Whoa…Three uploads in three days…I need to stop typing. Like now…. No not now, but when I finish this chapter!

Haruhi

It has literally been months.

Eleven months ago, Liv and Benji entered our lives.

Eight months ago, we voyaged to Hokkaido to the white house we so very much loved.

Five and a half months ago, the Host Club, our friendship, and all of our relationships ended…Except for some bonds.

And I'm still not used to it.

I flipped my calendar with a sigh. Friday, February fourteenth.

"Haruhi! You're going to be late for school! Chisato's waiting outside!" My Dad cried from the kitchen.

Chisato was a friend of my Dads from work; he had been driving me to school and Dad to work for about a month now.

"I'm coming!" I ran a brush through my hair one last time.

It was beginning to get normal I suppose. I had made a few friends with some of my old clients from the Host Club, while Liv and Benji had made friends of their own. Neither of them has spoken to each other once.

I've kept a small friendship with Kyouya…Which made everyone even more suspicious that something happened between us.

Liv, Hunny, and Mori kept up their friendship too, which I was happy about. They had been together as children so they were obviously going to stay together. Benji was a different story.

She sat with some new friends with a painted smile. I could tell it was just a show. How? Because the moment Kyouya would walk into a room her eyes would flash with despair. I'd occasionally catch her crying in the hallways.

I have nothing to say about Liv really… She was a mess. With her friends she would smile and laugh even. But when she was alone…When she was alone she'd break all of those walls. She'd sob uncontrollably, she'd call Mori for support, and she'd take her rage out on her teachers. How do I know that?

Mori- Sempai told me.

It was late on a Saturday in October when he asked me to end the fight. I bit my lip let a tear or two slip, but I said no.

God I'd do anything to change that.

I could easily have ended it now if Mori-Sempai hadn't told Kyouya I said no. Kyouya yelled at me about it right in front of Benji. Who now won't even look at me because of that.

Maybe I could end it now but there was one more painful subject keeping me from doing that.

Tamaki…

When I'd see him after my first class of the day, it didn't hurt for the first two months.

But eventually something in me snapped.

He had walked out of his class like any other day… But his eyes which were always so strong…so dependent, held tears. I had never seen him cry for real before that. I'd like to think it was because he missed me but, I highly doubt it. I still wish he'd forgive the whole incident. I don't even forgive myself… But there's one thing I regret more than anything… If I could take back sleeping with him, I think I would now. Because at least now I know he didn't really love me like I loved him. If he did love me at one point, I might not be so upset about the whole situation.

"Are you okay Haruhi? You're awfully distant this morning." Chisato looked at me with a worried expression.

I looked at him for a moment, and then smiled. "Yes, thank you. I'm fine."

"Well…Why are you still in the car?" He pointed out the window. Huh…That was quick…

"Good morning Haruhi!" A short girl named Ayako waved. I nodded in return.

"Looking nice today Haruhi!" Two boys from my home economics class beamed. I looked down at my clothes. It wasn't really nice, it was cute I suppose though. Just a pair of denim Bermuda shorts with a blue and green plaid short sleeved button up. On my feet, I wore the black American All Star shoes Liv bought me some time during the summer. It wasn't exactly appropriate for the time of year. But the school was warm. My hair was pulled into a loose ponytail.

"Thanks!" I bowed slightly.

Turning left down the hall to my first class, I saw something rather shocking. It was enough to bring a wide smile to my face though.

Hikaru and Kaoru were talking and laughing with Tamaki outside of his class.

About time I saw something normal…

I hugged my books tightly to my chest, still smiling brightly as I walked quicker to my class. As I stood in the doorway to the classroom, I paused.

For the first time since last summer, I turned with a smile toward Tamaki. The three stared at me baffled. My eyes shut. I sighed and turned into the classroom.

Today would be like no other…

I knew that when I saw Hikaru and Kaoru talking to Tamaki. Today something big would happen.

I shook my head slightly in front of my closet door. "You can do this." I chanted.

A sigh escapes my mouth. "I'm going to do this." I cracked my knuckles. "Now you get your point across Haruhi Fujioka or so help me!"

This was only the beginning of the jumpiness…I know what I'm doing today.

My fingers began to dial.

Benji

Today was a good day…

I got an A on an algebra test, I avoided all of those backstabbers I once called my friends, and I broke the hearts of two eligible bachelors.

Okay, so I didn't exactly break their hearts, I just said no to a date.

I'd been doing that a lot this year haven't I…?

No one seems right anymore. It's just…odd.

I lay flat back on my bed, balancing a stuffed elephant on my feet. "They say teenagers scare the living shit out a' me!" rang through my silent room. I flipped my phone open reluctantly only half recognizing the number.

"Shalom." I sat up, dropping the elephant on the carpeted floor.

"Benji?"…That voice.

"Who is this?" My voice dropped below zero degrees if you know what I'm saying.

"It's me, Haruhi…Listen…This is kind of…awkward…But can you come over? I need to talk to you." She asked just a little jittery.

"What's um…?" I coughed awkwardly. "What's going on?"

"I'll explain when you get here," Long dramatic pause, "Please get here?"

I huffed angrily. This is going to lead to a huge fight.

"…Yeah." I bit back a smart ass remark.

"Great! See you in ten." Then the line went silent…Perfect.

I tossed my pillow over my face and screamed as loud as my lungs would allow. When my voice began to get too high, I began to scream ever profanity I could think of.

"Benji!" a scolding voice called from down the hall.

"Sorry Dad!"

After a few minutes of deciding whether I should just stand up the whole operation, I hopped into my car.

My radio was on as loud as I could get it. "I don't want to do this!" I whined.

Maybe this is happening because I know I miss them. Maybe I'm in over my head all together… God I wish this would just end. I'd written it off as everyone else's fault aloud, but inside I completely blamed myself for flying off the handle. I want to end this fight, I really do, but when Haruhi completely snapped at Kyouya for trying to end things… I swore no one was allowed to get in my head again. Of course, just because no one else was allowed in, didn't mean that they would get out. And Kyouya…Oh my lord Kyouya…

His face, his voice, his very presence mocked me. Every time I caught a steady glimpse of him, I'd die just a little inside; knowing that I'd lost him forever.

I want this all to be over. But I don't want to fight with them. I know everything of what they'll say to me already…

Though I don't exactly know when I pulled up in front of Haruhi's home, but apparently I'd been crying there for a while. The sun was just setting across the horizon and the sky was a brilliant shade of orange, pink, yellow, and blue. I wiped a tear before it fell.

This was it…

I found the will to exit my car.

For the first time in so long…

I knocked on the door.

I'll be home…

In an instant I was on the ground of Haruhi's patio. No, I wasn't pushed.

I was under Liv and Haruhi. I mean that literally too.

"OH MY GOD!" sobbed Liv. At that exact minute, I began crying again.

"Oh my god!" I laughed hugging them back. "I'm so sorry!" Haruhi wept.

"No! Oh God no! It's my entire fault this happened!" I sat upright. They sat on their knees.

"Benji don't even say that! This should've ended so long ago." Liv tried to hide her ever noticeable tears.

I laughed once and lunged into a hug. They quickly complied. "Was Liv here when you called?" I asked. Her nod was barely noticeable if she wasn't constricted around me like a snake.

"I missed you guys!"

A decade long hug, some uncontrollable blubbering, and a lot of apologies, and we were finally laughing and on our feet again.

"Wow…This is so weird!" Haruhi laughed as she guided us inside her rather small apartment.

"I know! I'm so used to giving you guys mean looks." Liv shook her head.

Us three musketeers walked into Haruhi's room as she called, "Dad I have friends over!" receiving an "Okay dear!" from a rather shrill voice.

We plopped on her bed lazily sighing loudly. "Those were mean looks Liv!" Haruhi shoved her. The dark red head laughed.

"They weren't as mean as Benji's!"

Haruhi became falsely serious. "No one gives looks meaner than Benji." We all began to cackle like idiots. When we finally did stop Liv heaved like an asthmatic.

"You know what this means right?" Her voice was hollow.

A wide grin began to trace along my face. It felt strange to grin like this after barely smiling in so long.

"Oh yeah."

Haruhi glanced at me with worry. "…What?"

Liv elbowed me. "Not just her…You too."

I felt fear, anger, and excitement stir in my veins. "No."

"Benji, I mean it. This isn't getting better unless we all work to fix it." She sounded like my mother.

I sighed. "I…guess. Do you think everyone's gonna want to…?"

She nodded. "Maybe not at first but, this will clear up. The first step was the hardest."

I noted the look of realization that took hold of Haruhi. It made her freeze, soften, and then sigh dramatically.

"You know why I called you?" Her doe eyes locked on the ceiling.

"No…You never really explained." Liv commented.

"On my way to my first class…When I first turned down the hallway, I saw Hikaru, Kaoru, and Tamaki talking and laughing just like nothing ever happened. I knew today would be the best day for this." She paused to wipe her tired eyes, then continued, "I thought 'if they're talking like it's so normal…than it shouldn't be so different with us."

Lazy smiles stretched across our faces. "Wow…" I choked. By now, I was struggling not to cry AGAIN.

"This is going to end tomorrow." The sudden change in Haruhi's voice made me look over at her. She was looking harshly at the ceiling. One tear strolled down her face. I immediately knew why she was crying.

Liv and I shared the same thought as we comfortingly rubbed Haruhi's arm. "Don't worry…We'll think of something extraordinary and unnecessary to apologize." Liv smiled.

We laughed.

Okay so…I suppose I was wrong about what would happen…

Awe…YAY!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry that I added so many "…" it was for dramatic effect.

It was a very happy chapter… A nice relief from the emoness of the last one.

But I digress.

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Okay well, I have nothing more to add here…Oh scratch that!

I'm NOT beta'd as I've said many a time. I am NOT doing the lemon. It took some clever inward battles and some fighting with Emily, but I've decided to keep this fun and innocent.

Well…My definition of innocent anyway…

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