For most of Dean's life, the important things were, in order, Sam, Bobby, the job, his car, and pie. Nothing else really mattered. He didn't really care about other people. For a time, he tried to replace the job with Lisa, but… that was never really going work. Anything else that he cared about were after Sam, Bobby, the job, his car, and pie. That was that, and he thought that that would never change. When he met Cas, he really couldn't care less about him. He was way behind anything that actually mattered to him. When he rebelled, he started moving up on his list.
It took a while, but eventually, Cas was right there behind pie. And one day, not too far after that, Dean realized that Cas meant more to him then pie. He was officially on his five list. Pie was off his list.
And it took a while, it really did. It probably took less time then he thought, and he was just in denial. It was a big shock to him when he finally realized it. As much as he loved his car, Cas actually meant more to him. Dean wasn't really sure what he really meant by 'meant more to him'. It was just a feeling that he had. He couldn't even describe the feeling.
The biggest deal though, he thought, was when Cas moved up again. When he cared about Cas more then he cared about the job. More than he cared about the life. He would live a normal life for Cas. He would leave the life for Cas. He would literally give up most of what he remembered, all for Castiel. For someone that he didn't know since he was a child.
He would live a normal life with Cas.
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"Sammy." Dean asked one day, sitting at a bar, after a long day of hunting.
"Mm?"
"What was it like with Jess? What did it feel like?" Sam looked up at him, "What do you mean?"
"I mean, a while back, I had a list pretty much, you see, a list of the things I care about. And, it was you, Bobby, the job, my car, and pie." Sam rolled his eyes at the last one, but motioned for Dean to continue.
"Then…" Dean sighed, "Never mind."
"No, go on." Sam had this little smile that told Dean that Sam already knew what this was about.
"And, I… Well, I realized that… that Cas was on that list. So it was you, Bobby, the job, Baby, and… and Cas. And then he meant more to me then the Impala. And… now he means more to me than the job. I would set up a normal life for Cas." Dean was on a role now, and he wasn't about to stop. "I would set up a normal life with Cas." Sam smiled. "I know. You should tell him."
"What?"
"You should tell Cas. He loves you too."
And he did.
A/N: I feel like I owe you guys an explanation. So last night was a bit stressful, but I hope to get the other one that I forgot about last week after school. If I don't update stuff, just know that it's because I am SO stressed from school. So... please forgive me! I guess... If you don't like this, you can just stop reading. Anywho! Please like and comment! Thanks!