I'm Scared and Missing You

BPOV

I slowly fell asleep in the dark van which was taking me to an unknown location. When I woke I was tied to a bed, my clothes on the floor around the bed, I was naked and bleeding. I pulled against my restraints but the only thing it did was make the rope cut into my skin and make me bleed more. I cried out in pain and let my arms fall. I was in pain and I was terrified out of my mind. Whoever brought me here had obviously tied me down and raped me while I was sleeping. Whoever brought me here was someone who is like Charlie or someone who knows Charlie. I heard a door open and two pairs of feet make their way towards me. I turned my head and saw the two people who I haven't seen in over ten years. James and Laurent. Charlie's two best friends from the force. They were dismissed when they were charged with rape and murder of twenty girls each. James was also charged with rape and murder of ten men. I know right that's so gross. James started laughing when he saw me spread eagle on the bed with blood running down my wrists. "Look Laurent, wittle Belluh is hurted. We may have to kiss her better" James said in a kiddie voice which made me want to vomit. He put a lot of emphases on the words 'kiss her' which made me want to scream, but I knew if I scream he will rape me, again. So I kept my mouth shut.

They both launched at me, Laurent had my face and neck, but James had my torso and legs. Laurent made his way to my ear when James was preoccupied with my inner thighs, "I'm so sorry Bella, I didn't have a choice, but I'll call someone, the police, anyone, I'm sorry" he whispered in my ear and so I murmured two words, "Edward Cullen" and Laurent nodded against my neck, telling me he had heard me.

After ten minutes of pure torture James had moved his face away from my inner thighs and asked me "are you feeling better baby?" I nodded in disgust. I knew only too well that if I had said no I would be in more trouble than I'm already in. James laughed at me and pulled Laurent out of the room. I sighed and started thinking about how different my life would be if I hadn't have changed myself, did drugs, was about to have sex with a stranger and if I had stayed home and listened to Edward, I mean after everything I had told him – which wasn't even half of what has happened to me – why would he do what he did? I was feeling like such an idiot, correction, I am an idiot. The tears fell down my cheeks and I knew what I needed to make me happy, but I was tied up and I couldn't get to what makes me high; coke, booze and Edward. My nose itched, longing for the sweet sensation of the coke flying up my nose and running into my bloodstream, my head was pounding and my arms were longing for the touch of Edwards' arms.

CPOV

"I'm serious man, she's in our loft right now" James told me in the visitor room. Jail sucked balls, big time, I mean the only thing we can do is wallow and try to escape, with trying to kill others on the side. I've tried to kill someone once but I was put in the hotbox till the end of the day. I never tried that shit again.

Another thing that sucks about jail is that there's no booze around, so I'm dying here right now because I can't drink, can't get drugged up, cant hurt or fuck my little slut of a daughter and I can't smoke at all. I mean fuck this shit, I used to put these people in here but now I'm here. My life became fully fucked up once Renee left me, and I took my hatred out on Isabella, the girl who don't exist. "Let me see my slut" I said harshly. James pulled out his phone and showed me pictures of my little fuck monkey, spread wide on a bed, rope holding her there. I noticed that there was no bump in her stomach, her hair was shorter, she had paler skin, darker bags under her eyes, she was wearing a shitload of makeup and she was asleep. Also I noticed that she was naked and she had dark bruises on her hips but nowhere else on her body. "What the fuck did you do you Fuckhead?!?! Only I can do that to her Dickwank!!! I thought we had a fucking agreement, you take her then call up the shit-ass Cullens and tell them to tell the cops to let me go so I can fuck her again!!!!!!!! Not you take her THEN RAPE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHILE SHES ASLEEP!!!!!! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed at James. I looked over at Laurent and he looked disgusted at James' actions as well so I didn't blow up in his face. WAIT!! STOP THE CLOCK! When did I care what happened to her, was I starting to love her? NO I can't love that slut, she doesn't deserve love. Just as I was about to grab at James' throat to kill him I was taken away by guards and put back in my cell. Hoping that these years pass by quick.

EPOV

Fuck I screwed up big time. I shouldn't have done those stupid tutoring lessons, because if I hadn't I could still have Bella. I sat up as I reached over to find my stereo remote. My room was a mess, Esme had to bring my food up to me so I could eat, I refuse to walk out of this room. Because leaving this room means I have to act happy for everyone and I really don't want to pretend to be something I'm not. I find my remote and press play. Loud heavy metal music starts blaring from my speakers and I lean back onto my pillow and feel the silent tears fall down my face onto my pillows. My life without Bella really can't be called a life. I ceased to exist when Bella stormed out of my life, with fire blazing in her eyes.

I heard my door slam open and I sat up wiping the tears from my eyes. When my vision unblured itself I saw that it wasn't Emmett trying to get me out of my room, it was that Tracy girl, Bella's friend. She looked shocked and upset as well as guilty. "What's wrong?" I croaked out.

She then ushered the two words that made my heart drop and burn, the words that I never would want to hear, "Bella's gone." Fuck.

sorry about how long this chapter took, but i've gotten that many asignments lately and i've been feeling sick as well as having to go to a funeral and having school.
i didnt know what else to write and so i just ended it like this. i am suffering from major writers block rite now and its terrible. if you have any ideas dont even think 'it wont work' cuz it probably will in this story where of course everything that you never expected to happen, will happen i guess.

so please read then review cuz i need to know what you think
later
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