Chapter Fourteen

Weeks have passed and I haven't talked to Edward. Since he was with the Cullen's, I saw him but he never tried to talk to me. I know it's hard for him that I can't be with him. If anyone knows how it feels for someone not to love you anymore, its me.

But I let that flame burn out. High school loves aren't meant to last forever, anyway.

I moved into my place and Sadie was so happy to have her very, very pink room. Her bedroom set matched and the carpet was a soft plush. It looked like a fairy tale with the bed and canopy. She was after all my little princess.

Bryan's room was set up to his needs. There was a baby changer and a crib that turned into a bed for when he got older. His room was a soft blue and he had all the latest toys. Esme had painted a little crown on the wall above the crib where he sleeps. He now is my little prince as well.

My room was done much simpler. Alice had surprised me and done it herself. I was nervous when she told me what she had done, but I should have known. The room was very beautiful. It had a touch of elegance and it seemed very fitting for me. There was lots of lace around the windows. My bed spread was a cram color with more lace and patterns. It was very old fashioned and very… me.

I have grown even closer to Jasper since then. It may seem very high school and very childish, but I seem to have a little crush on him. The way he looks at me sends me in a catatonic state and when I breathe in his scent, it sends me into a wonderful frenzy. I want to run my fingers through his soft curls and kiss his marble lips. They look so soft.

I know he can feel what I feel and I am thankful he doesn't say anything, but I'd like to know how he feels about me. Sometimes I think he sees me as just as a friend but other times, it's like he is seeing for the first time. The blindfold has been removed and I am there.

When he comes over, we spend most of our time together with the kids and he helps me write a few pages of things for my book. Soon, I'll have to put it together to create something, but for now, my style of writing usually works. He's been helpful and he gives me some slang. They're small little words with his southern twang and it makes an impeccable difference.

Sadie and Bryan seem to be quite taken with him as well. He's taken them to the zoo and out for ice cream. There was one day, I was extremely stressed and just needed some 'me' time. Jasper, sensing my emotion offered to take the kids out so I could relax.

As soon as he was gone, I bust out the Ben and Jerry's and watched movies. I did some writing and cleaned. I was very relaxed. They didn't come back until eight o'clock that night and they were exhausted. He has to baby sit more often.

The Cullen's stay in a hotel nearby and visit me everyday. I told them that they could stay here but Carlisle insisted that Rosalie and Emmet needed their space for recreational activities. There's no need to give me the details, I already know.

Right now, Jasper is over and we're baking cookies with Bryan. He's in his highchair and squishing the dough. He's even got a few plastic cookie cutters that are used for Christmas but that's all I have. He seems to like the wreath. Sadie is with Rosalie and Alice at the hotel and playing dress up. She has a blast becoming a little Barbie for them. She enjoys the hair and makeup and highheels. Better her than me.

"Can you give Bryan some more dough, please?" I ask.

"Aw, crap."

I turn to see Jasper with dough stuck to his face and hair. Bryan is cracking up so I know who the culprit is.

No more dough for him.

"What do you think you're doing?" I ask in my baby voice, looking at Bryan. "Hm? Mommy needs to get it out of Jasper's hair now."

Trying not to laugh, I grab a washcloth from the sink and get it wet. I run it over Jasper's face getting it all off. I am very gentle and I memorize every curve of his face. The gesture is simple and it may even look intimate but I try not to think anything of it.

"Bella…"

I look into his eyes and he wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me closer. I drop the washcloth to the floor forgetting all about it. Bringing his lips down, he kisses me for the first time and it is magical.

I feel the fireworks everyone talks about and I kiss him with fever as the sparks continue to fly. His lips are just like I imagined, hard and cold but so soft and warm.

I wrap my arms around his neck and one hand comes up to slide in his hair. I grab a fistful and let out a soft moan and he lightly growls in response.

Things start to heat up but Bryan starts to babble and I come to realize that we just made out in front of my son.

We break apart and Jasper smiles down at me. I don't miss the twinkle in his eye that shows, "I have been wanting to do that for so long now, Bella."

"Really?" I guess I got my answer now.

"Mhm and now that I got to do it; I am not letting you go. I feel your emotions everyday and I have been very… shy as on how to approach you. I care so deeply for you."

"I feel the same way." I smile. If it gets any bigger, I'm sure my lips will break off.

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"Of course I will!" I smile. I lean up and kiss him one more time before I go back to the counter and finish the cookies. If this is how things like to play out, I should bak cookies more often.

…

After the cookies were done and everyone came back over, except Edward. We were plaanning on telling everyone after the movie was over and the kids were asleep. Until then, it was hard to keep my hands to myself.

Jasper and I sat on the love seat in the living room and Sadie sat curled up on his lap. Bryan was sitting on mine and playing with a plastic toy cup.

In the middle, between our bodies, I was holding hands with my boyfriend. It made me giddy at just the thought.

Alice smiled at me from across the room but I gave her an innocent look. Rolling her eyes, she turned back to Ratatouille. And before anyone can say that Sadie picked it out, she did not, Emmett did. Sadie didn't object.

I absent Mindy ran my fingers through Bryan's curls and I heard him mumbling and thought it was so cute. But the last part caught me off guard, "M-m-mom. M-o-o-mom."

Everyone turns to look at him and tears spring from my eyes. "Oh baby, say it again."

"Mom…Mom…Mom…" He sounds in a chant but it is the happiest day ever. Jasper looks over with... love in his eyes and I cry even harder.

"That is so sweet!" Alice smiles. Everyone else agrees but I feel sort of bad for Rosalie. I look over to her and she gives me a warm smile I don't know if its forced our not, but grateful none the less.

I pick up Bryan and hold him in front of me. "Say it again, Baby. I love you. I am your mommy and you are my little boy. I love you. Oh my god, I am so happy."

Jasper reaches over and wipes the tears from my eyes and kisses my forehead.

"Awe… Bella's blushing. Some things never change." My face is now a tomato and I try to ignore Emmett and kiss Jasper's cheek.

"Ew, no kissing boys, mommy."

Jasper laughs and tickles Sadie which makes my heart melt even more. This was what family is.

…

Once the kids are in bed, Jasper and I clear our throats to get everyone's attention.

I wonder how they will react. Will they be with us or against us? Would they look with me such disgust that I will be forced to flee the country… again.

Will they take Edward's side? Will they be happy?

"Calm down, Bella" Jasper murmurs in my ear. "Everyone, Bella andI would like to annouce that we're together now."

Silence.

Crickets chirping.

"It's about damn time!" I look up to see Emmett jumping up fromt he couch.

"Seriously you two, you guys have been dancing aorund eacother and we all have been waiting who was going to make the first move." Esme smiles.

Crap, did everyone know but me?

"Well, i'm glad you approve. I was just worried because of..." I trail off not wanting to finish. I stare at my feet and turn a light shade of pink.

"Bella..." I look up to see Alice in front of me. She wraps me in a tight hug and chuckles. "Don't be afraid or ashamed. I am not mad at you and Edward is going to need to take some time but we will help him get through it, okay?"

I nod my head and she returns to the couch. "Now that, that is all settled. How about we watch some more movies?"

"I'm going to head on up to bed. I'm tired." I yawn. "Jasper, come and tuck me in."

Alice gives me a wink and Emmett busts out laughinig, "Please. I know you're a dirty girl, Bella!"

Ignoring his comment, I lead Jasper upstairs. I grab a fitting white tank top and balck shorts that barely cover anything at all. Yeah, I was a new Bella and I had no shame for my body. I was tone and healthy and it was all thanks to my world traveling.

After changing in the adjoined bathroom to my bedroom, I walk over to my bed and see Jasper under the covers.

"I hope you don't mind, darlin'."

"Not at all" I smile. I crawl in next to him and his cool arm lays across my stomach.

He kisses me once and then wtice but stops as he takes in the third kiss.

"What is it?" I ask.

"They all left the house. The kids are here but everyone else is out."

"Why?"

"I don't know." He hovers over my body and leans in and kisses me. From my ear back to my lips and then down to the crook of my neck.

"Jasper." I moan. "Make love to me."

"Are you sure? I mean we just started going out today?"

"Are you nervous?" I giggle.

He looks back into ym eyes and smiles, "Yes. I am very nervous but I do want to make love to you."

I ground my hips into meet his and he kisses me with so much passion, I could cry.

That was the first night I made passionate love with my boyfriend, Jasper.

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