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CHAPTER 13 : Black and white

Kelly was worry, it was stronger than him. He knew Matt, even better than Matt hilmself now and this scarred him. He wondered if he would recover his memory one day, these nine years he has forgotten. And if not, what would happen for Matt? And Gabby? Dr. Rilet had said that his feelings were out of whack, and that if he had mourned somone, he could feel anything. But Kelly's heart was hurt right now. Because his brother wasn't his brother. After two hours of rest, Emily lowered his dose of morphine to see if the pain was managable for Matt. So he would wake up soon. And Shay was still there, comforting his roommate while he was looking at his brother, for the umpteenth time.

"Christie was really shocked by Matt's behavior", Shay finally said because she couldn't bear the tension anymore.

"We have to understand Matt too. He lost nine years of his life and we throw everything on his face, just in a few minutes".

Kelly sighed deeply.

"And the doctor said it was expected after the trauma he'd suffered".

Shay thought about something, about what the doctor of Gabby had said to her.

"I spoke with Dr. Sevenson. She knows this... 'Brain defibrilator' technology. She's totally opposed to it. She... She says it's a great idea but finds that the danger for the patient is still too high to be used".

"What did she say exactly?"

"She said that... When a patient is in a deep coma or brain dead, a part of the brain still continues to emit a very low frequency wave. The aim of this... This trial is to capture this wave, amplify it and spread it throughout the brain to restart it. Same aim as the cardiac defibrilator but for the brain".

"Yeah, Dr. Riley explained it to us".

"But he didn't explain everything", Shay confirmed.

He turned his head toward Shay for the first time with a puzzled look.

"According to her, if this wave is at a very low frequency, it's because this wave if very harmful. And if this wave is amplified and spread, it can short-circuit some parts of the brain which have not suffered any trauma. And still according to her, the experience had never been tested on a polytrauma with a bleeding in the occipital lobe".

"Why?"

"Because this part of the brain is controlling the vision and direction in space. If this part is damaged, it can have big consequences".

"If you're thinking about blindness, he's not".

"There may be other visual problems you know. I would like to know what damage the trial has left, and the sooner the better".

Kelly was thinking, assimilating what Shay had told him. A part of these informations, he had never hear of them. He wanted to see his neurologist, immediately. He pushed the nurse button so Emily would come and call Dr. Riley. Almost immediately, she entered, panicked.

"Is there a problem?"

"No, not at all. I would like to speak to Dr. Riley. Immediately".

"Ah..."

She paged him and smiled while approaching the bed to take Matt's vitals.

"Everything is looking good. His heart rate is stable at 80 despite some periods of arrhythmia, his blood pressure is coming up slowly. He's urinating correctly and his injuries are healing good".

She took the file at the edge of the bed and noted his vitals when the door opened.

"Someone paged me here?"

"Yes doctor", Emily answered.

He entered the room, closed the door and approached the group.

"I want to talk to you", Kelly anounced.

Dr. Riley turned his head toward Emily, who raised her hands. She didn't know anything.

"Alright".

"Is that true?"

The doctor frowned and placed his hands on his hips.

"Sorry?"

"Is that ture? The experience is highly dangerous?"

"Who said this to you?"

He was wondering if it was one of his colleagues or someone outside the hospital.

"Nevermind, I'm asking you the truth: is this technology highy dangerous?"

The neurologist swallowed hard and nervously. Nobody until today arose so many questions.

"F-for now... Yes".

Kelly's and Shay's eyes widened. And Kelly passed his hand over his mouth.

"I can't believe it".

"But as I told you, and I told you the truth, with each patient, this technology improves. And the fact that this was the first time we used it on a case like Matt, it can help us to better understand the brain and improve this technology".

"So for you, Matt is just an experience?! A guinea pig?!"

The doctor opened his mouth, but he couldn't talk anymore.

"I just wanted to help. And no offense you, you accepted the risks".

"You didn't give me all the settings!"

"And if I would have given them to you, would you have accepted?"

"Probably not! Not if it's to see my best friend and brother be turned into vegetable!"

Emily stepped between Kelly and Dr. Riley.

"You didn't noticed it because you were fighting, but someone is listening".

She turned toward the bed, then eveyone did. Matt was fully awake, and he was sobbing. Kelly understood immediately that Matt had heard and understood everything.

"Matt..."

Kelly approched him, but Matt signed to him to not to.

"Matt, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it..."

He realized his mistakes: Matt had perfectly understood.

"I'm sorry..."

Dr. Riley stepped forward and stopped near Kelly, looking at Matt.

"I presume you understood everything, at least a part".

Matt took some minutes to answer, because he was angry but also to assimilate what he had heard. He shook his head up to down, then turned his head away from the door, looking at the white wall and crying.

"I... I w-would like to test your brain, fully. To know where are the damage and what they are".

Matt didn"t move, but all could hear thatMatt did not move, but everyone could hear that according his breathing, he was angry and he was crying.

"We need to know this soon. To treat you correctly. The more we wait, the more severe it will be".

Once again, Matt took his time to answer, trying desperately to sort through his emotions. A minute later, he nodded.

"Alright. First, we'll test everything we can here. Mobility, vision, hearing etc. Matt? Can you turn your head to us? It's important".

Gently, to not hurt himself, he turned his head to Kelly, but not the doctor. He didn't want to. In a way, he felt betryed by his doctor, he felt that Kelly felt betrayed too, and this made him hurt. Dr. Riley knew it, but as a doctor, he needed to access the injuries.

"The sister is not here?"

"Christie. Her name's Christe. And yes, she's here", a female voice said behind them.

Surprised, they turned toward this voice. It was indeed Christie. She had red eyes: she'd cried for a long time. She was looking at her brother, who was also looking at her back. Then he closed his eyes and let escape some tears. He made a fist with his left hand, placed it on his chest and made some circles with it, clockwise.

"What he's saying?" Kelly asked.

Christie opened her mouth and breathed.

"He... H-he said he's sorry. Matt, you don't have to. I... I had no idea that..."

She took a deep breath.

"Nevermind. I'm here, and I won't let you. Not like fifteen years ago", she assured, shaking her head from side to side.

Matt nodded slightly after several seconds, then stroke her hand. She raised her head and locked her gaze on Matt's.

Can you... Tell me the rest of my life? Please?

I will after your exams, I promise.

I don't want tests.

Matt, they're important. They'll tell us where are the damage caused by... By your accident.

Matt raised an eyebrow slughtly, but this lasted only a microsecond. He closed his eyes, not wanting to look her sister anymore.

You're hiding me something.

"Matt, I will tell you your life after exams, but now, you have to trust us... No: you have to trust ME. Exams, then we talk. I promise".

Matt didn't move for a few seconds, before answering.

Do your damn exams.

Matt, I think you have to cooperate on this one.

What do you mean?

I don't know. But I think that... He wants to test all the parts of your brain, including your senses.

Okay, so tell my fucking doctor that I would like to have my vision back, like old time. He can do that?

What? What do you mean?

Even if he was still hooked to the ventilator, all could see and hear that Matt was sighing.

I just want my vision back okay? And not watching a part of the scene like in the movies of the 30s.

The movies of the 30s?!Christie thought. But they were in... Oh God!

Kelly could see that Chistie was holding her tears. She took a deep breath.

Your... Your vision is... In black and white?