A childrens laugh

Chapter 14 - You Won't

Great just my luck, I lost the part that belonged here, so if it is sucky blame hotmail. O and yes in this story is Tony the stepbrother of Abby but he is still called Dinozzo.

This is spoken in (I think) Hebrew.

And this are memory flashes.

Ziva David walked into the elevator and pressed the button to the right floor. This was her first time in the NCIS building but she had done some research and knew where to be. With a strait back she walked out of the elevator and to the end of the room.

There only sat a man, he noticed her and they began to talk. But while they talked Ziva's mind was in a whole other place.

This seemed so familiar, how the man she now knew as Tony, or Special agent Anthony Dinozzo smiled. His smile and his eyes, they seemed as from a life that was far behind. Suddenly her she did not see the man anymore. In her mind she only saw a boy, maybe nine, smiling at her and looking her right in her eyes. When she opened her eyes again the boy was gone and Tony stood there again. She had not noticed that she had put her hand against her temples.

"Are you okay?" Tony asked.

"Ken," And She decides to tease him a little more, telling him little things she had read in the reports she had on the team.

Ziva POV

Then the elevator pinged again and Jenny Sheppard and a man with grey hair, I assume it has to be Gibbs came out and walked to us. I walk forward and great Jen. While we are talking I see from the corner of my eye that Tony and this Gibbs are talking together. Probably about me, judging by the way they are looking at us.

Jenny walks me to the two of them, and I shake his hand. On the moment I say my name some sort of flash almost of recognition crosses his face. As if he is remembered of something, of someone. On my turn when I look him straight in the eyes I have the same feeling as I had before with Tony. As if I have seen those eyes before, but then on a much younger face. And just on the moment I have the feeling that Gibbs wants to ask more, then just about the mission my phone rings. I know it has to be Ari.

While he is talking I do not so much hear his words, it is more the way he speaks. Ever since I came back from the hospital that one day years ago Ari had seem different. I remember him being changed over a night sleep.

"I don't want to lose you to" When I speak the words I speak them right from the heart. I already have lost my little sister and my mother. I do not even remember them well. My father told me that mother died as she was picking Tali of from school. It makes me a little more at peace every time I think that neither my mother or Tali had been alone when they died. And by that I always have had the feeling that my mother and Tali were the only ones I have lost, but it is just like some big misty blanket, you know that there is something there but you just can't see it.

And weird enough when Ari says to me "You won't" it does not really comfort me.

When he hang up I think for a while. What if everything these people say is true. What if the Ari i knew years and years ago is gone, is just not there anymore.

As I walk back Gibbs starts asking me questions, they hit me deep. Ari is and always will be my brother, my big brother. As Gibbs keeps saying things I get angry. I do not want to believe all the things he says, and right now I am not the only one who gets angry. The look in his eyes, I close my eyes against the flash.

"You're her father" I hear a man's voice scream "how dare you to treat your daughter like that. She is not a thing"

When I open my eyes everything is gone, it seemed so real like a memory, like the words had really been spoken.

Gibbs POV

While I am on my way down to Abby I think about that girl. Ziva was her name, could she be my Ziver, no I shake my head. That is just not possible. The memories that I have left are not much, sometimes I remember more then on other times. But every year, on the day I heard that my life as I knew it had died. That my wife, my daughter and my unborn child had died, I go through the two boxes I have. Full of memories, I wish would not have been the last.

As soon as I walk into Abby's lab my thoughts are drown out by the sound of her music. And the only thing I can concentrate on is getting the head of Ari on a plate.

I probably have said in earlier Chapters that Gibbs knows Ari's last name but well he just does not remember certain things. He has had a coma too right? Well I hope you can forgive me by not updating for so long.

Please review, And a merry Christmas to you all.