Emma found herself loitering outside of her parent's loft. She stood awkwardly delaying knocking and in doing so, delaying dealing with her mother. She had spent the morning lazing around the mansion before she had reluctantly dragged herself home to shower and get ready for the day.
"Here goes nothing." She said with a dramatic sigh before she knocked on the door lightly. When the door opened she offered the shocked pixie haired woman a polite "Hi" and a small forced smile.
"Emma" Snow let out a dramatic sigh before opening the door wide for Emma to enter "come in, please." She wanted to ensure that Emma was inside and the door was closed before she had chance to change her mind and leave.
Emma entered the loft, followed her mother through to the living area and over to the sofa, her body tensed before either of them had even opened their mouth.
"I'm so glad you're here." Snow said with a big smile, but her eyes looked sad and scared. The woman didn't look her usual chirpy self it was clear that she had things on her mind. "I'm so sorry about what happened yesterday." she took a seat on the sofa and Emma sat at the other end a metre of space between them.
Emma took a deep breath before she addressed her nervous looking mother. "I don't forgive you for what you said to Regina, but she does so I guess we should talk."
"Emma really I'm so sorry. I never meant to say those hurtful things to her, I swear to you, I was just so caught up in the moment and it just came out."
"That's not good enough. How dare you speak to Regina that way... but I'm not here to talk about that." she quickly added knowing they needed to change the subject.
"Ok." Snow responded uncertainly.
"I'm sorry that I've been pushing you away. I didn't mean to do it. I did it at first because I didn't want anyone to know about the baby. I wasn't ready to deal with it."
"But you told Regina."
"I told Regina because she made me feel like I didn't have too. She made me feel like I had a choice. You made me feel trapped and I know you didn't mean to but that's just how it was."
"I'm so sorry I made you feel that way. I never meant to, I just love you and I wanted to be there for you. I saw you hurting and I just wanted to fix everything, to make you happy again." Snow said desperately, playing nervously with her fingers trying to stop herself from reaching out for her daughter.
"I know you did, but sometimes people need to fix themselves. I needed to fix myself. Regina made me see that. She didn't force me to do anything."
"Emma I'm sorry. I'm so very sorry." Snow cried hopelessly.
Emma felt guilty she never meant to make her mother feel so bad; she just wanted her to understand why she had chosen to confide in Regina. "You don't need to be sorry. You did what you did because you care for me and that's great it just wasn't what I needed. Regina helped me understand that."
"Can I hug you?" Snow asked nervously, terrified that her daughter would reject her request. "Of course." Emma scooted closer and opened her arms for her mother. The mother and daughter shared a heartfelt hug before Emma pulled away and wiped a stray tear from Snow's face.
Snow relaxed a little as did Emma. "How is my granddaughter doing?" Snow asked with a big smile, knowing they still had things to work on but happy that she got to hold her daughter.
"She's moving lots. I felt her kick properly last night." Emma said happily.
"Really?" Snow asked wide eyed.
"Yes. She's been moving for a while but last night was her first dance party. I've transferred my maternity care to Storybrooke now. I figured everyone knew about the baby by now anyway, plus if there is anything different about her then I hope the doctors would be better equipped to deal with it here."
"Do you think there is something wrong with the baby?"
"I did think there could be, but I'm less worried now. For a while everything about this situation felt bad and I guess I started to think that maybe the baby would be bad, well dark. The baby was conceived while I was the dark one and I don't even know how. So yes I'm scared that maybe something bad could have happened but Regina made me realise that the baby is my baby no matter what and no matter what happens I already love her. I guess I'll have to deal with things if they happen and I know I won't be alone." Emma added offering Snow a smile.
"You won't be alone." Snow echoed.
Her baby brother woke up soon after which led to an hour of cuddles and playtime. Holding him in her arms she was hit with the realisation that soon she would be holding her own baby that would be much smaller than the six month old boy she was entertaining with funny faces and crazy talk.
After three hours with her with her mother and brother, Emma said her goodbyes after hugs and kisses. She reflected on her afternoon as she made her way over to the Town Hall. She still didn't exactly forgive her mother for the way she had spoken to Regina but she was relieved that they had cleared the air about other things. They spent the afternoon catching up on Emma's pregnancy and Snow updated Emma on Neal's current likes and dislikes.
Regina sat at her desk reviewing her report, while awaiting the arrival of Emma. She was nervous; really nervous it was crazy how much things could change I'm such a small amount of time. She sat with her legs crossed and tapped her food nervously and checked the clock for the fiftieth time that day.
She was struggling with her feelings throughout the day she had gone from elated to terrified, to hopeful to anxious. She was currently closer to elated but slipping down the scale quickly.
"Regina?"
She was drawn out of her thoughts to see Emma stood at the door peeking through like a naughty child.
Emma stood at the door nervously. She had knocked on the door a few times but after no reply she finally opened the door slightly to see Regina sat at her desk deep in thought. "Regina?"
"I'm sorry I was daydreaming. Come in." she instructed nervously.
Emma approached the desk nervously. Her thumbs tucked into her trouser hoops to stop her fidgeting further. She sat down on one on the two chairs opposite the mayor's desk awkwardly and looked up at the other woman with a nervous smile.
"Did you see your mother?" Regina asked cautiously.
"Yes it went ok. We still have a few things we need to work on but I think we understand each other better."
"That's good. I'm happy for you both."
"I can't forget what she said to you and I can't not be pissed about it, but I know you've forgiven her so I'll work on it."
Regina watched Emma's facial expression as she spoke. It tugged on her heart strings that Emma would even attempt to defend her, but the fact she was willing to respect Regina's wishes meant even more to her. She smiled at the blonde brightly. How did she get so lucky to have this amazing woman care about her?
"What are you smiling at?"
"You, me, how luckily I am that I..." She stopped herself before she said anything that may be too much too soon. "I'm just happy you're here."
"I'm happy I'm here too."
The women sat in an awkward silence not knowing how they should act towards the other, both fighting the desperate urge to kiss the other one senseless.
"Regina?" Emma broke the silence "Are we doing this?"
"It seems so" Regina answered with a smile.
"Is this what you want?" Emma asked biting her lip in anticipation.
"More than anything." Regina replied honestly, making eye contact with the woman sat opposite her "Is it what you want?"
"Yes, but what about the baby?"
"What about her?" Regina question confused as to what the other woman was getting at.
"I'm pregnant and in a few months' time she'll be here and it seems like a crazy time to start a new relationship." Emma confessed
"Oh, well I understand if this isn't the right time for you. Maybe we can wait. I'll still be here as your friend." Regina responded sadly, her heart breaking and she was secretly terrified she wouldn't be able to be there for Emma in the way she wanted her to be. The moment their lips met for the first time there had been a shift in their relationship and Regina wasn't sure she could go back.
"Regina that's not what I meant." Emma reached across the desk awkwardly and took both of Regina's hands in her own. "I know that logically this isn't the best time for a relationship to start but I don't think there's any way I could stop myself from kissing you again."
Regina brought Emma's hands up to her mouth and kissed the knuckles on each hand softly. "You have no idea how happy that makes me."
"I think I have some idea." Emma said before with withdrawing her hands from Regina's.
The brunette looked a little sad at the disconnection of their hands until she saw Emma stand up and walk around the desk until she leant against it, right next to where Regina sat.
Regina pushed her chair back and rose from her seat slowly. She looked at Emma for permission before she settled herself between the blonde's now open legs.
Emma pushed herself back so that she sat on the desk, knocking Regina's pen holder over in doing so. She mouthed a "sorry" before straightening up the stray piece of metal and throwing the fallen pens back in. When she looked back at Regina she saw that the woman had nestled herself further between her legs, her hands resting at either side of her thighs, close enough that her thumbs grazed Emma's thighs.
Regina bit her lip nervously as she looked at the stunning's woman sat before her. She placed a delicate kiss to the blonde's cheek, before repeating the action on the opposite side, then her forehead and finally she aimed for the blondes chin.
Emma saw the brunette's intention and decided that she needed to intercept she caught Regina's lips with her own just before they would have made contact with her chin.
Regina was happy with the unexpected detour and moaned softly into Emma's mouth. Emma had sucked lightly on the brunettes lips to keep them in place but once she was sure Regina was captured she let go and kissed her softly on the lips.
The soft kisses of hello soon turned into desperate kissed of desire. Somewhere along the way Regina's hands had found their way into Emma's hair while Emma's legs had wrapped around Regina small frame holding her firmly against her. They kisses were hungry and needy and left both women wanting far more. The kisses grew and grew until both women's lips ached.
Emma pulled away slightly to take a few deep breaths still holding Regina against her and resting her head against her chest, her lips millimetres away from the brunettes pulse point.
Regina could feel Emma's breathe against her neck and goose bumps covered her arms in anticipation. When she felt Emma's lips goose over her neck slightly she moaned and moved her head to the side letting Emma know what she wanted and giving her better access.
Emma peppered tiny kisses all over Emma's neck from her collarbone up to her ear before repeating the action again, after the second time she replaced the kisses with her tongue before swirling her tongue around Regina's ear lobe.
Regina's body was reaching shamelessly to Emma's kisses, she was desperate for more, she knew they needed to stop but the aching between her legs and tingling in her stomach stopped her from saying anything.
Emma's assault on Regina's neck kept going. She way desperately trying to stop herself from biting the neck, sucking it and marking Regina as her own but she knew she couldn't do that. She drew her teeth over Regina's neck without sucking before placing a final kiss the pulse point.
Regina looked at Emma shyly after letting out a final moan. "We can't do this here."
"Do you want to go home?" Emma asked hopefully with a smirk.
"As tempting as that sounds I need to work. I missed an afternoon's work yesterday and today's work has been far from productive due this beautiful blonde who keeps invading my thoughts."
"Sounds terrible."
"It is." Regina answered playfully.
"Should I go?"
"No. Go get on the sofa and have your nap. It's past nap time dear. I'm surprised you're still functioning."
"I have an extra buzz to keep me going. You're like a drug."
"Enough. If you want to stay I really need you to be good and I really want you to stay."
Regina broke free of Emma's grasp and took the blondes hand, taking it in her own and leading her over the sofa. She sat Emma down, took off the blondes boots while the blonde lay down.
"Sweet dreams." Regina said placing a kiss on Emma's lips before making her way back to her desk.
It took Emma a while to fall asleep and Regina could feel Emma's eyes watching her work. She re read the same line several times before giving herself a telling off and desperately trying her best to focus on her work. Once Emma's breathing had evened out Regina found that she could concentrate more. She stopped occasional to steal a sly glance at the woman sleeping across the room, but with a smile and heavy heart she continued to work.
Thank you so much for the lovely comments and messages I am going to try to reply this week.
Sorry for the delay in updating I've been sick this week and had zero energy to do anything.
After this chapter we are going to have a time hop. I will aim for an update by Wednesday.
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