WHY ME WHY US

(Bella's POV)

I felt bad for leaving them the way I did but if it meant saving them from the fate I was about to receive then it would be worth it. If our friends and family had any idea about what was happening right to us they would ask me if I regretted my decision to move to forks. If they would have asked me that back in January I would have said yes but here it is march and my answer is no. I don't regret it, I wouldn't change it because even though I'm about to die I can say that I've been loved, that I've had friends and family who would die for me like I'm doing for them. So my answer would be no.

I contemplated that in all of 2 seconds as I stood in front of the ballet studio willing myself to enter the building. Finally I did, I walked in with my head held high tears threatening to spill at a moment's notice.

As I made my way up the stairs and into the studio, I realized my palms were sweaty I wiped them on my jeans but it didn't help much. As soon as I stepped into the studio I heard it my mother calling my name frantic but I knew it wasn't her but I had come here knowing she wasn't here, admittedly I believed she was but in the taxi I realized she wasn't. I could have turned around but knew that James wouldn't stop until he got me. So I continued my slow walk into the middle of the room I stopped their and waited.

I didn't have to wait for long after about half a minute I heard him, "Well it looks like your braver then I anticipated human. That doesn't make this very fun." He landed in front after jumping from the rafters; he had a video camera in his hand that I recognized as being the one from our house here in phoenix.

"If you're going to kill me kill me just leave my family out of this!" I said and despite how brave I felt my voice betrayed me when my voice shook.

"Oh, Isabella I'm not going to kill you, yet. I am going to drag this out I am going to make you beg on camera for Edward to avenge you to save you, and then, I'm going to kill you." And with that he use is index finger nail and with a swift movement didn't see he sliced into my cheek.

I screamed so loud that black spots appeared in my vision, "Oh, Isabella you are a much better participant then that pixie you have with you." He said with and evil grin

"How do you know Alice?" I grunted out the gash on my cheek making it painful to speak.

"Oh, they didn't tell you?" He asked as he snapped my arm with his hand by squeezing it. I screamed the black spots reappeared, "Oh, it's a very beautiful story; you see Alice as you call her was in an asylum. I heard about a girl who was speaking of seeing people die before it happens or of damaging storms before they came or even crimes before they are committed. You see this intrigued me so I set out to find her this girl they spoke of. But when I arrived at the house she had been living in it had been vacated," I hissed as he slid his finger down the cut on my face but he continued, "They had moved for fear of being shunned because of what their daughter could do. You see back then this sort of gift was feared people considered it witchcraft. But not me, I knew better. I knew that if changed she would be a very gifted vampire so I continued to search. When I found the asylum where she had been committed I found again that she was not there."

"Why me now though, what am I to you other than a toy?" I was no longer holding back the tears they were flowing freely.

"Because by sweet Isabella you are not just a toy to me you are special. Now back to my story but first I'll have to punish you for interrupting," He then smashed my foot with his fist and once again I screamed then he continued, "You see Isabella when I want something I always get it, but your Alice was being protected by one of my kind. From the asylum I tracked the doctor and Alice to a shack in the woods but I had arrived too late he sensed me coming and bit her so I killed him and left her alone to change. I had wanted to change her so she would feel a sense of obligation to me as her maker. But you see now I have a new special human that I can make me, now beg Edward to save you beg him to avenge you!" he was yelling by now

It took all I could to continue to defy what he was asking of me, "I will not, Edward don't, don't do it, don't listen to him." I yelled weather to the camera or the heavens I didn't care as long as in the end he would know not to avenge me and get himself killed.

Because if my act of defiance he broke another limb this time my leg by stepping on it. I heard three things at one the first two my leg snapping in two and my scream in response, the third which I was sure I had imagined was the smashing of a window.

As soon as I thought I had imagined it glass came raining down all around me, then suddenly something slammed directly into James sending him and who/whatever it was across the room tearing up floorboards with them. Then suddenly Edward was in front of me pain evident on his face.

"Bella, love I'm going to get you out of here." He swiftly but gently lifted me into his arms then jumped up to the window sill but just before he reached it he was pulled back down and I was thrown across the room and into the mirrors that lined the wall.

The mirrors shattered as I hit them and two more areas of my body endured debilitating pain. I raised my uninjured to the back of my head only to cause a searing my pain. I looked down to see a three inch piece of glass sticking out of my leg without thinking I reached down and pulled it out. I hadn't noticed when James had thrown Edward across the room because the next thing I knew he was standing over me my wrist in his mouth and before Edward could get to him and pull him away he bit down and instantly a pain like I had never felt before started to slowly spread in my arm.

After that I caught glimpses of what happened. I was in and out whenever I was aware something new was happening, I could hear myself screaming and saying I was in pain that something was burning. As I became aware I saw Alice kneeling in front of me trying to stop my leg from bleeding then I went out again. The next time I opened my eyes I could see Carlisle take something from Alice and send her to help somebody. The next and last thing I remember was Carlisle tell them to burn somebody and convincing Edward to find the will to save me and Edward bringing his mouth to my wrist where James had bit me. I blacked out then but I heard Edward tell me he would take the pain away and then nothing. It was all dark I didn't even dream.

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(Jen's POV)

They found her and they saved her mind you she was in terrible shape but she was alive that's what mattered. I was currently on a cot in her hospital room lying next to Embry who was asleep but I didn't want to take my eyes off of her for a second. Edward was at her bedside holding her hand.

There was a knock at the door we both knew who it was (it was my mom Edward had just informed me she had arrived) but since it was the middle of the night we needed to pretend to sleep. I held back a laugh as he moved at vampire speed to the chair next to the cot and proceeded to pretend to sleep. We both closed our eyes when the door opened and Renee walked in and sat on the edge of Bella's bed.

I tried not to listen but I wanted to hear color me curious.

I opened my eyes just a bit the room was dark enough that I knew Renee wouldn't see they were open.

I watched as she brush Bella's hair back and behind her ear and as she leaned towards her and said, "Bella I know you probably can't hear me but I need to tell you something I should have a long time ago, it's something I didn't think I would have to tell you because Jen seemed to already know so I figured so did you," She paused when her voice cracked and wiped a tear from her cheek. I never saw my mom cry this was a first I turned my attention back as she continued to speak. "Bella you are nothing like me, you and Jen have been older than your age since you were 5 years old. It should go without saying that I loved that about the two of you. The two of you are special I knew from the minute I held you in my arms. Bella I know you love Edward and I can see he loves you from what your sister and father tell me that boy is crazy about you. I know you have always acted on your mind and when you acted on your heart it scared you. But you shouldn't be afraid my baby bee, (I smiled at her old nickname for Bella) Bella just because things didn't work out with you father doesn't mean it won't work for you and Edward. Bella you are not me and you wouldn't have gotten involved with him if you thought it wouldn't work, just choosing him shows that you know it will. Don't be afraid to follow your heart Bella." She finished talking kissed her forehead then came to kiss mine. I quickly shut my eyes as she crossed the room to me. She kissed my forehead and as she pulled away she whispered, "I know you're awake you could never fool me but just know the same goes to you. I'm going to call Phil and let him know everything is okay and that I landed safe." With that she left Edward and I opened our eyes as the door shut behind her.

I looked at him, "You're going to try and leave her aren't you?" it was more of a statement then a question but he answered anyways.

"I don't know yet, I want Bella to live as human and the only way I can do that is if I'm not in her life." He lowered his hands to his lap

"Edward I'm sorry but we both know that that is a crock of shit. You know damn well she can't live without you!"

He only nodded he knew what I said was the truth but he hoped it wasn't.