Chapter 14 - Telling Mickie The Truth.
John still stood in front of me with a worried expression on his face that didn't look like it was going anywhere soon "John please hold me" I lay on the bed while John laid behind me wrapping his arms around me, I put my head in the crook of his arm and just continued to cry, he soothed me by giving me comforting words in my ear and rocking me back and forth I started to calm down, and drift to sleep, when there was a knock on the door, my body froze again as I sat up, when I heard the one voice I didn't want to hear shout from the other side of the room,
"John it's Randy open up, I need to talk to you" I looked at John and another tear escaped my eyes
"I don't want him to know I'm here what am I going to do?" he looked around before his eye's set on the wardrobe
"get in there"
"what? Why can't I go into the bathroom?!"
"because he might want to go in there. Do you want him to see you?" I made my way over to the wardrobe and climbed in and saw John closing the door on me, it went dark but I heard John open the door to Randy "what's up RKO?"
"a lot of stuff, I fucked up big time with Vicki" I felt my heart rate get a little fast
"what happened? I thought you were getting close?"
"we were then I had to go and fuck it up like a complete idiot" I heard them walking around the room, I took my chance and opened the door a little I looked out to see Randy facing the other way, John looked up and me then quickly looked at Randy again
"what did you do Randy?! Just tell me"
"I called her tease and that I should never have gotten involved with her in the first place" I saw him look down and put his face in his hands and groan, I felt a tear escape my eye's again. "I didn't mean to, it just came out I was angry and you know what I'm like when I get angry John, I say things I don't mean but I think I really hurt her feelings really bad"
"yeah but why did you do that?"
"we were fooling around then she just froze, got up and wouldn't let me come near her she kept saying she was sorry and that she couldn't do it. I asked her if it was me and she said it was her it's always been her, she freaked out and froze, I just got mad that she kept saying sorry, I should have asked her what was wrong, not been horrible to her" I put my hand over my mouth to stop myself from letting out a little cry.
-I really am a fuck up, great career, maybe could have got myself a good boyfriend at last, I could of gotten over everything but no, l I had to go and ruin it. Well done me, I shall give myself a round of applause when I get out here-
I watched as Randy stood up and asked John if he could use the bathroom, before Randy could even close the door he sprinted over to me and opened the door "what the hell is going on!?"
"what are you talking about your finding out all the details now, I have to go before he comes out" I got up to leave put we heard the toilet flush and John push me back into the wardrobe, he didn't close it probably this time so I had so sit right back.
"John what am I going to do? She probably wont listen to me anymore, I think she hates me" John looked up and saw the wardrobe door open, and saw me, I mouth to John and pointed at Randy 'I don't hate him'
"she doesn't hate you Randy"
"how do you know?" he looked up at me and saw that I was wiping my eye's again,
"I just got a feeling, have you looked for her yet?" Randy just shook his head
"I went to her room but Mickie said she hadn't been back I went back down to the bar, looked in with Candice I got nothing" I mouthed to John again 'Get rid of him'
"how about I go and look for her, I'll give her a call and everything, she'll probably talk me, she's not made at me" Randy stood up and hugged his best friend
"thanks man if you hear anything let me know please" Randy left and I finally let out the sob that I was holding in, I climbed out of the wardrobe and fell to the floor, I felt like such an idiot, I always did this, mixing myself up and let my emotions run wild, the only ones who could calm me was my mum or Fozz and neither was here, I just breathed like I usually did, I felt John sit on the floor next to me, he reached up and grabbed me some tissues, I wiped my eyes and looked at John he put his arm around and gave me a hug
"you going to tell me what happened?"
"you already heard what happened, why do you need to hear it from me?"
"Because he didn't fill me in on the bit where you went Jack Frost on him and froze, you saw him he was worried what happened?"
"nothing I just guess I didn't feel the way I thought I did about Randy"
"yeah whatever, I saw you when he was saying he was sorry and that he didn't mean to hurt you, you couldn't contain yourself you had to get me to get rid of him before you started sobbing again, you got to tell me what's wrong why did you freeze, what happened?" I looked up at John I knew I could tell him but something was stopping me, I took a deep breath in a looked at him again-
"I just can't I feel like if I tell anyone it has to be Randy, I don't know why, he doesn't deserve it, but I will tell you something John, I was a bad kid I've done things and seen things you shouldn't when your just a teenager like I was. I was 14 when I started and 17 when I pulled myself together. I was a terrible person and I still am, I must have really hurt Randy when I pushed him away. I didn't mean to, maybe one day I'll tell you John but right now I can't" he pulled me in closer and hugged me tighter
"it's okay I know when your ready you'll tell me but you have to know this about Randy he is really sorry about what he said I could tell, but you have to remember you got to work with him there isn't any way around it, you going to have to talk to him sooner or later" I looked at him and it suddenly dawned on me that I did have to work with him it was going to be like me and Christopher all over again, I prayed it would be. "Do you want to stay here tonight? Or go talk to Randy?"
"I'd like to stay here tonight, can you just call Randy tell him you saw me and that I'm okay and that I'll see him at Raw tomorrow please"
"of course baby girl, there are some spare shirts in my bag take you pick go and get changed and get into bed. I'll go and see Randy while your doing it okay?" I nodded at him and grabbed one of his shirts and went into the bathroom and got changed, when I looked into the mirror I saw that I looked awful, I washed my face clear of the make up that had run down my cheeks. By the time I got out John was gone and he'd already pulled the sheets back for me, I climbed into the bed and after all the crying I had done all I wanted to so was sleep, I was out like a light before John got back.
When I woke up in the morning the sun was creeping in and penetrated my eyelids, I groaned and opened my eyes, and tried to adjust them to the light, my vision was blurred and I saw someone walk towards me whoever it was stopped when they saw I was awake "please tell me last night was a horrible dream and everything is okay" I said in a whisper.
"No baby girl I'm afraid it wasn't" John came and sat down on my bed I twisted my body around and laid my head on his lap
"this was suppose to be so easy, yet its not, it fucked up pretty easily though"
"it didn't, I spoke to Randy when you were getting ready for bed and he was glad you was okay and wants to see you as soon as you get to the arena"
"I can't face him, I feel like such an asshole, its always me that fucks up, its crazy"
"you got to face him, he honestly feels like crap"
"I'll see him at the arena, I should get back to my room, I need to shower and change and get ready for the show tonight 'The First Lady Of Evolution' cannot be late for her close-up" I pouted at John before giving him and hug and a brief kiss on the cheek
"See you baby girl." I grabbed my clothes and DC's before exiting John's room and making my way back to mine and Mickie's when I noticed the door opening, I saw Dave coming out but not before Mickie threw herself on him as he wrapped his arm around her waist. I looked on to see Mickie watching him go into the elevator I walked back to the room and startled Mickie
"you scared me, what the hell are you doing out in a hall way in nothing but a t-shirt?" I smiled at her and made my way into the room "and why is it a John Cena shirt and not a Randy Orton shirt? And WHY are your eyes so blood shot and red it looks like you've been up half the night crying?" I looked up at her with a smile
"oh its nothing, tell me about you and Dave then?"
"No fuck that tell me what happened last night" I looked at her cursing the fact that I had to ruin her 'post-sex daze' with Dave
"it didn't actually go according to plan…" I proceeded to tell her about what had happened having to pause when Mickie burst out an occasional 'I'll kill him!' "then it ended with me slapping him and walking out, I was going to come here but then I heard you and Dave I went to the elevator tried to just breath but I broke down and luckily it was John who came out, he literally scooped me up in his arms and took me to his room and made me feel better."
"I know John was a good guy, what did you two do? Talk?"
"for a while till Randy knocked on the door, I was shoved into the closest and had to listen to their conversation, you should have seen him Mickie he was really upset he regretted what he said, I felt awful for what I did, but I don't think I can face him" she took my hand in hers and looked at me with an expression of anger and sadness in her eyes
"I love you so much babe, I wish it could have been me in John's position making you feel better but what Randy did was never intentional, he just isn't that horrible and anyone with half a brain could tell he likes you, I mean really likes you, he probably did say everything out of anger he has been known to do that all the time"
"I don't know all I saw was that he was sorry for what he said, you know all I have to do, is just talk to him and straighten it out" I smiled at her and went to get up, but Mickie still had my hand,
"hang on, Skippy, I need to ask you something, you said that when, you froze your mind went back 8 years, why?" I looked at her and before I knew what I was doing I was sobbing all over again, Mickie pulled me down into her arms and hugged me, "shh it's okay Vicki tell me what happened you know you can trust me" and then it dawned on me that I could tell her anything I wanted, I looked up at her and told her story about what happened 8 years ago, the looks in her eyes made me want to run away but when I almost did she would squeeze my hand I'd carry on, I ended my story with
"and that's why it's all my fault Mickie everything. Everything that has ever happened that was bad from that point onward was my fault, MINE and I've carried that around with me for so long, and I always will" she looked at me and just pulled me into a soft reassuring hug
"I bet it feels good now that you told someone right?" I looked at her and realised that it did I took a refreshing breath in a just grabbed Mickie into a tight hug, "come on let me buy you breakfast and I'll cheer you up with the story about me and Dave" she winked at me before throwing me into the bathroom to shower and change. Once I got out I threw in some fresh clothes grabbed the shirt John borrowed me and made my way down to breakfast with Mickie, as she chatted away about her and Dave's date.
I spotted John sitting with Randy, Mickie grasped my hand and pulled me in the direction of another table "no Mick I have to do this now, I got to face him, find us a table I'll be right back" she squeezed my hand and I made my way in the direction of Randy and John I walked over to them and gave a whispered "hi" I turned my attention to John and mouthed 'what am I doing?' "John I'm just bringing back your shirt and to say thank you for everything basically" I handed him his shirt which he took with a smile
"I'm going to get some more orange juice I'll be right back" I tried to grab his arm but he slipped out like a snake before I could, I turned and looked at Randy when his eye's met mine we could both feel the silence up in the air, I almost turned and walked away but Randy caught my arm and turned my attention back to him
"Steph asked me to tell you that she wants a meeting before Raw starts to go over her and Hunter's ideas"
"okay I'll be there, I guess I'll be seeing you there" I went to leave but Randy still had my arm preventing me from moving, I could see Mickie and John watching as well as other wrestlers around us eating there breakfast "please don't do this not now Orton"
"can't you at least sit here and talk to me? I'm sor…" I looked at Randy and tried not to cry
"please Randy will talk later okay not now, not in front of everyone" he pulled me closer to him and whispered in my ear
"you just don't want everyone to know what you and John did eh?" I looked at Randy again hurt he would think I would do something like that
"don't start Randy, please don't, will talk later okay? Just not now" he looked at me hurt and defeated then he shook his head
"no were talking about this now, come on" he pulled my arm and dragged me to the lift, not stopped when he heard me protest, once we were outside his room he let me go, and walked inside waiting for me to follow, and I did, once I got inside I put my hands in the pockets of my cargo's and waited for Randy to speak, -the last time I was in here it wasn't to friendly- I looked at Randy
"Speak Randy before I leave" he looked at me and just breathed in
"I'm so fucking sorry I screwed up big time last night"
"and just now! How could you think I would do anything with Cena he's like my big brother!"
"I know but I just wanted to speak to you I wanted to be near you again, I felt like a fool, okay, I was an ass to you and I shouldn't have been I don't think you're a tease and I'm glad I got involved with you, I'm just so sorry I upset you" I looked at Randy and studied him for a couple seconds he face was etched with regret and sadness
"I know your sorry I was there while you was talking to John last night" he looked up at me as soon as I had said it
"why didn't you say? Where was you?"
"I didn't want to see you, John found me crying and took me to his room to calm down when you knocked I hid in the closet." I looked up at him with a sheepish grin on my face when he didn't say anything I felt like an idiot, "I heard everything you said, and I wanted to tell you I was sorry, for doing what I did, and you know… well I guess I um, I'm sorry again"
"yeah you said that, even though you don't need to. I should be saying sorry I was an ass I was being a fucking idiot, I'm surprised you even speaking to me right now, I'm sorry, extremely sorry and I wish it never happened I swear if I could take it all back I would" we both looked at each other, I smiled at him, something I didn't think I would do but I couldn't stand the feeling I had knowing that we had fought.
He came flying across the room and pulled me into a tight hug, I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged hum too, -I must be crazy,- I laughed as I looked up at him "what's so funny?"
"this, I mean I should hate you right now"
He nodded his head slowly "you really should and I cant believe you don't" I shook my head at his comment
"of course I'm not I couldn't hate you Randy it's just not possible" he leaned down and just barely brushed my lips, he leaned in closer and lifted one hand and just touched my cheek lightly, while he kissed me all I though was -it wasn't the fight I was upset about it was what happened all those years ago, the fight just added fuel to the fire- I put my hand on Randy's chest and pushed him back a little, "calm down cowboy, don't you think we need to get to breakfast before Mickie and John think I've killed you?" he laughed and nodded his head taking my hand in his.
Before we walked into the breakfast room Randy let go of my hand and walked in the direction of John while I walked over to Mickie, as soon as I sat down Mickie asked me what happened, I told her, knowing pretty damn well that Randy was telling John the exact same story, I took a bite from my toast and just looked over my shoulder at Randy, he was looking at me too, -if only you knew the truth-