Sorry for the delay. With christmas it was really hard to get anything done.

I know where I want to go with this I am just having problems getting it written the way I need it.

Just dont give up on it. I hope to have another chapter up soon.

I still do not own any of this, but my own idea's.

Mistakes are still my own.

Chapter 14

Maura's point of view

I didn't sleep any last night. I didn't want to be alone last night, I wanted to be with Jane curled up next to her, but she doesn't want me there anymore. I'm afraid of what she will do since no one is there with her.

I got up long enough this morning to call into work. I knew I wouldn't be at my best, not with the lack of sleep, and with all the crying I did last night no amount of makeup will cover these bags under my eyes. My back hurts from the couch that I've been laying on all night and most of the day.

My thoughts are interrupted by Angela. I love Angela like she was my own mother, but she sure does have bad timing.

"Maura I thought you were with Jane."

"I was until she told me she didn't want me there anymore."

As I said that more tears came. Angela came and sat down next to me and put her arms around me like a mother would do.

"I'm sure she just wanted to be alone, after what happened yesterday. Is it ok for her to be alone?" she said as an afterthought."

"I don't know Angela. I know she was doing really well, but after yesterday she may have a setback."

"Come on Maura." Angela said while pulling me off the couch.

"Where are we going?"

"We are going to make sure Jane is ok."

"I can't go out looking like this, I'm a mess."

Now I see where Jane gets her eye roll at.

"Maura don't worry about it you look fine."

"Really I look fine, look at me Angela. I'm wearing the close I went to bed in, I have no makeup on."

"Maura honey calm down. Go put some different clothes on wash your face, and then we will go.

Angela was in hurry so I found the best clothes I could while trying to hurry up. I at least looked presentable when we walked out the door.

When we got to Jane's place Angela started to get out then noticed I was not following her.

"Are you coming Maura?"

"She said she didn't want me here. I'll stay in the car."

"Maura I'm sure she didn't mean it."

"I know Jane she meant what she said."

Angela walked around the car to my side and opened the door grabbed my arm and said.

"If I'm going you are too."

I got out and followed Angela. We got to Jane's door and knocked, she didn't answer. Angela got her key out and unlocked the door. It was quiet I followed Angela into Jane's bed room.

Jane wasn't there, Jane wasn't anywhere.

"Do you think she went to work?" Angela asked

"I wouldn't think so, but we could go check.

"Now I was getting worried. I didn't see Jane going back to work until tomorrow, and she wasn't here.

I led Angela through the morgue and then up stairs. Jane's desk was empty. Frost and Korsak both looked at us

"Do you guys need something?" Korsak asked.

"Is Jane here?"

"No she called in this morning. Why?"

"No reason were just looking for her. We have a question to ask."

"Have you tried her cell phone?"

"No but that's a great idea frost."

We turned and walked out.

When we got back into the car I got my cell phone put and called Jane, and got no answer.

"Where would she be Angela?"

"You should know you hang out with her more than I do."

"I don't know Angela."

Hours later we had Frankie looking for her. He didn't come up with anything either. I was really starting to worry.

Jane's point of view

I woke up the next morning feeling pretty good; I'm surprised with as much alcohol I drank last night.

My father is sitting in his chair watching the end of a game, he recorded. My father turned around and noticed I was awake.

"Hey Janie. I was starting to wonder if you were going to sleep the day away."

"No, it's time to get up."

"Your phone's been going off all morning."

I picked my phone off the coffee table. All my missed calls came from Maura, and my mother. I turned my phone off and sat it back on the coffee table.

"Your mother told me about your problem. Do you think this is a good idea?"

"No it's a horrible idea. But I'm working on it."

"That's good Janie. I really don't want to have to tell your mother what you're doing here."

"I really don't want you to tell Ma what in doing here either."

That what's I love about my father we have an understanding. I've been angry with him for a while for leaving my mother, but he's still my father and I wouldn't change that for anything.

We watched the rest of the game in silence. I really missed Maura; she was the one I usually watched games with. She never really knew what was going on, but she could tell me everything about every player. Little things like that are what make me love her more.

We ordered some food, and had it delivered. We ate in silence at the kitchen table. My father phone rang, and he answered it. I ignored what he was saying didn't really want to listen in, until I heard my father say yeah she's here Frankie.

Crap my father just gave me up. He hung up the phone.

"Your mother is looking for you."

"I know dad, I was just ignoring the inevitable."

"I don't think you can ignore it much longer."

"I know." and that's all we needed to say.

I finish eating and pick up my mess from the night before, and I tell my father goodnight, and go to my car. This is not something I want to do.

Before I stop at my place to get a change of clothes I go to the liquor store I'm going to need it because I'm sure my mother is going to cause all kind of trouble. I get to Maura's house and sit in my car for a minute and then get out and start walking to the door.

I wonder if I should knock. I told Maura I didn't want her at my place, what if she doesn't want me here. I turn to leave when I hear the door open up.

"No you don't." I hear Frankie say before I'm grabbed by the arm and spun around.

"What do you think you're doing?"

"I'm not sure what I'm doing."

"Do you know how worried our mother has been Jane? Do you even care?"

"Of course I care Frankie, what is wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me? The only time I've ever seen her that worried was the nights she stayed up waiting on Tommie to get home. You went through those night too Jane, you know what she went through, and you do the same thing."

"I didn't do anything wrong Frankie I went to see dad, did you forget about him."

"You could have called, or answered the phone when Ma, and Maura called."

"I was busy, since when does it matter what I do."

"After what you went through yesterday, you doing a disappearance act isn't the thing to do. Then you come home smelling like alcohol are you becoming like Tommie?"

I did the one thing I've never done before. I punched Frankie, not in the playful kind of way we usual do. Frankie did the one thing he's never done. He hit back. I should have expected it, but honestly he knocked me on my ass with no warning.

That's when our mother intervened

"Frankie what are you doing?"

"Me why don't you ask her." he said while pointing at me.

I got myself off the ground

"Are we two Frankie? If you're going to start playing the blame game then he started it." I said while pointing at Frankie.

"Just get inside." our mother said.

We followed her in. I felt like I was a little kid again, waiting for my punishment.

My eyes found Maura's as soon as I walked in. Usually I would go to her but not tonight. Tonight was different, I didn't know if she wanted me to go to her, didn't know if she even wanted me in her home.

So I stood in the living room as far away from her as possible. Korsak came out of the kitchen. Great Frost should be coming out of the wood works soon too.

"Janie, where have you been?" Korsak said when he saw me.

"I went to see my father. Why does it matter?"

"I told you outside but you don't listen to me" Frankie spoke up from his place at the couch.

"Shut it Frankie. You dont know nothing."

"Do I need to put you two in different rooms?" my mother said.

"No Ma were fine." I said.

"Your mothers been worried sick, you could have called."

"I know Korsak, if I ever go see my father again I'll call. Does that make everyone happy?" I started for the door.

"now I'm going home to get some sleep so I cam go to work in the morning."

"Yeah, I'm sure that's all your going to do." Frankie spoke again.

"Do we need to take this back outside Frankie?"

"No one is taking anything out side, and Jane your not leaving yet." my mother said.

I turned back around. "Ma I have a job to do, and that requires for me to get up early. I really dont need to stay here and chat."

"They know Jane." My mother said.

I sat in the closes chair I could find.

"Great I leave for a day, and ever one know's my problem. Did you put it in the paper too."

"Jane don't get mad, we only told them because we were looking for you, but they didn't see you dissapering as a problem until we told them about your drinking."

"That makes me feel so much better Maura."

"Don't you get mad at her." my mother said.

"We are only trying to help Jane." Korsak said.

"Did you mean it?" Maura spoke up again

"Mean what?"

"What you said last night."

"I meant it Maura."

I saw her face go from hopeful to nothing. I really felt bad about doing this to her, but I really felt she would be safer without me."

"what do we do now?" my mother asked.

"We don't do anything, I've got this. I can do it alone this time. I don't need anyones help."

I got up to leave again.

"Jane." Korsak said

"What Korsake?"

"I can't let you go back to work."

"Korsak I'm going to tell you what I once told Maura, what I do in the privacy of my own home is no one's business but my own. This has nothing to do with work, so there's no problem."

And then I was out the door before anyone could stop me. I got into my car and drove home.

I found a very unexpected visitor sitting by my door.

"What are you doing here?"

"I needed to get out of there." Tommie said.

I unlocked my door and let Tommie in before I let myself in.

"Did they have their intervention?"

"Their what?"

"Ma was all about it, I didn't really want to stick around for it."

"Your next Tommie."

"I do agree with them, you need to quit."

"Ma sent you over here didn't she?"

"No Janie, I'm only here so I didn't have to be there."

I let Tommie sleep on my couch, and I layed in bed for hours. My fix was in the very next room all I had to do was get up, and go get it.

I got out of bed and went to the ice box where my fix was. I got it out, held it for a long time. All it does is mess up people's lives. I opened it, I wanted so much to put it to my lips, and take a drink, but my legs had other plans, I walked over to the sink took a deep breath and then poured it out. I watched it all go down the drain, and honestly I wanted to cry, but I didn't I got myself under control, and went back to my bed.

"Maura I need you, I'm sorry about what I said. Can we go back? Can I fix this?"

"I don't think you can Jane."

"But Maura."

"No buts Jane you screwed up. You can't fix this."

The next thing I know Hoyt's got a hold of Maura from behind with a scalpel at her throat.

"I win Jane."

then I wake up covered in sweat. Hoyt showing back up in my dreams scared me, but what scared me the most was Maura telling me I couldn't fix this.

I look at the clock it's four in the morning. I get myself dressed. I have to talk to Maura.

I drive to her house and knock on her door there's no answer so I knock again still no answer. I finally give up and use my keys. Her house is dark like it should be at four thirty in the morning. I make my way to her bedroom it's empty. My blood pressure rises. Where the hell is Maura? I go out the back door, and make my way to the guest house. I pound on the door.

"Ma wake up."

I don't stop knocking until my mother opens the door.

"Jane what are you doing here?"

"Ma where's Maura?"

"She's sleeping."

"No she's not, she not in her house."

"She's in here Jane. She didn't want to be alone, so she asked if she could sleep on the couch."

I push my way past my mother, and see Maura curled up on the couch. I start to make my way towards her, but my mother stops me.

"Don't wake her up."

"I just need to talk to her for a minuet."

"Talk in the morning."

"I need to talk to her now, I need to make this right."

"Make it right at a reasonable hour."

"What if I can't make this right Ma?"

"Trust me sweetie, Maura wants you to fix this. Just do it in the morning."

"Fine Ma, I'll do it your way. Just get me some covers and a pillow."

I laid down next to the couch on the floor. It was not going to be a good sleep, but at least I was close to Maura, and that made me feel much better.

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