanding more. His hand slowly making its way to my breast before his stops and pulls his hand out of my shirt.
"Darling" he said rubbing my cheek "you must tell no one about this and tomorrow you'll be in for a surprise" he said touching my hair.
"Besides no one in this place will believe you" he lowered his lips to my neck "because this is nothing but a" he kisses my lips before putting a cloth on top of my mouth and nose "dream" everything goes dark.
"Is she ok?" I hear someone speaking but she sounds far away.
"I think she's waking up!" I know this voice is Inuyasha. What's going on? I snap my eyes open to see everyone from therapy around me.
"What's going on?" I ask after I find my voice. Someone is picking me up. I look up to see Inuyashas' worried face.
"Take her to her room Inuyasha" Kaeda said as she walks towards her office.
"You fell down the stairs" he said walking into my room and laying me on the bed. "You always forget when you get hurt" he said smiling at me. But I couldn't smile back.
My dream seemed so realistic. Not to mention my wrist hurts and my head is killing me.
"Besides no one in this place will believe you because this is nothing but a dream"